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I mean, I know where you were. You were on a family trip. Why not this time? Like I said, I knew where you were.
I knew you were gone. Why would that? Why didn't you do your podcast while I went away? Space.
Time to tell them. What's happening? What's going on? We simply didn't have enough room.
I have so much to say. So much to say. I mean, if we're tracking Emily. Oh.
Oh. Yes. What's the real world? What's really going on?
I'm happy to get it. Tell me all about it. Okay. Now.
Should I go? Okay. Go. I do.
I have so much to say. So much to say. Welcome to Ron Prussians, everyone. Okay.
Carry on. You do. Carry on for a while. You know.
And don't forget about us next time. Do what you need to do. Love you. Oh my gosh.
Well, it's good to be back. It's good to be back recording the pod with you. I definitely missed it. Lou and I were in Los Angeles for a week.
It was our kids' spring break. And so some people go to Florida. Some people go up to Maine around here. And we went back to LA for a week and stayed in our old neighborhood of Silver Lake.
Yes, we did. I just want to get this out of the way. I have my hair in my face, not because I'm a pretentious asshole. I'm just hiding my face again because I'm so red.
Yeah. Even even presenting a little red lately. I had a for those watching at home or watching us at home. Yeah.
My face is super red. I had a shot of espresso about 45 minutes ago. Anyway, we went to Los Angeles because that's- And you also got a little sunburned. I did.
I did. It's kind of a double whammy and I'm feeling self-conscious. Aww. I'm not above it.
It's okay. I'm hurt up. We went to Los Angeles because that's what we do. Yep.
We like to go back there and it's kind of like, you know, all some people go, oh, we're snowbirds. And we go to Florida every year. We go to Arizona. It's like our second home.
Well, I'll just say it. LA's like my second home. Yeah. It was our first home.
What was that? I don't know. It was a little ch- Anyway. Yeah.
It was a glitch. It was a glitch. That would be called a glitch. I like that song by Taylor Swift by the way, glitch.
Oh, there's one called glitch on the new record. It's on midnight. I think the extended thing. Yeah.
Okay. Any- Moving on. I'm on a Taylor talk too. Yeah.
Well, we'll just go anyway. Yeah. So where was I? Now Taylor just blew it out of my mind.
Oh, well, so why didn't we do? Why have we been? Why haven't we recorded the podcast now? We were going to the podcast now.
Like we have recorded previously. That's right. I took the microphones. Yes.
You took half the suitcase you were sharing with me. I took the seats with all of this podcast paraphernalia. Yep. We got there and we just never pulled it out because we didn't have room for it.
Yeah. We need a little bit of privacy. We do. It's true.
And I kind of knew immediately upon entering our Airbnb, which we can talk more about. We can talk more about our Airbnb. We stayed in an Airbnb in Silver Lake, like right off of Sunset and right near Cafe Stella. That's all I'll say.
Walking distance from the places that both you and I lived. Yes. Walking distance to my previous home for many years and lose previous homes. Nice steep staircase.
I could walk a very steep staircase right to my street. Yes. Yes. Where you live from.
What do they name that hill? They only seem to have names. There's Franklin Hills, which we could see from our Airbnb. And then there's the Hill.
The next hill going east was the one that both you and I lived on. And then there's a Hill after that. And then there's a Hill after that. And then there's Dr.
Stadium on another Hill. Yes. Anyway. Upon entering the home, we realized there was literally no privacy because even if Lou and I for us to do.
For you and me. Yeah. To do the podcast. To sit down with two microphones.
Right. And headphones on to like block out noise and to block that out would have also been kind of unsafe because the Airbnb had a pool. It had a little cute pool like that. The guy tucked into his tiny yard.
I mean, it was like he'd used every little inch of that. And it was just concrete. It wasn't like grass. There was no grass or anything.
It was just sort of like his concrete backyard that he plunked a cool little pool in. Cool pool. Grateful. Amazing.
Cold. Cold. It was a saltwater pool. So it's not heated and it still is, you know, believe it or not, LA does have seasons and it was kind of like spring there still too.
Just like here. So cooler. So cooler side. And the house also had all these sliding pocket doors, which I love a pocket door.
