𝓔𝓼𝓹𝓱𝔂𝔁𝓲𝓪 ⦍𝔐𝔞𝔩𝔞𝔡𝔧𝔲𝔰𝔱𝔢𝔡⦐

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𝓔𝓼𝓹𝓱𝔂𝔁𝓲𝓪 ⦍𝔐𝔞𝔩𝔞𝔡𝔧𝔲𝔰𝔱𝔢𝔡⦐

Trey Verkuilen. 28. Dubstep/Tearout producer on FL 25Mental Health Advocate 🥀🔄🌹 COLLABS OPENIt's your fav masked vigilante, ‘𝓔𝓼𝓹𝓱𝔂𝔁𝓲𝓪, 😷 Links: https://linktr.ee/esphyxiaPATREON: https://patreon.com/esphyxiaMy tracks are usually downloadableMusic is the eye to the soul[MALADJUSTED] 👽🌎 ✝️•John 8:23-24• NOTWThe world is so loud and harsh. These are the trials I must face Don’t mind the skeletons and ghosts and what not you may see along the way…The reason I write big, scary music about Death is because it scares me the most... hence why I picked up the name “Esphyxia” from Asphyxia (to be deprived of oxygen; suffocate)I almost drowned and Asphyxiated in a pool as a kid, so living to see the blessings life gives after is why I make music... to give back. Without music… I suffocateUntil my last dying breath, I will share my love for the world and music 😷❤️•’The story of Esphyxia is that he is someone who lives in a world that he is too familiar with.. but not a part of… ma

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    BENJI & ESPHYXIA - BATTLE DROID [FREE DOWNLOAD]

    JEDI LOCATED IN SECTOR 7 FREE STAR WARS RIDDIM! MAY THE 4TH BE WITH YOU! FOLLOW BENJI: https://soundcloud.com/benjidubz linktr.ee/benji.dubz His Media: www.framefocuscreative.com

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    ESPHYXIA - ORB OF CONFUSION [FREE DOWNLOAD]

    ⚠️ WARNING: PROLONGED EXPOSURE TO THE RIDDIM ORB OF CONFUSION WILL GIVE YOU.. UH… CONFUSION! 🔮😵‍💫 (I PROMISE you’ll want to listen the whole way through! 👀) A little bit of SpongeBob Riddim for you guys (Also, thank you Perpoli for inspiring me to make SpongeBob Riddim! 🫂🫶🏽) [I’ll also try to fix the harshness and post an updated version cuz every time I cut something, I find another frequency 😭 Idk why I can’t do so when I’ve already done so much surgical EQ work already. Ugh. I hate being self-taught 🙃🤣]

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    STAYNS - HIGH KNEE TUNE (ESPHYXIA 'BROKEN KNEE' VIP) [FREE DOWNLOAD] [BIRTHDAY RELEASE]

    Happy birthday to me! 🥳 I’m 28. Here’s a chune to break your knees to at the second drop 🤪😤 (It’s not the best, but it’s something 😌)

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    ESPHYXIA - HELP! I CAN'T STOP MAKING RIDDIM!!! [FREE DOWNLOAD]

    HELP! I CAN'T STOP MAKING RIDDIM!!! Made this on FB Live last night! LIVESTREAM AND FREE DOWNLOAD ON PATREON!!! https://www.patreon.com/posts/151059597 Sorry if the mixdown is a little weird or harsh. Idk how to fix it yet [UPDATED 3/14/26 to try to fix the harshness. If you still want the orig, harsher version.. you can find it here: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Pe4ePuPrN5K0BoZFbPnGIZsQLXhehuuE/view?usp=sharing] https://hypeddit.com/esphyxia/helpicantstopmakingriddim

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    Late Night Thoughts (Reimagined)

