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EPISODE · May 19, 2026 · 53 MIN

🎙️ S2 E9: How We Nearly Lost Everything – And Built Something Better

from Awesomely Off-Topic: Books, Brands, Business and Everything Else We’re Not Supposed to Say Out Loud · host Taz Thornton and Asha Clearwater

Some stories sound dramatic until you have lived them. We’re talking about the moments that almost broke us as a couple and the very real ways stress can turn love into a battleground: paranoia, spiralling thoughts, silence that feels safer than honesty, and the gut-wrenching fear that the person you trust most might leave. We share a turning point on a trip to Vancouver, how suspicion escalated into searching for “evidence”, and why one badly handled truth can echo for years even when nothing happened. We also go behind the scenes of building a business together, watching it fly, and then feeling it crack under burnout, overwhelm, perimenopause, and ADHD realisations. We explain what it looks like when one partner can no longer keep up, how over-helping can accidentally disable someone, and why we made the terrifying decision to sack our biggest paying clients to protect health and keep the business alive. Along the way we touch on MS relapse, grief, pet loss, intimacy drying up under pressure, and the financial shock that can follow when you are simply trying to survive. This is a conversation about trust, long-term relationships, mental health, and the unromantic mechanics of staying together: counselling, evidence-checking, brutal honesty, and choosing to talk when you’d rather bolt. If you’re navigating jealousy, menopause changes, neurodiversity, business partnership strain, or the feeling that the hard times are starting to outweigh the good, we hope you leave with steadier ground under your feet. Subscribe, share with someone who needs it, and leave us a review if this helped.Something you’d love us to know? Send us a message - we’d love to hear from you. Support the show✨ Unfiltered. Unedited. Awesomely Off-Topic. New episodes every Tuesday.Follow us on Instagram for more rants, rambles and random brilliance: 👋  @AwesomelyOffTopic, plus our co-hosts @thetazthornton + @ashaclearwater

Some stories sound dramatic until you have lived them. We’re talking about the moments that almost broke us as a couple and the very real ways stress can turn love into a battleground: paranoia, spiralling thoughts, silence that feels safer than honesty, and the gut-wrenching fear that the person you trust most might leave. We share a turning point on a trip to Vancouver, how suspicion escalated into searching for “evidence”, and why one badly handled truth can echo for years even when nothin...

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