Anger, Grief, and Hope: Where Was God When My Son Died? A Q&A for Grieving Parents (Part 1)

Where was God when my child died?This is one of the most painful and honest questions a grieving parent can ask.When your child dies, it can feel impossible to reconcile that loss with a God who is supposed to be loving, present, and good. The silence, the shock, and the unanswered prayers can leave you wondering where God was when everything fell apart.My husband Josh and I answer your honest, raw questions and what it looks like a decade after loss. In This Episode, We Talk About:Confronting our anger with God (00:04:26)How Scripture speaks to moments of devastating lossLearning how to trust God again (00:10:28)How Jesus meets us in suffering, not after it’s cleaned up (00:12:33)Why God’s presence does not always look the way we expectHow to keep our faith through disappointment and struggles (00:17:45)This episode does not rush answers or attempt to explain away your pain. It creates space for honesty and gently points grieving hearts toward a God who is near to the brokenhearted, even when the pain feels unbearable.You are allowed to wrestle.You are allowed to question.And you are not alone in your grief.Additional Resources Mentioned in This PodcastWhere Was God When My Son Died?This episode pairs with our blog post. If listening feels too heavy right now, the blog offers the same encouragement in written form. You can read it slowly, pause often, and return to it when you have the strength.Infant Loss and Jesus’ StoryIn this post I talk about the story of losing my son, Jack. It offers a reflection on how Jesus understands deep loss personally, and how His love speaks to parents grieving the death of a baby or young child.Mad at God After the Loss of a ChildAn honest look at anger toward God after child loss, and why bringing that anger to Him is not a rejection of faith, but an act of trust.This Illness is for the Glory of GodJohn Piper's sermon on John 11 reminds us that even suffering we would never choose is not meaningless, and that God’s glory is revealed not through avoiding death, but through His presence and power within it.You don’t need to read all of these at once. They are here for you to return to when the questions resurface.About New Mercy MomsThis podcast is part of the ministry of New Mercy Moms, a Jesus-centered nonprofit serving mothers who have experienced the death of a child. We exist to offer biblically grounded hope, emotional honesty, and compassionate care for grieving hearts.A Gentle Next StepIf your questions feel louder than your prayers right now, you are not alone.We’ve created Bible prayers for bereaved parents, written specifically for mothers walking through child loss. These prayers are rooted in Scripture and meant to help you come to God honestly, even when faith feels fragile.Your pain will push you somewhere. Your pain needs to push you to God.