Episode 036: Mold Me God: The 12-Hour Surgery Answer

Life is beautiful… but it's also messy. And right now—I'm sitting in the messy.   Just 11 days after a 12-hour surgery, I'm in a place I didn't fully expect—physically unable to move the way I normally do, needing help for everything, and walking through pain that feels overwhelming at times.   But this episode goes deeper than surgery…   Just days before, I had one of the most powerful encounters with God I've ever experienced. He revealed things in me I didn't even know were there—walls I had built, pain I had carried, and ways I had been looking to the world instead of Him for my identity and emotional stability.   I felt healing. I felt deliverance.   And then… everything got hard.   This episode is a raw and vulnerable look at what happens when:   * You ask God to mold you… and He actually does * You experience breakthrough… and then walk straight into pain * You feel like God showed up powerfully… and then suddenly feels quiet   From breast cancer at 31… to years of inflammation… to making the decision to remove implants and undergo a major reconstructive surgery using my own body…   This has been more than a physical journey. It's been a spiritual unraveling—and rebuilding.   💔 In This Episode, We Talk About:   * What it really means to ask God to "mold you" * Why healing and deliverance don't always feel peaceful * The emotional weight of carrying other people's words and pain * How we build walls to protect ourselves—and how that can hurt others * Feeling overwhelmed, broken, and alone… even after encountering God * Trusting God in the silence, not just the breakthrough     Scriptures for the Messy Seasons   * Psalm 139:23-24 — "Search me, O God…" * Isaiah 64:8 — "We are the clay, You are the potter…" * 2 Corinthians 12:9 — "My grace is sufficient for you…" * Psalm 34:18 — "The Lord is near to the brokenhearted…" * Deuteronomy 31:8 — "He will never leave you nor forsake you…" * John 16:33 — "In this world you will have trouble…"   A Real Reminder   Sometimes God has to strip us down… so He can rebuild us into who we were always meant to be.   This episode isn't polished. It's not wrapped up in a perfect ending.   I'm still in it. Still healing. Still walking it out.   But I know this—He hasn't left me.   Listen + Follow   🎙️ *From Slumber to Scripture* New episodes every Tuesday & Friday Follow me on youtube @fromslumbertoscripture   Available on Apple, Spotify, YouTube & all major platforms.   If You're in a Hard Season   If you feel overwhelmed… If you feel alone… If you're wondering where God is…   This episode is for you.   Don't run from Him in the pain. Lean into Him.