Brooding In My Bedroom

Yeah I know, who cares where I've been or what I've been doing. Just press play and clean for an hour idk. Or don't, whatever. Shit is mundane AND bleak. No song recs because I forgot.

This episode goes over an honest recap of the past week's celebratory experiences for my birthday. Five Songs for my Beautiful Brooding Babies​ Interiors by Peel Dream Magazine​ Deep Diving by After​ Black Metallic by Catherine Wheel​ More Than This by The Sweetest Ache​ Big Vacation by Dressy Bessy

On this episode we talk birthday plans, periods, bras, love island ending, supporting the creative endeavors of our friends (but especially mine lol)5 Songs For My Loyal Listeners1. Summer Son by Texas2.Love the One You're With by Stephen Stills3. Oranges and Lemons by Book Of Love4. Harley David Son Of A Bitch by Serge Gainsbourg5. Serious by Duran Duran

We're getting into current events with opinions you didn't ask for, thoughts on Labubu vs. Moncchichi, my skin care routine in tandem with my scaly eyelids, and most importantly Love Island USA. Sorry not sorry.Love Island Themed Tracks:1. Planet Pleasure by Moistbreezy 2. Money Is Everything by Addison Rae3. Sex Money Feelings Die by Lykke Li4. Uncle Ace by Blood Orange5. New Boys by Lust For Youth

In this episode we dive into life updates since last time as well as books I'm reading, movies I've recently seen, smooth brained opinions about entertainment at large, and some albums I think you should listen to.

On this episode we talk about the end of my seemingly endless job search, my single day vow of silence, anxiety (what else is new?), the pope, color analysis, and some recent movie viewings.

On this episode we do a bit of navel gazing (but what else is new?) as we explore the personality details of someone born on *my birthday* from the very fact based book "The Secret Language of Birthdays"

Sorry for the radio silence, but love you for continuing to listen. This episode catches you up on what's been going on for me since February. Five Songs:1.Missing Persons - Color In Your Life2.The Righteous Brothers - You've Lost That Loving Feeling3.Glenn Campbell - Wichita Lineman4.Michell Branch - Breathe5.The Pale Fountains - Thank You

Gawby rambles about her most recent crash out, the ongoing job search, Canada and Denmark, the ongoing identity crisis, Valentine's Day, and female friendships.

Gawby recaps the horrors of 2025. Yes it is still only January. Five Tracks: 1.Deep Forest - La Legende - Pt.2 2. Brian Jonestown Massacre - Not If You Were The Last Dandy On Earth 3.Saint Etienne - Only Love Can Break Your Heart 4.Revolver - Heaven Sent An Angel 5.Swervedriver - Never Lose That Feeling/Never Learn

In this "shittiest year ever" retrospective, Gawby talks about the cursed life events that really made her think, some positives of 2024, New Years resolutions (one can dream), ideal "Ins & Outs" for 2025 and her top 5 tracks of the year.

Xmas no-nos, Wicked, wine, books, movies, music, oh my.

Who even knows? Email your 2024 complaints to [email protected]. Top Five Songs of the Week: • Roxy Music - Same Old Scene • China Crisis - Strength Of Character • Talk Talk - Tomorrow Started • Born At Midnite - Hearts Working Overtime • Cass McCombs - Bum Bum Bum

Gawby drinks whisky and rambles about anxiety, new books, music recommendations, the need for creative social gatherings, look-alike contests, and more.

Gawby recaps the week, addresses newspaper and magazine hoarding, reads the Scorpio horoscope from cute girl indie newspaper, Le Petit 3, and takes the Meyers-Briggs test live on the pod. Submit stories, questions, and requests to [email protected] the official IG: @broodingpod

For this Halloween adjacent episode, Gawby shares a medical update and broods over her lack of a Halloween costume this year. She also shares some spooky real life experiences and plays you her short, 3-part, ghost story collection, Ghosts, Specters, & Other Entities to Fall in Love With (2020). Read Along: A Cemetery Girl At twilight, she approached the cemetery gates. Wrapping her aching fingers around the iron bars, she stared longingly at the gravestones. She allowed tears to trickle down her cheeks. She wished to be inside, amongst her friends.She listened closely for any sound that would bring her comfort. The silence was deafening, until she finally heard a faint wailing. A beautiful, tortured wailing.She knew that they longed for her too.The gates slowly opened for her and she entered the domain of the souls she dreamt of. Under a willow tree, a sleeping black dog awoke and stood up as she came closer.She stared into its mournful Stygian eyes, like black holes, that sucked her into a beckoning void. She began to follow the hound, trusting it, with every instinct she knew.They traveled passed the gravestones, smooth and cold, but vibrating with life just yet. A grand mausoleum, at the center of the cemetery, stood tall and proud against a purple sky and a glowing light of many colors pierced through the dusty windows and cob webs.The familiar scent of tobacco and wisteria twirled around her nose and invited her to come closer.Like the cemetery gates before, the doors to the tomb opened for her.They always would. A Guiding Light A burning, white flame. A guiding light that led her to the window in the dead of night. It floated above the sycamore trees and grew bigger and brighter the closer she came.Her curiosity drew her near, but she sensed that she had seen this flame before. Like an old childhood friend, coming back after years of separation. A low hum, grew louder, flooding her ears and her chest. The sound pulled her even closer and at its loudest point, everything went black. When she opened her eyes, she was lying in the garden. The moon was shining bright above her, illuminating her nightgown. With the passing seconds, the light grew brighter. It was the flame, not the moon.The effervescent hum that had seemingly bewitched her and brought her into the garden started up again only this time, it lifted her to her feet. Soon she was floating high above the trees. But she was not frightened. No, some how she knew that she was safe. She danced on the cool air, her bare feet landing on nothing and yet feeling more grounded than ever before. The flame grew larger and once more, it’s hum entranced the her. It’s song pulled her closer and the girl, finally remembering where she’d met this flame, opened her arms and darted for the burning light. When the two collided, a burst of embers shot in every direction. They both vanished. Into the light, she remained and she danced forever to the hum of her beautiful flame. An Ocean Burial In a pale, golden light, she stood at the edge of the seaside cliff. Her white, lace, smock flapped playfully with the misty breeze. The gulls flew overhead, reminding her of those brilliant summer afternoons she would spend on the beach with him. Her long, lost, but never forgotten, love.His name echoed in her mind with every crashing wave against the jagged rocks. At one point, she could’ve sworn he whispered into her eager ear. “I’ll be waiting” she thought she heard. It felt so real. So close and so warm.She tried to reach out and touch the memory that had tricked her, but only felt the delicate spray of the ocean down below. She knew she would never hold him again, at least, not in her present state of existence.It only took her a moment to decide. She backed away from the edge, took one last look at the note she’d written and placed it under a mossy stone. With that, she ran straight for the edge and leaped off of the cliff!As her body plunged into the deep blue her heart raced, but she resisted every urge to felt to fight. And then, she felt arms, arms he remembered all too well, wrapped tightly around her lifting her and carrying her out to sea.He had been waiting, and at last they were together again.

Gawby talks about her reason for starting a podcast, her origin story, her various attempts to make money in desperate situations, her celebrity crushes, the decline in body positivity/acceptance, and first world problems. Write in to [email protected] to submit anything you want me to talk about on the pod. Other media mentioned: Bitchfork: A music podcast by Gawby and Paul ⁠https://open.spotify.com/show/3xfCujZi53EUtPBplW2DRS?si=7c1fd532d0c64797⁠ Prophecy Party ⁠https://www.mixcloud.com/moonglowradio/prophecy-party-with-dj-venus-itrap-october-20-2024/⁠