The Gaslight Diaries

  Lela goes to the mic in her most vulnerable episode yet. Constant manipulation has left her sick, trapped, and isolated prisoner in her own home. Nearly 30 days have passed without seeing sunlight, limited only to bathroom breaks, and she has lost track of day and night. This episode dives into the harrowing experience of confinement, psychological abuse, and the creeping awareness of Stockholm syndrome. Lela shares the raw truth of what it feels like to want to fight back for freedom, to reclaim life, and to survive when your personal space, sanity, and safety are under siege. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Extreme emotional abuse, confinement, psychological trauma, explicit language, discussions of anger and self-preservation. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

GTFOH Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

Every day, all day, the chaos never stops. Lela’s reality: the news blaring, the radio blasting, and a roommate whose presence amplifies the noise while she’s dealing with PMS, exhaustion, and the mental load of manipulation. In this explosive episode, listeners get an unfiltered look at the point where frustration meets burnout, and how living in constant chaos can push anyone to the edge. It’s raw, it’s real, and it’s a front-row seat to surviving mental, emotional, and environmental stress while keeping your sanity intact. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Emotional stress, explicit language, frustration, conflict, burnout. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

The manipulation doesn’t stop. In Part 2, John’s control tactics intensify—turning even minor decisions into power plays. Lela is forced to navigate a world where access to her own mobility, freedom, and social connections is restricted, all while John uses his illness and fear as leverage. This episode dives deeper into the psychological toll of living under someone who weaponizes health crises and authority to maintain dominance. From absurd restrictions to emotional gaslighting, listeners get an unfiltered look at the chaos Lela faces—and how she begins strategizing her escape. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Emotional abuse, control tactics, gaslighting, explicit language, COVID-related anxiety Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

John’s ego meets COVID paranoia in full force. In this episode, Lela reveals how she was banned from using her own car and even from accessing any vehicle to visit family or friends while John leveraged his own weak immune system as a weapon. Using pandemic information like he was Dr. Fauci himself, John turned a crisis into a tool for manipulation, control, and fear. Listeners witness the audacity, absurdity, and emotional weight of living under someone who weaponizes both health and power, and the toll it takes on personal freedom and sanity. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Manipulation, emotional abuse, control tactics, explicit language, COVID-related anxiety. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

Yes, you heard that right. He screams the N word. In this episode, Lela reveals the breaking point when John crosses the line with words and actions that cut deep. While Lela is literally stuck in a room with no windows during quarantine, John spirals into misinformation fueled by Fox News, paranoia, and constant harassment. Unable to work, unable to bring money to the table, John flips the narrative reminding Lela that she “put herself in this situation” simply because she chose to ride out the Covid crisis in Massachusetts with him. What follows is a tense unraveling of manipulation, financial control, and the suffocating isolation of being locked down with someone who thrives on power games. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: racial slurs, quarantine isolation, gaslighting, manipulation. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

Things aren’t going well with John and his new partner, Tyler and Lela is feeling the weight of his constant venting and drama. But this episode isn’t about giving them energy it’s about taking it back. Listeners hear Lela’s raw, unfiltered thoughts as she shares her plan to exit John’s control completely, reclaim her time, her business, and her peace. This is a story of boundaries, empowerment, and the courage it takes to walk away from years of manipulation and chaos—finally, for good. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Emotional abuse, manipulation, workplace chaos, explicit language. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

Day one, and John’s already spiraling. What started with $6,000 HEPA filters quickly escalates to hospital-grade PPE, testing supplies, and equipment that a small business could never realistically need. Lela reflects on the absurdity: someone watching too much news, losing perspective, and magnifying a debilitating, incurable disease a thousand times over—while trying to control a business that’s already under stress. This episode captures the tension, frustration, and sheer over-the-top chaos of navigating business and life with someone who’s lost in fear and control. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Anxiety, manipulation, obsessive behavior, explicit language. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