    Will you reverse your way of thinking those late night thoughts? a little reimagination I tried and I wrote the backing piano and such Lyrics for "late night thoughts" by Belfa: Late night Thinking about the way it was as you and I Thinking about our memories as a lullaby Thinking about the way I felt as you and I I said you and I Late night Finding deep regret inside from the goodbye Can’t help but imagine what we could’ve tried Thinking about the way it was as you and I I said you and I Late night Day time Midnight Can’t help but think about your face Late night Day time Midnight Imagine if, you can be my baby, You do drive me crazy like you never met me, I’ll have you know We can’t just be a maybe, I see you hesitating It’s so suffocating, letting you go Letting you go Letting you go Letting you go Letting you go Letting you go

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    NO - OFF (ESPHYXIA 'HUH' VIP) [FREE DOWNLOAD]

    Screw it. Have it. (Should I do a NO - OFF VS ROI* - STARCORE one as a variant of the Subtronics one? 👀)

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    ESPHYXIA - PREMEDITATED [FREE DOWNLOAD]

    Murder Tearout. Happy Friday the 13th! 😈🔪 I'll fix the harshness etc when I'm not so rushed. FREE DOWNLOAD!!! 🥳🙌🏽 Made this a few days ago on a FB livestream. Inspired by the sound design of my brother RANGA’.. and reminds me of the likes of DRAUGA, CRIIOZ and PROSECUTE. Trying this side of Tearout because I’ve wanted to for forever now!

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    Esphyxia - The Shogun [Free Download]

    Genshin Impact Tearout I’ve been holding onto for 9 months and haven't worked on it, so might as well give it out to y'all. May fix the bass being so wide/stereo (but then you can't hear the dialogue, so idk. It's a big reason I haven't put it out lol. Too many mixing issues but hey)

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    STAYNS - NON SEQUITUR (ESPHYXIA 'DUMMY THICC' VIP) [FREE DL]

    BRUHHH! I DID IT AGAIN! I JUST OUTDID MYSELF! I made this last night and AHHHHHH!!!! Is Riddim my calling? I wish I would have gotten Reason Rack sooner! (But the subscription tier JUST released). I’m so happy to be making Riddim now!! I hope you like it! Thank you, again, Gabe, for allowing me to do this! 🫶🏽 Go follow STAYNS and listen to the original, if you haven’t! https://soundcloud.com/staynslovesyou/non-sequitur

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    STAYNS - SOFTER (ESPHYXIA 'EVIL!' VIP) [FREE DOWNLOAD]

    Just subscribed to Reason Rack and so I finally decided to see what I can do with Riddim because I've been wanting to make real Riddim for a while now! Thank you, Gabe, for allowing me to do this! 🫶🏽🙌🏽 LIVESTREAM ON MY PATREON!!! https://www.patreon.com/posts/making-of-stayns-152102300?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copyLink&utm_campaign=postshare_creator&utm_content=join_link Go follow STAYNS and listen to the original, if you haven't! https://soundcloud.com/staynslovesyou/softer

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    Oolacile & Spock - OMG (Esphyxia 'Jaw Drop' Bootleg) [Free Download]

    Happy 2026, Esphyxiation Squad! 🥳😷🙌🏽 First track of the year! I gassed this track the other night and figured I’d share it with y’all! 😷 I’ve been meaning to remix this for YEARS now! We are SO back, babyyy! 🥳🙏🏽 I hope you enjoy! Free Download, too! Go listen to the original, if you haven’t! 🔥 https://on.soundcloud.com/Pt1Q96JeRCIqjoKOrB

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    NIMDA - VEXXINATE (CORRUPTED BY ESPHYXIA) [FREE DOWNLOAD]

    CHAOS 👁️‍🗨️ 👄 👁 I haven’t had a proper car test yet cuz my car is down rn.. so, I’ll fix the mixdown once I can drive again. Hopefully it doesn’t sound bad 😅 I’m sorry if it does. Story: So, my PC was corrupted for half the year and so I couldn’t work on music for most of 2025, sadly. I figured out I could just install Windows 11 on my secondary drive this whole time. So, this is the first major thing I’ve made since my PC is back up! Made a “corrupted” remix to reflect my PC issues 😜 (tbh. I was messing with e3 mono and was actually planning on doing a whole other style for the remix.. so, MAYBE I’ll have 2 different remixes for this in the end! 🤷🏾‍♂️) One of my best works yet! 🥳 Thank you, NIMDA, for this one! 🫂 I hope you like it Free download too! 👁️‍🗨️🥳 Be sure to go check out the original too! https://soundcloud.com/nimda_uk/nimda-vexxinate Enjoy! - Esphyxia 😷 GOODBYE 2025 👁️‍🗨️

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    Esphyxia - Virtual Escape [Read Desc.]

