it doesn't suit you

When this other part of yourself – this other, deeper, much older part of yourself (I won’t call it wiser, because its wisdom does not relate to this world at all, but to that of the dead) – looks up and up and through its depth of time toward the self, this “person” so-called, who walks the earth, and sees how much of yourself you’ve spent distracted with empty longing, longing after somebody, somebody always seemingly just out of reach, in fixating on this other person – some shimmering, glorious, erotic body or, much worse, some idea of the comfort or solace they could provide you, as if you could somehow be more a part of this world of the living through them – and it tells you, because this is the only wisdom it can share with you in this moment: This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit briancshort.substack.com