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Brief summary of my intentions , confessions and all around putting out my discretions

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Brief summary of my intentions , confessions and all around putting out my discretions

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I was never really good at these things, like especially filling out the bio and those stupid dating app, right? I'm just a typical woman in the world trying to figure out honestly, probably the meaning of more so of the meaning of life and the things are supposed to count in it. Although I already know what does kind of count, well, does count versus, you know, it doesn't. I guess I'm just trying to get into my place in it if that makes sense. I have done some recent soul searching doing a lot of things, a lot of thinking, reflecting on a lot of the things I've been through in life. And so I've been told, I'm through numerous occasions that I should totally write a book, and not a biography, if you will, of my life because of the shit that I have managed to get myself in and out of, and I use it so much as I'm going to write a book, I'm not to fabricate stuff, like, to make it interesting for people to be interested. Now that I look at it, I'm like, wow, like, the sad part is I don't. So this is mostly like a tell-all lesbian confession slash, you know, just maybe y'all can learn off it too. I don't know, you know, maybe I can learn as I speak through it. I tend to figure out more things in my life as I speak on it. So this is kind of why I'm doing this too. I'm about to express things that I've never set out loud. I plan on just giving the raw detail of everything. Maybe that'll help me pinpoint to, you know, the wives still, in certain situations that you'll probably see from, you know, the past that are still kind of lingering in the future. You know, maybe I'll notice it too, you know, this isn't in any way, also trying to defamate anybody's character, more or less say anybody's a liar, say somebody's bad at parenting anything of that nature. This is just a view of my life through my eyes, you know, and the situations that I've got into with the people involved, and how it was viewed from me, like, you know, I can't say that they were wrong sometimes, some of the most of them are kidding. It's just like my perception. I like to think I'm a pretty logical thinker in the sense of, I, well, after my 20s, I got to say, you'll see, you know, maybe some of you will just get a kick out of it, you know, it's funny now, wasn't obviously funny at the time. But, you know, I'm going to go over pretty much the main, big pivotal moments in my life, if you will, that probably, the reasonings of war and why I am now, right? I will give a brief detail of where I am now. I am currently a young, lucky, an elephant in South Texas, a single, I had a lot of, a central relationships, had a few that did go somewhere just didn't last too long, hoping that with this podcast I can figure out when I hear it, where I went wrong, okay? I do tend to go after the emotional available still, even now, but other than that, yeah, operations, traveling manager, which helps, you know, someone young and, you know, single like me, you know, it's on the road, no children, no ex-girlfriend with children that I've never mind or any of that sort. You know, and hopefully, like, if people do listen, you know, you have questions, feel free, you know, to, I don't know how this really kind of works, you know, reach out, things like that I will only give what I can say from experience or what I've seen, you know, and what I've known, I'm not, anyway, trying to say, I'm a diagnosed anything of anything of that sort, either. I just speak from experience, I'm pretty self-insuitive, I like to think that I'm pretty smart. I hear that I'm very intelligent, maybe, maybe I'll believe that, I'm thinking, it's getting my love life in order, that's the issue right now, and that's where I'm at, that cross road, but you know, I did, I did, like I said, some recent soul searching, I drove a cross country, but myself, just to kind of regroup and, you know, figure out a lot of things that drove me to where I was at that current moment, because I couldn't tell you. But enough about that, it's going to, it's a crazy ship that I got managed to get myself into, and managed to wheeze all my way out of, you know, nothing too crazy like I've gone somebody and like to come up now, I've never just simply like that, I just, you know, I have, that myself and some pretty interesting situations that I'm surprised I didn't end up, you know, in jail, but unfortunately, I might have saw my friends do, and it goes from the people closest to me, going to prison for something that was so, we thought was, like, would have never happened in something you would thought, think was, was small, and it wasn't, I'm going to go through a marriage that I had, the adultery and infidelity in that, getting sent to one of the most beautiful areas of the world and getting kicked off a base, it's just, you know, it, it, oh, it's good and, it all would good intentions, of course. The best way I can describe it is there is a song by a Metallica, it's called Unforgiven, one of my favorite songs by them, I also want my favorite bands, if you have not seen them perform, if they ever come through to your city, you please make sure that you see them, they are definitely performers, they are definitely amazing, they are as a reason, you, you even know Metallica, even if you don't know Metallica, if that makes sense, but it's called Unforgiven and there's a part in the song that says, what I have felt and what I have known has never shined through in what I've shown. I can't think of more true words in my life because what I portrayed was far beyond the woman inside and I portrayed something, I tell you, I was quite the character, at least now a more honest one, you know, we'll get into the depths of that, hopefully this helped somebody, maybe he even helped me, I don't know, like, I honestly the purpose of this, like I've just been told numerous times that I have a story share and maybe I do, you know, maybe this helped me, is this going to you know, get back myself back together with that, you know, I used to be the biggest social butterfly and now I'm a, I tend to self-saclute, but I just got to some place right now and what are you going to do? You're going to go, you know, I'm about to take this part in spot and boss how to get to, anyway, um, yeah, hopefully you all stay tuned and we can go through that and whatnot, let me know, but he's just there and I may be able to, and what he's going to do, and he's going to get out of there.

