1996

you know like when things bother you for years, that thing

I wanted a better solo but felt everything else work worked so I don’t know

a loved one by 1996

is it too good to be true

halfway though Mickey 17 and my feelings of being an expendable came busting out

So what by 1996

If we forget by 1996

Killing your(old)self.m4a by 1996

Rue listening on Christmas Eve #2.m4a by 1996

Meeting people My whole life Just to lose everyone And die Alone So no one Is burdened I will Die tomorrow Just like Robin did

changing

Put a gun in my mouth by 1996

older by 1996

blunt by 1996

water by 1996

boogie by 1996

thats not you by 1996

dead by 1996

I’m sorry by 1996

June 14, 2022 laying in the water

regurgitated and unwanted

There’s a heart somewhere…

6:02

The audio used is the last interview of this video https://youtu.be/xGIFgS1XV1Y?si=xzdMnMGA1VbsZR7j

what I concluded on, I was inspired by a tornado hits the illies by Birth day. They used a tornado warning alarm throughout the track and made it work. I threw an ambulance sound over something I was making and thought it worked idk.

I was trying to do a cigarettes after sex thing

Again, a sample that I don’t necessarily relate to, but thinking it may be a thing someone could relate to. Like idk i don’t have a daughter and that’s what the scene in the movie was about. It has emotion.

Samples don’t necessarily represent my actual feelings or specifics towards anyone. I just felt weird while my girlfriend heard this and unintentionally implying that what they’re fighting about in the sample is somehow related to my feelings. I just had to explain how I’m using it as a thing someone will relate to if they fit in that position in their life.

replaying the wreck and trying my best to not think of it while driving, thinking it was easy because Ive acquired the skill of repressing trauma. As much as I hate the fact that I have this trait it saved me from excessive anxiety while driving, which is dangerous.

dance in darkness

after I lost my job the day after Christmas I swear I’m not making this up, got into my first car accident with my girlfriend in the car I froze in shock i spent those moments thinking of the future and was a roadblock ultimately in my job search but saved me financially in a bad time. I don’t think it’s enough to make it a good month, I will never forget this period of dread.

What blessing did by 1996

my screams by 1996

Cold sweats by 1996

for Kylee

#unhinged #unrecreatable #lost

#alternative #sleeping #openup

A couple things I wanna say about these two, sticking with the reference and breaking “rules” bending what could or could not be done, could have been a 15 min track but I decided to abide by some “rules” and break some by naming them beyond comprehending, a joke, a representation of going outside the norm. Doing it all. Following some and not others, use the “rules” as reference. Decided to cut the beginning all together of this track it was originally 15 mins.

Every year

purgatory a think I’ve used this sample before cant quite remember, going through hell and planned on creating from the experience but because of poor planning I never made an escape plan. Walking on coals by choice is a fraction of what is happening, you walk through hot coals and can see the other side, it’s so close. I’ve spawned myself in a room a hot coals with no exits for a purpose. Was naive in my intent to produce art. Capturing some, feeling everything, cracking personified.

A collection of thoughts, same video from last track used in sample different person, different life, different tragedy. A video consisting of interviews from people who are confirmed dead. A unique perspective.

video sampled: https://youtu.be/xGIFgS1XV1Y?si=FEMT6Xgnn3aXt9xu

the unheard are hurt the most in global catastrophes.

listen idk how we got here but here we are, giving soda to a caveman and everything that comes with that

a random event back to back

for Kylee

capturing 2 of something I think is worth sharing, I have my own critiques

performing live in my dreams sounds really nice

en essay as a poem for a presentation themed around the heart Audio used: https://youtu.be/cLndP-gGjTU?si=_dN1oG-EteM67ZJo

What I made out of the review stage version of this track, something I’m comfortable with as a cherry on top of this larger project