Cultured

Cozy late-night bed episode where I realize something big: what I thought was “depression” was actually something much different—and it runs deep.After your supportive comments on my last video, I traced where the pressure comes from… all the way back to my fundamentalist Mormon upbringing, perfectionism, and generational trauma around being “good enough.” This is me pulling the curtain back, naming the pattern, and committing to something brand new.If you relate to heavy self-judgment or perfection pressure, I’d love to hear what hit for you.I’m Calvin (Cultured Boy)—ex-fundamentalist Mormon with 44 siblings, rebuilding life through curiosity, creativity, and honesty.🙏 Like + subscribe for more real-time conversations like this.Follow me on instagram: instagram.com/calvinwayman0:00 🛏️ Cozy late-night “Ashamed” ep + bedtime upload • 0:45 🙏 Like/subscribe + quick “Cultured Boy” origin (44 siblings) • 1:41 🧩 Recap of last “depressed” ep + money/work context • 3:35 💡 Real root: not depression—shame • 4:09 🫂 Big lesson: honesty + community support = “maybe I’m okay” • 5:27 🕳️ “Where did the shame come from?” + deeper backstory setup • 6:00 🗽 NYC + Mormon vs fundamentalist Mormon context • 8:18 🧠 Joseph Smith / narrative reframing + polygamy thread • 12:55 🧨 Doctrine shift: LDS ends polygamy + kicks out polygamists • 16:10 🌟 “Not all bad”: beauty of community/family feeling • 18:06 🧬 Fundamentalism = trauma/rejection + persecution pattern repeats • 22:47 🔒 Insecurity → tighter control (rules, dress, hypervigilance) • 27:02 ♻️ Shame cycle + “can’t mess up” perfection wiring • 29:18 🏁 “Kingdom of God or nothing” = all-or-nothing pressure • 31:10 🎯 Dreams trigger the same “celestial kingdom” pressure wiring • 36:32 ❤️ Hidden good: a part of me deeply cares about living true • 38:32 🧊 Pattern interrupt: you’re still good—even when it’s not perfect • 39:43 🌍 Reframe: the pursuit is beautiful (Middle East doc leap) • 42:49 🔥 Commitment: break the shame pattern in me • 44:26 ✅ Wrap: accept process/outcomes → freedom to keep going • 44:53 🌙 Gratitude + “stay hungry, stay curious” sign-off

I think I’m depressed… and I’m recording anyway.This episode is unpolished on purpose — dishwasher running, no clean resolution, just me telling the truth in real time. I talk about leaving a fundamentalist Mormon cult, starting my life over, moving to New York City, making Hearts Unknown, going a year with almost no income, and the fear that taking a sales job again could bury the creative rhythm I’ve fought to find.If you’ve ever felt stuck between survival and your dream… I get it. And if this helps you feel even 1% less alone, that matters.Where are you at in your process right now? If anything resonated, tell me in the comments.Please like the video, subscribe to the channel, and follow me on Instagram: www.instagram.com/calvinwaymanTime Stamps0:00 — I think I’m depressed & hitting record anyway 🎙️1:03 — Why I need to speak even when I feel low 💭2:26 — Wanting to be real in a polished world 🪞3:23 — My story: leaving a cult & starting over 🌱4:46 — Moving to NYC, kids, rebuilding life 🗽6:10 — Quitting sales to chase something real 🎯7:46 — Going to Israel & making Hearts Unknown 🎥9:18 — Putting my art out… and it not popping 📉11:20 — Still believing in chasing what feels true ❤️12:53 — Feeling trapped, not knowing what’s next 😔14:07 — Debt, grinding, and questioning my path 🔄16:10 — Wanting people to feel less alone 🤝17:43 — The shame of making almost no money 😶‍🌫️18:21 — The “maybe” story & trusting the process 🌾22:43 — Choosing time with my kids over money 🎄25:06 — Fear of losing my creative rhythm 🎨27:37 — Optimism even when things feel dark ✨29:44 — Facing accountability with myself 🧭31:07 — What really matters: making meaningful things 💡33:16 — Pride in surviving a year with no income 🛠️34:05 — Dreaming of being the next Bourdain 🌍36:14 — Hoping money can fuel creativity, not kill it 🔥38:10 — Why structure hits differently after control 🧠40:24 — Protecting the creative part of me 🌿41:54 — If others can make it work, maybe I can too 🚀42:45 — Closing: stay real, stay curious 🤍

In this episode of Cultured Boy, I share my raw, unfiltered take on the Renee Nicole Good situation and what it reveals about how we process truth in a polarized culture. Drawing from my background growing up in a fundamentalist Mormon cult, I explain why I’m obsessed with questioning narratives instead of blindly choosing sides. As new footage and perspectives emerge, I walk you through my own changing reactions and the uncomfortable accountability that often gets ignored. This isn’t about defending a camp—it’s about confronting how fast tragedy happens and how certainty can become dangerous. My real aim here is simple: less tribalism, more truth, and a deeper commitment to seeing people as the full human beings that they are.Please like, comment, and most importantly--SUBSCRIBE! I'm new to YouTube and I'm trying to let the algo know that this ought to get pushed to more people. Your engagement with the content means a lot to me. You can also follow me on Instagram! I post there every week, and engage with people there. www.instagram.com/calvinwaymanTime Stamps: 0:00 Cultured Boy intro: ex-cult lens 👓0:13 Renee Nicole Good situation—my take 🚨0:27 Raw + unpolished on purpose 🎙️2:13 What happened: shot by ICE 💥2:49 My reaction roller coaster 🎢3:28 My background (how I scan angles) 🧠5:05 44 siblings + cult context 😳8:02 Polygamy history (why I exist) 🏛️16:18 “Narrative-locked” explained 🔒19:08 Politics predicts interpretations 🧩20:48 1st video: sick to my stomach 🤢24:37 New angle: did he get hit? 📹28:27 Body cam changes the read 😬29:44 “Drive, baby, drive.” Then shot 🗣️32:04 Hard take: accountability exists ⚠️39:02 Exit the binary: everyone’s a sibling 🤝44:17 I’m not here to tell you what to think 🧠49:45 Unearned certainty is dangerous 🧪51:30 Closing question: what’s your aim? 🎯56:38 NYC dispute story: empathy flips it 🌃1:04:33 My aims: truth + good for people 🌱1:04:46 Outro: stay curious ✌️

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What happens when a homeschooled comedy YouTuber and a former fundamentalist Mormon boy (also homeschooled) compare childhoods?Chaos. Laughter. Trauma bonding--and a surprising amount of sneaking out through windows.In this episode, Rae (@RaesWAYOverdoingIt) opens up about her intensely controlled upbringing—no pants, no dancing, no locked doors, no autonomy—and how she secretly built a creative empire anyway. From tracking her money in a ledger at 13 to filming 250 Amazon videos just to fund her escape, her story is WILD.We also talk about:• Calvin’s life in a literal polygamist cult (44 siblings, 4 moms)• How both of us had to sneak to be ourselves• The weird things parents punish when they’re threatened by your freedom• Why people hate when you succeed• Turning your most painful memories into art• Processing childhood control, religious fear, and the hunger for autonomy• And why dancing on a VidSummit stage somehow brought us togetherThis conversation goes deeper than either of us expected. It’s raw, hilarious, heartbreaking, and empowering.If you grew up homeschooled, religious, controlled, sheltered, or just “different”—you’re gonna feel this one.Welcome back to Cultured Boy. Let’s dive in.00:00 The “Cult of Homeschooled” Cold Open 🎒00:54 Calvin’s 44 Siblings Intro 🤯01:46 Rae vs Taylor Swift: The Numbers 📈02:40 We Met Dancing on Stage at VidSummit 🕺04:04 Homeschool Myths & Secret Nerd Superpowers 🧠07:28 Polygamist Schoolhouse vs Southern Homeschool 🏡11:29 Teenage Money Ledgers & Hustling for Freedom 💸18:02 Sneaking Jobs, Cash & Forbidden Wendy’s 🍔23:41 Why You Can’t Tell Everyone Your Good News 😶‍🌫️30:30 No Proms, No Dancing, No Pants: Control 101 💃🚫43:35 “I Started YouTube So People Would Finally Like Me” 📹49:12 Screwed Windows, No Locked Doors & Punishing Autonomy 🔒1:09:35 250 Amazon Videos & The Great Escape Car 🚗1:21:00 Turning Homeschool Trauma Into Comedy & Cash 🎭1:28:39 You’re Not Late—All the Rules Are Made Up ⏰

Ep 36: New York comedy isn’t just punchlines — it’s logistics, ego, nerves, and a whole lot of behind-the-scenes problem-solving.In this on-site Cultured Boy episode, I spend the night with my friend Zoe — a stand-up comedian and weekly show producer in Manhattan — as she’s juggling a fresh breakup, the politics of building a lineup, getting ready, barking for the show, and then actually getting on stage. What starts as a simple question (“what’s it really like trying to make it as a female comic in NYC?”) turns into something deeper: a late-night conversation about philosophy, “othering,” and the surprising moral mission that’s quietly driving everything she’s doing.It’s chaotic, funny, intimate, and real — a basement show, a full day in motion, and a reminder that you can’t judge someone’s life (or their act) by the cover.0:00 😵‍💫 Episode begins3:00 🏙️ Welcome to Zoe’s Manhattan producer lair6:10 🎭 The science (and politics) of a comedy lineup9:45 💄 “Putting on my face” — makeup as a job requirement12:50 📵 Post-breakup relapse fears + “lock it in publicly”15:40 🚩 The control/freedom clash that ended it18:50 🗣️ Barking the show + needing a co-producer22:05 🧠 Frankfurt School + “what makes a Nazi?” (casual)24:55 👖 Outfit spiral: leggings vs jeans vs being “heard”31:40 🍱 Microwave survival meal + pre-show jitters34:55 🚗 Car ride chaos + barking in the wild37:45 🎤 Zoe’s set: breakup jokes & “spermicide” opener41:00 💍 “Elope for Google benefits” + exclusivity fight44:40 🤔 Post-show: “so much effort… for what?”47:20 🐄 Philosophy → animal rights: the real engine50:05 ❤️ “I care so much” + the long game strategy52:45 😂 Comedy as a shield-dropper: why it’s effective55:35 🌊 Closing reflection: there’s always more to the storyFollow Zoe: Instagram - @zoecomedy