[0:02] I was never really good at these things, like especially filling out the bio and [0:12] those stupid dating app, right? [0:15] I'm just a typical woman in the world trying to figure out honestly, probably the meaning [0:25] of more so of the meaning of life and the things are supposed to count in it. [0:32] Although I already know what does kind of count, well, does count versus, you know, it doesn't. [0:39] I guess I'm just trying to get into my place in it if that makes sense. [0:45] I have done some recent soul searching doing a lot of things, a lot of thinking, reflecting [0:51] on a lot of the things I've been through in life. [0:58] And so I've been told, I'm through numerous occasions that I should totally write a book, [0:66] and not a biography, if you will, of my life because of the shit that I have managed [0:74] to get myself in and out of, and I use it so much as I'm going to write a book, I'm not [0:81] to fabricate stuff, like, to make it interesting for people to be interested. [0:86] Now that I look at it, I'm like, wow, like, the sad part is I don't. [0:93] So this is mostly like a tell-all lesbian confession slash, you know, just maybe y'all [1:03] can learn off it too. [1:04] I don't know, you know, maybe I can learn as I speak through it. [1:07] I tend to figure out more things in my life as I speak on it. [1:13] So this is kind of why I'm doing this too. [1:15] I'm about to express things that I've never set out loud. [1:18] I plan on just giving the raw detail of everything. [1:25] Maybe that'll help me pinpoint to, you know, the wives still, in certain situations that [1:32] you'll probably see from, you know, the past that are still kind of lingering in the future. [1:38] You know, maybe I'll notice it too, you know, this isn't in any way, also trying to [1:45] defamate anybody's character, more or less say anybody's a liar, say somebody's bad at [1:53] parenting anything of that nature. [1:55] This is just a view of my life through my eyes, you know, and the situations that I've [1:63] got into with the people involved, and how it was viewed from me, like, you know, [1:71] I can't say that they were wrong sometimes, some of the most of them are kidding. [1:78] It's just like my perception. [1:80] I like to think I'm a pretty logical thinker in the sense of, I, well, after my 20s, I got [1:88] to say, you'll see, you know, maybe some of you will just get a kick out of it, you know, [1:95] it's funny now, wasn't obviously funny at the time. [1:99] But, you know, I'm going to go over pretty much the main, big pivotal moments in my life, [2:06] if you will, that probably, the reasonings of war and why I am now, right? [2:15] I will give a brief detail of where I am now. [2:20] I am currently a young, lucky, an elephant in South Texas, a single, I had a lot of, a central [2:30] relationships, had a few that did go somewhere just didn't last too long, hoping that [2:36] with this podcast I can figure out when I hear it, where I went wrong, okay? [2:43] I do tend to go after the emotional available still, even now, but other than that, yeah, [2:52] operations, traveling manager, which helps, you know, someone young and, you know, single [2:56] like me, you know, it's on the road, no children, no ex-girlfriend with children that I've [2:63] never mind or any of that sort. [2:68] You know, and hopefully, like, if people do listen, you know, you have questions, feel free, [2:73] you know, to, I don't know how this really kind of works, you know, reach out, things like [2:76] that I will only give what I can say from experience or what I've seen, you know, and [2:83] what I've known, I'm not, anyway, trying to say, I'm a diagnosed anything of anything [2:91] of that sort, either. [2:92] I just speak from experience, I'm pretty self-insuitive, I like to think that I'm pretty smart. [3:03] I hear that I'm very intelligent, maybe, maybe I'll believe that, I'm thinking, it's getting [3:15] my love life in order, that's the issue right now, and that's where I'm at, that cross road, [3:19] but you know, I did, I did, like I said, some recent soul searching, I drove a cross country, [3:24] but myself, just to kind of regroup and, you know, figure out a lot of things that drove me [3:32] to where I was at that current moment, because I couldn't tell you. [3:36] But enough about that, it's going to, it's a crazy ship that I got managed to get myself into, [3:44] and managed to wheeze all my way out of, you know, nothing too crazy like I've gone somebody [3:49] and like to come up now, I've never just simply like that, I just, you know, I have, that [3:55] myself and some pretty interesting situations that I'm surprised I didn't end up, you know, [3:59] in jail, but unfortunately, I might have saw my friends do, and it goes from the people closest [3:64] to me, going to prison for something that was so, we thought was, like, would have never [3:70] happened in something you would thought, think was, was small, and it wasn't, I'm going to go through [3:76] a marriage that I had, the adultery and infidelity in that, getting sent to one of the most [3:83] beautiful areas of the world and getting kicked off a base, it's just, you know, it, it, oh, it's good [3:90] and, it all would good intentions, of course. The best way I can describe it is there is a song [3:99] by a Metallica, it's called Unforgiven, one of my favorite songs by them, I also want [4:04] my favorite bands, if you have not seen them perform, if they ever come through to your city, [4:08] you please make sure that you see them, they are definitely performers, they are definitely [4:12] amazing, they are as a reason, you, you even know Metallica, even if you don't know Metallica, [4:21] if that makes sense, but it's called Unforgiven and there's a part in the song that says, [4:28] what I have felt and what I have known has never shined through in what I've shown. I can't [4:39] think of more true words in my life because what I portrayed was far beyond the woman inside [4:51] and I portrayed something, I tell you, I was quite the character, at least now a more honest one, [4:63] you know, we'll get into the depths of that, hopefully this helped somebody, maybe he even helped [4:72] me, I don't know, like, I honestly the purpose of this, like I've just been told numerous times [4:77] that I have a story share and maybe I do, you know, maybe this helped me, is this going to [4:86] you know, get back myself back together with that, you know, I used to be the biggest social butterfly [4:95] and now I'm a, I tend to self-saclute, but I just got to some place right now and what are you [5:04] going to do? You're going to go, you know, I'm about to take this part in spot and boss how to get to, [5:14] anyway, um, yeah, hopefully you all stay tuned and we can go through that and whatnot, let me know, [5:30] but he's just there and I may be able to, and what he's going to do, and he's going to get out of [5:39] there.