Yellow Sheep

A personal account of healing my relationship with my mentally ill mother and coming to terms with it all.

8 ways to improve your mental health! A lot of it is all about self-care and focusing on yourself. With all the external noise out there, it's easy to get caught up in it. Just remember, there are things you can do to help your mental health, which is completely underrated.

We all struggle through difficult times, but how can we be strong and more resilient? A look at what resilience can look like and the journey to practicing resilience.

Are you lost and trying to figure things out? Life isn't so straightforward and sometimes we take detours. In this episode we discuss the thoughts of a college dropout and making it out. The path to success is different for everyone, and what we know is, it's definitely not linear.

We talk about the perspective of a childfree woman and get some insight to her reasons for being childfree. It is an active choice, but born out of necessity and actually selflessness.

Being secure and happy with yourself is one of the greatest gifts you can give yourself. It takes us many years and sometimes our whole lives to fully love ourselves and our own skin. Here are 5 tips to get closer to being more comfortable with yourself!

What does being feminine mean? What were some of the challenges? In this episode we look at my personal experience in discovering what it means to be feminine. The secret to femininity is it goes beyond makeup, high heels, and fashion.

Titles can mean a lot to us. A lot of us are chasing titles. But what really will make us successful? The journey to success can be so personal and different per person, but here we discuss the importance of utilizing your talents to a fruitful career.

What does streetsmart mean? What does booksmart mean? Do you need both to do well in life? We explore these terms and what it means.

This episode is about 5 things I learned from working in the food industry as an 18 year old. It was a tough industry but the wisdom I gained never left me.

In this episode we discuss my personal experience of changing environments multiple times in a school setting. How did being the new kid affect me? What are the positives of change? Often change is necessary and it shapes us to who we are when we look back.

The need to aim for perfection is a sickness. In this episode we explore failures and imperfections, and some of the imperfect experiences is what makes us human and whole. A reminder that it's okay not to be perfect.

The power of now. The strength in the present. An anecdotal tale about smelling the roses and learning the importance of impermanence.

We all had a dream job when we were young. We wanted to grow up to be something, big, better, amazing. In this episode we debunk the myth of a dream job and what kind of negativity surrounds this concept.

A written letter of unsaid words my mother who I had a difficult relationship with. An homage to the woman who I learned to appreciate with age. This is a short tribute. Happy Mother's Day.

Food is medicine, therapy, and comforting. Dive into to my personal journey of food and my love for it.

We all get older. But why is it bad? Why are us women so afraid of aging? In this episode we learn about the downsides of trying to chase youth and how aging can be a beautiful thing.

This episode discusses the topic around self identity and friendships from a unique experience of being Asian American in California moving to Canada. What happens when your upbringing encourages being proud of the Asian identity? What is the result of that when moving to a more diverse country?

The story of an adopted bunny that taught me so much about life. This episode discusses how to deal with a pet's loss and what we can learn about their passing.

What is a mental health day? Maybe you need one. This episode is about some ideas and tips on how you can spend your mental health day. Happy resting!

As we enter 2024, in this episode we talk about the secret of happiness. What is the secret? What can we do to be happier? Happiness is more attainable than we think and there are ways to get there.

We explore the topic of love in terms of relationships. What is chemistry? Connection? What does love mean and look like? How do we keep the excitement in a long term relationship? In this episode we discuss the pitfalls of relying on the honeymoon phase and maintaining sparks in a companionship.

Trauma can be passed down from generation to generation. What are the signs? What are the effects? Is it reversible? In this episode we look at generational trauma and what it means.

We get up close and personal about what it means to be a black sheep, specifically a black sheep daughter. What are some of the signs of a black sheep daughter? Asians have many rules, traditions, and cultural values that their children should abide by. In this episode we are breaking all of them.

Who loves to eat? I know I do. We sometimes struggle to find balance with eating. Food relationships are one of the toughest relationships to nurture. Sometimes more than the one you are in. Just kidding. We explore in this episode what it means to have a healthy relationship with food and what that looks like.

It's 2023 folks. What does the independent woman look like today? We explore the topic of different kinds of independent women and how modern society has changed women's roles.

We are supposed to get along and love our siblings. What happens when that relationship is toxic and unhealthy? Not all siblings have a good relationship and in this episode we discuss the downsides of a struggling bond between siblings and what makes a sibling toxic.

