Survival’s Funeral

I think this episode is a funeral.Not for me…but for the version of me that only knew how to survive.No intro music.No edits.No polished production.Just me realizing — in real time — that I have not fully felt HERE in a very long time.This episode ties together every spiral, every late-night rant, every contradiction, every grief-filled reflection, every moment of trying to survive loudly enough so I wouldn’t disappear silently.Because maybe this whole time, Prayers & Cusswords was never about “having it together.”Maybe it was about documenting the very human experience of surviving while slowly trying to find your way back to yourself.Tonight, I finally understood the lesson.I survived beautifully.But I do not want survival to lead my life anymore.Consistency is my next evolution.If you’ve been emotionally absent from your own life… if you’ve been functioning while quietly drowning… if you’ve been overwhelmed for so long that rest, presence, and stability feel unfamiliar…This episode is for you.Welcome to Survival’s Funeral.