Dancing with Bipolar Redux

hey getting my ducks in row as I prepare to publish the truth from December. my truth.therapidcitysentinel.comSTAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. I know it's been a minute. Things are ok, not perfect or great, but look at the world. I'm upright, and maintaining the very best I know how. check out www.therapidcitysentinel.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey I'm not going to lie I had about a month I could not upload anything and now it seems to be fixedso hi hi hi I missed you all so much I hope you've been keeping up with me on Instagram and my other socials to see that I didn't like just drop off the face of the earth cuz I didn't . I've been busy doing other stuff you know like starting to write a book and starting a newspaper because why not? anyway this is just really quick because I didn't know it was going to work but I'll try to get a longer show out not a whole lot longer but you know a little bit longer show out soon.STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. I've been trying to download a real show but the gods of WiFi aren't having it today. just know I'm thinking about you on this holiday . that way neither of us is alone.STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey . So yeah it's been too long again. just want to let you all know that you are the show. Without you all I am literally talking to air. Hit me up at : [email protected] STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. There will nearly always come a point in time where you have to evaluate if the reward is worth the effort. As Chris Reck says Is the juice worth the squeeze? In this case it's really not. I do not like being humiliated so it's Go Rogue Time. Find me on NewsBreak to read about the Rapid City [email protected]

Hey. I know it's been a minute. Things are good, I'm well and there's only positive vibes coming from me at the moment. I'm so grateful for everything for real.STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER [email protected]

Hey. it's been a weird few days here and doing a show didn't feel right. The 5 year anniversary of Christophers suicide was Sept 11th. And I still have to remember him publicly because he was all that and more. Some infinities are bigger than others [email protected] STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey kind of a messy show but I just wanted to let you all know that I'm all right . Been busy writing and doing some shadow work with that which is always fun. [email protected] STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey... still in a pretty excessive shut down mode since the Landon Steele incident(s). Triggering a trauma in someone else to feel powerful over someone else is sociopathic. you know? otherwise Did Not win a Darwin award while indoor camping. It's funny because I'm not dead [email protected] STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. so yeah if I wasn't living it I wouldn't believe it either. How celebrity veteran Steele is in RC is miraculous, but how he has tried to manipulate me after just being stalked in Flagstaff seems predictable. Would also go against all his medical shenanigans to create more trauma on a fellow vet. Honestly more worried about this drunk dude with a loaded guns. Fortunately I feel well trained for rodeo 193. Let's do this [email protected] STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey, reality is this is a tough little spell of time. I'm super grateful that I went through worse before so I'm wise enough to know I don't have to do this again. Painful emotions and fear shouldn't be normalized parts of a relationship ever. it's time to just go back in hermit, write for Medium and wait for October when hockey [email protected] STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey yes it's been a true cluster today. Be careful what you ask for you might just get it [email protected] STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. thought it was only a weekend visit but it seems to be unpacking its bags and staying for a minute. There's a few reasons why but sleep disruptions due to my shitty upstairs neighbors is not helping at all. I'm not sure what the best solution is , but I won't be doing anything permanent. I promise. 988 is my friend too. 😎[email protected] STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. I'm gonna say I'm good but truthfully i might not be good. physically I'm healthy but starting to get that underlying exhaustion that appears before the ultimate crash. Perfection is a tough standard to live up to everyday. yup. I need to be mindful and careful of what I'm [email protected] STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. been a busy week of nothing but good things happening for me. I haven't lost sight of how blessed I am to have made it this far since leaving Flagstaff in April. For me to think I made it this far by myself is ludicrous and I can't forget all the prayers I am having answered at this time and who is answering them. so shout-out to God. Hope you all are well. you can hit me up at [email protected]. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

hey. so there's been some things happening that are pretty upsetting to me. yet unclarified situations are prone to misunderstanding. Am I just being played by people. IDK. At least I can't be accused of plagerism or breaking boundaries, but nonetheless a Reevaluation of what I'm doing can't [email protected] STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey... So everything is good. Had an experience this past weekend that triggered the hell out of me and was a stark reminder of how bad it really was in Flagstaff. I'm in no danger here as long as I don't create it. As hard as it is for me to believe it's been only 2 months since I left Flagstaff and a month since the trauma from Horse Shit Resort. idk why I think I'd be all better so quickly. 988 is your friend if youre in crisis. As is 741 741 text help and they will help you . you can contact me at [email protected] STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey. it's been a long time since I considered dating and after this experience it will be a lot longer before I ever do this again. I think AI and porn have ruined a large majority of the population in regards to real human interactions. Otherwise I'm good. 988 is your friend without judgements. Call if you need help in a crisis situation. Love each of [email protected] ALIVE YOU MATTER!

