MC Somatics: Rebuilding The Self

In this episode, I talk about what happens when we already know the answer, but do not trust ourselves enough to act on it. So instead, we go to committee.I explore the ways we outsource our knowing by polling other people, gathering more opinions, asking the same question in different rooms, and hoping someone else will give us permission to do what we already know is true. I also talk about what this can look like in real life—how self-doubt, fear, and disconnection from our own inner authority can keep us circling instead of choosing.This episode is about self-trust, discernment, and learning to recognize when going to committee is not wisdom, but avoidance.Show Notes:Song of the Week: PNAU - Stars MC Somatics Playlist

In this episode, I talk about how resentment is often not randon, it is a signal. More often than not, resentment builds when we have missed a boundary that was necessary, ignored what we needed, or kept saying yes when something in us was already asking for a no.I explore how resentment can point us back to ourselves, showing us where we have overextended, self-abandoned, or tolerated too much for too long. Instead of treating resentment like something shameful, I look at what it reveals about our limits, our truth, and the boundaries that need to be named.This episode is about listening to resentment differently—not as proof that we are cruel or difficult, but as information about where something needs to change.Song of the Week: Ava Max - My WayMC Somatics Playlist

In this week’s episode, I talk about self-trust, discernment, and what it means to get honest about who truly deserves a seat at the table in our lives.I explore the shift that happens when we stop making excuses for low-effort friendships, inconsistent support, and people who barely show up, yet still expect access to us. I also talk about trusting ourselves enough to choose better, to stop overriding what we know, stop tolerating crumbs, and start honoring the difference between real connection and habitual disappointment.This episode is about self-respect, clearer standards, and learning to build a life around the people who actually show up.Show Notes:Song of the Week: Alessia Cara - Wild Things MC Somatics PlaylistPoetry Anthology: Voices From West Pecan

In this week’s podcast, I talk about how to listen for emotional availability in ordinary moments.For example, when someone asks how you are, and you say, “Not great,” and they immediately respond with, “Oh, but look on the bright side,” that tells you something. Not about your emotions being too much. About their inability to stay with discomfort.That is not support, that is information.I talk about how these small exchanges reveal who has the capacity for honesty, depth, and harder emotions, and who only has room for the polished version of you.Because availability is not just about affection. It is about whether someone can stay present when things are not neat, easy, or upbeat.Show Notes: Song of the Week: Cat Burns - Emotionally UnavailableMC Somatics PlaylistI have a few 1:1 Coaching Spots Available, email to book: [email protected]

In this week’s episode, I talk about surviving the boogeyman, not just the situation itself, but what it brought up in me and what it revealed.I share how my friends showed up for me in the ways I actually needed, including simply being there at the rink, and why that kind of grounded support matters more than people often realize. I also explore the relationship between perspective and perception, how what we have lived through shapes what we see, what we fear, and how we make meaning out of what is happening.This episode is about survival, support, and the quiet power of being witnessed in the right way.Show Notes:Song of the Week: The Boxer Rebellion - PerceptionMC Somatics Playlist

In this week’s episode, I talk about the self-imposed prisons we can end up living in, mortgages, relationships, responsibilities, and other choices made in survival mode that later leave us feeling stuck and trapped.I also share more about my PTSD symptoms and how a recent situation with a past partner activated those familiar feelings of constriction, helplessness, and being unable to breathe inside my own life.This episode is about the cost of survival-based decisions, the reality of trauma, and what it means to begin seeing the bars of the cage clearly.Show Notes:Song of the Week: Folsom Prison Blues by Johnny CashMC Somatics Playlist

In this episode, I talk about the pits, which is depression, anxiety, and grief—and the difficult wisdom they carry. These are the places most people try to escape, numb, fix, or spiritually bypass, but I explore what they can teach us if we stay with them long enough to truly listen.I also talk about emotional bypassing, how quick reassurance, forced positivity, and people’s discomfort with pain can become another way of abandoning what is real. And I share why I no longer tolerate that. Some experiences are not meant to be rushed past. Some feelings need witness, honesty, and space.This episode is about what these hard places reveal: truth, loss, longing, fear, and the deeper messages underneath our suffering. It is about staying with what hurts long enough to hear what it has to say.Show Notes: Song of the Week: You Belong Here by LeaguesMC Somatics PlaylistThe Kid by Thad Cockrell - Album Purchase

What Is Love?What is love after disillusionment? In this episode, I explore love as a choice, one we make with clearer eyes, stronger inner boundaries, and a deeper respect for what we know we can and cannot live with.I talk about the real stuck points that matter in relationships: money, taxes, step-parenting, everyday habits, and the misalignments that may seem small at first but can become fatal over time. I also share the idea of creating a kind of contract with ourselves, something we know, name, and return to before dating, so we stay rooted in our non-negotiables instead of abandoning ourselves for connection. Because often the nice guy is not enough, because he lacks depth. Just saying. This episode is about discernment, self-respect, and choosing love in a way that does not betray your peace.Show Notes:Song of the Week: Love is a Battlefield by Pat BeneathBook of the Week: Thank You, More Please by Lily Womble