    I made this back in 2021 as kind of like trailer music for someone putting on a VR headset and is transported into the realm where it shows all the different things you can do in virtual reality as like a camera flies thru the scene as it takes you from scene to scene. Like playing tennis to fishing to cheering each other on to competitive events to sitting with a group of others in a VR world talking.. etc. Then, it all starts to fade as you’re pulled back into reality.. and the depression sinks in again. But, you have to remember.. while beneficial.. escapism is something to be careful of. Many go on there to escape reality.. or themselves, ex: they don’t like how they look, so they dress up in VR chat or something. But, you have to learn to love yourself irl as well! And, so, that’s what this is kind of about 🫶🏽 … that even when reality sucks you back.. you’ve gotta take care of you! 🫵🙂‍↔️ Free download! :) Feel free to use this in like your YouTube intros or something tho, if you give me credit! 🥳🫶🏽

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    it was nice to see you

    A little score piece I made while livestreaming on Facebook last night! 🥹 I’m finally making score/orchestral music again! 😭 It denotes 2 people.. long time, no see A 2 minute interaction.. after longing for so long At the end, the panning piano is supposed to represent the first person saying/phrasing, “it was nice to see you..,” anxiously.. and the other person echos, “…it was nice to see you 😌” and walks towards them and embraces them 🥹 Here’s the livestream!: https://www.facebook.com/share/v/17mEGPST94/?mibextid=wwXIfr (And if FB deletes that) https://drive.google.com/file/d/1JFtFU_dVnb__RVy7rCQTju62kB1bf5ie/view?usp=drivesdk

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    Esphyxia - Jumpscare [Five Nights at Tearout EP]

    Happy HalloFREEn! I am deciding to FINALLY put out like my fav track I've ever made! Been working on this one for a few years and am finally putting it out there! I still need to finish the rest of the 8 tracks for the FNAF EP but hey. Here’s this for now! I hope you enjoy it as much as I have producing it! Have a Happy Halloween! 🎃👻😷 FREE DOWNLOAD!: https://www.toneden.io/esphyxia/post/esphyxia-jumpscare YouTube Visualizer Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BSci3t16Zz4

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    Sentinel Prime (Esphyxia 2017 Score Remake)

    A score remake I did in 2017 of Sentinel Prime’s theme by Steve Jablonsky from Transformers 3: Dark of the Moon (my fav movie). Enjoy! 🫶🏽 I need to release more of my score stuff 😮‍💨 Everything is my recreation except for the drums which I stemmed out (I may do my own drums for it at some point) It’s a free download! Here’s this, if you’d like a reference to how the original sounds! https://youtu.be/svM2I-kvLC4?si=T38KcnVUot3KV1U4

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    Louiejayxx - Industrial (Esphyxia 'Hazmat' Remix) [Free Download]

    Esphyxia's Industrial Hazmat Team is inbound! I think some of you may be happy to know that I'm making Hybrid Tearout now! This very well may be my best release yet! 😷😤 Finally making the music I want to! I also hope you enjoy the Half Life references 😜 And thank you, Louiejayxx, for allowing me to do this! I’m glad you like it! *[My PC isn’t working rn and so I’ll fix whatever with the track and SoundCloud metadata once it’s fixed! I just wanted to get this out there cuz I’ve just been holding onto it for months] FREE DOWNLOAD: https://www.toneden.io/esphyxia/post/louiejayxx-industrial-esphyxia-hazmat-remix And go listen to the original, if you haven’t!: https://soundcloud.com/ouieayxx/industrial

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    SaintQiller ft. AlphaGate, Basskiller & Esphyxia - Adeptus Dei (2017 VIP)