Ep 35: Cultured Boy is evolving.This episode is a late-night honesty drop about leaving a cult, rebuilding my life, and now reshaping this show into something more real, more cinematic, and way closer to the action.No more forcing episodes.Just the most honest, human, story-driven work I can make.If you’re into curiosity, culture, and people becoming themselves — you’re in the right place.Stay curious.Timestamps0:00 Cultured Boy is changing forever 🎭0:29 Leaving a cult & waking up like a fish in water 🐟1:11 Is the show ending? 🔄3:12 Cultured Boy becomes an organism, not a podcast 🧬3:35 Making it harder on purpose (artist mode) 🎥5:56 Anthony Bourdain energy enters the chat 🌍7:43 New confidence after leaving a worldview 🔥11:50 Only one person believed in me: me ✋12:17 Realizing: my gut was right ✔️16:24 Career plan: make a living being Calvin 🤯20:28 Acting like the AI apocalypse already happened 🤖23:00 I love going first on scary things 🥇26:11 Ending the weekly episode schedule ❌31:04 Society treats people like herd animals 🐄34:01 Choosing to be Calvin, not a copy 🦋36:59 Only creating what truly matters ✨39:11 Aversion to coercion (post-cult clarity) 🛑44:20 Goal: The realest content on the internet ⚡48:44 Deep gratitude for the whole journey 🙏54:47 Surprise twist: I love parkour 🐈‍⬛58:45 Rollerblading fear → breakthrough moment 🛼1:02:03 Next episodes: story-driven, up close 🎬1:06:33 Final invite: stay curious 🐾

Ep 34: In this Sleep Drunk episode I talk about quitting my day job, escaping a fundamentalist Mormon cult, making a documentary in Israel–Palestine, writing kids’ books for my daughter, and why I’m done chasing the “right way” to do YouTube—and only making art that actually matters to me. 🎥🪞💥TIME STAMPS:0:00 – Breaking all the rules 🎬0:25 – Who I am & the cult backstory 🥸2:02 – What this episode is really about 🧭3:09 – Confession: I hate following rules 🙅‍♂️4:12 – Realizing all rules are made up 💥6:18 – Quitting my day job to make films ✂️💼7:15 – Going to Israel & Palestine from pure curiosity 🌍✈️8:21 – Hearts Unknown: making a doc no one asked for ❤️‍🔥9:20 – Writing a children’s book for my daughter 📚11:12 – Art that matters to me first 🎨12:00 – Rebelling against thumbnails, titles & algorithms 📉📸13:24 – Real vs scripted in the age of AI 🤖✨16:19 – Redefining Cultured Boy as a show 🎭22:35 – Wanting to capture real NYC life 🌆24:35 – Making episodes 10x harder on purpose 🏋️‍♂️27:49 – Remembering little-kid Calvin the artist 👦🖍️32:14 – New children’s book with Belle: The Last Mirror 🪞37:18 – Betting on the long, uncertain road of creating 🎲38:06 – I can’t do anything that isn’t my thing 🔗✂️40:00 – Authority vs elders (and why it matters) 👑🧓41:50 – Appreciating Robert Greene 📖43:44 – Rethinking Jordan Peterson 🧠47:20 – Discovering Jung & Nietzsche and the shadow 🕳️52:00 – Mormonism, repression & extreme shadow eruptions 🧨55:43 – Shifting from “being good” to being whole 🧩❤️56:12 – Role models of realness: Rogan, Peterson, etc. 🎙️57:59 – I don’t want to care what you think (kind of) 😅59:59 – Why realness is the only long game ♾️1:00:54 – Sleepy outro & what’s next 🌙

Episode 33: 11/11. I used to roll my eyes at “meaningful numbers.”Then when my dad was passing, everything changed.In this time-capsule episode I share why 11:11 won’t let me go: leaving a fundamentalist Mormon cult, standing up to my dad, two years of distance, two years of honest reconnection after his stage-4 diagnosis, and the moment that changed everything. It’s about anger, boundaries, forgiveness—and betting on honest art over the algorithm.Time Stamps:0:00 — 11/11 upload + why 11:11 keeps finding me ✨0:45 — Quick intro: I’m Calvin, aka Cultured Boy 👋2:35 — Deconstructing the cult = waking from The Matrix 🟩4:49 — My dad: complicated, loved by all 45 of us ❤️‍🩹6:07 — Violence growing up: the 17-year-old curfew beating 🥊7:43 — Therapy, anger, and a vow to stop abuse 🚫10:18 — Barbecue showdown: “Cute arms,” sarcasm escalates 🧨16:17 — Drink thrown; I block a punch: “Don’t ever [__] touch me” 🛑23:20 — Front-yard face-off: naming the violence out loud ⚡️26:20 — “Never come back.” I take space—and hold my line 🧭33:00 — The pattern: sweeping things under the rug 🧹34:31 — One text that mattered: “Thank you” from my mom 💌40:27 — Two years of distance; seeing the man, not the tyrant 👀44:00 — Returning for dinner: short sleeves, full-circle moment 🌀47:01 — Stage-4 cancer: reaching out right before I knew 🩺48:56 — Two honest years: talks, apologies, humanizing him 🗣️52:55 — “Which one would you give back?”—a practical gut-check 🧩54:39 — The last visit; he wakes: “Calvin, you made it.” at 11:11 ⏱️1:01:21 — Locked out at the very end; choosing peace anyway 🕊️1:03:03 — Why 11:11 now sticks; dreams of my dad 🌙1:05:22 — Your turn: What did this evoke in you? 💭1:06:06 — Sign-off: stay hungry, stay curious—follow the white rabbit 🐇

Episode 32: Welcome to another Sleep-Drunk episode of Cultured Boy — the late-night, unfiltered version where I hit record when I should be going to bed. 💤In this one, I talk about what it really takes to make the kinds of decisions that look impossible from the outside — leaving a job, a marriage, a religion, or an old version of myself. I share the fears I faced walking away from a fundamentalist Mormon cult (yep, the one I was born into with 44 siblings), how I built a new life from scratch in New York City, and why the scariest choices are often the most honest.If you’ve ever felt stuck between what’s safe and what’s true — this episode’s for you.💬 Topics: fear, courage, reinvention, leaving religion, creativity, self-trust, New York City, authenticity.✨ Subscribe if you’re into deep, honest storytelling that explores how curiosity can change a life.#CulturedBoy #CalvinWayman #SelfDiscovery #Authenticity #LeavingReligion #Cults #Courage #LifeDesign #NYC #PodcastTIMESTAMPS: 0:00 Sleep-Drunk Truths ☕️0:11 Making Impossible Decisions 💭1:21 From Cult Kid to New Yorker 🗽3:10 A Time Capsule for Future Me ⏳5:32 Why Fear Isn’t the Enemy 😨8:04 The Leap: Quitting My Job ✂️10:08 Fear vs. Bigger Fear ⚖️12:37 The 10-Year Test ⌛️15:01 Make the Decision, Then Make It Right ✅17:54 Expansive or Contracting? 🌌20:44 Growing Your Zone of Control 🌱25:19 10% to 11% Progress ➕28:58 The Hardest Decision: Leaving the Religion 🔥33:00 Breaking the Spell 🧠37:02 Questioning Everything 🤔41:14 One Life That’s Truly Yours 💫47:36 Gratitude for the Journey 🙏52:59 The Radar of Awareness 🛰️55:01 Moving to New York ✈️1:00:35 Normalizing the Impossible 🌆1:05:09 Full-Time Creator Life 🎬1:07:15 Returning Home, Feeling the Contrast 🪞1:09:03 Cults, Culture & Curiosity 🌀1:10:50 You’re Capable of More Than You Realize 💪1:11:49 Closing Thoughts & Goodnight 🌙

Episode 31: What happens when you grow up with 44 siblings in a Fundamentalist Mormon cult—and realize the whole world might just be...a cult?In another raw, late-night (after 2am) “sleep-drunk” episode in New York City, I talk about what it’s like to wake up from a belief system, how cult documentaries miss the real story, and the one simple practice that can keep any of us free from cults.Ready to dive in? Always follow the white rabbit.Follow me on Instagram, TikTok, and X — @calvinwayman⏱️ YouTube Chapters0:00 – Sleep-drunk honesty returns 🌙1:04 – Building a little “culty” community 🌀2:03 – Wait…44-siblings? 😳7:17 – Turning the Wayman name cool again 😎7:47 – Realizing I was born into a cult 🧠9:46 – The mind-fuck of doubt, while in a cult 🪞10:18 – Why cult documentaries miss it 🎥12:50 – The fish story: “what is water?” 🐠13:52 – You are the fish? (Hint: we all are) 🌊17:04 – The good news: you’re not alone 💛19:20 – Cultiness is everywhere 🌍24:50 – Doing “the right thing” = cult rule #1 ⚖️27:44 – Beyond religion: politics, media, academia 🧩29:35 – The gift of seeing through illusions 👁️31:42 – The danger of missing the good 🌤️35:22 – Why I still love America 🇺🇸36:39 – Higher education as a modern cult 🎓47:55 – The hardest, bravest thing: curiosity 💫49:33 – We’re all believing some BS right now 💩53:04 – Why America’s core values still matter 🗽56:36 – Leaving despite eternal punishment 🔥58:00 – The human story of leaving ❤️1:00:46 – How to avoid being trapped in a cult: state the obvious 🪩1:03:05 – Replace righteousness with honesty 💬1:05:17 – Mormonism is a cult—and full of good people 🤝1:06:16 – We’re all participating in the system 🔄1:07:02 – Honesty is freedom 🕊️1:07:30 – The next chapter of Cultured Boy 🎬