That's great. That being said, these had like huge gaps like underneath that they didn't like they weren't like flush with the floor or anything. So there's a lot of like air pockets and I couldn't have had my headphones on and is what if Izzy fell in the pool? I don't.
Well, she would swim to the side because she can swim now. But nonetheless, you're absolutely we had we I was sleeping. Kids would have been hovering listening to every little thing you say. They would.
They already think they were talking about them all the time. Anyway, this would just be like, hey, we're going to go put on headphones and talking to microphones about you because they think we're always talking about them. We generally are. Of course.
I mean, what parents are not. I mean, that's that's our job. When they come up to me, either of them Izzy or Hendricks. You guys are talking about me.
It's like, yeah, I love your response. Your response is, of course we are. What else are we going to talk about? So I was I was in a bedroom.
Parents are lame. You are our full time job. We were going to constantly figure you out and help. And yeah, it's like we are we are totally talking about you.
We are obsessed with you. So I was in a I was sharing a bedroom with Hendricks. You were sharing a bedroom with Izzy. There was one kind of living room and a small dining room and a small kitchen and the outdoor in the pool.
There was no there was no space for you and I to sit and talk. And when that realization hit me, when I realized that we weren't going to do the podcast, as we do 51 weeks out of the year, or we did last year, I was like, I actually went, I sort of disengaged from podcast mode. And I started to have what can only be described as a vacation, which I don't know. You don't know me that well, but I'm not really of I don't vacate very often.
No, you don't usually take any time off. Even whenever we've done any sort of family trip back to LA or wherever, you are always working, like always doing something. And the last two times you and I both have done live podcast things or were recording when we're there or you're doing a solo show or it's tagged onto a dino show or you know, it's just there's or you're like, oh, someone's calling me from Italy to do an interview at four o'clock on zoom while we're on vacation. What?
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Wow. So we were like, we were just kind of like in our little family zone for eight full days. That's true. We did.
We were there for the full spring break. We were like, no fucking around. We're just plunking our asses there. And you know, we had thought about doing some work things while we were there because we always do it seemed logical.
But yeah, like when we got there, all of a sudden it just was kind of like, no, I have to say, I needed the break to be pretty relentless. Also where we were saying it has such sentimental weight to us. Not just like sentiment, but the memories that live in those hills where we were, where we were walking and where places that we walked, you know, over 20 years ago. For sure.
As younger versions of ourselves. Not knowing each other or knowing each other or like majority of the time had no idea. It was like there were so many things for me to personally sift through. Yeah.
On Sunday. So we arrived on Saturday. On Sunday, we, Hendricks and I, after we had gone, we went to this really comfort food Mexican place called Casico Campo, which is, you know, a Hyperion. We ate both then numerous times.
So it was nice to go back. Yes. And then after that, Hendricks and I took off and walked the staircase up the hill. Yes.
There's stairs and some really stairs. There's probably some other one. Ah, there's a, ah, I can't remember the name of the street. I should have done my research.
Oh, there's different stairs, but the thing of that, Steve. We're track man. It's just coming right now. Just interject the name of the street that is associated with these stairs that would be appreciated.
Happy to help the land of street is stairs. Land of street is sent in the hill and become stairs. Those are the ones you will also known as as the steps. The Silver Lake stairs are really interesting and good for your glutes.
Yeah. So that was one adventure going upstairs. Yeah. The next area on Monday.
Oh my gosh. Monday. This was, this was our only kind of scheduled thing I did. Well, it was, I was a little surprised at first.
Adele, she scheduled us to go horseback riding on Griffith Park. Yes. Which meant driving to the end of, of, of Beachwood Canyon Drive, is that it? Yeah.
You go all the way underneath the Hollywood sign. You go all the way to the end and then there's this big, and it'd been raining quite a bit when we got there. And by the way, driving Beachwood Canyon all the way to the end is super cool. And what was the name of that area right that you enter there?
Hollywood, Hollywood land. Yes. It's amazing. It's a little sign and everything is so cool.
Originally the Hollywood sign was Hollywood land because it was like this little housing development that they built there. Probably in the 30s. Sure. Help me out.
