Obsessive Compulsive Diaries

Hello and welcome!In today’s entry, I discuss some of the things I grew up with that contributed to some of my trauma.My 7 foot martial art master brothers, black limousines pulling up with mob bosses inside, the shotgun marriage to my step father and a bit more.Have a seat and listen to why I’m such a silly goose.

WARNING ⚠️ This entry features topics some may find disturbing and disconcerting including loss of life and violence, listener discretion advised.Today’s entry is something very different, today I wanted to recount one of the biggest murder mysteries that ever took place in my small town, this month marking its 68th anniversary.Come as I recount for you, the murders of Gettis and Merrill Lee.I hope you enjoy the change despite the much shorter duration, I wanted to still provide a good, if not flawed, cast.

Hello and Welcome!In today’s entry, I tell you a little more about myself under all the mess.From being an artist to books and my love for spooky things to my neighbors upstairs and how I know they’re home.Come sit with me, I’m recording.

Hello and welcome!In this entry I discuss where I’ve been, getting the flu and how it negatively affected my mental health, getting back into therapy and what’s next for treatment.I’m still here.♥️

Pardon my lateness,I go over what’s been new and how my hours have been a little different. How my brain has felt a bit off and I’ve been unsure because now when I’m at home, I’ve been falling asleep a lot lately because of the new hours and how that goes against my initial excitement for the new hours because I’d get more time with Lucy.But it’s been a little tough…

In today’s entry, I discuss how OCD has been flaring up at my new job, how difficult it seems to be to make friends after the age of 30.I also talk about my aspirations to maybe finally get a dog.Mainly just a rant and vent entry where I think through my week and into my future.Join me won’t you?

Hello, my name is Toby and I was recently diagnosed with OCD, ADHD and PTSD.In today’s entry, I cover camping in the cold with my Wife for new years, hopes and plans for the upcoming year and the actual desire to seize the “new year, new me” stigma.I also go over the new job and trying to find my rhythm with work and my entries, please forgive the irregularity!I’m still recording.

In todays entry, Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! I talk about what we’re up to this year and past traditions from when I was growing up.Also, creating new traditions and how this time of year can be hard and how difficult it is to feel the holiday spirit.

In today’s entry, I discuss my current life events and what’s been going on, a huge change hopefully for the best.I discuss how unhappy I’ve been at my job and how I’ve found an alternative and how much better I’ve begun to feel in new.Sorry about being late, but I’m still recording!

Hello, my name is Toby and I was recently diagnosed with OCD, ADHD and PTSD.In today’s entry, I discuss my person Moral Scrupulously OCD and what that really means. I talk about how my compulsions came to be and what cause my constant fear and anxiety. I go over the statistics and how sufferers of PTSD have a higher chance of developing OCD and the reasons why.I STILL RECORD!

Hello, my name is Toby and I was recently diagnosed with OCD, ADHD and PTSD.In today’s entry, Emotions run high as I’m struggling a little more with my mental health than usual, experiencing unhealthy and unwarranted aggravation directed toward small things.I cover the panic attack that cause me to batter my face into a black eye and swollen cheek and how hopeless you feel when attacking yourself.Being taken to the hospital via ambulance only for security to take my personal items and treat me as though I was some dangerous addict all the while I lay on a bed in the fetal position exhausted and terrified.Being used by people I considered friends and turning a blind eye to the reality that it was never me they liked, but what I could do for them or what they could get from me.Finally, realizing no one is going to swoop in and fix my life for me, this is no movie or book where everything is written to work out and it’s up to ME to fight for what I want.There’s a lot to unwrap in this entry, but know that it’s real and happening to good people who just want help and guidance, and because of that…I’m still recording.

Hello, my name is Toby and I was recently diagnosed with OCD, ADHD and PTSD.In today’s Entry, I cover life shortly after the house burned and a short description of what it was like in those chaotic days and weeks that followed.Also, living in our backyard while waiting for the verdict on the houses demolition and attempting to grab anything salvageable while thieves attempted to do the same.My 7 foot “Brothers” who I spent my whole life being compared to and the couple different ways they died and finally, the unknown reasons for my parent’s divorce before I was born, things get interesting in this one.I’m still recording.

Hello, my name is Toby and I was recently diagnosed with OCD, ADHD and PTSD.In today’s entry, I go over a bit of my Marriage to Lucy and how we came to be, including the night we met and the events that followed.I also cover how being out of tune with your partners needs, even if accidentally, can still be hurtful and when it’s time to be accountable.Most importantly, I describe Marriage to my best friend and unlearning old processes to help better understand and grow our relationship and how we’ve come together to help better each other with love and guidance.I love you Lovebug♥️.….still recording?…

Hello, I’m Toby, and I was recently diagnosed with OCD, ADHD and PTSD In today’s entry, we go over some odd tales from my past.Like coming home from school to discover I’m homeless, long interesting walks in an old cemetery , how the normal can be scarier than than the paranormal and the art of startling yourself listening for ghosts…Oh yeah, we get a bit weird.…Am I recording?

Hello, I’m Toby, and I was recently diagnosed with OCD, ADHD and PTSD.In today’s entry, I cover how my panic attacks changed in frequency and intensity, not to mention how inconvenient they could be. Disclaimer: Some of my methods for harming myself and how rapidly it became a serious issue, but also what drove me to do it.I also discuss some future plans for this diary and tease some upcoming stories and odd tales from my life that would seem unbelievable if others hadn’t been there.And finally, and I still recording?

In today’s entry, my diagnosis of Moral Scrupulosity OCD, ADHD and PTSD, an insight on what that has been like pre and post diagnosis and exactly what that means for me. I reveal some of the reasoning behind my OCD and how it differs from other types, we also cover some * disclaimer* self harm in its different forms and why I did it.In the Entries to follow, I describe my life and experiences I’ve had, some pertaining to my neurological issues and others just out of entertainment or amusement. We will laugh, cry and experience the ups and downs of what it means to be “Toby” and what I’m doing now I’ve sought help.