Daddy Issues

The poem Starts at 6:34  Daddy Issues To know you is to love you Or at least that’s the phrase Praises aloud for this day for the daddy’s that Didn’t leave their children to the rain Conversations accusations about him the fatherless son that doesn’t tie his tie straight sits outside on the porch all-day and doesn’t give his baby mama a break Her house is his crib now His nursing turns to mooching he doesn’t understand what he’s doing her backs breaks the kids are watching the cards fall from the spades table on every holiday that's when he’s around for the celebrations and photographs but the systemic systems will have the last laugh That’s what they wanted Broken households minds begin to fold like maturing proteins Mothers cling to their sons and push away their daughters and the system repeats the son leaves that nest to fall to that daughter that never got nurturing  from her father so whatever will do you do me I do you We’ve seen it a million times So when does it stop my thoughts on this situation is that this ideology wasn’t true It's Egpigenetic gerational transcendic" verbal seed planting saying that I didn’t see what was happing is a fallacy Keisha don’t have a daddy Meghan don’t have a daddy so why should I be any different? Questions My anger more so comes in thinking how hateful some people have been and how they didn’t realize how there tongue could offend me in my 10s You care how your actions could've molded me and you didn't give a shit you were more concerned about the benefit or inconvenience no one wants to deal with single mother of now two But to speak in front of children this way some of you should be more careful some of you should be ashamed your daddy probably wasn't shit so you wish you were fucking your son hating on a mother with a daughter of one I could've been a baby mom a shooter or just in the streets but I'm degreed and nft’d and people are confused Why because I didn’t  decide to fester in your rejection these aren't daddy issues these are daddy lessons In times like these we love to say it's a learned behavior in children with racism, and hatred Not to equate it but let's conflate it You mean to tell me that keisha didn't have a daddy Meghan didn't have a daddy her momma nor her momma either And we're all roaming broken in the ether Let me explain something Let me make it simple yes in a perfect world I would want ever black household to have a mother father three children and a dog but …. I know everything works against that and as a community, we know that trying to patch a wound we clammer to stop the bleeding overexplaining these reasons for absence they televising pain like it's ad sense Anecdotally I used to talked to a dude that didn't want kids because of what his father never did, didn't want to be a husband because he was fathering his kin bought his momma a house and paid his sisters tuitions* What's more father than that past the monetary watching cousins preparing weekly lunches I think the fatherless children get a bad rap most responsible we handles that all of this is just a projection from family members and extend making it seem like we're broken is sad and personally I'll never hold that bag I'm me I'm not your pain your agony a statistic an overly independent fatherless black women my thoughts are all over the place because I've thought about this for decades how can one miss what never existed