Daily harassment. Financial manipulation. Exploitation under the guise of business. In this episode, Lela exposes John at his most audacious using every loophole to benefit himself while draining resources she could actually use. Even as Lela moves into a new relationship, John digs his claws into any financial opportunity, spending incoming funds on hobbies and toys, and tricking her into a new partnership with his drug dealer connection and possible lover, Tyler. At the height of quarantine, he even expects her to dance at a strip club, all while hiding studio income and controlling the money that should be helping the business thrive. This episode is raw, explicit, and a front-row seat to the chaos of someone using manipulation, entitlement, and greed to try to control your life and how Lela fights to reclaim her independence. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Financial abuse, manipulation, drug involvement, explicit language, workplace exploitation. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

This episode hits deep. Lela reflects on kissing her new boyfriend and realizing it wasn’t the smooth, soft-life transition she imagined. After 13 years of abuse, manipulation, and financial strain in a toxic business relationship, she expected a clear path forward only to be met with heartbreak, insecurity, and the weight of holding onto both her business and a love that may not be ready for her. From one-night-stand attempts to short-lived relationships, to realizing even her best friend doesn’t fully grasp what she’s navigating, Lela bares it all. She confronts the painful truth: to remain independent and protect her vision, she may have to let go of a man who’s too insecure to handle the chaos she’s survived and the love she deserves. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Emotional abuse, relationship trauma, heartbreak, explicit language. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

In a matter of seconds or maybe minutes John’s attitude toward the world erupts. In this episode, he claims someone “hit him with a shopping cart” for not maintaining the perfect 6-foot distance. Feeling completely violated, he wastes no time expressing outrage, proving once again that no situation is too small for maximum drama. Listeners get a front-row seat to the chaos of living with someone whose reactions are disproportionate, relentless, and exhausting. From micro-aggressions to full-blown meltdowns, this episode is a wild ride through paranoia, entitlement, and unfiltered manipulation. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Emotional manipulation, paranoia, explicit language, verbal abuse. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

John thinks intimidation is a business strategy but this time, it backfires. Frustrated that he can’t swindle a contractor, he cranks up the volume, expecting fear to bend the other businessman to his will. Instead, his tactic fails spectacularly… and the only person left to yell at is Lela. In this episode, listeners witness the audacity, absurdity, and emotional fallout of dealing with a manipulator whose ego always gets in the way of reason. From failed scheming to misplaced rage, this episode exposes the cost of carrying someone else’s chaos while trying to protect a business and maintain your sanity. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Emotional manipulation, workplace abuse, explicit language. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

Lela doesn’t believe past relationships are a waste of time. Every love, every heartbreak, every situationship brings lessons about patience, friendship, connection, and yes… love itself. Even having a “type” doesn’t stop you from learning something new with each partner. In this explicit, unfiltered episode, Lela steps into her sex and love therapist era sharing personal stories and girlfriend-style wisdom that reveal how intimacy teaches us as much about ourselves as it does about the other person. From the messy to the magical, these conversations dig deep into what it means to evolve through love. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Explicit sexual content, raw discussions on love and relationships, mature themes. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

They say you can’t see the forest for the trees. For years, Lela catered to the trees, missing the bigger picture. What she thought was a business partnership—and even a deep romantic connection—turned out to be nothing more than a mirage. Forced into what she calls a “lavender relationship,” Lela unpacks how manipulation disguised itself as love, how commitment felt transactional, and how affection was reserved for the highest bidder. This episode exposes the heartbreak of being tricked into believing love was real, when in reality it was conditional, manipulative, and self-serving. Through raw reflection and girlfriend wisdom, Lela reveals the truth: not every rainbow has a pot of gold—and not every love story is worth holding on to. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Emotional abuse, manipulation, toxic relationships, explicit language. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