this raw, sleep-drunk episode, I get real about everything — from growing up with 44 siblings in a fundamentalist Mormon cult to leaving it all behind, betting on myself in New York City, and re-learning love, sex, and self-trust. I talk about following what feels real, the evolution of Cultured Boy, the future of Hearts Unknown, and why honesty — even when it wrecks your life — is the only way to truly live.💭 Real talk. No script. Just truth.Stay curious. Stay real.#CulturedBoy #CalvinWayman #ExMormon #Honesty #NYCFollow me on IG and TikTok: @calvinwaymanCollab or hire me to speak: [email protected] Chapters: 00:00 — Sleep-Drunk & Honest 😴00:14 — “Wait… You Have 44 Siblings?!” 🤯03:16 — The Story of Starting Over ✨06:57 — “My Gut Was Right.” 🧭09:04 — The Moment I Left the Religion 🎧12:05 — The Courage to Question Your Own Beliefs ❓18:04 — Living on Credit & Faith 💳24:41 — What My Dad’s Death Taught Me 💔26:16 — The Bet I’m Making on Myself 🎰29:14 — How New York Healed this Fundamentalist Boy 💫32:11 — What’s Next for Cultured Boy 🎙️33:07 — My Dream for Hearts Unknown 🌍37:01 — Every Human I’ve Met Is Interesting 👁️38:33 — Every Human I’ve Met Is Interesting, Growing Up with 44 Different Personalities 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦40:15 — Finding the Universal in the Personal 🌐41:48 — The Need for Real Human Connection 🤝42:56 — Upcoming Episodes I’m Excited About 🔥44:12 — Let’s Talk About Sex & Dating 💋45:24 — From Arranged Marriage to Real Love ❤️48:55 — Learning That Sex Is Normal 😅50:59 — “It’s Never About the Dishes” 🍽️53:11 — Working Through Shame & Sexual Healing 🌙56:54 — The Two Relationships I’m In 💍59:04 — What I Actually Want in Love 💌1:02:59 — The Kind of Love I’m After 💞1:05:09 — The Magic of Not Forcing Life ✨1:08:10 — Love as Synergy: 1 + 1 = ∞ ♾️1:09:42 — Curiosity About Conflict (and Global Ones) 🌍1:10:02 — The Trump Peace Treaty Surprise 🕊️1:16:20 — Rethinking Trump as a Negotiator 🤔1:18:10 — Peace Isn’t the Goal—Agreement Is 🤝1:20:31 — Final Thoughts & Gratitude ❤️

happens when you sit down with your 8-year-old self? 🎧In this deeply personal episode, I revisit an old cassette tape from 1996—a recording of me as a kid growing up in a fundamentalist Mormon family with one dad, four moms, and 44 siblings.I sing along with my 8-year-old self for the first time in nearly 30 years… and what unfolds is part time capsule, part therapy session, and part revelation about authenticity, curiosity, and becoming who we really are.I explore childhood innocence, trauma, creativity, religion, money, freedom, and even the Israel-Palestine conflict—because all of it connects back to one question:👉 How do we return home to who we really are?If you’ve ever felt like life made you lose yourself somewhere along the way…this one’s for you.Follow me on IG: @calvinwaymanFollow me on TikTok: calvinwaymanHire me to speak! [email protected] Stamps:00:00 Meeting my 8-year-old self 🎧02:20 The return to childhood 👦06:00 The life of a fundamentalist kid 🏡09:00 What my childhood song revealed 💭10:30 When I saw my dad hit my mom 💔12:00 The “A++” lesson that changed my life 🧠15:00 Finding of adventure 🌲17:00 Climbing trees & earwig horror 🪳19:00 My first crush… on my dad’s new wife’s sister 😳22:00 Pretending to be asleep 😴27:00 Would 8-year-old me approve of life now? 👀30:00 Returning to authenticity 🧩34:30 The ordinary can become extraordinary 🌟36:00 Why being yourself feels risky 😬38:00 Are humans really “born broken”? 🤔40:00 Aligning values = finding God 🔥44:00 Why I chose New York over safety 🗽48:00 The story that changed my view on money forever 😱52:00 The event that changed my life forever 🚀55:00 Don’t believe anything that disempowers you ⚡56:30 The win-win mindset 🔄58:00 Trusting the unknown 🌌59:30 Israel-Palestine reflections ✡️☪️1:01:00 Can humanity finally get along? 🌏1:02:00 Coming home to my real self 🕊️

What if everything holding you back isn’t the world…it’s how you treat YOU?In this raw and eye-opening conversation with Justin Nault, we dive deep into self-love, authenticity, shadow work, and childhood conditioning — and how they shape everything from your relationships and health to your biggest dreams.You’ll learn why forgiving yourself might be the most powerful thing you ever do, how to stop chasing “enoughness,” and why the fastest path to growth is not grinding harder… but removing the invisible blocks that keep you stuck.Whether you’ve struggled with self-judgment, people-pleasing, impostor syndrome, or the feeling you’re “not there yet,” this episode will give you a roadmap to love yourself fully — and watch the rest of your life change. 💫FOLLOW JUSTIN:YouTube:  @JustinNault2  Instagram: JustinNaultOfficialFOLLOW CALVIN:Instagram: CalvinWaymanTikTok: CalvinWaymanX: CalWaymanTimestamps: 00:00 – What if everything we do is driven by love? ❤️03:40 – “44 Siblings?!” My Wild Origin Story 🤯07:10 – Can a rockstar really become a self-love coach? 🎸10:40 – What happens when your “dream life” makes you miserable? 🍺14:10 – Could food actually save a baby’s life? 🍼17:40 – How did a homemade formula turn into a business empire? 🧪21:10 – Can psychedelics make you quit the life that isn’t yours? 🌿24:40 – Is authenticity just another word for self-love? 🪞28:10 – Are we all chasing legitimacy without realizing it? 🏆31:40 – Why is unconditional love so damn hard? 💗35:10 – What’s really keeping you from your “future self”? 🛤️38:40 – Spotting ‘Blockages:’ The Water You Swim In 💧42:10 – Could talking to your mirror change your life? 🪩45:40 – Is forgiving yourself the most radical thing you can do? 🕊️49:10 – What if withholding the truth is just another form of lying? 🚧52:40 – How do you ask for the love you actually need? 💬56:10 – What if reality is just a mirror reflecting you? 🔄59:40 – Why explain yourself when self-love needs no explanation? 🥗1:03:10 – Are you performing for love that never touches you? 🎭1:06:40 – What if love was a daily practice, not a mystery? ☀️1:10:10 – Can two tiny bedtime rituals rewire your mindset? 🛏️1:13:40 – What do your 100 wants reveal about your limits? ✍️1:17:10 – When should unconditional love not mean unconditional access? 🚪1:20:00 – Wrap: Choose Love as the Default—Everywhere 💫

This story is FASCINATING!!! If you think you know Fundamentalist Mormonism (FLDS) or Warren Jeffs, think again. This gets to the deeply personal insight the world of America's Most Wanted Cult Leader. Follow me on TikTok and Instagram: @calvinwayman00:00 — “What to expect, getting into the episode--meet Jaden Jeffs” 🔥08:00 — FLDS vs LDS: Who Warren Jeffs really is (and how big this got) 🧨16:00 — When “play” was a sin: childhood without games + the Cave moment 🕳️24:00 — “Work hard, obey, maybe you’ll be saved” — the psychology of worthiness ⛓️32:00 — Three-day fasts & 24/7 prayers to free the prophet — inside the ritual 🙏40:00 — “Only 10M left in the US” — meetings, fear, and a crack in Denver traffic 🚗48:00 — Warren Jeff's public shaming from the pulpit: names, accusations, and terror of being next 🧱56:00 — The day his mom was “named” — grief, loyalty tests, and soul math 💔1:04:00 — Exile orders: houses of hiding, Short Creek demotions, and control 🧭1:12:00 — Touching the “devil’s ground”: first internet search… and nothing exploded 💻1:20:00 — YouTube at 3am, deleting phone plans, and the curiosity spiral 📺1:28:00 — The bike loophole: “better to ride than to sin online,” first taste of play 🚲1:36:00 — Human nature on display: revenge, cutoffs, and getting labeled apostate 🧪1:44:00 — Wi-Fi on, floodgates open: binging every FLDS doc and connecting dots 🌊1:50:00 — How to break a spell: “state the obvious,” spot cultiness everywhere 🧠

I grew up with 44 siblings in a fundamentalist Mormon cult. In this episode of [Cult]ured Boy, I react to Johnny Harris’s viral investigation into how the Mormon Church built a $293 billion empire. I share what it stirs up for me—stories, manipulation, rejection, polygamy, money, and why narratives shape human lives. This is about Mormonism, fundamentalism, cult dynamics, family, and ultimately freedom.Follow me on TikTok and IG:@calvinwaymanTimestamps00:00 – Come on in + incense 🚪00:18 – Why Johnny’s new Mormon $$$ doc hit me 🎬00:54 – “This should win an Emmy” 🏆01:42 – Leaving makes the “not true” feel obvious 🧠03:00 – The golden book assumption → everything else 📖04:41 – Stories serve purposes, not reality 🎭06:11 – The First Vision (revision & timing) 🌲07:54 – 1886 revelation and fundamentalist echoes 📜09:59 – Women in my community are finding their voice 👩‍🦰11:07 – Motivated narratives (assess who benefits) 🧰12:21 – Why I went to the war zone for Hearts Unknown 🌍13:13 – Who I am: [Cult]ured Boy, 44 siblings 👋14:02 – Stories target the believers you need 🎯16:30 – Messiness over certainty; kick the pedestals 🌀17:36 – Love the people, critique the machine 💛19:47 – LDS as franchise + constant rebrands 🏢22:03 – Family values… and men taking credit 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦23:16 – Why I keep “[Cult]ured Boy” (reclaiming “cult”) 🧢24:59 – NYC gave me breath + agency 🗽29:28 – Anger, arranged marriage, community flip 😤33:09 – Betrayal & rejectionism across sects 🔪35:33 – “Nicest people, eats its young?” sect splits 🐣49:01 – “Give it to priesthood” → power hijack 🥖50:58 – The polygamy math problem ➗53:16 – When prophecies fail: blame the faithful 🔁56:37 – “Not enough girls because men lack faith” 🔒58:51 – People are the magic; credit gets hijacked ✨1:01:31 – “Bought and paid for” rhetoric 🧾1:02:08 – Validation + the pain of deconstruction ✅1:04:36 – Principles vs tribes (truth-seeking) 🧭1:05:51 – Skin in the game; care about the why 🏃1:07:42 – Go watch Johnny’s video (seriously) 📺1:08:00 – Owning [Cult]ured Boy; ditch the script 📝1:09:23 – Nobody has it figured out → charlatans thrive 🌪️1:10:33 – Outro: subscribe; Jaden Jeffs soon—“Trust your discontent. Stay hungry. Stay curious.” 🙏

In this episode, I give tips for self care, especially with the wildness of the world.

