All The Young Dudes

Grant tells Remus he's leaving for Brighton and that Remus needs to be with Sirius for the war ahead, breaking Remus's heart but knowing it's necessary for everyone. Over the following weeks, Remus and Sirius work on rebuilding the Order while living together in tense awkwardness, struggling to communicate but unable to be apart. They attend a full moon together for the first time in over a decade, and Sirius suggests they move to Grimmauld Place to make it the new Order headquarters. On their last night in the Soho flat, they finally reconnect emotionally and physically, choosing love over hate and beginning their relationship again before moving to Grimmauld Place together the next morning.

From Sirius's perspective, he struggles with severe PTSD from Azkaban while trying to readjust to the flat he once shared with Remus, unable to stop watching television to quiet his traumatic thoughts. He resents Grant's presence and cheerfulness while feeling inadequate and damaged. Grant confronts Sirius and tells him he's leaving, explaining that Sirius needs to be truly present for Remus and love him properly as a real person, not as a ghost haunted by the past. When Remus returns home, he discovers Grant is leaving and goes into the kitchen for a private conversation.

Grant receives a dream job offer in Brighton and realizes this is his sign to leave, knowing that Remus and Sirius belong together despite the pain it causes him. He reflects on loving Remus for twenty years and understanding that he was only ever keeping Remus safe for Sirius's return. Grant confronts Sirius directly, telling him he must properly take care of Remus and be a real person for him, not just a ghost or a dog. Grant packs his belongings and prepares to say goodbye when Remus returns home.

umbledore's patronus arrives warning that Sirius is coming to the flat after Voldemort's return at the Triwizard Tournament. Sirius arrives severely traumatized from Azkaban, and the Order of the Phoenix is reforming. Grant tactfully leaves to get Chinese food while Remus and Sirius navigate their first real conversation in over a decade, with Sirius struggling with PTSD, memory issues, and constant need for companionship. They argue about rejoining the war effort, with Remus reluctant after losing everyone last time while Sirius insists they owe it to Lily and James, creating extreme tension in the cramped flat with Grant still living there.

Remus returns from his first year teaching at Hogwarts, struggling with memories the castle stirred up and reconnecting with McGonagall, Flitwick, and Madam Pomfrey. He teaches Harry's classes and deals with Snape's hostility while taking Wolfsbane Potion monthly. During the events at the Shrieking Shack, Remus discovers the truth through legilimency—Peter Pettigrew was the real traitor and Sirius is innocent, but in the chaos of the full moon transformation both Peter and Sirius escape. Remus returns home to Grant and explains everything, realizing he should have trusted Sirius all along.

A Hogwarts owl arrives with a message that Dumbledore will visit that afternoon. Dumbledore reveals that Sirius Black has escaped from Azkaban, making him the first person ever to do so. He offers Remus a teaching position at Hogwarts as Defence Against the Dark Arts professor, citing both the newly-discovered Wolfsbane Potion and the need to protect Remus from Sirius. Dumbledore also mentions that Harry Potter will be in his third year. On September 1st, Remus says a painful goodbye to Grant and departs for Hogwarts, leaving behind their life together in Soho.

On Remus's thirty-first birthday, Grant takes him to his first gay bar in Soho. Remus is nervous but gradually relaxes and even holds Grant's hand publicly for the first time. In the bathroom, Remus encounters another werewolf who tries to seduce him and cryptically mentions that Voldemort may still be alive and gathering strength. Remus resists the advances and rushes home with Grant. The chapter ends with Remus learning he's dyslexic and discovering that the word-blindness he's struggled with his whole life has a name.

Mary invites Remus to her daughter Rachel Marlene's christening in Croydon. Remus attends alone since Grant refuses to enter a church due to his traumatic religious upbringing. At the christening, Mary and Remus catch up and discuss how Snape got a teaching position at Hogwarts despite his Death Eater past, and they realize Harry Potter will be starting Hogwarts the following year. When Remus returns home, Grant expresses hurt that after nine years together, Remus still hasn't fully introduced him to his wizarding friends or brought him into that part of his life.