    VIP of a 4-Way Deathstep collab I did in 2017 Adeptus Dei.. Adept of God It was uploaded on Hydraulic Damnation! :D https://youtu.be/HyL9JFCKD44?si=QyuGkkh8PWZCSfwP The time has come, where the 4 Adepts of God (SaintQiller, Objective Beta/AlphaGate, BassKiller, and Myself) joined together to carry out one prophecy... Deathstep 💀

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    SaintQiller ft. Objective Beta, Basskiller & Esphyxia - Adeptus Dei [2016]

    4-Way Deathstep collab I did in 2016 Adeptus Dei… Adept of God The time has come, where the 4 Adepts of God (SaintQiller, Objective Beta, BassKiller, and Myself) joined together to carry out one prophecy... Deathstep 💀

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    Esphyxia - Loser/You Had One Chance

    You know what? Have it. I’m tired of gatekeeping my unreleased music 😤 I can’t keep waiting for it to be “done” and perfect. Enjoy this nasty, messy sound design I did 😷😩🤧 First drop is “Loser” Second drop is “You Had One Chance” The sound design reminds me of Loser’s older tracks Even he was impressed at it when I showed him! *[My PC isn’t working rn and so I’ll fix the harshness once it’s working again]

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    Esphyxia - Fortress [Read Desc.]

    Though the walls around her now lay in ruin.. she stood there, more fortified than the fortress ever stood. It is no longer the walls that have become the fortress 🏰 This is a track I started back in 2017 and it's been one of my prettiest tracks and so I am tired of holding onto it and not sharing it! I just made the second drop and now it's an even prettier track??! Like, HOW?! Anyway, enjoy this track 8 years in the making! *[My PC isn’t working rn and my car is in the shop and so I’ll try to post a more finalized version here soon and so once the “Read Desc.” goes away, you’ll know it’s a final version]

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    Esphyxia - Death Is My Only Escape (WIP)

    It’s my 27th birthday! Been holding onto this one for a while now and finally want to put it out there! I’ll update it with the full version once it’s finished Enjoy! 😷 Visiting your own grave to tell yourself sorry after your struggles followed and killed you… It’s a different feeling..

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    Esphyxia - Loveless (V-Day Version) [Free DL]

    I wrote this last night for those who also don't have a Valentine this year </3 (Also, screw the SoundCloud copyright algorithm for flagging this multiple times even tho it’s an original track)

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    Hallmark Moment [2020] [Free DL]

    A score I made in 2020 that I always thought would be nice as a Hallmark movie soundtrack! I hope you have your Hallmark Moment... Happy Valentine's Day <3 This has been one of my fav scores I’ve ever written cuz it’s so pretty and so I’m so happy to finally have it out for you guys! 🫶🏽

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    Esphyxia - Separation Anxiety (Instrumental)

    The instrumental, if you'd like just the score aspect! :) Last track of 2024! Scanning for survivors after the Collapse. A little mini score narrative I just made! Taking it back to my orchestral roots! ☢️ Listen all the way for the full story experience! ☢️ I got chills using my sound design in a new way like this! One of my best and fav tracks I've made thus far! Thank you all for an amazing year and I'm excited to release more soon! I hope you enjoy and I will see you all in 2025! - Esphyxia, signing out of 2024. Thank you for surviving 😷

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    Esphyxia - Separation Anxiety

    Last track of 2024! Scanning for survivors after the Collapse. A little mini score narrative I just made! Taking it back to my orchestral roots! ☢️ Listen all the way for the full story experience! ☢️ I got chills using my sound design in a new way like this! One of my best and fav tracks I've made thus far! Thank you all for an amazing year and I'm excited to release more soon! I hope you enjoy and I will see you all in 2025! - Esphyxia, signing out of 2024. Thank you for surviving 😷

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    HORRORZ (2016) (2024 Halloween WIP Update)

    Started this back in 2016 and decided to touch up upon it again cuz I’ve been wanting to work on it more. It’s back when I used Massive a lot. Here’s a little preview of so! It may or may not become a collab with my friend, if he’s down for it 👀 Happy Halloween! 💀🎃🦇 👻🔪🩸

