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more tgcf brainrot!! this time beefleaf!! because why the everlovingfuck not!!! i have the right to destroy myself such that i choose my end to be you, my friend i have the right to confess my sins such that i choose to lay bare what i've done but it doesn't compare no it cannot compare i have the right to devour myself such that i choose the air you breathe, my friend i have the right to consume your lies such that i choose to stay in bed with the corpse in my chest my corpse on thy chest why do i not bury you like the dead of night where i once knew the fear of falling far into a life not knowing parts of you i have the right to deplore myself such that i lose myself to you, my friend i have the right to defy good sense such that i push away your truth til you wish you were dead how i wish you were dead but why do i not bury you like the seeds of rage that i once knew the fear of knowing parts of you where i can see me falling through i have the right to despise myself (why do you not bury me) such that i give what's left to you, my love (why do you not bury me) such that i choose to let you live, my love (why do you still call to me) such that i'd leave my ashes here, my love why do you not bury me why do you not bury me why do you still call for me why do you not bury me

hualian brain rot. tired? yes. feverish? yes. no good mic? yes. but hualian brainrot? yes. always yes. * * * and i swear i was there when you fell out of favour with gods and your wings thudded into the floor but i watched all in pain as you rose to defy what they told you you couldn't do and the winds were a bitch, i remember the gale in the desert, the weight of your hand on my wrist i was grain, i was pebble, i was stone skipping lakes til you kept me around with you body in abyss, heart in paradise taking on the hurt with your every stride lonely little ghost drifting by your side hopeless little shadow in your daylight bodily amiss, heavy on your sigh prisoner of a dream from another life lonely little ghost with a lot of time helpless little star in your moonlight had i known you were there when i fell out of heavenly favour oh god, wasnt i quite a wreck? would've never let you see the mistakes that i made with the heart that i now wear around my neck the dice that i've tossed in this lifetime are shit, that is true, but at least i was sure and i knew see, it's strange, i could gamble, i could win one or two since you've kept me close to you body in abyss, heart in paradise trying not to fall or break my stride lovely little ghost stay by my side chase away the shadows of the old life bodily amiss from a quite-long fight broken and bruised now every night lovely little ghost with a lot of time beating all the odds with your bright light imagine if i'd never met you imagine if i never fell from the walls imagine if i never went through the beauty of a life that had you imagine all the years i lived through knowing that i couldn't pull through imagine if i couldn't see you live a life as beautiful as you body in abyss, heart in paradise trying not to fall or break my stride lovely little ghost drifting by my side a hopeless little shadow in the daylight bodily amiss from a quite-long fight broken and bruised now every night lonely little ghost with a lot of time beating all the odds for your bright smile

imagine the shock when you took my hand and we walked and we walked just then when i thought i had lost you to time in my head a pain i don't define imagine the fear in my heart when you looked and you saw past the scar i was ready for you to leave then i had thought i would lose you again but you utter my name with a reverence i don't deserve as you look up with pride and choose me without any reserve i would light you a thousand lanterns i would write you a million letters and i would take all of the pain that they give you and make it alright, make it all mine i would fight for the right to stay with you and i would die any number of times if i get to keep you in this life then i know i'd have done the one thing that i need to get right

Do all people already know The answers that I don't Why do the seams always all come undone at once Some days are harder than others and Mama says I shouldn't cry So I look up to a blurry image of the sky Dad said for there to be light there must be dark It's just how the world keeps turning around and round the light Now gone Well done again my friend Even if no one can tell you how lucky you've been I need you to know Well done again my friend