Grant convinces Remus to go Christmas shopping on Oxford Street to see the lights. While shopping, they run into Christopher Barley again, who is now with his wife Åsa and young son Henrik. Remus is confused since he'd previously seen Christopher coming out of a gay sauna, realizing Christopher is living a closeted life. Grant discusses Section 28 and his activism against anti-LGBTQ legislation. They return home and have a cozy evening by the fire, discussing Greek mythology and the story of Odysseus and Calypso.

Remus gets editing work for UCL and enjoys marking exam papers for local schools while Grant thrives in his social work career. During one of his walks through London museums, Remus bumps into his former Hogwarts classmate Christopher Barley outside a gay sauna in Soho. They have coffee and catch up, with Christopher mentioning that he fled to Sweden during the war and discussing Sirius's crimes. Christopher propositions Remus to come to his flat, but Remus declines and hurries home to Grant, feeling grateful for what he has.

After Remus and Grant commit to monogamy, Castor furiously banishes Remus from the werewolf pack. Without the pack to heal him monthly, Remus returns from transformations badly injured and Grant tends to his wounds. Remus calls Mary but hangs up when she mentions Sirius's betrayal, unable to discuss it. When Grant mentions possibly leaving, Remus has a panic attack and finally reveals that Sirius is in prison for murdering their friends and that Remus blames himself for not stopping it.

Remus begins freelance editing work and finds unexpected enjoyment in it. Grant's friend Neil introduces them to his girlfriend Anthea, who unexpectedly seduces Remus while Grant and Neil are at football practice. Grant and Remus get a secondhand TV which Remus becomes addicted to watching. After seeing a frightening AIDS public health announcement, they discuss safety and Grant offers to become monogamous, which Remus agrees to.

Remus and Grant's relationship develops from friendship into romance as Grant officially moves in during summer 1982. Remus reveals his magical abilities to Grant through demonstrations and explains the wizarding war. Grant qualifies as a social worker and begins working at a boys' remand centre. Their relationship is open and non-monogamous, with Remus continuing to visit Castor monthly while Grant sees other boyfriends, though Remus is slowly making progress in his recovery from grief.

On New Year's Day 1982, Grant breaks into Remus's flat and finds him in terrible condition after months of severe alcoholism and depression. Grant moves in to help care for Remus and eventually becomes his flatmate. Remus reveals to Grant that he's a wizard and a werewolf, and explains what happened during the war. Remus attends the funeral for James and Lily but leaves early, and begins making monthly trips to visit Castor and the werewolf pack in Germany.

Remus learns that James, Lily, and Peter are dead, and Sirius has been imprisoned for their murders. Mary arrives to help pack up Sirius's belongings before leaving for Jamaica with her boyfriend Darren. Remus is left completely alone in the flat, devastated and beginning a descent into heavy drinking to cope with the loss of everyone he loved.

he group mourns Marlene's death while the distance between Remus and Sirius continues to grow, leaving Remus feeling abandoned and unloved. Moody sends Remus to Germany to recruit the werewolf pack for the Order, but they refuse to join the fight and choose to remain hidden in the Black Forest. Remus spends three weeks with the pack, growing increasingly close to Castor, before deciding he must return home to confront his relationship problems with Sirius. When Remus finally returns to London on November 2nd, 1981, Mary calls him with devastating news about something awful that has happened while he was away.

After James recovers, Dumbledore reveals that Voldemort is targeting Harry Potter because of a prophecy predicting the Dark Lord's defeat. The Potters must go into hiding immediately, and Sirius volunteers to be their Secret Keeper without consulting Remus first, leading to a major argument between them. Just before Harry's first birthday, Mary sends a desperate patronus calling for help at Hollyhock House. Remus and Sirius arrive to discover that the entire McKinnon family—including Marlene, her parents, and her siblings—has been murdered by Death Eaters.

James, Lily, and Sirius are ambushed by six Death Eaters during what was supposed to be a routine patrol in Diagon Alley. James is hit by an unknown curse that nearly kills him, and they rush him to Remus and Mary's flat where Marlene McKinnon manages to heal him after a tense and desperate struggle. Dumbledore arrives and reveals that Dorcas Meadowes has been killed and confirms Sirius's suspicion that there is a spy within the Order of the Phoenix.

he chapter covers the brutal aftermath of Greyback's revenge killing of Ferox, which leads to increased anti-werewolf sentiment and forces Remus and Danny into hiding in Moody's cellar over Christmas. Remus misses Harry's first Christmas while confined underground, straining his relationship with Sirius and deepening his alcohol dependency. The isolation ends in January, but the war's psychological toll becomes increasingly evident as friends face mounting losses and the Order struggles against growing darkness.