What if the songs that move you the most are actually reflecting something your soul already knows?In this episode, I explore a deeply personal realization: music has always been the language through which my inner world speaks. Certain songs have followed me through different chapters of my life, sometimes long before I understood what they were showing me. Looking back, I can see how music mirrored truths my body sensed but my mind wasn’t ready to face yet.From the haunting clarity of The Boxer Rebellion’s album Ocean to Ocean, to songs that seemed to whisper “let it go” long before I could, this episode dives into how music can act as a bridge between intuition, memory, and emotional truth. I share how certain songs became markers of pivotal moments in my life, revealing patterns, surfacing hidden feelings, and helping me listen to the deeper signals within myself.If you’ve ever had a song give you chills, stop you in your tracks, or feel like it was written just for you, this conversation is for you.Together we explore how music can become a mirror for the soul, helping us slow down, listen more closely, and trust the quiet wisdom that’s always been there beneath the noise.Because sometimes the messages we need most are already playing in the background… we just have to learn how to listen.

Some songs that don’t just play in the background of our lives, they hold us.In this episode, I talk about the music that carried me through different chapters of my life. The anthems that steadied me during heartbreak. The lyrics that named what I couldn’t yet say. The melodies that helped me metabolize grief, anger, freedom, longing, and becoming.Music has been more than entertainment for me. It’s been regulation. Memory. Permission. A mirror. A companion.Certain songs marked turning points such as divorce, reinvention, falling in love, walking away, and reclaiming myself. When I hear them now, I don’t just remember the moment. I remember who I was, and who I was becoming.Show Notes:MC Somatics Playlist

Are You Lonely?It’s a question people tend to ask when they see someone who spends a lot of time alone. But what if aloneness isn’t emptiness?In this episode, I talk about what it’s like to live as an introverted intuitive whose internal world is vivid, layered, relational, and deeply alive. My solitude isn’t a waiting room for connection; it is connection. Conversations are conversations happening inside me. Parts. Memory. Meaning-making. Imagination. Reflection. A whole ecosystem of depth.I explore how some of us experience companionship internally through ideas, creativity, spirituality, parts work, story, and embodied awareness in ways that feel full rather than lacking.Show Notes:Song of the Week: The Boxer Rebellion - Hidden Meanings MC Somatics Playlist

We all learn how to shrink. We shrink our voices to keep the peace. We shrink our needs so we don’t seem “too much.”We shrink our bodies, our dreams, our opinions, our boundaries, and sometimes our entire lives, just to fit into spaces that were never built for us.In this episode, I explore the many subtle and not-so-subtle ways we make ourselves small: fawning, over-explaining, apologizing for taking up space, staying quiet when something feels wrong, and saying yes when our body is screaming no. I talk about the habits that keep us contained and the stories that convince us that shrinking is safer than being seen.And then I introduce a different path, the unshrinking way.Unshrinking isn’t about becoming louder or harder. It’s about becoming truer. It’s the slow, brave practice of returning to your actual size: reclaiming your voice, your instincts, your limits, and your right to exist without constant self-editing.This conversation is part reflection, part gentle rebellion, a reminder that you were never meant to fold yourself into a smaller version just to make other people comfortable.If you’ve ever felt like you’ve disappeared inside your own life, this episode is an invitation to take up space again, one honest breath at a time.Show Notes:Song of the Week: Bre Kennedy - Grassroots MC Somatics Playlist

In this episode of Soul Notes, I explore what happens when we begin to truly listen to the quiet wisdom of our own soul. I talk openly about boundary violations, how they show up, how easily we minimize them, and how often our bodies and intuition are already trying to tell us the truth long before our minds catch up.This is a conversation about learning to trust those inner signals: the discomfort, the hesitation, the subtle knowing that something isn’t aligned. I reflect on personal experiences, patterns I’ve had to unlearn, and the courage it takes to choose ourselves when it would be easier to stay silent.Show Notes:Song of the Week: Giving Up Air - The Temper Trap MC Somatics PlaylistDear Padre PodcastEinstein and Rabbi by Naom Levy

This episode lives in the desert phase of individuation—the stretch where familiar identities fall away, external validation dries up, and the only thing left is your willingness to stay. Ride or Die Radio is for the moments when you’re not seen, not mirrored, not celebrated, and you choose yourself anyway.Show Notes:Individuation Process OverviewSong of the Week: Ride or Die Radio by Kassi AshtonMC Somatics Playlist