Charlie Kirk was assassinated in Utah during a Turning Point USA event. In this emergency episode, we break down what happened, why it matters more than you might think, and what it reveals about America’s growing political divide. And...what we can do about it. From the shooting details to the cultural fallout, we ask: what does this mean for the future of the country?Timestamps:00:00:00 — Who this is for (left, right, everyone) 🎯00:00:25 — “Emergency” setup + meet Anthony 👋00:01:07 — What happened & where (UVU, Utah) 📍00:02:08 — Calvin’s background: fundamentalist roots, 44 siblings 🧬00:03:04 — Disagreeing with Charlie, still calling it a tragedy 🕯️00:05:02 — Rage-bait, campus clips, why people get heated 🔥00:06:10 — The line we can’t cross: is that ever “deserved”? ❌00:07:08 — Shooter basics at time of recording 🎯00:10:52 — Not teams—humans: the core lens 🧍00:15:12 — Tribalism & plausible deniability (quiet cheers) 😬00:21:06 — 9/11 memory: rallying as one 🇺🇸00:29:04 — Labels, Muslims, and forgetting we’re human first 🕌00:33:02 — Absolutism vs relativism: why labels stick ⚖️00:37:59 — Joseph Smith, shame cycles, and martyrdom 📜00:47:04 — “The Last Mirror”: intolerance of reflection 🪞01:03:12 — A plea to Charlie’s supporters: extend grace when tables turn 💗01:10:59 — Bottom line: Life, Liberty, Pursuit 📌Would love to hear from you! How are you holding up with this?

I grew up in a fundamentalist Mormon cult—1 dad, 4 moms, 44 siblings—and finally escaped after 30 years. In this episode, I break down the hidden playbook cult leaders like Joseph Smith and Warren Jeffs use to control people…and how those same tactics show up in politics and power today.This isn’t just about religion—it’s about spotting manipulation anywhere it hides. And at the end, I’ll give you the single safeguard that can keep anyone from getting swallowed by a cult.👉 Subscribe for more raw stories, breakdowns, and life after the cult.👉 Drop a 1, 2, or 3 in the comments so I know who’s watching.Stay hungry. Stay curious,– Calvin[Cult]ured BoyTimestamps00:00:00 — Listen Closely--I Escaped a Cult 🔥00:00:14 — 44 Siblings, 4 Moms. Yep. 👀00:02:00 — Going Beyond the BITE Model 📖00:02:32 — Who This Video Is For 🎯00:05:37 — Two “Prophets,” One Pattern 🌀00:06:16 — Warren Jeffs: How He Held Power ⛓️00:07:02 — The Joseph Smith Link (Brace Yourself) ⚡00:09:02 — LDS vs. Fundamentalists: The Split ✂️00:12:04 — Mormons Becoming More Likable by Becoming Less Mormon 😅00:15:24 — Step One of Cult-Building: The Narrative 📝00:16:10 — Reality Doesn’t Care About Your Story 🌍00:17:55 — The Master Trick: Change the Meaning 🔄00:20:55 — A Chilling Night in Colorado City 🌙00:24:31 — Blame as a Control System 🎯00:26:59 — Weaponized Shame 101 🪤00:31:01 — Tyrants All the Way Down 👑00:42:09 — Polygamy as “Holy”: The Switch 💍00:43:49 — Angel with a Sword (Convenient Revelation) ⚔️00:50:42 — Distrust Yourself; Trust the Leader 🧠00:59:56 — The Antidote to All Things Culty: State the Obvious 🛡️01:04:20 — Find One Safe Person and Say It Out Loud🤝01:09:30 — Final Charge: Stay Hungry, Stay Curious 🚀What part hit you hardest? Drop it in the comments 👇

In this episode, I travel to Harlem to try authentic African cuisine (fufu + jollof rice) for the very first time (something I definitely could not have done just a few years ago). It’s messy, it’s wild, and it pushes me way outside my comfort zone. But guess what, I’m all for it! What shocked me most wasn’t just the food—it was what the experience taught me about culture, curiosity, and what it really means to be free.👀 Watch to see how this food felt “naughty,” why it reminded me of my childhood in a cult, and how trying something new can completely change your perspective.👉 Drop a comment: What’s the most “forbidden” food you’ve ever tried?👍 Like if you want to see me explore more cultures through food.🔔 Subscribe so you don’t miss the next adventure.Follow me: Instagram: @calvinwaymanTikTok: @calvinwaymanX: @calwayman#ForbiddenFoods #CulturedBoy #fufu Timestamps00:00:00 I Could’ve Never Done This a Few Years Ago 🔥00:00:26 Headed to Harlem for… THIS 🤭00:01:04 No Forks. No Spoons. Just Hands. 🍽️00:01:25 “This Food Feels Like a Boob” 😂00:04:56 Can I Turn My Food Into a Spoon? 🥄00:05:40 My Raw Reaction Says It All 🤯00:06:15 “This Feels Naughty!” 😈00:07:54 The Messiest Bite Yet 🦴00:10:00 The First “Cultured” Food I Ever Tried 🍣00:11:17 Matt’s Childhood vs Mine… Worlds Apart ⚖️00:12:03 What It’s Like Growing Up With 44 Siblings 🏠00:13:02 Married for Eternity… ⛓️00:16:24 Sneaking Pizza Was a Sin 🍕00:27:04 The One Game That Saved My Sanity 🏀00:33:00 What MDMA Taught Me About Love ❤️00:45:14 Why I Fell in Love With New York 🗽00:57:11 Touching the Hot Stove for the First Time 🔥01:02:10 My First Taste of Award-Winning Jollof 🏆01:03:38 Five Stars for Accra Express ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

What happens when two cousins grow up just minutes apart—yet never meet because of religion?In this episode, I finally sit down with Sam Zitting (from Growing Up in Polygamy ) for the very first time. Despite being family, we spent over 30 years completely unaware of each other. Why? Because our families were split apart by different branches of fundamentalist Mormonism.👉 We unpack how Mormon history led to that split, what it was like to grow up with 44 siblings vs. 35 siblings, and how belief systems can divide—even across the same bloodline.👉 We explore the doctrine, the history, the “great split,” and the very human cost of growing up in isolated religious communities.👉 Most of all, we reflect on what it means to leave behind certainty and step into curiosity, freedom, and self-discovery.This conversation is deeply personal, but it’s also universal. Whether you’ve left a religion, a relationship, or just the “script” you were handed—you’ll see reflections of your own journey here.📺 Watch Sam’s channel here: YouTube.com/@GrowingUpinPolygamy✦ Subscribe for more stories like this: YouTube.com/@officialcalvinwayman✦ Follow me on Instagram: @calvinwayman⏱️ Timestamps00:00:00 – Meeting family for the 1st time ✈️00:00:31 – Wait…we’re actually first cousins?! 🤯00:01:40 – 44 siblings vs. 35 siblings 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦00:02:33 – Mormonism & why polygamy mattered 💍00:06:01 – Celestial law & multiple heavens ☁️00:07:04 – Joseph Smith’s angel with a sword ⚔️00:09:25 – The Manifesto: when polygamy “ended” 📜00:12:58 – The fork in the road: LDS vs. Fundamentalists 🛤️00:16:55 – Our great-grandfather & the Council of Friends 👴00:20:17 – “Milk & honey” vs. the “meat” of the gospel 🍯🥩00:23:06 – Who has the authority? 🔑00:27:34 – The 1886 revelation that sparked the split ✨00:29:04 – Leroy Johnson: the beloved prophet 🙏00:32:28 – Keep Sweet, Pray, and Obey 🕊️00:36:52 – The split: A Council vs. One-Man rule ⚖️00:42:06 – Apostates, fear & cutting off ties 🚷00:48:04 – Growing up “over the hill” ⛰️00:53:31 – Why we heard such different stories 🔍00:59:38 – Alma Timpson’s fiery sermons 🔥01:03:12 – Modern leaders: fear & damnation 😡01:06:00 – Why we would’ve feared talking 😨01:07:58 – Warren Jeffs takes control 🏚️01:09:47 – Sons of Perdition & eternal hell 🔥😈01:12:26 – Leaving: trusting my own path 🏃‍♂️01:15:24 – Evil spirits & dedicated buildings 👻01:18:49 – Realizing how similar we really were 🤝01:20:22 – Why we never met until YouTube 🎥01:25:01 – Sam hasn’t seen his mom in 16 years! 💔01:28:54 – Meeting outsiders ruined us, in the best way 😀01:32:02 – Living life from the inside-out 🌱01:33:09 – The first taste of freedom 🕊️01:38:00 – From missions to deconstruction 🌍01:40:05 – “I don’t know” ✨01:42:39 – Curiosity vs. certainty 🧠01:44:03 – Final reflections: life, freedom, curiosity 🌎

BECOME MY FAVORITE!The boats have been burned! I've dedicated my life to storytelling and serving an audience I love--reminding us about the best parts that make us human. If you dig what I'm doing here and want to help spread the mission to expand what's possible, support here: PayPal.me/calvinwayman. You rock! Now let's get into today's episode!-How does someone go from hustling at dead-end jobs to performing in one of the biggest Broadway shows ever?In this episode, I'm sitting down with "Elder McKinley" of the hit show on Broadway...the Book of Mormon. He also goes by PJ Adzima, in the real world. This is hands down my favorite episode so far on [Cult]ured Boy. It's relevant "as fck." It's real. It's raw. AND...incredibly useful.I'd love to hear your thoughts in the comments! I'll be reading every one (except of course if for some reason the YouTube algorithm blows it up and this somehow gets thousands and thousands of views and then thousands of comments that make it hard to keep up--but no matter what, I promise to give my bestest effort, no matter the number of comments, to interact with everyone)This is gonna sound cheesy but I mean it: I love you guys. This show is my baby, thank you for trusting me with a slice of your day, I don't take it for granted. I want to continue to bring you the most entertaining, relevant, useful, and still COMPLETELY HUMAN conversations in all of culture. The reason this is my favorite so far is I feel like it stacks multiple of those layers all at once.PS: If you're a YouTuber and you want to collab, hit me up! If you're hosting an event and you need a speaker who is a "Bubble Expert," I'm your guy. I can help your company behave more "AI-proof" by breaking out of cult-y thinking. (May also be helpful for attendance to mention the "ex-cult" or "44 siblings" thing)PS#2: If you know anyone at CNN (or whoever owns Anthony Bourdain's show "Parts Unknown," I'd love to have a conversation with someone about collaborating with my show "Hearts Unknown"--getting deeper into the human stories around culture, and paying homage to the guy who did it best: Anthony Bourdain. RIP .Ultimately, thank you for being here. It means the world. Be well! -Calvin. FOLLOW ME ON INSTAGRAM: calvinwaymanFOLLOW ME ON TIKTOK: calvinwaymanFOLLOW ME ON X: calwaymanWATCH MY FILM: HEARTS UNKNOWN   • Hearts Unknown: My Unscripted Journey Insi...  FOLLOW PJ!INSTA: pjadzYOUTUBE: ⁨@pjadz⁩TIMESTAMPS:00:00:00 – Setting the Stage 🎬00:01:36 – Meet PJ Adzima 🙌00:02:54 – Conan O’Brien Inspiration 🎤00:05:07 – Playing the Book of Mormon in Salt Lake City 🎭00:06:18 – The Hidden Polygamy Story 🔒00:09:21 – The Secret Mormon Split 🤫00:12:00 – Fundies vs. LDS 📜00:15:28 – Family Feuds & Burnout 🥵00:17:27 – Life Beyond Religion 🌌00:20:51 – Puritanism & Scandal 📖00:25:24 – Discovering Theater at 8 🎭00:29:56 – From Loneliness to Finding Your Community 🗽00:36:03 – When Life Isn’t Flowing 🌊00:40:07 – 11 Years to Broadway 🌱00:44:12 – Why Art = Athletics 🏋️00:48:02 – Broadway as Blue-Collar 🔨00:52:00 – Passion vs. Profession ❤️‍🔥00:53:33 – PJ’s WILD Mormon Story 🎭01:02:15 – Paying It Forward 🤝01:05:03 – Why ‘Being a Good Hang’ Is EVERYTHING 🎉01:07:29 – Betting on Yourself 🎲01:12:11 – ‘Jack Black’ Energy 🤘01:14:13 – Facing Fear: Call to Adventure 🗡️01:17:35 – The Hero’s Journey 🛡️01:19:16 – PJ Goes Digital 💻01:20:52 – Big Announcement!! 🚀01:20:58 – Calvin’s 44 Siblings 🤯01:25:11 – Final Takeaways ✨