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    Esphyxia - RoboParadise (2018) [Free Download]

    All is good in RoboParadise… but is it all of what it seems to be? This is a track I made back in 2018 that I finally just got to retouching up and releasing! I know it’s repetitive but I made it purely cuz I thought the sound design was satisfying 🤷🏾‍♂️ This has been one of my favs I’ve made and so I’m happy to get it out for y’all! 🫶🏽 I really have loved the drum mixdown in this as well Enjoy! 🤖🏝️

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    I Could Be (Instrumental Demo) (2020)

    Here’s an instrumental demo of a lyrical song I wrote in 2020. It’s one of the prettiest piano tracks I’ve written and I’m tired of keeping it to myself and so here y’all go 🫶🏽 I just reopened the project and cleaned up the piano some since I’ve learned how to more and so I feel a little more confident posting my melodic stuff now… Now, just to figure out how to get my vocals down okay.. 😅 This is one of my favs I’ve made and so enjoy! 🙏🏽✨ Once I can record, I’ll post a vocal demo as well My audio from 2020 isn’t good cuz it was a voice over for a screen recording which was delayed. I have lung/throat issues for unknown reasons and so my singing won’t be the best but hey 🤷🏾‍♂️ Upcoming Lyrics: “I could be the one who saves you The one who helps you The one who holds you tight I could be the one who heals you The one who builds you The one who who makes it right I could be the one who listens The one who’s honest The one who holds your chin.. up [a few beats in] I’d be all you’d want, but you still choose him…”

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    ⚠️ PSA ⚠️

    See me open up for Marauda at the Canopy Club 10/10/24 😈 https://canopyclub.com/event/marauda-2/canopy-big-room/

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    Esphyxia - Duel of the Fates (Lofi Version) [Free Download]

    Hey, Star Wars fans! I've been wanting to make this for a while now! I am having a Starkiller hilt installed by Avery Castillo and so I figured I would make this to maybe use to showcase it as well! Update: The showcase is up and it was included! You can find the vid on his channel here! 🥳 https://youtu.be/QE3yVT1_2-0?si=dJ-Br45aqZSeO0c4 Visualizer now on YouTube! https://youtu.be/dr6lss4jbeY?si=ROH-OVrTGAMdVkaH

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    Esphyxia - (Turn All The) Lights On [2018] (Instrumental)

    Happy 10 Years of Esphyxia Day! Today marks 10 years since I posted my first track "Celebrate!" on here! This is a pretty piano track I have been meaning to release this for a while now but here it is. It is supposed to have rap lyrics that say, "You learn a lot when you turn all the lights on," but I haven't made those yet. It's about things coming to light... for both bad and good. Enjoy!

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    Esphyxia - Celebrate! (10 Years Of Esphyxia Version)

    Today marks 10 Years of Esphyxia since I posted my first track, "Celebrate!," on here! In honor of that... I have made a 10 Year Version for you guys so I can show y'all something new and the new styles I want to bring as well! (I had an original version that cut off when it first cuts off but I kept finding myself restarting the track over and over cuz it felt so short and so now it’s just the extended version and you can act like it ends at the first cutoff if it seems too repetitive by then 🤣) Thank you for the support for 10 years and for many more! I love each and every one of you! 🫂🫶🏽🤍 Enjoy! 🥳🎂 - Esphyxia 😷

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    Esphyxia - Rattlesnake [2019] [Free Download]

    A Bass Trap track I made in 2019 that people really liked then and so I am finally deciding to release it! Sorry it's so repetitive... I made it fairly quickly I don't make trap much and so I figured I'd showcase it! It's got a hint of Jersey Club in it too :P It was my first time attempting that kind of beat Enjoy!