Why are mental disorders so misunderstood? We look at the comparison between physical disorders and mental disorders as well as the "hierarchy" of diseases. It's time to open up another dialogue about mental illnesses and creating a perspective about this topic.

A heavy topic is being discussed in this episode which is suicide. It's not talked about enough and in this episode it gets personal. How do we help those in a crisis? How can we prevent it? Let's create awareness and create a space and dialogue about suicide so that anyone who is suffering, feels heard and not alone.

What are daddy issues? Do you have it? What does it look like? How do you resolve daddy issues? We look at this negatively coined term associated with mostly women.

Dishonor. Shame. Asians are not allowed to talk about anything or discuss anything that would bring shame to their family. We explore the concept of saving face and how toxic it is in being passed down generation to generation. Let's break free and break the cycle everyone!

35 lessons I learned by the age of 35. Nuggets of wisdom and some hacks for life!

We are all afraid of it. Being alone. Having no friends. We explore the topic of spending time alone and some of the damaging effects of social media.

We are supposed to be close, tight knit with our families. We romanticize those relationships as meaningful, happy, and fulfilling. But what if you can't be close to your family? What if they are toxic? We discuss the realities of certain family dynamics that are different than the norm and how we should normalize being estranged from your family. There is nothing wrong with being distant and having boundaries with your family. And it's okay not to be close or love them the way most people do.

Look through a lens of a young American immigrant to Canada, specially Montreal, Quebec, Canada. What are the differences? What was shocking? How was it adapting to the French culture? US and Canada are different, but between US and Montreal, Quebec is a different beast. This episode illustrates the environmental change and move for a young high schooler to French Canada.

An exploration into leaving the nest and a difficult relationship with my mom.

Were you a perfectionist in school? Were A's or 4.0 GPA the only acceptable grades for you? Did you have to be an honors student? Or were you sitting in the back sleeping in class? And getting a C was an achievement? We look at overachievers and underachievers in this episode and the differences!

What is self esteem? What is self confidence? Do you have it? How do you get it? What does it mean to have a strong self esteem? We look at what that looks like and the journey it means. It's never easy, but we all embark on it sooner or later.

The girl with the guy friends. Have you heard of those? That was me. Did I call or consider myself a tomboy? No. But all the signs and research point to yes. What makes a tomboy? Are you one and you don't realize it? We explore tomboy behavior.

A mother daughter relationship can be complicated, but it can get toxic. Let's look at narcissistic mothers and what that means. Why do our mothers treat us this way with such criticism or even gaslighting? This is a heavy episode and maybe controversial, but it needs to be discussed.

Welcome to mad world! Where is this world? The mental ward. You've seen enough horror stories and movie scenes about asylums, mental institutes and wards. Is it accurate? Let's see.

Butterflies and sparks always fade. So does chemistry and newness of the relationship. Can you find home in someone? We get personal this episode with the exploration of what it feels like to see home in someone and that kind of love.

Thick Asian? Bad Asian. Ugly girl? Bad girl. Make sure you put your face on before you leave, because people get ugly when you don't take care of that. We look at the toxicity of keeping up with your appearance and overly critical women. 

A job does not define you, and neither do job titles. Working as a busboy was not ideal, but it was a job that taught me many life experiences. Follow along the episode to get a sneak peek at the food and beverage industry for females!

What is mania? How does it feel to be in mania? Is it dangerous? We take a look at the mind when it's in manic mode and the behaviors that follow. 

Anybody who lives in a single mom household, this one is for you! What do you do when you are a child from a divorced family? What does that look like? Can single moms balance both mom and dad roles? In this episode, we look at the difficulties of being a single mom and being a child from that type of family dynamic.

Where is Montreal? What is Montreal like? How is it different from Toronto? This episode investigates the perspective of a young Asian American immigrant in French Canada.

How does it feel to have anxiety? What happens when we are anxious?  We explore the world of anxiousness and what anxiety attacks look like.

Are you even Asian if you keep failing school? "Dumb Asians' are culturally oxymoronic. We are supposed to be math geniuses right? And love school? Wrong. Asians have an incredible amount of pressure to succeed in school and be smart. Let's break that stereotype, because we don't all fall under that category folks! 

A story about the original black sheep, my mother. We talk about her immigration story and a couple mistakes she made along the way that made her an outsider in the family. 3 quick tips on being one of the best black sheep!