Ready for the real and the raw? Ready for something different? I'm sharing my most embarrassing stories and the messy reality of starting over. It's all about personal growth and facing those awkward moments!This will be the most human thing I've ever published on YouTube. Thank you for being here! Please like, subscribe and comment!FOLLOW ME ON INSTAGRAM: calvinwaymanFOLLOW ME ON TIKTOK: calvinwaymanFOLLOW ME ON X: calwaymanWATCH MY FILM: HEARTS UNKNOWNhttps://youtu.be/DHkY6SUNFlsTIMESTAMPS: 00:00:00 – The Most Embarrassing Episode 😳Calvin sets the stage: why he’s posting this raw, unfiltered video despite fear.00:02:15 – Embracing Full Transparency 🪞Why vulnerability and honesty are essential for real connection.00:04:16 – Growing Up in a Cult ⛪️Introduction to Calvin’s upbringing in fundamentalist Mormonism, with 44 siblings and strict control.00:07:19 – Quitting My Day Job 💼🚪Taking the leap into full-time content creation and the financial struggles that followed.00:10:05 – $110,000 in Debt 💳Coming clean about the financial weight of chasing the dream.00:11:21 – Why I’m Risking Everything 🎲Tying the YouTube plunge back to leaving the religion and fighting for freedom.00:15:20 – The Crack in My Beliefs 🪨⚡️College, philosophy, and the moment Plato’s Cave made Calvin question everything.00:20:11 – Facing Eternal Damnation 🔥The terrifying stakes of leaving fundamentalist Mormonism.00:27:19 – Choosing My Own Life 🛤️Why Calvin walked away from an arranged marriage, family expectations, and certainty.00:33:24 – Freedom vs. Security 🕊️🔒Struggles with money, authenticity, and refusing to go back to a “safe” job.00:39:55 – Being a Dad From Afar 👨‍👧‍👦The challenges of raising kids while living in New York, including a bittersweet story about a loose tooth.00:50:45 – Living With Doubt, Choosing Authenticity 🤔❤️How doubt lingers even after leaving, and why Calvin bets on authenticity as his security.00:59:01 – Looking Ahead 🚀What comes next: values, creative vision, and building a YouTube channel grounded in what’s real.

Welcome to Episode 18: two ex-Mormons hanging out—but don’t worry, it’s only mildly painful. I’m sitting down with my friend Spencer to untangle the often confusing world of Mormonism. Spencer grew up LDS (think: standard-issue Mormons), while I was raised FLDS (but not the Warren Jeffs one—seriously, calm down. Yes there are more than one. See, told you it was confusing).We’ll swap stories, compare notes, and probably realize we both had some pretty epic times singing Mormon songs. It’s part awkward, part eye-opening, and surprisingly funny. Join us as we laugh through the cringe, clear up some misconceptions, and maybe even learn a thing or two… or at least make you grateful for your own childhood.Follow me on Instagram!@calvinwaymanWATCH MY FILM: HEARTS UNKNOWNhttps://youtu.be/DHkY6SUNFls

What do Israelis really think about the conflict? How do they really feel about Palestinians? In episode 17 of [Cult]ured Boy, I dive into the true feelings of an Israeli Jew. Is there a solution? Or is there just resentment that’s made it impossible to move forward? Follow me on Instagram!@calvinwaymanMISTAKES ARE A-OKAY, MAGGY MAYE!Amazon: https://a.co/d/7xLxXZIFree audio: https://open.spotify.com/track/4vmcFsdNZwIJwBmG8aqDVYFISH OUT OF WATERAmazon: https://a.co/d/iWBjaFjFree audio: https://on.soundcloud.com/kCfPKlku5BbXhGN8GSHEARTS UNKNOWNhttps://youtu.be/DHkY6SUNFls

[Cult]ured Boy, the ex-Mormon fundamentalist with 44 siblings finds himself rubbing shoulders with Tom Brady, beating up Logan Paul, "boning" Livvy Dunne, and even ice-plunging with Kevin Hart?Life is bananas, fam.Follow me on Instagram!@calvinwaymanMISTAKES ARE A-OKAY, MAGGY MAYE!Amazon: https://a.co/d/7xLxXZIFree audio: https://open.spotify.com/track/4vmcFsdNZwIJwBmG8aqDVYFISH OUT OF WATERAmazon: https://a.co/d/iWBjaFjFree audio: https://on.soundcloud.com/kCfPKlku5BbXhGN8GSHEARTS UNKNOWNhttps://youtu.be/DHkY6SUNFls

What is life like as an everyday Israeli right now? Not someone in government, but from a dad? Today, I’m talking with Sagi Shrieber--an Israeli family man who was in the film, Hearts Unknown. Today he opens up like ever before, what life is like day-to-day as an Israeli. MY MISSIONThis is part of my mission with [Cult]ured Boy—to go beyond headlines, beyond governments, and connect human to human. Curiosity got me out of a cult, and I believe it can bridge divides across the world. If this moves you, share it. Subscribe. Help spread stories that remind us: no matter where we’re from, we’re more human than we are apart.Watch my full-length documentary Hearts Unknown here: https://youtu.be/DHkY6SUNFls_SHARING THIS VIDEOThis video is licensed under Creative Commons Attribution. Feel free to remix, reuse, or share—just credit Calvin Wayman / Cultured Boy and link back to the original.Timestamps:00:00:00 What’s coming👀00:01:05 Episode begins - Why Sagi ditched her barber✂️00:03:40 Why is Hearts Unknown resonating with Israelis?❤️‍🔥00:17:15 Uncovering the collective suffering in Israel 😪00:31:13 Revisiting when Chris Rock interrupted me at a coffee shop. ☕️00:34:09 How Israelis think of Netanyahu (and how he’s been elected 6 times).🚀00:42:13 The one thing that unites all Israelis and Jewish People—getting the hostages back. 🧑‍🧑‍🧒‍🧒 00:44:46 Dave Portnoy—what caused is break down? 🤬00:56:24 The effect of “Free Palestine” on Israelis 😰00:58:37 Sagi has to leave—is there any hope for Israel?🇮🇱01:02:33 The episode continues—I give my honest takes.😇01:03:57 My response to people who will ask why I didn’t bring up Palestine more in this conversation 🇵🇸01:05:30 How going to the Middle East affected my sleep 🫩01:06:30 Hearing the pain on both sides❤️‍🩹01:08:07 Insight I noticed with empathy 🤓01:10:42 The best YouTube comment ever! 🌟01:18:12 The ONE way to end the divide. 💡01:22:40 Crazy story of being tugged towards Lebanon 🇱🇧01:28:55 THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! ❤️

Chris Rock…what just happened??The simulation just glitched, fam. I’ll explain everything—pull up a chair. Join me and my friend Anthony as we unpack the wild story and dive into some of the most pressing (and bizarre) conversations happening in culture right now.SUPPORT MY WORKIf you dig what I’m doing here, do the algorithm gods a favor: like, subscribe, and share it with a fellow misfit. It tells the machine to do the missionary work for us—and helps me feel slightly less insane for quitting my day job and living off credit cards to make this. Either way, thanks for being here :)Watch my full-length documentary Hearts Unknown here: https://youtu.be/DHkY6SUNFlsPS: If Chris Rock finds this—yo, thanks for the convo, man.

