Goin In Raw w/ Shakira Deshawn

Send us Fan MailAt some point…you have to stop blaming your parents, your childhood, and everything that hurt you.Not because it didn’t matter.Not because it didn’t shape you.But because it’s no longer an excuse to stay the same.In this episode, we’re having an honest conversation about accountability —what it looks like to stop identifying with your trauma,to stop using your past as permission to stay stuck,and to finally take ownership of the life you say you want.Healing isn’t just about understanding what happened to you…it’s about deciding who you’re going to be because of it.And that part?That’s on you.

Send us Fan MailEverybody loves the version of you that had no boundaries.The one who overextended, overexplained, and overgave just to keep the peace.But what happens when you stop?In this episode, we’re talking about the real cost of setting boundaries — the guilt, the pushback, the loneliness… and the identity shift that comes with choosing yourself for the first time.Because boundaries don’t just change your relationships — they expose them.

Send us Fan MailThe version of you that got you here? It was necessary. It was built for survival. But it is not who you are becoming.If you've been holding on to an old version of yourself because it feels safer than the unknown — this one is for you.

Send us Fan MailA vulnerable conversation about surviving sexual abuse and learning how to move toward peace, forgiveness, and healing on your terms.This episode is about reclaiming your story, not minimizing harm.

Send us Fan MailBefore change can take place, you have to tell yourself the truth. No excuses. No filters. Just you, the mirror, and the reality of who you are right now. In this episode, we talk about sitting with that truth, accepting it without shame, but without denial.. and understanding that growth always asks for something in return! Comfort. old habits. Old stories. Sometimes old versions of yourself. Growth isn't free. But staying the same costs more.

Send us Fan MailLast year, there were moments I didn't know how I would make it; financially, emotionally, spiritually. The bills were due and the answers weren't there.I learned what it really means to trust God when there's no backup plan. This episode is my testimony of waiting, faith, and being carried when didn't know how I would make it. 

Send us Fan MailIn this episode I share the experiences that led me to cut ties, the weight of trying to hold on to a relationship that continued to hurt me, and what it means to finally choose peace over obligation. This is about healing, boundaries, and giving yourself permission to walk away when love no longer feels safe.

Send us Fan MailIn one of the darkest moments of my life, I prayed for God to take me away. Instead of answering the way I thought He would, He met me with His presence. In this episode, I share how God's mercy showed up to hold me when I felt lost, broken, and alone. If you've ever wrestled with despair or wondered if God hears your cries, this is for you.

Send us Fan MailAnother unpolished episode. It's not packaged pretty. It's where I am, right now. In this episode, I'm talking about what it really feels like to show up when you have nothing left. When your spirit is heavy, your mind is foggy, and life isn't making sense.. but somehow you still keep going.Somedays it feels like all of this is pointless. But even when I don't understand the why, I still hold on to the tiniest bit of faith. 

Send us Fan MailIn this raw and necessary episode, we're talking about what it really means to break the cycle, not just in theory, but in the everyday moments of parenting. From flinching at hugs to struggling with presence, I open up about how trauma shaped my relationship with affection and how I choose to do the work anyway. This isn't about perfection. It's about being intentional, showing up, and healing the parts of me that want to shut down, so my kids don't have to carry what I never asked to hold. If you're parenting through pain, this one's for you.

Send us Fan MailThis episode is not polished. It's not wrapped in a bow. It's me in the middle of burnout, grief, transition, and straight up emotional exhaustion. I'm not on the other side of it. Im not here with answers. I'm just here to say; if you're numb, spiritually disconnected, mentally tired, and sick of being "the strong one"... same! This isn't for people who want a 5 step fix. It's for the ones silently breaking down while still showing up. No advice. No pretending. Just honest, heavy, real talk from the thick of it.

Send us Fan MailHave you ever felt like you're standing in your own way? We're talking about how fear, doubt, and self-sabotage keep us stuck--and how to finally break free. It's time for us to stop playing small, trust ourselves, and step into the life God has for us! We dive into the real reasons we sabotage our success, and most importantly, how to overcome them with faith. If you're ready to let go of fear and start moving with confidence, this one's for you!

Send us Fan MailI genuinely feel sorry for the outstanding parents in the world that have to deal with the unnecessary bullshxt that comes from an unreasonable parent. It's very unfortunate for the children, but always know that these kids aren't dumb and are very aware of what said parent is doing. I sleep well knowing that I'm doing my best and giving my kids a sane logical mother. The relationship they have with their other parent has nothing to do with what I share with them. In the end, he's making his own bed! It could all be so simple, but he'd rather make it hard..

Send us Fan MailCo-parenting with a toxic, narcissistic, and manipulative ex can feel like a never-ending battle. In this episode, we dive deep into what it’s like to raise children with someone who is selfish, disrespectful, and only cares about their own needs. From gaslighting and emotional manipulation to power struggles and disrespectful behavior, dealing with a narcissistic co-parent can take a major toll on your mental health and well-being. This video is a safe space for those going through this difficult journey—you're not alone!

Send us Fan MailIn this season finale, I reflect on the transformative journey of vulnerability and healing. Opening up has fostered growth, resilience, and a renewed sense of hope. Embracing our past creates a brighter future and sharing our stories can lead to profound healing! Love & Light..

Send us Fan Mail*Trigger Warning* Growing up, I witnessed violence firsthand in my childhood home, where I saw arguments often escalate into physical confrontation. It left a deep imprint on me, shaping my view of relationships in ways I didn't fully understand at the time. As an adult, I found myself in relationships that mirrored that childhood turmoil. It always started subtly with harsh words, but one day would escalate into physical violence. Eventually I found the strength to break free from the cycle. It wasn't easy, but I realized I was worth more than the pain I had accepted for far too long.

Send us Fan MailIn this season of my life I'm allowing God to do his thing as I sit back, relax, and enjoy my single life. I had to release control because everything I want for myself, may not be what he wants for me. 

Send us Fan MailTrigger Warning!! This episode is pretty heavy. I take a dive into my sex*al abuse and the things I've gone through since. The journey hasn't been easy but I'm finally okay with what has happened to me and I'm still on a journey of being fully at peace with it.

Send us Fan MailHealing looks different for everyone but after leaving my marriage, I embarked on a journey of self-discovery and healing. Embracing solitude, I found peace and love within myself. This new chapter has been full of personal growth, self-compassion, and the joy of connecting with my true essence. Everyday I am more than grateful for the inner strength and clarity I've gained! Hope this helps your journey in one way or another!

Send us Fan MailWhat's up y'all, this episode is a bit heavy. I'm sharing something really personal and opening up in a way I haven't before. It's a vulnerable moment, but I know we all go through ups and downs. I hope this can resonate with some of y'all. Thank you for the support and love as always. Let's grow together! Love & light!

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