Remus embarks on a mission to track Greyback to Scotland, working with Ferox despite concerns about their underestimation of the threat. The confrontation results in Livia's death during a violent encounter at an ancient castle ruin, where Sirius transforms to protect the group. Though they eliminate Livia, Greyback escapes after swearing vengeance on Ferox.

he chapter spans major life changes beginning with the deaths of James's parents, Fleamont and Euphemia Potter, from dragon pox. Their funeral brings the community together in grief and celebration of their lives. Amidst the sorrow, Lily and James announce their pregnancy, bringing joy and hope to their friends. The chapter culminates with Harry Potter's birth on July 31st, 1980, making Sirius an ecstatic godfather and giving everyone renewed purpose in fighting for the next generation's future.

Remus faces increasing struggles with alcohol dependency while dealing with wartime stress and isolation. A night out with Grant and his university friends leads to a dangerous confrontation with homophobic attackers, which Remus resolves using magic on muggles. When Sirius returns home to find Grant staying over, tensions arise about security and jealousy.

The chapter opens with Lily and James's beautiful wedding celebration, featuring their first dance, speeches, and joyful moments with friends and Order members. The happiness contrasts sharply with the ongoing war tensions. Remus enjoys the festivities while observing the complex social dynamics, including Ferox's assumptions about his relationship status. The wedding represents a beacon of hope and normalcy amid the darkness of wartime, bringing the community together in celebration.

Sirius processes Regulus's death with characteristic denial, insisting his brother "wasn't family" and claiming relief at having "one less Death Eater." James provides support while Remus struggles to help Sirius through his grief. They visit Islington's Highbury Fields, where Sirius shares childhood memories with Regulus, including their first magic together. The war memorial's inscription about brave soldiers who died for their country adds poignant context to the brothers' tragic separation and Regulus's ultimate fate.

Summer brings wedding preparations as Lily and James plan their September ceremony, with Sirius teaching Lily to waltz and the friends trying to maintain normalcy amid war. The chapter ends devastatingly with news of Regulus Black's confirmed death, revealed through a Daily Prophet headline. Sirius's reaction is stoic denial, claiming Regulus "got what he deserved," while Remus recognizes the profound grief beneath his boyfriend's harsh words

Remus struggles to readjust to normal life after his time with the werewolf pack, experiencing mood swings and difficulty communicating with Sirius. Their relationship faces strain as Remus deals with trauma while trying to avoid discussing his complicated feelings about the pack. A heated argument on a Cornish beach finally allows Remus to express his confusion about his identity and conflicted loyalties, leading to emotional catharsis and renewed understanding between them.

Remus recovers from his harrowing month with Greyback's pack while being debriefed by Moody at a Cornwall inn. He provides a carefully edited account of his time undercover, revealing the pack's split and Greyback's weakened position. Despite killing Gaius, Moody reassures Remus this was justified in wartime. Sirius supports him through the trauma while Remus processes the complex emotions of his mission - the genuine bonds he formed with some pack members versus his duty to the Order.

Remus realizes his month with Greyback's pack is coming to an end when Castor and Livia are summoned to meet Voldemort for attack plans. Despite his conflicted feelings about the pack as family, Remus knows he must act when they target the Tonks family home. Working with Castor to split the pack and save innocent lives, Remus kills Gaius in wolf form during the confrontation, then escapes to reunite with Sirius at their prearranged meeting point

Now accepted into Greyback's inner circle, Remus has a revealing conversation with the werewolf leader who explains his twisted philosophy and his long-term plans for Remus as an "experiment" between nature and Dumbledore's influence. Remus learns the pack's true role as Voldemort's enforcers against wavering pureblood families rather than his main forces. Living among the pack, Remus grows genuinely attached to many members while gathering intelligence, walking a dangerous line between his mission and the seductive appeal of finally belonging somewhere that accepts his werewolf nature completely.

emus endures weeks of psychological torture in Greyback's underground prison, experiencing hallucinations, depression, and visits from the ghosts of his parents as his mental state deteriorates. Castor secretly advises him that his imprisonment is actually a test of his magical strength and worthiness to join Greyback's inner circle. Using his rage and the magical energy around him, Remus finally breaks free from his cell by overpowering Gaius, demonstrating the raw werewolf magic that doesn't require a wand and earning his place in the pack hierarchy.

fter his third transformation with the pack, Remus is kidnapped and brought before Greyback in a ruined church. The werewolf leader destroys Remus's wand and imprisons him in an underground crypt, testing his resolve and magical abilities. Remus endures psychological torture through isolation and traumatic memories while learning the pack's brutal hierarchy.