In this raw and unfiltered conversation, we dive into everything from identity politics to my life growing up in a fundamentalist Mormon cult with 44 siblings. We tackle the hypocrisies of cultural appropriation, the complexities of gender and race, and whether diversity initiatives actually help or hurt individuals.Plus, we break down the real reason polygamy became central to Mormonism—and why I almost didn’t exist because of it.Oh, and I’m about to head to Israel & Palestine for a project that might get me canceled. Let’s talk about it.This is a new series on Cultured Boy--welcome to unfiltered conversation--Coffee with Calvin.About Anthony: Anthony is one my best friends in New York City. I reference him in multiple episodes--he's the reason I was able to get apartment. He's not very active on social media, but if you make comments, he'll be stoked to reply here on YouTube. TIMESTAMPS0:00:00 - Welcome to Coffee with Calvin: No Filters, No Edits0:01:03 - The FBI Almost Raided My Apartment?!0:05:22 - Trump, Pardons, and the Wildest Loophole in Politics0:11:32 - Do Politicians Really Hate Each Other?0:15:46 - The Great Political Blame Game0:22:41 - January 6, BLM, and the Selective Outrage of America0:26:31 - I Protested for George Floyd—Then I Saw a Surprising ‘Other Side’0:29:59 - Why I’m Politically Homeless0:32:09 - The ONE Thing Both Political Sides Keep Getting Wrong0:35:25 - Was the Trans Movement Made by White Men??0:42:24 - Immigration: What We Get Right & What We Get So Wrong0:47:52 - First-World Problems? Would Gender Identity Exist in Caveman Days?0:52:30 - Trans vs. Detransition: The Stories the Media Ignores0:56:44 - A Strange Irony of Modern Feminism0:58:45 - The Pronoun Debate0:59:58 - What Living in NYC Has Taught Me About Humanity1:00:05 - The Divide Between Gay Rights & Trans Rights1:01:11 - Can You Identify as Another Race?1:01:58 - The Wild Hypocrisy of Cultural Appropriation1:02:58 - The Root of the Trans Debate: Individualism vs. Collectivism1:05:49 – Should Mixed-Race Kids Get Reparations?1:08:10 - Are Diversity Initiatives Helping or Hurting?1:10:56 - Genetics vs. Culture: Why Do Groups Succeed in Different Fields?1:15:04 - The Strange Meritocracy of Sports vs. Corporate America1:19:05 - Body Positivity vs. Height Discrimination: Where’s the Line?1:23:31 - Martin Luther King’s Genius Approach to Change1:27:06 - Why We Need to Stop Policing People’s Beliefs1:31:02 - Growing Up Fundamentalist Mormon: My Wild Childhood1:32:30 – Why You Should NEVER Force Your Beliefs on Others1:38:05 - How Polygamy Actually Works in Fundamentalist Mormonism1:54:42 - Did Joseph Smith Create Polygamy to Cover an Affair?1:57:50 – How a 200-Year-Old Lie Led to My Existence2:01:00 – Why I’m Traveling to Israel & Palestine (It’s Not What You Think)2:05:52 - Signing Off

Hi gang it's Calvin! Please 'comment!' I'd love to hear your thoughts.I quit my day-job for this, and it's entirely self-funded (on credit cards lol). Support my work here: http://www.PayPal.me/calvinwayman/11.11Either way, thank you so much for watching! :)-Hearts Unknown is an unscripted journey to finding unfiltered humanity on both sides of the Israel-Palestine divide.I traveled to one of the most polarized places on earth—not with a script, not with a side, but with a question: What’s it like to actually meet the people behind the headlines?This documentary captures raw, unfiltered moments with real people, each with stories that rarely make the news. I didn’t go looking for answers. I went looking for hearts.In a world increasingly divided, this is a story about finding what connects us.No crew. No agenda. Just curiosity.If this resonates with you, please share it. That’s how we grow this kind of conversation.-CHAPTERS:THE MISSION00:00:00 Will I regret this? 🫣00:01:16 Objectives for going 🎯00:02:16 Wait—44 siblings?! (Who is Calvin Wayman?!) 🤯🇮🇱GETTING TO THE MIDDLE EAST🇵🇸00:02:54 Film begins. Official Title—Hearts Unknown: a peek inside our deep divide ❤️00:04:12 After 3 FAILED attempts, no going back now! (Arriving in Israel) 🛬00:04:36 Meet my one and only contact in the Middle East 🙋‍♂️00:06:40 My stay for the trip 🏠ISRAEL UP CLOSE, GRASPING FOR THE PALESTINIAN PERSPECTIVE00:07:03 Getting to ‘Hostages Square’ 🧑‍🧑‍🧒‍🧒00:09:30 Unexpected emotions 😪00:12:06 Whoa…an Israeli supporting Palestinians?? 🤔00:13:58 Disagreement between different Israelis! 🗣️00:17:24 If I leave right now, I got something! (Now can I get into the West Bank?) 👏00:18:14 Still to come on Hearts Unknown ❤️00:18:40 Horrible sleep 🥱00:19:29 Daring myself to go check out daily life in Israel 😤00:21:29 Objective—getting into the West Bank! 🕵️‍♂️00:22:33 Plan: Tell US-Embassy my plan for entering the West Bank. 🇺🇸“SHOW ME EVERYTHING”00:24:08 KEY TWIST: A change of plans; Supporting Sagi ❤️‍🩹00:25:57 Meeting Sagi’s family 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨00:28:37 Trying falafel, and an 11-year old’s terror 👧00:30:55 “Show me everything!” 👀00:31:42 October 7th RPG destruction 💥00:33:37 Bomb shelter 💣00:34:14 The Nova Festival 😔00:37:31 A Mother’s last message to her son 💬00:38:48 An unexpected FaceTime! 📲00:40:09 “You don't know about the schnitzel??” 🥪00:41:02 Wait…Grandma?? 👵00:45:23 My fight with Sagi 🤬WHAT PALESTINIANS ‘REALLY’ WANT00:47:48 KEY SCENE: My final attempt into the West Bank! (NIGHTMARE!) 😱00:50:49 Sagi’s Surprise! (“We have to go to Jerusalem!”) 🙏00:51:42 Meeting with a Palestinian! 🫡00:54:13 What do Palestinians ‘really’ want?? 😲00:56:15 “Is there any hope?” 🇮🇱🇵🇸00:58:42 My last night in the Middle East 🌅LOOKING AHEAD - The Real Monster! (MY HONEST VIEWS NOW)00:59:34 My raw, unfiltered perspective of the conflict (looking ahead) 💡01:00:47 Where I saw a glimmer of hope 🤞01:01:46 Is what Israelis and Palestinians want ‘unreasonable?’ 🙅‍♂️01:02:54 Expected backlash for coming here. “What about us?!” 🫴01:03:36 The surprising vastness of different perspectives! 🫨01:05:01 Where to go next time I’m here 🗺️01:05:08 What’s the REAL Monster in this conflict? 👹01:06:05 Why it’s been impossible for Israelis and Palestinians to find middle ground 🤝01:06:53 Reflecting on how personal this feels 🥺01:07:46 How ‘History’ is being used in this conflict 📚01:08:36 Is a better future impossible? 🌞01:09:18 Sibling rivalry analogy—how to dissolve it ❤️‍🔥01:10:26 A 6-year old Palestinian girl—what we are really talking about 👶WRAP UP - LEAVING AND GETTING BACK HOME TO NYC01:11:32 Final moments in Israel (Games with the kids) ♟️01:12:32 Gawd! It feels good to be back home! 🗽01:13:05 Private reflection on the trip 🤫01:13:50 “The only thing I know for sure.” 🫶01:14:22 Restaurant in New York—the next question. ❓

Ever feel lost as a new creator in a big city? This episode is for you! My friend Chich and I dive into the truth of what it was like to move to New York City, and what it's like to be in the early stages as a creator. I hope you enjoy! -CalvinChich BoltIG:  @ChichBolt Creator's NYC Meetup:  @creatorsnyc  on Instagram!Calvin WaymanIG:  @calvinwayman  Twitter/X: calwaymanTo hire Calvin for speaking, go to calvinwayman.com/speakMORE ABOUT CALVIN WAYMAN:Calvin Wayman was born in a Fundamentalist Mormon cult with 1 dad, 4 moms, and 44 siblings. He started his life over at 30 years old, and is now living his 2nd life in New York City as a creator. His core mission is to foster empathy and understanding through curiosity. TIMESTAMPS00:00:00 “Going fishing!” 00:01:06 - Rules Explained!00:01:24 - Prompt: Imposter Syndrome00:01:36 - Please support the pod!00:03:02 - Chich’s answer to Imposter Syndrome00:07:32 - Calvin’s answer to Imposter Syndrome00:12:09 - Prompt: Finding your tribe00:17:37 - Prompt: How has New York Changed You?00:21:54 - What friends have done for Calvin00:26:11 - Rick Rubin, The Creative Act00:27:11 - Lifechanging quote for Calvin from Casey Neistat00:28:55 - Special shout out to a fan00:29:34 - Prompt: What was your family or friend's reaction when you told them you wanted to move to New York City00:38:12 - Prompt: “New York City Magic!”00:46:32 - Prompt: Using fear for growth (teaser)00:47:56 - Looking ahead! Thanks for watching!00:48:37 - Outro (Catch you next time!)

Ever feel lost as a new creator in a big city? This episode is for you! My friend Chich and I dive into the truth of what it was like to move to New York City, and what it's like to be in the early stages as a creator. I hope you enjoy! -Calvin Chich Bolt IG: ‪@ChichBolt‬ Creator's NYC Meetup: ‪@creatorsnyc‬ on Instagram! Calvin Wayman IG: ‪@calvinwayman‬ Twitter/X: calwayman To hire Calvin for speaking, go to calvinwayman.com/speak MORE ABOUT CALVIN WAYMAN: Calvin Wayman was born in a Fundamentalist Mormon cult with 1 dad, 4 moms, and 44 siblings. He started his life over at 30 years old, and is now living his 2nd life in New York City as a creator. His core mission is to foster empathy and understanding through curiosity. TIMESTAMPS 00:00:00 “Going fishing!” 00:01:06 - Rules Explained! 00:01:24 - Prompt: Imposter Syndrome 00:01:36 - Please support the pod! 00:03:02 - Chich’s answer to Imposter Syndrome 00:07:32 - Calvin’s answer to Imposter Syndrome 00:12:09 - Prompt: Finding your tribe 00:17:37 - Prompt: How has New York Changed You? 00:21:54 - What friends have done for Calvin 00:26:11 - Rick Rubin, The Creative Act 00:27:11 - Lifechanging quote for Calvin from Casey Neistat 00:28:55 - Special shout out to a fan 00:29:34 - Prompt: What was your family or friend's reaction when you told them you wanted to move to New York City 00:38:12 - Prompt: “New York City Magic!” 00:46:32 - Prompt: Using fear for growth (teaser) 00:47:56 - Looking ahead! Thanks for watching! 00:48:37 - Outro (Catch you next time!)

