Jessafur

Guitar and vocals by me Lyrics: In skimming over these, the empty side of banks For memories that tug my heart strings from their ropes I find another piece of canvas covered up To stunt the blossoming of thoughts that linger hope I swear I’m letting go; that I’m not holding on To little shards of happiness that won’t exist Is effort in the vogue? This torture of my own Sure seems to be; I can’t compete with what you miss I’m just sitting alone As I wait to come down again Fervorous; billow out From lips, the curse of oxygen Eye for an eye Dedicate the right Scar for scar, and bruise for bruise And anything that does ensue Scratch that itch and bear your teeth To me Is anyone in tow? Or will I just succumb To eager voices that are bursting at the seams Scrub out all that shows, the little things that beg And pry against the walls of fragile memories I’m just sitting alone As I wait to come down again Fervorous; billow out From lips, the curse of oxygen Breath for a breath Dedicate the left Row by row, and brick by brick Or anything that doesn’t quit Fall in line with syncope In me Never falling into view There’s so little I can do But to count the days In a paralytic hue Somaticizing what gets through As I waste away What’s left to say? Just be okay Eye for an eye Dedicate the right Scar for scar, and bruise for bruise And anything that does ensue Scratch that itch and bear your teeth To me I swear I’m letting go; that I’m not holding on To empty words that linger longer than your ghost

Guitar and vocals by me 😊 Lyrics: I’m standing right outside the door An open heart in need of scars So tell me, tell me, what was the point in feeling at all? Now anything that lessens the hurt just steepens the fall And I can see the ground expanding I can’t breathe just letting it in and letting it out I’m choking on the things that I’ve said, now all of my doubts Are echoing in words unspoken (words unspoken) You’re another of my confessions When you were never more than second guessing this Just put the work in, and you’ll be perfect And I’ll be worth a little less than worthless It’s as simple as it gets I’m just another losing bet And I keep making every mistake that I’ve ever made I’m trying but it happened again, it’s staying the same And I can never get this over So pull me down and make me believe that something can change That I don’t need to cut into skin to work out the pain That I’m okay to just stay broken (just stay broken) You’re another of my confessions When you were never more than second guessing this Just put the work in, and you’ll be perfect And I’ll be worth a little less than worthless Don’t take your time I’ll waste all mine Don’t take your time (Just put the work in) I’ll waste all mine (And you’ll be perfect)

This is my first attempt at scoring an orchestral composition. This is an idea I had previously uploaded when it was only a piano and cello, but I decided to flesh it out a little more. If anyone is interested in using this piece for a video, feel free to DM me. Below are all of the instruments used in this piece. Piano Violin Viola Cello Double Bass Flute Clarinet (1 &2) Trumpet (1 &2) Trombone Euphonium Glockenspiel The samples are all from Native Instruments Komplete Ultimate 11. The DAW used is Mixcraft 9 Pro Studio. Composed, mixed and mastered and recorded by myself.

Experimental synth jazz featuring ambient textures of oscillations, guitar on reverb steroids, and a drum loop of a pitch-shifted, delay altered click track. This version is without the Latin inspired guitar solo. All parts were written, recorded and mixed by me.

Experimental synth jazz featuring ambient textures of oscillations, guitar on reverb steroids, and a drum loop of a pitch-shifted, delay altered click track. This version is with the Latin inspired guitar solo. All parts were written, recorded and mixed by me.