Remus begins his dangerous infiltration of Greyback's werewolf pack, transforming alone in an enchanted forest and finding acceptance among the other werewolves. Over three moons, he experiences the intoxicating sense of belonging with his own kind while maintaining his cover as a disillusioned wizard seeking purpose. The pack includes both victims seeking shelter and true believers in Greyback's violent ideology. As Remus grows more comfortable with pack life, he struggles with the blurring lines between his mission and genuine connection to these outcasts.

Moody summons Remus to the Ministry's Auror headquarters to reveal that Greyback has returned to England and assign him a solo infiltration mission. Remus learns the devastating truth that the Order allowed previous werewolf attacks to proceed to protect his cover as a spy, leaving him furious and disillusioned. Despite his anger, he accepts the dangerous assignment to join Greyback's pack for three full moons.

The marauders enjoy Christmas at the Potters', but tragedy strikes when Hope dies on Boxing Day, devastating Remus. At Hope's funeral, Remus meets her family including his half-sister Siân and her partner Gethin, struggling with grief and family secrets he never knew. The chapter culminates with Remus finally saying "I love you" to Sirius for the first time, marking a crucial emotional breakthrough during one of the darkest periods of his life. The winter setting reflects the growing darkness of both personal loss and the escalating war.

Remus continues to struggle with depression and purposelessness while assigned to minor Order missions with Peter, feeling excluded from the important work James and Sirius are doing. His mood improves after a meaningful conversation with Grant about taking action and stopping self-destructive patterns.

Remus struggles with post-mission trauma and depression while living with Sirius in their London flat, feeling sidelined from important Order missions. A surprise visit from Grant, who has been pursuing his education and personal growth, helps Remus gain perspective on his self-destructive patterns. Meanwhile, Remus visits his dying mother Hope in the hospice, where he learns about his half-sister Siân and finally exchanges "I love you" with both Hope and Sirius.

Remus and Danny McKinnon undertake their first dangerous mission to infiltrate werewolf gatherings at the Manticore's Head pub in Knockturn Alley. Despite Remus's attempts to lead diplomatically, tensions escalate when Gaius uses legilimency and dark magic against him, forcing Remus to retaliate with unexpected magical power. The mission ends in conflict rather than successful intelligence gathering, leaving Danny traumatized and Remus questioning his role in the war. Moody's cryptic approval suggests this violent confrontation was somehow part of a larger plan.

The marauders adjust to post-Hogwarts life as Remus and Sirius move into their first London flat together, with Mrs. Potter casually accepting their relationship. Their first Order of the Phoenix meeting introduces them to the serious realities of war, while Moody and Ferox recruit Remus and Danny McKinnon for a dangerous mission to infiltrate Knockturn Alley's werewolf community.

The marauders execute their elaborate final prank involving the entire school, levitating all Slytherin dormitory furniture above the lake using coordinated magic from multiple houses. When Severus Snape attempts to curse James in retaliation, Remus instinctively creates a magical barrier that absorbs the dark curse, displaying unexpected powerful magic that surprises everyone. The prank succeeds spectacularly, creating lasting memories and cementing the marauders' legendary status. Remus reflects on the love and friendship surrounding him as their Hogwarts years come to an end.

Remus contemplates his legacy at Hogwarts while admiring his father Lyall's trophy, feeling he has nothing to leave behind. Marlene surprises him with a homemade healing poultice for his hip pain, a thoughtful gesture that provides immediate relief and represents their renewed friendship. The poultice allows Remus to move without pain for the first time in years. That evening, Remus and Sirius discuss their future together, including plans to live in London and Remus's desire for Sirius to meet his dying mother Hope.

