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This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit sexcult1.substack.comWhen “Passive-Aggressive” Becomes a Relationship Styleby Sex Cult //Sunday 8th of February 2026There’s a particular kind of hurt that doesn’t come from a big betrayal. It comes from the small, repeated moments where someone acts like they’re on your team… but behaves like you’re the enemy.Not direct enough to name the problem. Not honest enough to talk. Just enough coldness, pettiness, or “punishment” to make you feel confused, guilty, and destabilised.And the maddening part? If you call it out, you’re “overreacting.” If you don’t, it keeps happening.The part men keep missing: it’s not about your intentA lot of men defend themselves with:* “I’m not upset.”* “I didn’t mean anything by it.”* “You’re making it a big deal.”But the point isn’t whether you feel fine. The point is whether you did something that makes your partner feel unsafe, disrespected, or alone.If you care about someone, your focus should be:“You’re upset. I want to understand why, and I want to repair it.”Not: “I’m not upset so nothing happened.”PREDATOR & SEX CULT PODCAST AND BLOG is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. Support writers and females in particular by subscribing thank you! Catch my live Stream daily from 4pm UTC+11 most days, just add me and you will see if im on. I have a music station on Kick called Danica Davis’s music stream (funnily enough) and usually will find it in the hot tubs, babes and bikini’s section because well…….sex sells people. SEX CULT xxx Danica's Kick Stream add me xx

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit sexcult1.substack.comIncels AnonymousHi. I’m Danica…..And I’m addicted to Incels. Vol. II used to be a femcel, so I know the mindset. I know the pain that comes with it. When you think about Incels, what comes to mind? “Involuntary celibate,” it abbreviates. However, not anymore. We need to rename them: “Vocels” — Voluntary celibates.Sometimes we might even mistake them for being gay, or at least bi-sexual, and if we did… no one would blame us. Not that there’s anything wrong with being gay. Of course there isn’t, my problem with them is not that they may or may not be gay. No, my issue with them runs alot deeper than that.I was a Femcel for ten years, unknowingly. I didn’t even know it had a name, until a few years ago but after careful analysis, it seems I was definitely one. This means, I’ve felt what Incel’s feel and I’ve been what Incel’s are. The meaning for what a Incel and Femcel are is pretty similarJordan Peterson summarised Incel’s well, in a new podcast episode of Modern Wisdom with Chris Williamson, Peterson says that Incels, “(try to figure out how to have) the capacity to be dark, (because this would be)….an improvement over the capacity to not be dark at all.” He then continues, “the shadow (of a Incel or a Femcel) beckons to anyone who is underdeveloped.” Describing Incel’s as neurotic, dependent, repressed, immature and harmless. As a woman, I’d add: the feeling of powerlessness in society as a trigger that can turn a girl into a Femcel, especially if the rest of the “Incel criteria” fits her as well. Femcel’s grab power in any way they can. Incel’s grab for control. They fake a shadow of confidence — just enough not to kill themselves. And still… we don’t talk about Femcels as much. Maybe because of misogyny. Maybe because there’s less of us. But femcels can still help me, like a Lana Del Rey song heals me, or the film The Piano Teacher made me feel understood by someone out there. Hearing the words and seeing the actions of the Femcel’s depicted in art, brings me back to what I was. To how hard I was on myself about things I couldn’t control. It makes me sad for that version of me, but it also reminds me to be kind to myself now, to not sweat the small stuff and to walk away when someone’s trying to steal my power. EVENTUALLY. Eventually, is the key word highlighted. Once I left the Femcel mindset behind, I started attracting Incel’s like moths to the flame. It’s strange. I didn’t attract them when I was one. I may have created a few — with the way I treated my boyfriends back then. Sometimes I get this narcissistic thought, like the whole Incel movement is my karmic linage for how I treated men for all those years. Brutal punishment. I didn’t see them as men, I saw them as necessary evils, and when I did acknowledge them, it wasn’t with kindness. I hated men and wasn’t really aware of it. But I wasn’t aware of much in those years, I was half on Earth, half somewhere really undesirable. PREDATOR & SEX CULT PODCAST AND BLOG is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.My Live Music Stream Linkshttp://twitch.com/danicadavis010http://kick.com/DanicaDavisTik Tok - danicadavis_singer

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit sexcult1.substack.comMy Beautiful ShadowI have done a lot of shadow work in the last 10 years. Yet, my shadow and I are still just barely friends. She doesn’t trust me, and she has no reason too. I have spent a lot of time making amends for the torture I put her through, and the abuse. She was never me after all, she is a part of my mind that I put alot of pressure on to do the job of the self instead of doing it myself because I was too afraid too. I still do this from time to time I'm not perfect (shocking I know). But I hope she knows that I love her and that it still can make me cry still to think about what I put her through. Will I ever forgive myself, I don't know. PREDATOR & SEX CULT PODCAST AND BLOG is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.Video from my Live Music Stream Experiencehttp://twitch.tv/danicadavis010http://kick.com/DanicaDavisTik Tok - danicadavis_singer