Shame doesn’t just live in our thoughts — it lives in our bodies, our choices, and the parts of ourselves we learned to hide in order to belong. In this episode, I share an overview of David Bedrick’s Unshaming Way — a radical and compassionate approach that defines shame in a way that our body and mind can understand. Alongside this framework, I reflect on my own lived experiences of shame — the quiet, internalized moments that shaped how I learned to relate, perform, stay silent, or stay small. Not as confession, but as context. As a way of naming how shame subtly organizes our lives long after the original moment has passed.Show Notes:The Unshaming Way Song of the Week: Halsey - Graveyard

In Jungian language, every temperament corresponds to an archetype. For some of us, the archetype is the working dog — hyper-intelligent, attuned, driven by purpose, and mildly feral when under-utilized. In this episode, I explore what it means to carry that archetype as a human, not after it’s found its calling, but while it’s still looking for one. This is an episode about the gifts and the grief of being built for meaningful work you haven’t located yet, and the restless search for a “real job” for the psyche.Show Notes: Song of the Week: Keane Everybodys Changing MC Somatics Playlist

In this episode, I explore a quiet but powerful ethical tension that doesn’t get talked about enough in healing spaces:The tension between staying in a relationship to “work through it” and choosing aloneness because it’s where your life force actually returns.So much mainstream psychology and relational advice assumes that healing must happen inside romantic partnership — that leaving is avoidance, fear, or unhealed attachment. But what if that framework doesn’t fit everyone? What if, for some of us, relationships don’t regulate — they deplete?Show Notes:Song of the Week: Amber Run - I Found

In this week’s episode, I reflect on isolation and how it can become both a refuge and a defense, and the quiet ways it shapes how we relate to ourselves and others. From there, I share my process of working through and healing another survival pattern that developed to keep me safe. This episode offers an honest, real-time look at healing as it unfolds: layered, imperfect, and deeply human.Show Notes:Song of the Week: Anna Graves In the Wild

In this EDGY and Spicy episode, we explore what it’s actually like to encounter emotionally immature people and why those dynamics can feel so confusing, activating, or painful over time.Rather than framing emotional immaturity as something to diagnose or fix, this conversation looks at how we tend to expose ourselves in three distinct stages when connection begins. Each stage reveals different information, different risks, and different truths about whether someone has the capacity to meet us. **A few f***s were dropped** Show Notes: Song of the WeekMC Somatics PlaylistOprah Podcast

In this episode, I explore a survival pattern rooted in growing up around people who were emotionally unavailable or inconsistent. We look at how early family dynamics can train the nervous system to equate love with waiting, effort, and responsiveness that never quite arrives.This pattern often shows up later as chasing connection with people who are not responsive, not because we want to suffer, but because our bodies recognize the familiar rhythm of absence. Together, we unpack how this conditioning forms, the grief that comes with seeing it clearly, and what it means to stop trying to earn presence from those who cannot offer it.Healing here isn’t about cutting people off or hardening the heart. It’s about breaking loyalty to old survival strategies, reclaiming self-trust, and learning to orient toward relationships where presence is mutual, steady, and real.Show Notes: Song of the Week: "Nah" by KhalidMC Somatics Playlist

In this week’s episode, I explore existential hopelessness, the idea of hope as an action rather than a feeling, and what it means to be a hope merchant in a world that often asks us to bypass reality. I examine why hopelessness can be a rational, even healthy response to systemic pressure and disillusionment, and how reclaiming agency doesn’t stem from forced optimism, but from small, intentional choices rooted in integrity and truth. This episode is an invitation to stop performing hope and start practicing it through presence, discernment, and actions that protect your aliveness.Show Notes: IFS Song of the Week: Tell Me What You Dream About by HazlettShow Playlist

In this episode, I explore the different shapes of loneliness, the impact of PTSD, the role of trauma-recovery modalities, and how we slowly rebuild capacity after trauma. Show Notes: Book Suggestions: Anxiety RX - Dr. Russ Kennedy Concepts: Window of Tolerance BrainspottingEMDR CapacityPodcasts: Luis MojicaMusic: Song of the weekShow PlaylistMC Somatics Website

In this episode, I talk about my dog Kay — the relationship that shaped me, held me, and revealed more about my nervous system than any human ever has. Through her story, I explore dissociation, the patterns we develop to survive, and how grief becomes a teacher long after the loss itself.Show NotesBook references: Mother HungerThe Unshaming WaySong of the Week: Hunter Metts Paper MoonShow Playlist: MC SomaticsMy Website: www.mcsomatics.com

A look at the emotional wreckage we carry after divorce or heartbreak, and why so many of us invite others into lives still torn apart by the storm. This episode explores the debris, the nervous-system fallout, and what it really takes to rebuild your inner home. Featuring my Song of the Week.Show Notes:Song of the Week: https://open.spotify.com/track/6JWYMfs0pJdNrf3b6aP5Xu?si=AdCcgycDQ6O56wQ-hr-YkwPodcast Spotify Playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3BPVIr9CEwErAG54dJ5JIj?si=NMYbyh2MSsekM2vjmJNs4Q&pi=9en-mPdoQpescWebsite: www.mcsomatics.com