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    Eclipse [2022 Demo] (Clip)

    Started this back in 2022. It’s actually supposed to represent a coming darkness and depression I felt at the time and is supposed to be a mental health track All the sounds I made from scratch 👀 BUT… I may scrap the drop bass entirely 🤷🏾‍♂️ Happy Solar Eclipse 2024 🌕🌖🌗🌘🌑

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    The End Of The Internet.mp3

    | (• ◡•)| (❍ᴥ❍Ʋ) By now, Jake's two-incher had grown to it's full length and was throbbing fit to burst. Jake could not wait any longer, and neither could Finn. Jake penetrated Finn's virgin bootyhole with gusto, and began pumping. "Oh my gosh, Jake!" moaned Finn, "That feels so Algebraic!" Jake said nothing, and continued pounding. Being 12 years old, Finn did not have much of a wiener to speak of. Nonetheless, he began massaging the spot where a penis should be, crying out in pain and pure ecstasy while he did so. They did this for about 26 minutes, before Jake suddenly stopped. "What's the matter, buddy?" Finn questioned, "You run out of juice so soon?" "Naw, man. I just had a great idea! You remember my stretchy powers? The ones that make me grow huge?" "...Yeah?" Finn answered cautiously. Suddenly, Jake's two-inch-long cock expanded in Finn's ass. It grew and it grew and it grew. Finn began screaming, but not because he was in pain, but because his body was now being filled with Jake's beautiful genitalia. Jake continued to grow until his doggy lipstick was 300 feet long and as wide as a city block. "Jake... You really are a true bro." Finn squeaked out, barely able to speak. "Thanks, dude." Jake said, and smiled. He knew that now, Finn and himself were inseparable friends. Nothing could ever come between them. And with that heartwarming moment, Jake continued. Jake kept pumping and grunting, back and forth, in and out of Finn's backside, his doggy balls slapping on what was left of Finn's body. "B-Bro. I think I'm about to come!" Exclaimed Finn. "Let's come together, as one! As true BROS!" And they did. Jake released his load all inside Finn. So forcefully, in fact, that some came spurting out of his mouth. Jake's jizz flew so far, it even reached Lumpy Space, hitting the Lumpy Space Princess in the face. "B-Bro. I think I'm about to come!" Exclaimed Finn. "Let's come together, as one! As true BROS!" And they did. Jake released his load all inside Finn. So forcefully, in fact, that some came spurting out of his mouth. Jake's jizz flew so far, it even reached Lumpy Space, hitting the Lumpy Space Princess in the face. Jake shrank down to his original size, and exited Finn. Finn's body has been wrecked beyond recognition by Jake's large phallus, and he now resembled a large pancake made out of flesh, with a boston creme filling. "We did it, Jake... We really did it." whispered Finn. He had not much time left in the world. Jake recognized this, and moved in closer. "Yeah, buddy. We did." Choked Jake, fighting back tears as the realization that Finn was going to die swept over him. Finn raised his hand, and made a fist. Jake did the same, and bumped it against Finn's. And with that final heartwarming moment, Finn passed on. [Desullen]

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    Bygones/Resonance (WIP) [Birthday Preview]

    It’s my birthday! 🥳 I started this 2 nights ago and it reminds me of Jkyl & Hyde and so I figured I’d share the love of what I’ve been up to recently for my birthday!!! Def one of the best tracks I’ve started in a while! 🫶🏽 Enjoy! 🎂 I’m not too sure on the name for it yet as I may make a separate track for either

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    I Just Can't Take It [2020] (CLIP)

    It’s my birthday! 🥳 Here’s a little clip I’ve been meaning to post for forever! 🫶🏽 Enjoy! 🎂

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    Sheldvn - Serial Heartbreaker (Esphyxia Dark Trap Remix) [Valentine’s Day]