They began building Hollywood land in the 20th. So yeah. So, but there's at the top of this, this road of the drive, it just sort of dead ends in this horse ranch. Mm hmm.
And Adele, she said, I want to go horseback riding. And my first impulse was like, I seized up because I fear a lot of things, but I think they're reasonable fears. I do fear riding horses at my advanced age because they will throw you. They can.
They can kick you. They can. They can. I was thrown from a horse when I was young.
They just fall off if they bounced too fast. I was thrown off a horse when I was young. But it didn't deter me from riding. I remember I got back up and got right on that horse.
I loved it. I mean, I really liked the few times that I did horseback ride as a kid. And when I said kid, I mean like it is his age. Mm hmm.
I really enjoyed it. So I was not really like that didn't. That's not why I'm afraid of riding horses. I'm just.
Adult here. I'm fragile. Yeah. I mean, you just reached to pull this curtain from behind you.
I literally just reached behind me guys. And I went to yank this curtain shut before we record it because it was too bright on me. And I have now strained my arm. Yeah.
And I may need to do some repair work after this podcast. And I shattered my collarbone within the last few years. I've had a hernia. You just can't.
I'm thinking like if I get thrown from a horse, it's going to something's going to break. It's not going to break. We have learned that like after 40, there's so many things you should never do. I know you were complaining.
You're like, Oh, I'm like, why did you? Why did I bother closing that curtain? I know. That was really dumb of me.
I'm sorry. So anyway, but yeah, so you were I think that was a very healthy. But I was like, but I kept it. I tapped it down.
Like she wants to do this. I'm not going to lead with the fear. I'm going to let this happen. I'm going to get on the horse.
I'm going to do it. Okay. We're going to do it. So leading up to it, I was suppressing my fears.
Well, is he asked to ride a horse, by the way? That's why I scheduled it. A wizard of information. Domestic information that I live in day to day.
Well, it's a little tidbit there. So I was surprised. Okay. And but also like, you know, and I can't say, honestly.
I doubt I at any point was I excited. I knew that I was going to be enduring this. Yeah, you were so quiet. You had this.
I was just like holding on. I'm like, don't be a dick. Don't let on that you are going to simply endure this ride. Don't.
Don't let on. And I kind of don't want to know if I did. I'm sure I did in some way. I'm sure I betrayed what I was thinking in my anxiety.
But the day before you were like, I can't remember, I was like, wait a minute, horseback riding is dangerous, I can't remember what made you. What made you go? Because they made me sign the waivers. Yes, the waiver, that was so fucking funny.
The waivers came through and I just broke out into like a cold sweat and I was like, holy shit, this is a terrible idea, what am I doing? I was like, that was fucking killer. You were like, they had this line in there that said riding horses is inherently dangerous. And I'm like, Christ, no, I can't do, oh, spam call, don't worry guys, I'm gonna take care of that.
But yes, I was like inherently dangerous. I can't put my child in my steps on a horse, this is wrong, I cannot do this. You said to me, you're like, and then it was like, there I had my in, I had my in, like do I take that in and go, well yeah it is, I told you, I'm afraid. I was like, hold on, and I was like, nope.
And I think my message at that point too, was like, don't worry, it's gonna be okay. You did. Yes. Yes.
And in fact, you were like almost blazae. I'm not sure what about that. You were just like, you were like, of course it's an inherently dangerous, but it's gonna be fine, it's gonna be totally fine. Nothing's gonna happen, it's gonna be totally great.
And I'm like, it is, it's gonna be totally great. And you're like, yeah, it's gonna be awesome. We're gonna go, we're gonna horseback ride, and I'm sitting there sweating, and I'm privately going, oh no, what if I hurt my family? And this is like, and what if I'm leading them to their like, death on the horse?
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We might have to, because we're running out of time. No, we're not, we got all the time in the fucking world. We missed it. I'm gonna pick up Hendricks in like 10 minutes.
Oh dear God, are you serious? Yes. Oh fuck. Okay, so anyway, school's done real soon.