If you just found me for the first time, hi! I'm Calvin. Thank you for being here! This video is one step closer to my dream of doing content full-time. Please like, comment, and subscribe! I love hearing from new people, and it helps the algo know that this content should be seen my more people. Thank you! :) Hire me to speak: calvinwayman.com/speak Getting Out of the Cult - My Story Spending a Day with Anthony Padilla: Follow on Instagram: instagram.com/calvinwayman Leaving the cult was the most difficult decision of my life. But once I left, things didn't all the sudden get easier. I had to start "making moves" for this new life. In today's episode, for the first time, I'm sharing how I started taking steps away from the cult and how the most impossible thing happened: moving to New York City. The story is wild. I hope you enjoy. TIMESTAMPS: 00:00:00 - What to expect in today’s episode 00:00:59 - Starting Over: Leaving everything I ever knew. 00:01:42 - Hire me to speak at your event. 00:02:43 - Getting into today’s episode 00:04:04 - Thank you! 00:04:20 - Confession #1 00:05:05 - Confession #2 (After leaving something hard, it doesn’t just get easy) 00:07:49 - Immediately after leaving the cult, I didn't know where to go. 00:09:37 - Visiting NYC for the first time (funny story about my dad) 00:14:07 - You won't believe this journal practice I used to get to NYC! 00:17:03 - The surprising plot-twist of the episode 00:19:12 - My poem on "Home" 00:21:05 - How I started turning an idea into reality 00:23:51 - The one "STRANGE" question that helped me make NYC my reality 00:25:41 - Flashback: Going to NYC during Covid 00:29:56 - Flashback: New Years Eve 2020 00:31:03 - Great advice from my friend Teri that helped me pick where in NYC to live! 00:33:52 - The craziest part of the journey to NYC 00:36:59 - Self-doubt and honesty: Can I make it in Manhattan? 00:46:41 - Story approaching the climax 00:52:00 - My personal takeaway 00:54:56 - Looking ahead 00:56:54 - If you're new, this is for you! (Thank you!!) 00:58:34 - A special “thanks” to the person who made this episode possible

Oo la la! Today is a juicy episode--one of the most polarizing questions--should people of different faiths (and races) marry? Is it even possible to make work? Would that be a disaster? How would you raise your family? What holidays would you celebrate? What would be the hardest part? We cover all of that and more in today's episode. Please let me know your thoughts in the comments below! Instagram Links: Half Past Chai - https://www.instagram.com/halfpastchai Suketu Patel - https://www.instagram.com/suketuvpatel Hallie Patel - https://www.instagram.com/halliegpatel

Oh what a fun video! Jubilee recently posted an episode on Mormons vs. Ex-Mormons—this is me reacting to that video. I of course grew up Fundamentalist Mormon, so I will also share additional historical context from a Fundamentalist Mormon perspective. LINKS 1) Original Jubilee Video: https://youtu.be/Run1f29po8g?si=UbPR9Jmi82ZckQHX 2) When I was on Jubilee: https://youtu.be/6p1nWGmdEUM?si=a0yrYReXVSb0_6uv 3) Cultured Episode on Masturbation: https://youtu.be/7aqXnhCsyI8 4) Episode with Johnny Harris: https://youtu.be/TDp0oh4qrzA 5) The Anthony Padilla Episode: https://youtu.be/I_rF4qkEFys?si=shsq9MS3WeewOfN1 TIMESTAMPS 00:00:00 Teaser 00:00:54 Podcast Intro 00:01:52 Who is Calvin Wayman and why this video? 00:07:56 Reaction starts -- “Mormonism is a cult.” 00:16:03 Mormon Obama?! 00:28:11 "The Mormon Church Welcomes the LGBTQ Community.” 00:32:48 The silliest moment in the entire Jubilee episode *face palm* 00:43:52 The LDS Church is constantly changing 00:47:37 “Masturbation is sinful.” 00:48:45 “Women and men are equal in the Church.” 00:55:35 Tember makes a slip! 00:58:14 Even the Pro-Mormon Woman Says This! 01:12:01 "It's okay for doctrine to change.” 01:17:05 The most racist belief in Mormonism. 01:19:37 How Mormon Leadership Hides History from Members. 01:12:19 Mormon leaders hide their roots to polygamy. 01:24:14 How Barrack Obama broken the Mormon Mind. 01:31:25 The origin story that led to racism in the LDS Church. 01:40:08 The LDS Church's secret curse: "the skin of blackness.” 01:47:34 Mormon leaders switching stances 01:51:44 “The Mormon Church has done good in the world.” 01:58:42 Ending the Jubilee Vid. 01:59:44 My final takeway message.

What a fun, full-circle moment this episode is for me. A few years ago when I had almost no money and I was still living in a small town, I wanted to make living in New York feel possible, more normal. So I would go to YouTube and search “Day in the life of a New Yorker.”  And whose videos popped up? Today’s guest, Brett Conti.  We dive into the life of a YouTuber, and also talk about different cultures, including what it was like for me growing up in polygamy with 4 moms and 44 siblings.  Can anyone imagine if Joe Biden came out and said that he was going to be a polygamist like that was just normal?  Anyways, I dive into that and more on this episode. Please comment to let me know what you think! (Also, I like your curiosity—it shapes future episodes. Questions are entirely welcomed) TIMESTAMPS 00:00:00 Teaser and intro  00:01:57 Special message from Calvin 00:03:26 “Can being a content creator make you more self-aware?” (Plus, how New Yorkers say “coffee.”) 00:05:52 “I’m getting goosebumps” (Calvin shares how Brett inspired him to move to New York City). 00:09:25 How growing up in New York City fostered open-mindedness in Brett. 00:14:10 “Brett, how did you get into YouTube?” 00:19:49 How Brett used his clothing business to make YouTube videos. 00:21:03 “"How do you know what type of content to make?" (The importance of leading with self-discovery). 00:23:04 “How did you make your first $1000 on YouTube?" 00:27:44 "What was the 1 video that changed everything?" 00:29:31 “Did Brett believe in himself in the beginning?” 00:30:00 Why Calvin got into content—the most “impossible” thing at the time.  00:34:22 The moment Brett realized this YouTube dream was working. 00:38:03 Thailand. 00:48:18 “Did you know which one was your mom?” Calvin shares what it was like growing up in polygamy. 00:53:16 Arranged Marriages in Fundamentalist Mormonism. 01:01:33 "Are you still close with any of your family now?” (Brett asks Calvin about the family dynamics). 01:04:21 How New York City actually reminds Calvin of growing up in polygamy. 01:06:25 What’s next for Brett? 01:09:26 Ending on the Deep End 01:14:07 Thank you for watching! Please subscribe!

YouTuber Johnny Harris grew up in Mormonism (LDS), and YouTuber Calvin Wayman, also grew up in Mormonism—but a different branch known as Fundamentalist Mormonism. In this episode, they explore the shared history of the Church.  Inquiry and curiosity led both of them out. In this episode, Calvin and Johnny compare and contrast their journeys, while also sharing some key moments in Mormon history that aren’t often talked about.  TIMESTAMPS 00:00:00 Teaser and intro  00:02:27 Special message from Calvin 00:03:31 “There’s a level of stress that just doesn’t go away, you can’t escape it!” Calvin talks Johnny Harris about his successful YouTube career (Episode begins) 00:05:19 “What would you do differently?” (Calvin asks Johnny for creator-advice) 00:06:47 Johnny and Calvin were both terrible employees. 00:08:57 “I was in two different worlds” (Johnny explains living in Mormonism in Oregon) 00:09:59 Swapping “crack” stories—when Calvin and Johnny started to realize that Mormonism didn’t have a monopoly on Truth.  00:13:19 “It’s when I had a kid!” (How becoming a dad made Johnny start to doubt Mormonism) 00:15:24 “I forced myself to have mystical experiences.” (Johnny explains who he was in Mormonism and how began to be more true to his nature) 00:17:07 “I knew in my body that this wasn’t working. There was a deep tension. I can’t bull-shit with myself anymore.” 00:18:05 Calvin shares one of his choice points for leaving 00:18:33 The “Mormon” Shelf (explaining mental thought-traps) 00:20:50 Johnny's “big critique” with the Mormon Church  00:22:48 “Everything crumbled for me.” (The moment Johnny left.) 00:23:59 Introducing our shared fore-father—Joseph Smith, founder of Mormonism 00:24:44 Johnny becoming an apologist. 00:25:49 The shared history (and “secret conflict”) of Fundamentalist Mormons and “Regular” Mormons 00:26:35 How polygamy “really” ended in Mormonism (Not what you've heard) 00:28:03 Mass ex-communications on a significant minority in the LDS Church (Learning "the Truth") 00:29:07 External motivations the Church had to end polygamy. 00:30:42 The LDS Church becoming more "palatable"  00:33:11 “I did not know about this, this is really juicy stuff!” (Calvin shares "proof" why Fundamentalists are right and the LDS Church is wrong) 00:38:47 “The best story wins.” (How Mormon beliefs have persisted) 00:40:28 “I feel the spirit right now talking about it.” (The good parts of Mormonism) 00:45:56 The different experiences between men and women in Mormonism (and best part about being ex-mormon) 00:49:15 After leaving: “It’s a reclaiming” of your story. 00:50:26 “Red lines” — knowing how to talk about our stories without being disrespectful to those who still believe.  00:53:26 Choosing how to discuss hot-button history. 00:56:43 “I was washed over with a genuine sense of thrill.” (Embracing uncertainty in a post-Mormon world) 00:59:29 Calvin shares his new-found joy in the simple things 01:00:14 Ending on the deep end—Calvin asks Johnny “What are you most proud of?” 01:01:56 “What in your 20s built the most self-respect?”  01:03:11 “What are you most grateful for about life now?” 01:04:39 Final thoughts About Johnny Harris: Johnny Harris is an American filmmaker, journalist, and YouTube. To learn more about him and his experience with the LDS Church, go to one of the videos below: “Why I Left the Mormon Church” - https://youtu.be/aTMsfOcHiJg?si=ZpeoLkXSE6jrYTPt “The REAL Story of the Mormon Church.” - https://youtu.be/hUW7j9GmXjI?si=_0UsCclKEnBgYq8r About Calvin Wayman:  Hey I’m Calvin. I grew up in a Fundamentalist Mormon cult that practices polygamy, known as “The Work of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.” I have 1 dad, 4 moms, and 44 siblings. Yup. That’s not a typo—forty plus four. All in one house. The last few years have been me getting my feet under me, and today I live in New York City. Catch more of my story here: “What Was It Like Growing Up in a Cult?” - https://youtu.be/kBlQ22wIbnA?si=0QNw_e_S1ZZXZ5m9

