Joey Tremblay Thought 10

My name is Joey Tremblay and this is thought #10. You know, the older I get the harder it is for me to be an actor. To perform in front of an audience.  I'm not sure why, part of it is because it is harder and harder to memorize lines at my age, and that is terrifying to think to go in front of an audience…. But I think the other part of it is, acting for me, was always an instinctual, fearless act, in that I just propelled myself by going into the unknown and not reallyknowing what I was doing, not really relying on any kind of technique that I learned in theatre school…but really relying on my intuition as I propelled forward in performance.  And you know the older you get the less sort of naïve fearlessness, maybe stupidity that I have. I always, sort of, in the middle of performing, look at myself and go, "oh my god you suck, you don't have any technique, you spent your whole life drawing on the gas tank of instinct and your primal self and there's none of that left. You don't have technique to draw on."  So it's so frightening for me to go in front of an audience and hear that self-criticism running through a performance. So I just kind of avoid it.  I wish I was 25 again, and fearless and naïve and just doing it because I was stupid.