The Ethics Of Cheating

This episode is for the man that I cheated on. To this day he is still unaware of the recounted events as far as I know and hopefully he will never get his hands on this podcast. However, if one day he is listening to this, then I want him to hear the following. . .

It's 2019 and it's time to move on. I had my reunion with my ex-boyfriend and now I need to focus on what lies ahead. Damn, how is 2019 going to top 2018?

I get so frustrated sometimes about the disrespect and gender inequality in our world. The pressure society places on women is overwhelming and destructive.

In this episode we say our final goodbye to my ex and I devise a genius plan to make sure that man will forever me because I know I will forever remember him.

I arrive in Europe and am immediately met with an insane turn of events. Looks like things will end up going my way after all😏

It's almost time to leave for Italy but, of course, right before my departure my ex-boyfriend just has to throw in some more drama. Oh, boy, this should be good.

In this episode I discuss the pettiness and gossip I had to deal with given that my sex life was basically on full blast all over the university area. People like to judge but at the end of the day, you shouldn't be so concerned about what other people think.

On Thursday night, after seeing Santiago for the last time and after breaking up with my boyfriend, I felt so empty. In this episode I take a step back and analyze what even happened these last few months. Who had I become and what did this all amount to?

My boyfriend - excuse me - my EX-boyfriend comes crawling back with one simple wish. I suppose I shall grant it to him for the sake of my pussy. . .

Tuesday morning begins with a heart-breaking turn of events. My boyfriend's uncertainty finally throws me over the edge. The art featured in this episode is the work of the talented Cathy Liu.

I wake up Friday morning to what appears to be a goodbye text from Santiago but then suddenly he wants in again and the following five days are filled with confusing, sexually-charged drama. Boy, what do you really want from me? Did you catch feels?. . .

Santiago, it's been a wild ride. Nice knowing ya. Oh, what was that? Are you second guessing your decision? Do fuck boys normally come crawling back? Stop playing around, boy, am I getting dick or not?!

What is happening to me? The manipulation is getting to my head. I have become the enemy.

How am I going to react when the tables are turned and my boyfriend confesses to being unfaithful? What really is that fine line between making a mistake and intentional cheating? Who am I to judge?. . .

Love is so abstract and I just can't figure it out. In this episode, I try and grapple emotionally with the idea of love and how to approach such a complicated and powerful thing. This episode features the debut single "Work on Yourself" by the talented artist Sherry. Click the link below to listen to the full song on Spotify! https://open.spotify.com/track/5ddtFal30tc46XuPw1EdeP?si=6OBKnCFzRVC03m3aOAHDdg

A mini monologue dedicated to the principal fuck buddy of my saga. What's your story, Santiago? What secrets are you hiding? I have so many questions and so few answers.

Halloween weekend at college and Carol's party get even more interesting when my boyfriend decides I am no longer "perfect" and an unexpected gesture brings me back in the game.

In this episode, things start picking up with Santiago and a little drama arises to add more excitement to the mix. Plus, I finally start to understand why sex is such a big deal; it feels wonderful😍

Time to meet Santiago. . . The college athlete who is about to stir up the pot more than you could imagine. Let the games begin😉

More crazy times with Leo and understanding that 'playing games' and relying on someone's drunk intuition is absolutely ridiculous. No more laying around waiting for him to text me. . . I want to be in charge.

Looks like we use different muscles for horny matters. Wish I would have known that before committing to this embassy appointment with my parents! Hopefully they don't notice my diminished range of motion😬. . .

And so my journey begins. . .first order of business: get laid. 😏😬

Where do I begin to tell the story of a girl who ties herself to no one and yet belongs to everyone? This is the true, unfiltered story of the dramatic events that took place in my junior year of college. This is a story of guiltless infidelity and sexual empowerment.

Are you ready for a story of sex, lies and international love?