Someone in Amanda’s cult cut her neck when she tried to escape?! WTF is the “3-Wife Rule?” How did Fundamentalist Mormon cults start? And did the LDS Church have anything to do with it? Amanda Rae is back on the pod! This is a fun conversation that dives in a lot of different topics, all things cult. TIMESTAMPS 00:00:00 Teaser and Intro 00:01:38 Did Amanda turn into Calvin? (Episode begins) 00:03:48 Setting the conversation - comparing cults 00:05:55 Amanda's life in "The Order" 00:08:37 The "3 Wife" Rule 00:10:52 David Kingston 00:13:41 Narcissism and double-standards 00:18:23 The lack of accountability in Mormon cults 00:22:27 “The worst sin ever!” according to cult leader, John Timpson 00:25:54 Cult leaders are not always cult founders - How Warren Jeffs took power 00:32:58 Amanda has an epiphany! 00:34:43 What made Amanda start questioning her cult? 00:36:42 “Put It on the Shelf" — Mormon mind-tricks 00:40:25 Amanda’s first date is at Panda Express lol (How marriages happen) 00:44:38 Amanda is bleeding! 00:54:01 Why leaving a cult triggers existing members 00:56:28 Silly beliefs from Calvin and Amanda’s upbringing (Calvin plays audio when he was 8 years old) 01:02:24 Amanda explains “Numbered Men”  01:07:30 Amanda's dad secretly listened to her content 01:11:14 “Faith over questioning” - Order teaching 01:12:46 Calvin and Amanda finding their place in the world, post-cult 01:15:22 How the LDS Church created Fundamentalist Mormonism 01:21:26 The hardest parts of leaving a cult 01:23:37 Amanda finding benefits in “hard things” 01:25:20 Calvin deliberately choosing "hard"  01:32:10 The necessity of adopting whole new paradigms when leaving a cult 01:37:05 Calvin fell into depression after leaving, and the mindset that got him out of it 01:44:21 One of Calvin’s favorite quotes—“A mind full of conclusion has…”  01:47:10 Final thoughts 01:51:03 Please leave comments! And subscribe. It will help future episodes! SHOW-NOTES About Amanda Rae: Amanda Rae was in the show “Escaping Polygamy.” She has a YouTube channel where she exposes the teachings of the cult she was born into. You can catch her full story by going here: About Calvin Wayman: Hey I’m Calvin. I grew up in a Fundamentalist Mormon cult that practices polygamy, known as “The Work of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.” I have 1 dad, 4 moms, and 44 siblings. Yup. That’s not a typo—forty plus four. All in one house. At 30 years old, I made the most difficult decision of my life and faced hell fire and damnation (according to my religious upbringing) by choosing to leave my religion, and start a whole new life on my own. The last few years have been me getting my feet under me, and today I live in New York City. This show is my expression. My perspectives. My art. I hope to bring awareness to cults, but more importantly, to the underrated power of individual sovereignty. Above all, this is a podcast that celebrates curiosity over conclusion. I hope you enjoy.

Oh my oh my. What an episode. If I would have told my 15-year old self that I would be sitting down talking with someone you can search on p*rnhub, he would have either felt like he was in heaven, or he was definitely on his way to hell.  And that’s the conundrum on this episode. Is pleasure inherently good or bad? Why is it so difficult to talk about?Laura Desiree, who was a long-time anchor at Naked News, is a burlesque dancer, sex-positivity advocate, and just all around a curious cat. This is one of my favorite conversations I’ve had to date since moving to New York City. Laura and I just get candid and have real conversation about something we all are either engaged in, thinking about, or at the very least are the product of (and yet! It’s still a shameful thing to discuss in many circles).  Through episodes like this one, I hope to spark more conversations around things we are taught to keep silent, because having the freedom to discuss them can have a major impact on all of our lives. Please subscribe to the channel if you haven’t already! It helps the algorithm know to share this with more audience, and gets me one step closer to content-creation being my full-time thing. Thank you for watching, listening and your all-around support. I hope you enjoy this episode.  - Calvin Wayman Laura’s Red Umbrella Talk:  https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLZMA-fZofRcXfFdIq4EfN9fK9WF73TOcv To catch Calvin's full story of growing up in a cult, go here: https://open.spotify.com/episode/1B1s5SL3PKGVg1YSRXoEW4?si=e294bea8deee41f0 TIMESTAMPS 00:00:00 Intro and Teaser 00:01:16 Calvin met Laura where?! 00:03:45 What Calvin felt going to a s*x club 00:04:28 The taboo nature of s*x 00:06:36 What monogamists can learn from people in the s*x lifestyle 00:08:35 How silence around s*xual needs breeds resentment 00:09:31 Calvin's unpopular take in relationships 00:11:15 The importance of taking care of your s*xual needs 00:13:04 One of Calvin's favorite things from s*x-positive spaces 00:15:56 How did Laura become Laura? 00:18:01 Laura breaking her "twinship" identity 00:23:49 How Laura began making her own life 00:25:21 Finding authenticity through the journey of s*xual-discovery 00:26:39 Orgasms 00:28:30 The art of “letting go” & Calvin notices a paradox 00:30:52 Bettie Page 00:32:40 Communicating your needs to another human 00:33:54 A sexy hack Laura learned at the "New York School of Burlesque" 00:36:00 What got Laura into s*x work? 00:38:51 The benefits of doing what scares you (like getting naked in front of strangers) 00:42:07 How Laura got into Naked News 00:42:40 Siri (or the Illuminati) joins the conversation 00:44:21 "Dirty talk" 00:46:04 When is it "taking it too far?" 00:50:51 The stigma with s*xual freedom and s*x work 00:55:45 Self-pleasure as a “sin” 00:58:37 Realizing that s*x is okay 00:59:41 Ending on the deep end: What Laura is most proud of from her teenaged-self 01:02:08 Laura reflects gives “unorthodox answer” to what she’s most proud of from her 20’s 01:03:56 Laura's first one-night stand 01:06:44 Calvin’s first one-night stand 01:09:17 Laura's favorite thing about life 01:11:53 Calvin says something that 99% of people wouldn't 01:13:32 Laura gives everyone a s*xual dare 01:16:47 Follow Laura's socials! 01:17:28 Final thoughts - please subscribe!

This is the most controversial piece of content I've ever made to the internet. Please don't cancel me lol As someone who grew up Fundamentalist Mormon, I can't think of anything more scary or intimidating to talk about than...well, "seggs." (You know what I'm talking about. I spelled it internet-friendly) So why not jump into the deep end and talk about seggs with a Seggs Worker? Insta @sexyexmo YouTube.com/@sexyexmo TIMESTAMPS 00:00:00 Teaser 00:00:51 Intro 00:01:42 Cold Start 00:03:18 What's a Molly Mormon?  00:04:19 Why this episode might get me cancelled 00:06:17 How Chrisie discovers masturb*tion 00:08:06 Can mastur*tion make you go blind?? 00:11:18 Does God get mad if you masturbate?  00:13:09 Chrisie's rocky road in and out of the LDS Church 00:15:59 My rant about Mormonism 00:19:42 Mormons would win gold in this sport every time 00:21:20 Chrisie continues her story out of the Mormon church 00:22:23 First porn mag 00:22:56 Chrisie at BYU 00:24:23 Confessing to old white men 00:27:11 How Chrisie got out 00:30:37 Another Mormonism rant--judgement based on what you were taught 00:32:49 Chrisie's Marriage 00:33:49 Mormon Confidence 00:36:05 The Mormon videogame - having your calling and election made sure 00:39:45 "If it's Priesthood, it's yes."  00:44:03 Mormonism hijacking regular human experiences 00:44:44 The reason I felt sad to get baptized 00:47:13 Chrisie finally leaves her marriage 00:49:57 How Chrisie left Mormonism 00:51:26 "The garments" 00:56:03 One thing everyone owes to themselves--whether they are religious or not 00:59:30 Chrisie comes out to her family 01:01:15 The religion I'm in now. 01:02:28 Chrisie's final straw 01:03:30 When I met my first S*x Worker 01:05:40 What got Chrisie into s*x work? 01:12:53 Olive oil has super powers--not like you might think 01:15:15 What Chrisie is up to now 01:17:52 Parting thoughts

Everyone thinks growing up in a cult is hard. But, that's not the hard part. The most difficult part of all is LEAVING. In this Part-2 episode, my friend Amanda and I are back in the studio. I share my story of what led up to me leaving, I share the racism in the cult, and how I finally got myself to make the decision...to then uproot my entire life and start over, at age 30. TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Teaser and Trigger Warning 00:17 Intro 01:08 Sound check 02:09 "What's the best compliment you've ever been given?" 03:19 "Is this incentuous?" 04:52 Starting the episode 05:44 Su*c*de Ideation 07:15 The Worst Curse Word On the Planet 08:14 Amanda continues story about feeling su*c*dal 11:04 The meaning of life (according to Mormons) 12:09 I continue my story (Noticing Overt Racism in Fundamentalist Mormonism) 14:29 The religious story of how everyone got their skin color 25:05 I start telling others about my upbringing, and begin traveling 26:54 The realization I had looking out my window of a flight 29:56 Experiencing Hell 33:01 Origin of my internal conflicts 33:25 Reaching my decision point 33:49 The moment my life changed—the audio-note. 41:48 Personal reflections on that moment of the audio-note 43:38 Willful Blindness as a means of protection 46:12 "How the h*ll did you do that, Calvin?" 49:01 Beginning my transition out of the cult 50:48 Lessons from leaving 53:46 Looking ahead to future episodes (Wait…is that Kelly Slater??!)

In this inaugural episode for Cultured, I share details about growing up fundamentalist mormon--with 1 dad, 4 moms, and 44 siblings. My friend Amanda joins me to deep dive into some things I've never shared anywhere...until now. Follow me on IG to let me know what you thought of this episode @calvinwayman Time Stamps: 00:00:00-INTRO 00:03:15-Calvins Story 00:05:45-The Cult Itself: Mormonism & Polygamy 00:13:50-Revision of History & How it Affected the Religion 00:15:30-If it weren’t for Polygamy we wouldn’t be here24:00- LDS leaders decide not to talk about polygamy publicly 00:25:25-Celestial Law & The Split 00:26:00-Lying to Outsiders 00:32:00 Excommunicating members?!? 00:37:50-Life at Hogwarts & Childhood Stories 00:45:00 -Desire to be my own person & Calvins first job “On the Outside” 00:54:00- Falling in Love with my Aunt 1:11:00- Calvin asks to go to college 1:27:00- The Fateful philosophy class 1:36:00- Who are you? Finding Truth & Knowledge 1:38:00- THE CRACK 1:45:00- Calvins Marriage & Questioning Leaving 1:47:00-Going to California 1:53:00- Growth & Relationships 2:00:00 -God Stories, The Devil & Full Blown Question Mode

It’s finally here! As I’ve shared my story, I kept having people ask, “are you going to start a podcast for all of this?” It is now here. Welcome to Cultured! On this episode, I give the deets and teasers on what you can expect. Also, you can sign up to know when the first big episode goes live at ⁠www.CulturedPod.com