Some friendships don’t last forever, but the lessons do. In this episode, Lela opens up to a very close girlfriend she hasn’t spoken to in years a bond that ended after drama boiled over into both of their lives. Though they had to separate, this friend’s words of wisdom still echo. From the first day to the last, her advice was always raw, real, and to the point so powerful that it shaped Lela’s perspective for years to come. This isn’t about regret, but gratitude. Gratitude for the kind of friendship that tells you what you need to hear, not what you want to hear. Gratitude for the love that remains, even through silence. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Emotional conversation on lost friendships, explicit language. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

They call it attention-seeking. Lela calls it building her empire. In this episode, the girlfriends dive into the fine line between chasing clout and chasing purpose. What does it really mean when people accuse ambitious women of “just wanting attention”? And how can we use that energy to fuel manifestation, big moves, and soft life goals? This isn’t just tea it’s strategy. The conversation flips judgment into empowerment, reminding listeners that visibility is part of success, and intention separates clout from clout-chasing. No matter how chaotic life got, Lela kept hustling. From side gigs to passion projects, she tried to weave it all together always grinding, always building, always finding ways to create income streams. And in the spirit of trying to lift others up, she even put John on with business opportunities. But what happens when your ambition and effort keep colliding with someone else’s irresponsibility? In this episode, the girlfriends unpack what it’s like to hustle nonstop, hold down multiple streams, and still feel weighed down by someone who refuses to pull their weight. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Manipulation, burnout, Explicit language, real talk on ambition, identity, and business. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

Sometimes the glow-up comes with messy chapters, and this one’s all about the attempted one-night stand that didn’t go as planned. In this unfiltered conversation, Lela and her girlfriends spill the tea on situationships, late-night “what was I thinking” moments, and the wild ways men fumble. Explicit, hilarious, and honey-dripped with truth, this episode is girl talk at its finest full of laughter, lessons, and a whole lot of side-eye. Pull up your wine glass, sis, because this tea is hot, spicy, and unforgettable. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Explicit sexual content, strong language, mature themes. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

Looking back, Lela reflects on years of searching for love real love, without conditions, without manipulation, without being pimped out or used. From 2008–2011, she tried to make something real with John. From 2011–2018, she searched for a partner who was ready for commitment. One of her deepest connections was with a club security guard she met while working to make ends meet intense but short-lived, because he wasn’t commitment ready. Through girl talk and heart-to-heart convos with her girlfriends, Lela begins to see the patterns, the red flags, and the lessons. And then came Steve the first man to open his heart and his home, showing her what a glimpse of a soft life could look like. Explicitly honest, tender, and full of revelations, this episode is a love story told through pain, growth, and hope. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Emotional abuse, relationship trauma, explicit language. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

What do you do when someone’s first instinct isn’t honesty, but control when even friendship, being cordial, or cohabitation gets twisted into manipulation? In this episode, Lela reveals how John weaponizes drugs, sprinkling them into situations as leverage, holding “being cool” or “being roommates” as power plays. What should have been recreational use of marijuana becomes another manipulative tool—his way of keeping the upper hand, forcing control, and blurring boundaries. Instead of partnership, it’s a setup. Instead of trust, it’s entrapment. Listeners will hear firsthand how drug abuse becomes more than self-destruction it becomes a form of manipulation, and how Lela resists being trapped in yet another cycle of control. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Drug misuse, manipulation, toxic relationships, explicit language. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

“New season, new energy. After surviving the manipulation, the gaslighting, the chaos—you know the story—I’m reconnecting with the women who keep me grounded. Season 2 of the podcast is all about the Girlfriends Chronicles: raw, honest conversations with my girls, the ones who talk me off the ledge, help me see through the madness, and remind me who I really am. This season, we’re diving deep into what it means to rebuild after toxic partnerships, reclaim our power, and redefine our lives. From friendship and healing to finances and soft life goals, these episodes are real talk, no filter. Because sometimes, it’s your circle that saves you.” 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Still some raw conversation about manipulation, abuse, and healing, but with a new lens of sisterhood and growth Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

