Does This Even Matter?

There’s a question I’ve been sitting with lately:Does this even matter?In this episode, I’m unpacking something that has been quietly driving a lot of my thoughts, emotions, and reactions over the past few weeks… my need to feel like I matter.After leaving my corporate role, I didn’t just lose a job. I lost the structure, the feedback, and the very visible ways I knew I was making an impact. And without that, I’ve found myself questioning everything. Am I doing enough? Am I behind? Is any of this actually working?But as I worked through a pretty emotional week, I realized something uncomfortable but important:Some of what I’ve been doing hasn’t been about showing up. It’s been about wanting to matter.And those are not the same thing.In this episode, I talk about:what social science research says about mattering and why it’s so critical during times of transitionhow losing built-in roles and structure can shake your sense of identity and worththe difference between showing up and seeking validationwhy we don’t actually get to decide if something we do “matters” to someone elseand how I’m shifting from chasing proof… to focusing on how I show upI also share a simple practice I’ve started to help ground myself in this season, and a few reflection questions you can sit with if you’re feeling something similar.If you’re in a season where things feel uncertain, unstructured, or hard to measure… this one is for you.You’re not behind.You’re just no longer being externally paced.