the innumerable harms to the transparent

Did that mean that it was real? The temptation to believe as much is strong. But looked at more carefully, it appears still another potential trap that I could easily be caught in, and therefore defeat further development, deciding it must be so. No less a trap is the concomitant impulse toward disbelief – to say that this was nothing but my fantasy, supplied with enough apparent evidence to convince me, if I want to be convinced. I am being challenged to hold the ambiguity of deep uncertainty, yet to face the very real effects of emotional trauma, having found as a medium for doing so – perhaps having been pointed toward – the exploration of sound. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit briancshort.substack.com