What happens when someone’s first instinct—no matter the circumstance—is to rage, deflect, and complain? In this episode, Lela shares how even the potential of an accident spirals into chaos with John, whose normal response to anyone or anything is total defensiveness. Conversations feel like trying to talk a toddler off a rooftop: exhausting, overwhelming, and never-ending. The constant cycle of rage and resistance leaves no room for growth, no room for accountability, and no room for peace. This episode peels back the layers of what it means to work with someone defensive by default—and how that toxicity bleeds into every part of life. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Rage responses, gaslighting, emotional manipulation, explicit language. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

As Lela finally steps into something new a long-distance relationship full of hope and healing John does everything in his power to sabotage it. From manipulating her schedule to draining her energy, his mission is clear: wedge himself between Lela and her chance at happiness. What should be a season of soft life and new beginnings turns into another battleground. With every phone call, every fight, and every demand for her time, John proves that his need for control isn’t limited to business it’s personal. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Gaslighting, jealousy, emotional manipulation. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

There’s a fragile, volatile energy that makes every day a minefield. In this episode, Lela reveals the constant stress of walking on eggshells around a “manager” who screams instead of apologizing, misinterprets everything, and refuses accountability for years of reckless spending. Beyond exhausting, this behavior isn’t just emotional it jeopardizes the business. With no receipts, records, or accountability, every conversation turns into a rewind of facts, arguments, and frustration. Listeners get a raw, unfiltered view of what it’s like to manage a manipulator while fighting to protect a business, sanity, and personal life. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Gaslighting, workplace bullying, financial manipulation, emotional abuse, explicit language Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

How does a person turn a simple, straightforward discussion into absolute chaos? In this episode, Lela tackles a basic budgetary meeting covering just three minor subjects and finds herself trapped in a storm of misdirection, deflection, and refusal to listen. Working with someone so small-minded that basic reasoning becomes a Herculean feat, she navigates the frustration, gaslighting, and manipulation that make even the simplest conversations feel impossible. Listeners get a raw, unfiltered look at what it’s like to manage the unmanageable, while trying to preserve sanity, business, and personal life. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Emotional manipulation, gaslighting, workplace chaos, explicit language. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

Ever heard of a wolf that cries sheep when he wants to eat? That’s John. Years of manipulation, mental abuse, and emotional games have pushed Lela to a point where she no longer flinches at his tactics. Whenever he lands in the hospital or claims he’s sick, he expects care, compassion, and patience—despite years of abuse and betrayal. In this episode, listeners hear the audacity of a manipulator who turns vulnerability into a weapon, and the emotional toll of someone who’s been dragged through his games for years. It’s raw. It’s explicit. And it’s a masterclass in the kind of abuse that’s hard to see from the outside but impossible to ignore once you’re in it. John’s manipulation hits a new level: crying, “You don’t appreciate me!” And when Lela agrees, she’s not conceding she’s stating the truth. How could she appreciate the cost of her freedom, the price of her sanity, or the value of her time when the man claiming to manage her business refuses to do his job? In this episode, listeners experience the audacity of entitlement in real time. From gaslighting to emotional theatrics, John weaponizes her compassion while dodging responsibility. Lela’s struggle isn’t just about business it’s about reclaiming the life, energy, and respect that he’s tried to steal for years. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Emotional manipulation, gaslighting, workplace abuse, explicit language. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

The fallout doesn’t stop at business. As Lela tries to build something new with Steve, the shadow of John’s manipulation spills over into her relationship. Because Steve knows about John, he thinks he knows everything about Lela—her commitment style, her boundaries, her choices. But what Steve hasn’t seen are the stone-cold manipulation tactics John has perfected over years of gaslighting and control. Now, Lela is caught between defending herself against assumptions and protecting her new love from the poison of her past. How do you build trust when manipulation keeps rewriting your story? 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Gaslighting, emotional manipulation, explicit language. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