Hey. I can't complain about anything so I won't. Things are really good right now and I'm happy again. I moved in, writing about hockey for the Rapid City Post and feeling settled. Plus the Canes won in a shutout tonight. I couldn't ask for more. I hope you all are doing well. If you're not Asking for help is brave. 988 is your friend or text help to 741 741. you can contact me at [email protected] I will get back to you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. just a quick check in. therapy went well today but it's still triggering. Guess I'm going to have to go through it to get through it to closure. At least the stalking didn't kill me. A few thoughts on being a Rapid City Rush season ticket holder and also creating my own position with the Rapid City Post in order to write about hockey. lol. diabolical. And a few thoughts on what happened to the idea of moving back to CT. it's not happening. otherwise still manic as fuck, but maintaining . hopefully meds kick in soon I can be reached at [email protected] STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

So being hotel bound for weeks is playing games with my mind. mania is better than depression but not by much. ultimately I'm safe though and I guess that was the goal in leaving Flagstaff. I sought help for my bipolar through Brightside online because time is of the essence when it comes to mental health and waiting for a callback from the VA wasn't happening. All in all texting 988 and asking for help was a very smart move.I can be reached at [email protected] STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

So after a disasterous start in South Dakota at Horse Shit Resort I reached out for help. 988 is a literal life line. The people that I've met on my path, the VA and military personnel have rallied around me in a way I never knew existed. I am beyond humbled and grateful for how well I have been treated since literally being left homeless on the street by the plastic "princess" of horse shit resort. I'm over living in fear and chaos and will not be speaking further of bad treatment by ex landlords, bosses or stalkers my villain era ends. Now my pay it forward and advocate for others era begins. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey so today has been awful. Being called deceitful and being put on "probation" is not what I'm about at all. Having people jump to all the wrong conclusions says more about them than me. I don't have a problem walking away from being a liability. Also Sir chimes in a bit which is very cool. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. so I made it to South Dakota. I talk about shitty the trip was. NEVER RIDE GREYHOUND!!! How Sir almost didn't make it, but did and how this transition is going. yeah it's not easy. but I'm not a quitter. This is the last show about the stalking unless I get updates regarding the civil rights case. Met someone on Reddit who's been pulling my head out of the shit. appreciate you Matt B. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey.. so the more things change they stay the same? yeah not so sure of that. Things are quickening as the date of my departure gets closer. it isn't bittersweet at all. Sunday can not get here fast enough. Shout-out to Knife Hoarder 🧡🦭🧡. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey. this is straight up filler until the next great show. there was a huge pedo sting in Flagstaff and I definitely feel some way about it. I'm sure you all know what that is. just a few more reflections on my disdain for Arizona and how unhappy I've been. soon it will be over. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey there. A longer ramble than expected but whatever lol The move is closer every minute. Excited and glad to get the Hell out of here and out of AZ. so there's just some final closure here of things and people I never want to deal with again. And yes some praise to God if course. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. so another person I loved has officially moved on up to Heaven. I'm kind of ok with this one though seeing I already mourned them in Feb when the family jumped the gun on announcing their death. yeah it's f'd up. Also Im quitting the devil's lettuce before I hit SD and ruin my new future by breaking laws and stuff. lol 😆. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey just a super quick check in. a remembrance of a life lost too soon. RIP John Ulibarri.. long live Bandit Canyon. and a shout out to someone doing the next right thing on YouTube. I'm good. the stalking is unnoticeable at this time Thank God fr. in 21 days I'll be on a big dog heading to South Dakota. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!

hey all y'all... So I am making the changes I've been talking about. By mid April Flagstaff will be a recent memory and all this stalking and civil rights violations will be a file folder full of betrayal. I'm looking forward to my Resort Summer in Rapid City SD. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. it's been a minute.. Hope you all are good and positive. Things aren't perfect here but I'm still upright and full of fight. Being Stalked is hard as Hell it is war. #flagstaffstalking I'm gonna be free of this soon so hang around. My new adventures start soon. 😊. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hey There everyone. it's been a minute and was hoping the premise of the show could change but for now it's still #flagstaffstalking heavy. I will be using my experience to enact positive change though. And now that I have support with the attorney general I feel vindicated.. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hello. election day 2024 in the US. This could change everything or absolutely nothing.. it's all about perspective. Love all Y'all. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. this is really just a quick Hi. I'm still alive obviously and I'm all right though still in a crap situation. I'm definitely not giving up and neither should you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. ok. I'm finally starting to get back in the right frame of mind. shit is still happening but f them for real. I got stuff to do In this life and maybe just maybe outing this situation was key in my moving forward and hopefully helping you find ways to empower yourself. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

good morning. I was so triggered on the last show. I didn't even realize how much until I woke up quasi non triggered this morning. I literally made this show for myself to recap how this started before people start trying to change the truth to make themselves look better. I name the stalker and co conspirator on this show. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey... talk some about the Atmosphere show here in Flagstaff AZ.. More on the stalking and how everything is actually tying together though it's extremely uncomfortable at the moment but I'm not going down by a long shot.. This is a ramble but necessary for the long game. Hello France and Deezer.. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey. This kind of exploded from no where but I guess catharsis is good. I mention the new song but I can't figure out how to add it with Spotifys new shenanigans. I'll just post it solo dolo I guess so the moneys not wasted.. anyway prayers for the Carolinas and all effected by the flooding. This is a true rant about being stalked and how this needs to end. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

hey everyone. well isn't this a fun time to be alive. for real I talk some about my past abuses, being trafficked and raped in 2020 and how I'm traversing the world now that sexual abuse is being talked about. Everyone is a victim of the culture that we accepted..but All of Us can become agents for change and fix this. in the US call the 988 crisis hotline if you need help. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

yes I did steal the title from an Atmosphere song. you should listen to it 😊. Otherwise im riding a wave of vicarious vindication through the media . still triggering though. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER

Hi, Welcome to The premiere episode of The Delusion is vast. I couldn't think of a better time to start my new podcast than now when the world is crazy. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER