Episode 12: Experimentation: A Jealous God?

Oh dearest God of Play, I must confess – there is another God in my heart. I am not a fully devoted play worshipper. Who and what is this God, you ask? Are we related? I’m not quite sure, for this God doesn’t yet have a name. This God has initially appeared in my heart as a voice that says, “Play, you are not enough for me.” In many moments of my life I feel as though play, in all its grandeur, is still not enough. The beautiful, graceful, spontaneous immediacy of play, without fear or aversion – this is not enough. Sometimes play is there before me, or present right beside me with my friends, I have the possibility to engage in it, and I could will an engagement with it, but there is a stumbling block in front of my will. And this stumbling block is not just a loose puff of air, or some childhood trauma, or some power play. This stumbling block is a God. Some force that I worship deeply. The best name I can give for now is to call this God “experimentation.”