    </3 Made this last night as to have something for Valentine’s Day for y’all this year! It’s another solitude one so I decided to make this! 🤙🏽 I had asked Sheldvn if I can remix this and he said to go ahead! I took a dark trap approach to this remix. I don’t listen to rap or trap but I’ve came across dark trap recently and decided to try it out! One of the few trap songs I’ve made and this one is def the best now! 🫶🏽 Be sure to go follow Sheldvn: https://on.soundcloud.com/3pe2SacxcuHLmFJf6 https://open.spotify.com/track/5JlqzogGmtaze0TONYBTLi?si=yvwmTuUaQD2YiIo_wy0pAQ&context=spotify%3Atrack%3A5JlqzogGmtaze0TONYBTLi https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JRGy5qC2iuY LYRICS 🎶 : You killed me. It’s a cold case Shot down again in broad day She left with a piece of my heart A trophy put on display Serial heartbreaker, love chaser Made me dig my own grave Send me to my maker Got takers where the love isn’t fake You know I was down for us Come and dig me up when you feel down for us Til then, I’m just a skeleton covered in dust I guess, I’m just a shell of what I once was You killed me. It’s a cold case Shot down again in broad day She left with no trace Left me to rot in L.A. Six feet underground You’d think that I’d let go I just toss and turn. Come back, haunt you like a ghost If we meet in Hell, welcome to the Sh*tshow I’ll be waiting there for you Serial heartbreaker, love chaser Made me dig my own grave Send me to my maker Got takers where the love isn’t fake Serial heartbreaker, love chaser Made me dig my own grave Send me to my maker Got takers where the love isn’t fake You know I was down for us Come and dig me up when you feel down for us Til then, I’m just a skeleton covered in dust I guess, I’m just a shell of what I once was

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    Esphyxia - Somnium (Sound Design) [2018]

    A little sound design track I made that reminded me of Somnium Sound (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧

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    Esphyxia - DB11

    Random tracks I've been meaning to put out there that's just showcasing my random sound designs.. usually not actual official releases

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    Cymatics - Chicken Dance (Esphyxia Mess Up)

    Random tracks I've been meaning to put out there that's just showcasing my random sound designs.. usually not actual official releases

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    BUNDA - SPACE REGGAE DUB (ESPHYXIA 'GANYMEDE' SPESH) [FREE DOWNLOAD]

    Made this last night. Happy 2024 🌝🥳🙌🏽 SURPRISE! First track of 2024 is UP! & it's RIDDIM?! Spent a lot of time making this last night for you all! I hope you enjoy it and Happy 2024! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧ and did I mention it’s FREE?! 🥳🫶🏽😷✨ Easily maybe one of the prettiest tracks I've made?! 😌 This is part of an idea for a track I've been meaning to make for YEARS now... so expect that at some point too.... So that's why it's called 'Ganymede' because it's referencing that track I'll make Idk why but this reminds me of little mice or cats dancing in a circle with their paws up. I love how this brings that soft, bouncy vibe! 🥰 🐭🙌🏽🐱 I’m also sorry I can’t figure out how to fix the high end ringing EQ and soothe don’t make it sound any better 😫 DOWNLOAD: https://www.toneden.io/esphyxia/post/bunda-space-reggae-dub-esphyxia-ganymede-spesh-free-download

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    FIVE NIGHTS AT TEAROUT EP WIP PREVIEW [Read Desc.]

    Happy FNAF movie release day! As a special treat for you guys, contemporaneously with the movie's release I am releasing a demo showcase of my upcoming "Five Nights at Tearout EP" featuring 9 tracks (so, the basis of some of these tracks may change as it's released since these are work in progresses): 00:00 Intro 00:30 Hide and Seek 01:22 Jumpscare 02:38 Drag Me To The Crusher 03:25 Nightmare Mode 04:16 Unfortunate 05:26 Mangle 06:55 Outro 07:17 FNAF 1 The Living Tombstone (Esphyxia Remix) ENJOY! AND HAPPY SCARE-O-WEEN! 👻 Comment which track you’re most excited for! 😤🫶🏽🔥✨ Sorry if it’s really harsh on the high end. Even tho I’ve been producing (self-taught tho) for 9 years, I can’t figure out how to not make things harsh for the life of me (plus I’m losing my hearing 😅)… even with deharshing VSTs. But my laptop lags so much and I can never hear the fine adjustments I’m making but I’m hopefully finally buying a desktop PC soon! YouTube Teaser: https://youtu.be/l2juDfotcHE?si=C-5ONQEmuR5pcMgH Instagram Teaser (more in depth): https://www.instagram.com/p/Cy6Zt3HA0mn/?igshid=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==

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    Esphyxia - Overcast (But the Sun is Still Shining) 🌦️ [Demo] [2016] [Read Desc.]