Basically, we get there and this is just one of those things where you have to take in the experience. You have to go like, oh, I'm learning as I go, because no one there like greeted us. You know, they were like, hi, how's it going? Welcome to da, da, da.
And you know, you stand over here and you go over here and whatever, it's like you just go up there, it had rained the two previous days. Super muddy. So it was so muddy, so muddy. And you don't know if your foot is sinking into mud, or a new or a kiss, all of the above.
And all of the above. Definitely all of the above. So I was really grateful that we all were fairly reasonably dressed for this occasion, which is like, you know, jeans, sneakers, whatnot. Yeah, I wore like my most enemy denim.
Yeah, yeah. And so you get up there and I just kind of like, find my way to the office or something and then I had to sign one more waiver and I'm like, oh God. And then some other people are kind of wandering around. Like again, there's no instruction.
So we're just sort of like meandering about. And then these other two women come like near the end who are also part of our ride. It's a group. You know, you're just signing up for an hour of horseback riding.
So whoever's going to be there, right? And these two women, they were dressed not appropriately for the ride, but you know, they made it. They made it and they did it. But one of them had like full on platform shoes on, like a little white crop top.
Again, this was mud, you guys, shit and mud. And this was not like some she-shey, like you're thinking LA glam horse ranch, no. It was like dirty, muddy. The barn was falling apart.
They were also incessantly self-y. The women obsessively took their hand. Their hand was projected almost the whole time in front of them. Try not helmets.
Yes, they did it from that helmet. Signing the labor. Yeah, I'm signing my labor way. And I just want to add like, here's the thing.
I've been kind of dreading this moment. And then we got there like, and nothing that I saw was alleviating any of my. Oh, so I just probably didn't feel any better. Because I looked out and there's just a bunch of horses.
A lot of horses. A lot of horses. A lot of horses. Yeah.
I'll just don't fucking, just sitting in these muddy pens. And I have a real problem with animals and pens. And like, I'm to the point now where I can barely go to a zoo. And I'm just like, here's all these miserable horses.
Vying for food and snorting at each other. And I'm like, oh, they're not happy. They're not happy. I'm like, these are not happy creatures.
And then the woman gets up and gives us the whole go down. And you know, runs down the whole thing. The last thing she says. What did she say?
She said, first she said, is anyone sort of uneasy about this? And I raised my hand. I was proud of you for that. Because I'm like, give me the right horse.
Give me your most fucking docile. Yes. Beaten down beasts. That is just completely given up.
I want an animal that its spirit has been so cool. It can feel your fear through the saddles. Like, I don't want anything. I want, yeah, I don't want that.
So that's why I did that. Even though, yes, the animal misery was triggering me right away. I can't say that I thought their horses were miserable. That's something that you're not supposed to be running.
OK. They're not supposed to be. How many horses in this world are just out there free and running? So many are in pens and stables.
I know what the fucking bummer. OK. It bums me out. We also put cats and dogs in our home.
And we, you know, you know how I feel about cats. They should be free. I know, but you also just feel that they're like basically disposable. If one gets hit by a car, you'd just get another one.
And then you live a good life. And then you got hit by a car. I mean, trapped in a house, like staring just bailfully into the wild and reacting. I mean, yeah.
I'm just saying we use animals. We do. We do. We do.
We use them. We eat them. We use them. We torture them.
But here, anyway, she says, she says, she says, she goes. So horses really like to stay to the edge of the path. If anyone here is afraid of heights, you should know. We are going to be at the edge of the path.
And I was like, oh, no. Because at that point, I'm like, I already given them. I'm like, I'm going to ride the horse. But it's cool.
I know the paths to Griffith Park. They're wide. They're so wide. They're wide.
They're wide. So I'm like, we're just going to be trotting down in the middle. Hey, maybe even we're going to be trotting on the hillside. You know, like where there's no drop off.
But in Griffith Park, these wide, wide, very safe paths actually do have significant drop offs. Oh, and we are at the top of Griffith Park at this point. Yes. Near the top.
Folks, if you don't know. And I went, oh my fucking god. Hendricks and Izzy are, by the way, totally cool. Cool.
