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EPISODE · May 24, 2026 · 8 MIN

Losing My Only Savior

from On This Side of the Rainbow · host Amy

Send us Fan MailIn this deeply personal episode, I share the heartbreaking experience of losing the one friend who helped me survive some of the darkest years of my life. While struggling inside a narcissistic abusive relationship, he was the person who always reminded me of my worth when I could no longer see it myself. From the days I was homeless and emotionally broken to the moments I felt completely lost, he was my safe place — the one person who never stopped believing in me.Only after his passing did I fully realize how much of my strength came from his presence. And now I am left carrying the weight of one painful question: did he ever read my final message before he died?This episode explores grief, emotional abuse, trauma bonds, self-worth, and the painful clarity that often arrives after loss. It is a reflection on survival, healing, and learning to finally choose yourself after spending years abandoning your own needs for people incapable of loving you properly.If you have ever lost someone who carried you through your darkest moments, this episode is for you.Music Credit:“Emotional Ambient Piano” by UniqueMusicProvided by Pixabay Musichttps://pixabay.com/music/ambient-emotional-ambient-cinematic-piano-115913/Support the showRead More Here at www.rubyohsosweet.com 

Send us Fan Mail In this deeply personal episode, I share the heartbreaking experience of losing the one friend who helped me survive some of the darkest years of my life. While struggling inside a narcissistic abusive relationship, he was the person who always reminded me of my worth when I could no longer see it myself. From the days I was homeless and emotionally broken to the moments I felt completely lost, he was my safe place — the one person who never stopped believing in me. Only aft...

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