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EPISODE · Feb 10, 2026 · 7 MIN

"What are you really numbing?"

from Chaos to Clarity: A Recovery Podcast · host Brittany Bailey

I used to think using was about wanting to feel good. It wasn't. It was about not wanting to feel at all. I was numbing life trauma that never got acknowledged, grief I didn't feel allowed to grieve, and a deep loneliness I kept convincing myself wasn't real. Using gave me distance from those feelings, not healing, just space. And at the time, space felt like survival.If you're numbing something right now, this one's for you.💬 Join our Facebook Group for support, fellowship, and connection with others in recovery

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I used to think using was about wanting to feel good. It wasn't. It was about not wanting to feel at all. I was numbing life trauma that never got acknowledged, grief I didn't feel allowed to grieve, and a deep loneliness I kept convincing myself...

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