Cool. So now even though Izzy's been on three horses, ends up on her third horse. So I was making me nervous, by the way. But I didn't say anything to you.
You know exactly because they're like, are they doing it? So finally, they get Izzy on a horse that I guess is not going to buck her off or whatever. Who's, I mean, they're just making the right decisions here. That's nice that they're trying different options.
I know. So we get on these horses and we start the march. The march. I mean, this is a slow.
There's like seven horses. You go single file. Single file. Slowly, just with the horse going.
I mean, it feels a bit like, I don't want to say it. I'm never going to take your horseback riding. I don't want to say it. You're making it sound like I fucking tortured you.
Dude, there's no way you could have known. I did not know it was going to be like that. I really didn't. I thought I'd be like casually trotting in the middle.
Or a meadow. Or a meadow. Which in the middle of a meadow? Yes, but no.
We were like, we were on. Let me just interject one last thing. It's just that the previous time I had horseback ridden, and the only time I had horseback ridden in LA was when we lived in LA 12 years ago. And I took my oldest step daughter, Hannellor horseback riding.
And it was chill. And it was like low. And we were in the middle of a. Was it the bottom of the hill?
It was at the bottom of the hill. And anyway, it was very mellow. So that was my only experience with it. Procession.
I felt like I was like, oh my god, I could have been in the 1800s. And I'm just sort of a prisoner of war on horseback. Just with my head hanging down the horse. And just this procession.
But right on the fucking edge of the cliff. They were literally, their 2,000 pound bodies were balancing on the edge. The edge of this very wide path. The horse was like, I know, I'm going to go right to the fucking edge.
And that's their instinct. The woman explained. Their instinct is to walk on the edge. And I'm like, hey, maybe because then they can see predators coming up.
And they can see it from the side. Because they don't want to like, if something's coming up, they'll get them back. They want to be prepared for that. And they also want to have perspective of what's coming down at them.
Fair enough horses. This is a vestige of their wild selves that they are indulging. And God bless them. Because they can't indulge so little of what they are meant to do and what they want to do as intelligent, beautiful creatures.
We are riding them. If they want to ride on the fucking edge of the cliff, and she's like, I guarantee you, she said, I guarantee you, they will not fall. And I was like, OK, OK, I'll take that. But I'll tell you what, we started that march.
And it was like, oh, I was like, this is like, I have times when I've been in vehicles, like on edges of cliffs, all over the sort of touring world that I've been on the edge of cliffs and like chilly. And those times are just their endurance test. It's like, I'm going to hold on. And I am not going to have a panic attack.
And so we're on the horses. And thank you, Adele, for not any point. It was an hour long. And it was an hour.
And there was a little bit of a respite in the middle where you and I spoke with one of the guides. And it took a lot of tension away, which was really nice. But then at the end, we're coming back. We looped all the way up and then started the procession back down the hill.
You and I are at the back of the line. And we're like, we have to relive every twist and turn that we just did. But now on the other side. Meanwhile, Izzy's like three horses in front of us kind of moving around.
And you start to, you're like, you start to not yell it is. You're like, Izzy, Izzy, watch it honey. And I'm like, she goes, Lou, Lou, she's moving. I'm like, I know.
I know. I got so scared. Because I saw Izzy start kicking her left foot. And they said that you kick the horse on the side that you want it to go.
And the left side was the edge. So she was on the cliff. She was trying to pull it to the right while kicking her left foot. And God bless that that horse was like, paid no mind.
And obviously did not jump off the fucking cliff. Because I was like, she's directing it to go off the cliff. Because that was the directive. That would be the directive.
That was the thing is like, I was just concentrating so hard of holding it together for myself. And then really just going like, I wanted to be strong for you. For one thing, you were right behind me because, I mean, these are what what nightmare vacations are made of. It's like moments like that where a couple, a merry couple, even people that are deeply in love, like you and I can crack.
Something can crack because it's out of our control. Daddy's in a place that's out of his control. Mom is feeling and then you, you're like, you want me to take more control. I'm not able to take that control.
Izzy is like, Izzy is directing us. Oh, it's just a moment though to ask. Izzy is directing the horse off the cliff. Yeah.
