It Only Happens to Earnny

After last week's heavy episode, this one here is a check-in. A real conversation about where I am with grief, identity, and being in that "in-between" phase of life- where nothing feels certain, and you are still figuring things out.If you have been feeling stuck, lost, or questioning your next step... this episode is for you.A reminder to trust yourself, start anyway, and keep going- even without all the answers.

For the past month, I’ve been sharing pieces of my story—what it was like moving to America, navigating life, and finding my place. But there’s been one person at the center of it all that I haven’t fully talked about… until now.This episode is for my dad.On April 25, it will mark one year since his passing. So today, in this episode, I’m honoring him the best way I know how—by telling his story, sharing the pieces of him that shaped me, and keeping his name alive.From a “broke country boy” in middle of nowhere town… to a Marine in Vietnam… to the man who became my dad—this is a story about resilience, sacrifice, love, and the complicated, beautiful legacy someone can leave behind this world.This episode includes real voicemail clips from my dad, and ends with a voicemail I wish I could leave him.*** NOTE: This episode discusses grief, loss, and war. ***If you’re listening… thank you for being here. And if you can—call your dad.

From last week's cliffhanger...I finally opening up about the moment my mom told us she was leaving to go back to Thailand after only nearly a year of moving to USA. What felt like abandonment as a kid... looks very different to me now as an adult.This episode is about holding both truths- understanding someone's choices while still healing from how it affected you.And if you listened to the last episode... this is where it continues.

Sometimes it takes someone from your past to remind you how far you've come.In this episode, I reflect on what felt like when I first moved to the U.S- the version of me who was just trying to figure it all out... while realizing I might just be one of the few to really trying to figure this new chapter of my life in a different country. With my dear, long-time friend visiting again , it brought back memories... and made me see things a little differently now.If you've ever looked back at an old version of yourself and thought, "wow... I made it through that," this one's for you.

I remember getting on a plane and realizing... I didn't even know where this country was on the map- but I was going.In this episode, I share what life was like growing up in Thailand, my relationship with my mom, and how everything changed after moving to the U.S. at 12.This isn't for sympathy- it's just my story.Because sometimes life puts you in between... like sitting in the middle seat. Not quite here, not quite there- just learning how to exist in the in-between.

This is me finally starting.In this first episode, I share who I am, where I come from, and why it took me five years to press record. From growing up Thai-American to figuring out life in a small town, this is just the beginning of something I have been holding onto for a long time.If you feel like you are still figuring it all out too... you are not alone.