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit sexcult1.substack.comWEAK MEN ARE THE NUMBER 1 ENEMY NOW“Weak men will be your biggest enemy.”When I first heard this phrase, I dismissed it. It seemed absurd. Weakness doesn’t threaten strength, does it? Weak men don’t march into battle, they don’t build empires, they don’t storm castles. At most, they sulk in corners and hide in shadows. Or so I thought. But the truth is sharper: weakness itself is corrosive, and weak men can be more dangerous than the openly strong because they operate through manipulation, sabotage, and decay. I only had to glance at my own life for one second to see the proof. I’ve been surrounded by weak men for years, and they have consistently posed the greatest threat to my peace, progress, and integrity.Why Now?....FOR MORE READ AT HTTP://SEXCULT1.SUBSTACK.COM SEX CULT BLOG #PODCAST #SEXCULT #WEAKMEN #DANICADAVIS #SUBSTACK #YOUTUBE #STARMAKER - DANICADAVIS ADD ME! XXX

Blood in the Streets: Why a Recession Might Be Good—for Trump(Sorry about AI saying every dot lol. Why would AI say every full-stop. It’s just stupid. Ill have to fix it. Ill ask AI how to fix it…….lol).And Devastating for Your Average American“Buy when there’s blood in the streets, even if it’s your own.”– Attributed to Baron RothschildRecession isn’t just a threat. For some, it’s the plan.If you follow Trump’s behaviour, tax cuts for billionaires, tariffs that raise consumer prices, launching Trump Coin, douacbling down on foreign business interests, it doesn’t just look like he’s willing to accept economic pain. It looks like he’s counting on it.Tariffs: The Hidden Tax That Americans Don’t Even See ComingTrump’s aggressive tariffs on China (up to 60%) and other imports act as a tax on the everyday consumer.* These tariffs could cost the average U.S. household between $3,800 and $4,700 per year.* That’s $73–$90 extra per week—on groceries, clothes, electronics, and everyday essentials.* And it hits low-income Americans the hardest, who spend more of their paycheck on basics.Right now, your average American has no idea these tariffs can equal such chaos. They’re just going about their lives—gassing up the car, buying groceries—unaware that their weekly costs are creeping up due to these policies. And Trump is pretending to help them with tax cuts.But how he could help them right now is by warning them about the increase in their personal budgets and reiterating this could be devastating for 50%+ of Americans. Instead, he’s silent. And also has given them zero warning, about any of this. Dostratcing them with pety fights with Elon Musk, and maybe even the Diddy trial is serving as a distraction (you just never know…..OBJECTION speculation….Sustained. Yes I have been watching). Trump’s Tax Cuts: The Rich Continue to get Richer and the Poor continue to get Poorer. The middle class ABOLISHEDTrump’s proposed extension of the 2017 tax cuts will:* Add $4.6 trillion to the national deficit over 10 years* Give the top 10% over $12,000 in average yearly gains* Strip funding from programs like SNAP and Medicaid MEANING this is costing low-income households $1,600+ per yearThese cuts don’t stimulate long-term economic growth, they just drain federal resources that could be used to stabilise the economy when things go south. Combined with tariffs, they increase the chances of a recession, not reduce them.The Domino Effect: How a Recession SnowballsThese extra charges—when not prepared for—can snowball very quickly for your average American.* A $90/week increase in living expenses erodes savings* Families cut spending, which leads to* Local businesses earning less, which leads to* Job losses, which leads to* More spending cuts, and eventually:* RecessionTrump is not warning the public. He’s not walking people through what this means. He’s still pretending he’s the guy handing out tax breaks and “fixing the system,” while quietly setting the stage for collapse.Chaos is the PointRecession benefits the powerful. It weakens institutions. It silences resistance. It gives authoritarians a stage.And while your rent goes up, your job gets shaky, and your groceries cost more—Trump and his billionaire buddies are buying up the future at a discount.He doesn’t need to crash the economy.He just needs to make sure it happens while he’s standing in the fire, selling you Trump-branded water.What Can Americans Do to Survive It?You’re not powerless. But you have to act now, not after the bleeding starts.1.Build an Emergency FundStart with $500 if that’s all you can. Work toward 3–6 months of basic expenses.This is your recession lifeline.2.Cut Down DebtHigh interest debt will strangle you in a downturn. Prioritize paying off credit cards or consolidating if you can. 3.Revise Your BudgetTrack every dollar. Cut anything non-essential. Tighten now so you can breathe later. 