    I wrote this in 2016 when someone special to me kept inspiring me that even on the bad days… the sun can still be shining and to not lose hope and not give up! ☀️ Thank you, Saun, for instilling that in me! 💎 Happy Birthday! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧ 🎂

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    Linkin Park - One More Light (Esphyxia Suicide Awareness Version) Reversed cuz Copyright [Read Desc]

    GO TO YOUTUBE FOR THE RIGHT VERSION: youtu.be/nJL1aKNyZAU 8 years ago, today, May 6... my friend from church, Logan Bethard, took his own life....... he was only 14 years old... To this day, I have become an advocate for Mental Health Awareness and have had the absolute blessing of talking and helping people out through some of their worst times in their lives...... many have even said that I have saved their life... and that always brings me to tears. Struggling with mental health, as I even do myself, is one of the biggest demons a lot of people go through... silently, even... But I'm here to tell you: It's OKAY to not be silent! It's OKAY to speak up! I know it may feel like nothing is heard but YOU are heard... THEY are heard, maybe even by you... if you are also someone helping someone out! You don't NEED to be afraid to get help! I know... it's super scary sometimes.... I am scared to get help, myself! But trust me.... there ARE people out there who care.. SOOO much about you.... me, family, friends (old and new), significant others... even strangers! You can never be too far from love 💝 PLEASE!!!.... If you or a loved one or someone you know is struggling... PLEASE reach out! You ARE loved! My DMs are ALWAYS open!!! Don't feel like you are a bother if you want to message me! If I don't see it or get back to you, know that it is ME and my antisocial tendencies... NOT YOU!!! IF you don't want to raise concerns and want to seek help anonymously, call 988. There are always people on the other line who are willing to help or even just listen! Check in on your people and tell them you love them! Tomorrow isn't always promised... I love you ALL! - with love, Esphyxia I DO NOT OWN THE RIGHTS TO THE ORIGINAL TRACK ❣️LINKS❣️: YouTube: youtu.be/nJL1aKNyZAU ToneDen: www.toneden.io/esphyxia/post/lin…awareness-version Google Drive (if you don't have SoundCloud): drive.google.com/file/d/1doKqLE9n…w?usp=share_link SoundCloud: https://soundcloud.com/esphyxia/linkin-park-one-more-light-esphyxia-suicide-awareness-version-2 SUICIDE PREVENTION NETWORKS: www.spsamerica.org/ sprc.org/ www.cdc.gov/suicide/index.html 988lifeline.org/ Or call: 988

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    Esphyxia - Euphoria [2018]

    I started this in 2018 and have always meant to release it as a bonus track or something but I’ll prob never make an EP any time soon so I’m gonna put this out today on my birthday! I’ll prob try to make a louder master Enjoy! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧ 🎂

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Trey Verkuilen. 28. Dubstep/Tearout producer on FL 25Mental Health Advocate 🥀🔄🌹 COLLABS OPENIt's your fav masked vigilante, ‘𝓔𝓼𝓹𝓱𝔂𝔁𝓲𝓪, 😷 Links: https://linktr.ee/esphyxiaPATREON: https://patreon.com/esphyxiaMy tracks are usually downloadableMusic is the eye to the soul[MALADJUSTED] 👽🌎 ✝️•John 8:23-24• NOTWThe world is so loud and harsh. These are the trials I must face Don’t mind the skeletons and ghosts and what not you may see along the way…The reason I write big, scary music about Death is because it scares me the most... hence why I picked up the name “Esphyxia” from Asphyxia (to be deprived of oxygen; suffocate)I almost drowned and Asphyxiated in a pool as a kid, so living to see the blessings life gives after is why I make music... to give back. Without music… I suffocateUntil my last dying breath, I will share my love for the world and music 😷❤️•’The story of Esphyxia is that he is someone who lives in a world that he is too familiar with.. but not a part of… ma

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