13 - To the Garden: The Gods' Arms (part 5)

Warning: this episode contains sensitive topics.In this episode, I’m picking up where I left off in the saga of my shamanic journey, a deeply personal story of being a “walker between worlds.” This journey has been one of immense pain, centered around the separation from my “split soul”—the other half of my being. I recount how a deceptive, bug-like fairy entity wooed my other half, leading to a period of abuse that resulted in her wings being shredded, a trauma I felt as if it were my own. The loss left me heartbroken and desperate, and after being turned away by the great Norse healer Mengloð, I felt I had nowhere to turn. Through it all, I confessed the entire bizarre ordeal to my husband, who stayed on the phone with me for hours, showing unwavering support even when I felt I was losing everything. This part of the story is about hitting rock bottom, the pain of a severed soul connection, and finding strength in unexpected places.