Patrice Evra: Learning How To Cry Saved My Life - Episodio exclusivo para mecenas

me playing was it was just a dream growing up in the family 24% sister one breast chicken was for three days growing up in the street you need to survive now when i have those images in my head i could hear him trying to touch me and touching himself at the same time next to the bed you know i was even attaching my pyjama with my shoelaces because to make sure like he can't put it down and one day he did and i was just like terrorized so that's the things i grew up with like you know i can't cry for me crying was a sign of weakness when i do a video and i see a comment someone say oh patrice my dad passed away i watch one of your video and i smile thank you this is more important for me than win the championship primarily i'm not perfect and i don't want to be perfect i want to be me patrice ever i've just sat here with him for an hour and a half and at the very end of the conversation he said something which i think is the perfect description of the man he referred to himself as an iceberg i followed him for almost two decades and he was to me this football icon this tough guy this defender this champion but as he says in this conversation the part of the iceberg that i never got to see was the most compelling was the most heartbreaking and was the most interesting he grew up in a rough part of france with 24 brothers and sisters he was sexually abused by his head teacher his brother a drug addict overdosed and died his mother raised him in total poverty to the point where he stole his food his shoes and his entertainment he endured an early upbringing that you would never wish on any child an enemy or anyone at all in any circumstances ever and he hid it all he hid it all for his entire life and only recently has he found it within himself after very personal conversations with his mother to share it with the world and only today on this podcast has he decided to share some of those heartbreaking details after watching him on tv for almost two decades i thought i knew patrice ever this comedian football champion funny guy happy guy i was wrong all i knew was the tip of the iceberg so without further ado i'm stephen bartlett and i hope nobody's listening but if you are then please keep this yourself i've sat here with a lot of guests and sometimes i feel obliged to start with their childhoods because it seems like the foundation of most people specifically successful people tends to be the case that the things they go through an early age especially with my sort of little background in childhood psychology tend to shape them the most but when i read your story in your book that's just come out um having watched you on screen as a manchester united fan for many many decades and seen subsequently the guy you were on instagram the hilarious entertaining person i never ever would have guessed ever that that was your upbringing that was your childhood i would have guessed by the person i came to know on screen by the person that i watched on instagram i would have guessed the opposite take me back to before you were 10 years old because i know that 10 years old was a really pivotal moment in your life because your father left yeah what was my fight before 10 he was an happy happy child a lot of people inside the house sometimes you have to make sure like you're ready when mom say the food is ready uh he was like sleeping with two of my siblings in the same bed a single bed and you know two was sleeping that way and one on that way sometimes he was like some smilly feet but we need space and he wasn't all about like sharing but i will tell you something i was happy you know even if i was like begging in front of shop you know to buy a sandwich i couldn't say in that time i wasn't happy i was like the most happy child but it was like tough and maybe sometimes i was just unconscious but of course i think when my dad left that's when i was like okay i'm not scared of anyone in this house so now i have to grow up on my own and that's when i was like i would say more close to the street because when my dad was here you know just when i was saying like that i want to go and play outside with my friend he was like did you have you done your homework even i swear even if i did my own work i was scared to say yes so when you say yes to him he was like okay bring me your your book and i remember he was like okay which lesson you have to learn tomorrow and i was like doing the lesson perfectly and he was going to the first page of the book and saying like okay tell me about this and i couldn't remember i was like yeah but that we did this at the beginning you know this is like okay when you learn your full book then you will be able to go outside so my dad when he was at home we didn't miss anything you know we have food on the table everything was perfect i had like a big screen tv i remember we are one of the first family in where i grew up in my school to have that big screen and all my friends they come so i i couldn't i would never complain when my dad was here he did his job perfectly but the only thing you know my dad uh teach me crying is a weakness so when he was like punishing someone and you cry that's when you're gonna you're gonna beat you even more so that's the things i grew up with like you know i can't cry that's when we can talk about that toxic masculinity they understand crying is normal but for me crying you