Christopher Barley is found confounded after being manipulated by Gilderoy Lockhart, who was trying to extract information about the marauders' prank plans. When confronted, Christopher reveals his brief romantic involvement with Lockhart and accidentally transforms him into a giant jelly using an enhanced jelly-legs jinx. As punishment for covering for Christopher, McGonagall forces Remus to commentate the final Quidditch match between Gryffindor and Slytherin, resulting in hilariously biased and profanity-laden commentary that becomes legendary throughout the school.

The marauders struggle with pre-NEWT anxiety and sleepless nights in their dormitory. Remus and Sirius share a quiet early morning moment in the common room, discussing legilimency and Sirius's traumatic experiences with his mother's mind-reading abilities. Later, after their Care of Magical Creatures exam, Remus enjoys time with Mary by the lake, though she challenges his decision to join Dumbledore's war efforts, warning him that society won't change even if they win.

Remus calls Grant from a phone box in Hogsmeade, receiving blunt but caring advice about his tendency toward moodiness and self-sabotage in relationships. Grant suggests Remus struggles with accepting affection due to his institutionalized upbringing. Meanwhile, Remus apologizes to Sirius for his recent harsh behavior, and they reconcile intimately. Sirius reveals his mother's legilimency abilities and how he learned to deflect her mental intrusions, explaining some of his past difficulties with emotional openness.

Marlene approaches Remus privately in the Charms classroom to discuss his revelation, expressing hurt that she was the last to know his secret. After initially threatening to leave Hogwarts, Remus ultimately decides to stay and finish his NEWTs when Marlene chooses not to expose him. Their friendship tentatively rebuilds as Marlene begins to understand the challenges Remus faces, though tensions remain between Remus and Sirius over his reckless decision to help Danny.

Marlene confronts Remus in the hospital wing after discovering his secret letter to her werewolf brother Danny, angrily calling him a "bastard" for hiding his lycanthropy from her for years. Despite her initial fury and feelings of betrayal, Marlene ultimately decides not to expose Remus after talking with Danny, Lily, and Mary. Remus contemplates leaving Hogwarts early to pursue Greyback, seeing this as his true calling, while Sirius promises to follow him anywhere.

Pre-full moon anxiety peaks as Remus struggles with insomnia and mounting stress about NEWTs, the war, and family obligations. A chance late-night encounter with a tearful Marlene leads him to write a supportive letter to Danny McKinnon. The transformation night passes, but Marlene's discovery of the letter leads to her confronting Remus in the hospital wing. Her realization of his lycanthropy through careful observation culminates in an emotional breakdown as she finally understands the truth about her friend.

Remus develops a routine of visiting his mother Hope, bringing flowers to each meeting and slowly building their relationship. Through conversations about Lyall and family history, they share memories and connect over music and simple pleasures. Hope's declining health becomes apparent, but their bond strengthens as Remus learns about his parents' love story and begins to understand his own capacity for love through these difficult but meaningful encounters with his dying mother.

James announces Sirius's return to the Quidditch team, though the news triggers memories of past trauma. Sirius opens up about his mother's abuse and how it influenced his treatment of Snape, providing crucial context for the Prank incident. Their honest conversation leads to forgiveness and understanding, with Remus finally feeling the trauma truly resolved. The chapter explores cycles of abuse, accountability, and healing, ending with Remus's 18th birthday party where the group celebrates with music and genuine joy.

Peter has a breakthrough idea for the prank involving teleportation magic on a massive scale. The logistics of organizing thirty students creates challenges, but excitement builds around the ambitious plan. Meanwhile, McGonagall asks Remus for permission to allow Sirius back on the Quidditch team, forcing Remus to confront lingering trauma from the Snape incident. Despite internal conflict, Remus agrees, demonstrating growth in his ability to separate past hurt from present decisions and his love for Sirius.

After the emotional hospital visit, Remus wants to get drunk, leading to a night at the Three Broomsticks with his friends. Sirius stays sober to look after everyone while they discuss future living arrangements and the upcoming prank. The evening becomes cathartic as Remus processes his feelings about Hope through alcohol and friendship. Sirius's caring behavior and Remus's drunken admission that Sirius is "magic" show their deepening emotional connection despite Remus's continued struggles with expressing feelings.