As Lela finally steps into something new a long-distance relationship full of hope and healing John does everything in his power to sabotage it. From manipulating her schedule to draining her energy, his mission is clear: wedge himself between Lela and her chance at happiness. What should be a season of soft life and new beginnings turns into another battleground. With every phone call, every fight, and every demand for her time, John proves that his need for control isn’t limited to business—it’s personal. Lela has nothing left to give. After years of carrying the weight of John’s failures and empty promises, she’s officially done with the games, the gaslighting, and the illusion that he could ever lead with integrity. As she shifts her energy toward Steve and the possibility of a new life, John spirals. Furious that his control is slipping away, he turns up the manipulation with a fresh round of sales pitches, blame, and pressure. But this time, it’s different. Lela’s faith in him is gone, and so is her willingness to play along. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Gaslighting, jealousy, emotional manipulation.   Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

In this episode The fights get even more explosive as conversation about the demise of the business is once again a threatening manipulative attack by the business manager. The truth always hits a nerve. When Lela lays out the clear rules for the infrastructure of Human Resources for the instructors, John does what he always does when he’s wrong blames everyone else. Refusing to handle his responsibilities, he leaves Lela carrying the weight of the business alone. Working six days a week, juggling multiple jobs, and still trying to hold her life together, Lela faces another roadblock: John’s interference in her long-distance relationship with Steve. From dismissing her needs to controlling her time, his refusal to manage the business spirals into controlling her personal life. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Gaslighting, emotional manipulation, financial abuse. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

In this episode, the business manager attempts to embezzle the businesswoman out of her ownership and into a homeless shelter..... Again   Lela finds herself carrying the weight of it all working multiple jobs just to keep the business, the home, and even his side hustle afloat. But instead of gratitude, she’s met with blame. During the height of Covid, after just two months of unpaid bills, he twists the story claiming his bad budgeting is somehow her fault. With his overzealous spending and questionable habits, the gaslighting escalates. From holding marijuana use over her head to threatening her financial security, he makes one thing clear: in his world, the money is “separate,” but the consequences always fall on her. Tune in for raw, unfiltered recordings that reveal how financial manipulation and emotional abuse intertwine and how one woman is pushed to the breaking point while still fighting for her survival and independence. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Gaslighting, financial abuse, explicit content. Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

Every dream starts strong, but what happens when the foundation is already cracked? In this explosive episode, the manipulation reaches new heights. Lela’s majority 75% stake in her own business is under fire as her so-called manager demands 20% for himself—despite secretly selling off shares to Tyler after convincing her into sell shares to Thalia. What starts as business negotiations quickly spirals into bullying, harassment, and pure audacity. Will Lela give in to the pressure, or will this be the moment she finally pushes back against the gaslighting and financial abuse? Tune in for the raw, uncut recordings that expose the lengths some people will go to steal power—and how one woman refuses to let her empire be stolen piece by piece. 👉🏾 Trigger Warning: Explicit language, manipulation, and themes of abuse. Listener discretion is advised Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle

It started as a dream. A studio. A partnership. A chance to build something bigger than us. But when money, power, and ego walked through the door… the cracks started showing. Arguments turned into explosions. Promises turned into manipulation. This isn’t just a business story. This is betrayal in real time. Welcome to Season One: The Dream & The Deception. You’ll hear it all unedited, raw, and louder than the lies Thanks for tuning in to today’s episode of The Gaslight Diaries. If this conversation hit home for you, don’t forget to subscribe, share, and leave a review your support helps this show reach more people who need it. For more tools to help you heal, glow up, and create your own soft life, check out my Grow Up to Glow Up Manual along with other books, journals, and resources available now in my online store. 👉🏾 Shop Books & Products Here: www.luxelifebylela.com 👉🏾 Follow My Art & Lifestyle Brand: www.lelalovelee.com 👉🏾 Connect with Me on TikTok & Instagram: @TheArtistLela @lelaluvlee Every purchase goes right back into supporting this podcast and empowering women like you to rebuild, reclaim, and rise. "Until next time, protect your peace, honor your glow, and remember, you deserve a life without struggle