Past & Present - SYOK Podcast [ENG]

Andika's mother called Maya, and told her that she wanted to send her Andika's last note before he passed away. In a short voice recording from the past, Andika talks about his favourite memories of their friendship and his last confession to her.

In this episode, Maya unveils the heartbreaking truth about Andika. She opens up about her deep remorse for having distanced herself from him after graduating, primarily due to being consumed by work. Maya takes this opportunity to offer a heartfelt apology to him for the unintended distance and expresses her profound regret for not prioritizing their friendship.

Maya talks about her past regrets regarding how she handled an argument with her friends back in college. She also reflects on the differences between her friendships during high school and now.

Sometimes we search for what we lack in our own lives in other things. In this episode, Maya talks about her favourite TV show. She notices that she tends to watch tv shows or films with family values. Is that somehow indicative of her lack of connection with her family?

Maya discusses her regretful experience of misjudging the character of her first serious partner. She lists all the qualities in a partner she should have been looking for and how it could have affected her growth. She may be a different person now…

We all reflect on our college days and cringe at our past selves. Maya talks about things she regrets doing in college and what she would have done differently if she had the chance to turn back time, mourning the misused or wasted time that could have been better spent on more meaningful or productive pursuits.

In the day and age of social media, it's hard not to be glued to your phone. Maya explores the social media apps she's devoted her time to and how she expresses herself virtually, which may or may not be the fairest reflection of her true self.

It's interesting how the power of belief can influence our thoughts and actions. When we have faith in our sign's predictions, it's like our mindset naturally gravitates towards those qualities. Maya talks about how she got into horoscopes and how it helped her understand herself and the people around her, including her boyfriend at the time, Deen, more. What made her stop all together?

When Maya randomly receives a bouquet of roses from an unknown sender, she assumes it's Deen and is reminded of her discussion with him about the future. She has realised that in order to tackle her future, she must evolve from her carefree, go-with-the-flow disposition into something more self-reflective and considerate.

Maya's boyfriend, Deen, just proposed to her and this newfound excitement about the future is very unlike her and borderline anxiety-inducing. Despite being a "live in the moment" kind of person, she is intimidated but looking forward to what the future holds for her.

Our definition of happiness changes over time, as does our pursuit of it. Whether it's where we find it, what we find it in, or who we find it in. Maya realises that true happiness cannot be bought and that perhaps it might have been within herself all along.

Nothing lasts forever, but that doesn't mean the fear of that happening should cripple us. It’s just a feeling, it’s just in the moment, and it’s not permanent. Maya reminds herself of Andika's comforting words about moving through fear.

No one said growing up was gonna be this hard. Maya tries to grasp what freedom means to her, eventually realising that the idea itself has evolved drastically from her childhood.

Grieving after a breakup is borderline traumatic, if not crippling, and is easily one of the most challenging moments we may ever endure. After witnessing a couple arguing outside, Maya is reminded of her breakup with Dani and each phase of her healing process, from anger to emotional rebirth.

Falling in love shouldn't hurt you. Maya reflects on her past relationship with Dani and how relationships crumble quickly under multiple sources of pressure, only to leave behind very jaded individuals filled with doubt.

Maya decides to reach out to her best friend Andika for the first time in a while. She reminisces about her first ever high school crush and how her heart processed the chaos and intensity brought about by teenage love.