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EPISODE · May 13, 2026 · 39 MIN

I Didn't Have a Long Drinking History, I Had a Long Hell History - AA Speaker - Pasha R.

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Pasha used to hide in a closet dreaming of Vermont because she thought God was there, then found out years later that the God she was looking for had been reaching her through AA. We just launched our new Episodes page — search hundreds of AA speaker meetings by topic, speaker, or step ☀️  Sober Sunrise Episode Archive Check out our lighthearted sober t-shirts and help support the channel🧡 Sober Sunrise Merch Join the free Sober Sunrise Newsletter for the week’s speaker episodes, channel updates, and a few extra AA happenings. ☀️   Weekly Newsletter Pasha opens this talk scared in a bathroom, trying to calm herself down before stepping in front of the room, then reaches back to the child who hid in a closet and dreamed of Vermont as a place where God might be waiting. She thought she belonged in Al-Anon, landed in treatment, and ended up in a Fort Lauderdale halfway house where her bed had burned before she arrived and rain hit the couch she slept on. Through structure, sponsorship, the Big Book, a Third Step prayer on the beach, motherhood, nursing, and the slow work of becoming herself, Pasha shares how AA gave her the key to the prison she had been living in. Pasha R. from Hinesburg, VT speaking at Florida Roundup in Miami Beach, FL - March 18th 1993 Music: Deep by KaizanBlu  

Pasha used to hide in a closet dreaming of Vermont because she thought God was there, then found out years later that the God she was looking for had been reaching her through AA. We just launched our new Episodes page — search hundreds of AA speaker meetings by topic, speaker, or step ☀️  Sober Sunrise Episode Archive Check out our lighthearted sober t-shirts and help support the channel🧡 Sober Sunrise Merch Join the free Sober Sunrise Newsletter for the week’s speaker episodes, channel updates, and a few extra AA happenings. ☀️   Weekly Newsletter Pasha opens this talk scared in a bathroom, trying to calm herself down before stepping in front of the room, then reaches back to the child who hid in a closet and dreamed of Vermont as a place where God might be waiting. She thought she belonged in Al-Anon, landed in treatment, and ended up in a Fort Lauderdale halfway house where her bed had burned before she arrived and rain hit the couch she slept on. Through structure, sponsorship, the Big Book, a Third Step prayer on the beach, motherhood, nursing, and the slow work of becoming herself, Pasha shares how AA gave her the key to the prison she had been living in. Pasha R. from Hinesburg, VT speaking at Florida Roundup in Miami Beach, FL - March 18th 1993Music: Deep by KaizanBlu

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