You're like, Lou, Lou, Lou, she's directing. I'm like, I'm like, I don't think you said anything. I don't think I said, I think I kept my fucking mouth shut. But what I would have said was, I know, I can't think about that right now.
Oh, no, you did say that. No, you said, you said, you just, all you said was, I can't think about that right now. That's right. That's right.
If I had my child wondering up being crushed by a 2000 pound horse, rolling down the fucking mountainside and Griffith Park, I'm going to lose my mind. I'm like, I'm like, I am teetering on the edge because you and I both. But then I stopped talking too because I was like, I know we were silent. That was a thing.
Yeah. That's why I only said, you were there with me. I was totally there. Well, I only said one thing one time, which was, Izzy, please don't kick and I was like, please tell her.
And that was the only thing I said. It wasn't a lot. It was just one little thing. But we still had fucking 20 minutes after that.
But I mean, when I saw her little leg go up in the air and her foot like go down to kick on the left side, my heart like leapt over the edge of that cliff. I was like, well, so I looked it up. And then since that day, I've had several, I've had, I've been thinking a lot about my acrophobia. Okay.
I've got it. Okay. And I think you do too. Yeah.
God. Guess what? Only two to five percent of the population have acrophobia. Really?
Yes. That makes me feel worse. I had a dream the other night that I've had. So we're having dreams about heights.
I always have, actually I always have dreams about height. Oh. Being up high clips. Well, you know how I feel about heights.
I go bonkers. I go fucking bonkers. It's so hard for me. It's so disorienting.
I get woozy because of my vertigo. I have vertigo that love it. It just comes and goes whenever it wants to. And boy, it hits me hard.
And anyway, we survived. We survived the fucking horse ride. Well, two to five percent of the population feel understand acrophobia or habit. Most of them are women.
So I belong to a tiny percent of men who are afraid of heights. I didn't. Wow. I thought that everyone did.
I thought everyone felt this horror. I know, and like Hendrickson is you when we got down. I was like, were you OK? Were you scared?
They were fucking fine. They were. Psych, Hendricks was like, that was the best thing I've ever done. That was amazing.
And I'm like, OK. I mean, I was in such a sheer state of panic that I could barely even focus on the fact that it was glorious. It was glorious. I mean, the view was incredible.
They're like, look at, there's the Griffith Park Observatory. There's a Hollywood sign. Look at the canyons down below. And I was like, well, all I'm seeing is death.
OK. Does anyone else just visualize themselves dying in a terrible collapse right now? It was a gorgeous day. It was stunning.
It was gorgeous. I was a little, you know, the horse thing, the horse thing, the beasts of burden, the captivity, the that, it tweets me. So thank you for not for. I was really because I've been, there's been times in my life where I've been teased for my fears.
There's been times like that where it's been used against me. Or when people smell that fear on me, they will attack. Oh, well, I would never do that. I know you wouldn't.
But every day presents a new way for me to possibly, I think this way much less. But every day, I do feel is a new opportunity for me to disappoint people who love me and trust in me. I feel that way much less. But that was a test because I really didn't want to lose you there, not just by plunging off a cliff.
But I didn't want to lose your trust in me. And I didn't want to lose. I didn't want who I am and my fears to undermine our connection in any way. And it can.
It can. You know, I've been in that position before. You and I have managed to come all of this way. And we've such a full circle trip to LA for us.
We went back to where we had come together and where we changed our lives together 12 years ago. And we came back. And so many of such a rush of memories. And a rush of those days when I was not at my best.
We're swirling in my head. And when I was perched on the edge of that cliff on that horse, I just was grateful that you and I were there together and that we were able to talk about this and really share how deeply fucking. So we were. Yes.
Oh, God. I was right there with you. Shilled to the bone. Yeah.
Oh. Wow. So that was just the fucking horse ride. I was just part one, guys.
We'll get into the rest of LA. There's a lot to say. I have so much to say. We'll get out there.
We'll talk about that next time. Oh my gosh. Well, we're so happy to be back, everyone. And thank you for those who missed us.
And yeah. So we're alive. We survived. I'm going to go pick up Hendrix now.
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