Camera Experiments

In which I talk about why I never really read YA as a teen and why I keep the things I like to myself

I got into a small accident today and my brain wanted to have a little conversation about that.

I have no idea what I’m doing with my life anymore.

[email protected] many people have been sending me their scripts to read this year - and it’s only the second month of 2025… IM OFFICIALLY A FULL TIME PRODUCER GUYS!!

just a small celebratory thought for myself as a note of my amazing ability to make friends :)

Today we talk about a lot of things in a very low-energy space:- work- imposter syndrome- the importance of resting- self doubt- being sick- assertiveness + the end of wet noodleism- not saying sorry for having strong emotionsUhhh- other things I can’t remember but I think I talked about books

i presented a speech in elementary school and my life has never been the same

WITHOUT FURTHER ADOTHE ONE THING YOUVE ALL BEEN WAITING FORI ACTUALLY TALK ABOUT CAMERAS IN THIS ONE

cheese + light trauma talk go great together

lots of thoughts, goals, what passive aggressive bullies sound like, and PROJECTS.

Being yourself is such a complicated topic, this is me trying to wrap my head around it, and talking about why I love talking and why I hate parties and how that can't possibly make any sense... but who cares, we're all complicated beings anyway. yeah. i said film when talking about Waiting for Godot, i meant book, u know what I meant.

i did something! non-film related! it was very cool and i'm excited to do more things! all about burn-out and taking a "vacation" from taking vacations from work.

read the title.

List of things I accomplished this year: - Produced and finished production on JFA (largest project I've done so far) - Directed a short film on 35mm Kodak stock in Italy! - Got a full time job in a production office - Went to California & Nevada - Started Waddling Duck (my banner & soon to be Prod Co.) - Made and met a lot of new friends (from all over the world) - Signed on to 3 more large projects for 2024 - Learned to stay where my honesty and bluntness and openness and kindness and vulnerability are valued - Tried something new: SILENT REVUE - AD'd for the first time ever OSWALD TEASER: https://youtu.be/SCsbhYYoTYc?si=2XPApiLE7gPBnwpV OSWALD ORIGINAL: https://youtu.be/u0Hi779_Ta4?si=CJVGaOxxG9L-bnRg

What creative process, man, honestly, I feel like I'm bullshitting over here - my "creative process" has only just started to appear. I've always loved to write, and always loved to read, so it was a natural progression into journaling for, not only my mental health, but for documenting the ideas that popped up randomly throughout the day. Stories about my life, the traumas, the great points, scheduling my time to work on projects - it's all in there. Note: I mention making a Pt. 2 of my Bullies episode. I'm not sure what that will be about yet, but I intend on it being hopeful. Just for anyone wondering. :)

I started a Production Company, woo! In this episode, I talk about the positive feelings I've been having around filmmaking, going out to events, starting new and gigantic projects - and actually finishing some! I talk about what I've been up to recently as well. You can find me here: @wddlng on Instagram @renzaa on Letterboxd

Pretty sure I’ve talked about this before but it’s so important to be kind to other people, especially ourselves. So I’m saying it again. Be kind, don’t be an ass. And don’t shit on people for not being perfect. Feeling incapable feels inescapable, and as much as I did that rhyming to be funny, it’s a very serious and very real thing. It’s a dark and lonely place in your head when those thoughts swim around, so here’s my take on it.

It’s true, he didn’t, and his audacity is my fuel for why I refuse to make a sequel to Italy Part One. Haha I’m so funny with my little audiobook diary narrating my messy thoughts. I hope you can sift through this one because it’s a bit of…a lot of random stuff that doesn’t really tie together. But they were fresh thoughts I felt like talking out.

*Was testing out using my air pods as a microphone...I do not recommend it.* anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought anxious thought if you couldn't tell by that massive dump above, this is about anxiety.

When it comes to talking about how I feel I can either be a bit of a cactus or a full on waterfall. With what happened in Italy - definitely been a cactus, but I wanted to try to express everything in a way that made sense to me in a bit of an intimate space. Stop reading now, go listen.

It seems like common sense habits like gratitude just magically *disappear* as we get older so I wanted to talk about it and refresh our memories on how we should try to treat each other in life and especially in the workplace. However, I want to highlight that this is a rant and not exactly the type of episodes I want to make, but it makes sense in terms of why I have this podcast - which is to learn and experiment. I'm trying new things here and I hope you appreciate it. In an expression of my own gratitude, I want to say a big thank you to the people who have listened to my first few episodes. I never thought people would be interested enough to check this out, but I'm happy that you did. As a present for this wonderful thing, I am adding Q&A sections to my episodes! Not sure where the link will be posted but I think it autogenerates in this description. Try it out, see if you like it.

I hate podcasts and have a little that I want to say about it. I also go off topic, but I think a little context about myself is needed, especially as a way of showing why I started this and how I talk endlessly about nothing and forget the point of what I'm talking about. I have had about 10 people randomly say to me that I should start one of these, and I just don't get the hype - but I don't know, maybe my mind will change.

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