4.Start a Side Hustle or Skill-UpMultiple income streams = multiple survival routes. Even part-time remote work can cushion the blow.5.Don’t Panic-Sell InvestmentsMarkets recover. Keep your retirement funds steady if you can afford to.6.Stay InformedKnow what’s happening. Don’t rely on political spin. Read beyond headlines.If your president isn’t warning you—warn each other.Prepare, Don’t PanicWe’re not in a recession yet. But Trump’s behaviour, his silence, his spin, his policies, are all signs of a man more interested in winning the fire than preventing it.And when the flames come?I hope the people help each other out, We have hit world war three and it’s us verse them. Rich verse poor. If we helped each other out more, we could rise to the riches level a lot faster. Unfortunately, the damage has been done and continues and the chances of this happening are utopian. Love VerityCopyright Danica Conwell 2025 All Rights ReservedAll hypothesis by Danica ConwellTested and calculated by GPTSources of information:https://apnews.com/article/trump-tax-bill-hurts-poor-helps-rich-cbo-f3d9d46ca3e829d6b850dca30b91a2b6https://www.wsj.com/economy/trump-tax-spending-bill-economic-growthhttps://www.wsj.com/politics/policy/gop-tax-spending-megabill-cbo-dbedad8chttps://www.wsj.com/economy/trump-tax-spending-bill-economic-growth-949a61a5https://www.oxfordeconomics.com/?_gl=1%2A1tsl8l0%2A_gcl_au%2AMTIyNTcwNDczNS4xNzQ5ODUwMjk4%2A_ga%2AMjEzMjkxNjM1NC4xNzQ5ODUwMjk4%2A_ga_GZFMW0F8TH%2AczE3NDk4NTAyOTYkbzEkZzEkdDE3NDk4NTAzMTckajM5JGwwJGgwhttps://economictimes.indiatimes.com/news/international/us/hear-from-the-president-donald-trump-says-he-wants-a-recession-but-not-a-depressionFor More sources please PM me I can send you the whole list. This is a public episode. 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THERE ALWAYS IS TWO IN THIS UNIVERSE I I A poem by Danica Conwellis a zebra a horse with black stripes or the other way around?Is death a threat? People are very convinced of this, most anyway.However, survival is important only before you have died.Death is VERY permanent, or is it the pains of death that we fear?Is your life just a flash and beyond that NO-THING?If the universe ends it will probably go bang again and restart.Existence therefore doesn't happen only once in this case.We always need two in this world.Action/Reaction.So what’s my point?Existence is eternal?There was never a time when there was no-thing?Is no-thing productive? Yes.Without no-thing, there is no something.This realisation can turn anxiety into laughter.Laughter at yourself,at worry,at misfortune,and at failure.Pain will come! No one can control this.We all could die from nuclear war,torture,neglect...This is terrifying.The worst part of torture is the beginning. the thought of torture.Torture will eventually become an acceptance and once this is noticed by the perpetrator, they will stoop and kill the tortured because this is the not going to get them anywhere anymore.Pain can be converted into pleasure.There’s tough dimensions and there’s simpler ones.Sound is a simple one.Listen to all sounds around you and there may be many. But, it’s always the way you approach a seemingly chaotic experience, being equal to the way that you will experience it.So..How will you experience death?Danica. A Nunz Rezentment Productions pty ltdBecome a paid member to become a member of out exclusive uncensored manhwa WEBTOOONZ smut video club! No video host would host the videos so im sending them out as they become available with a watermark. I have to watermark all my videos now anyway to comply with fair use laws in the US. do it sub This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

IM JOKING ABOUT MENMEN SAVE MY LIFE IN THE BOREDOM SECTOR (not kidding they do)The video above is censored but is still NSFW FYI WARNINGDANGERGODTHE OLD TESTAMENTIf the old testament was published today, it would probably be cancelled. Why do I find the Old Testament to be interesting? I have no fucking idea. But I do.I never stop referring back to Adam and Eve and the Genesis story, also Noah, Jobe and the Book of Judges. I don’t know much about the New Testament, I’m not actually religious at all.I similarly love and refer to The Parable of the Cave (the thing the Matrix takes their story from, yuh, now we on the same page lol), by Plato in book The Republic, which if you read this blog often, would know, I refer back to for FUCKING everything. Although, the cave parable is a lot less known than I’d like it to be, so referring back to it for so many life lessons can fall flat for most people. If it doesn’t fall flat, then there’s also a lot of people who outright disagree with Plato’s ideas as well, including the cave, and they will dismiss my references. So, I don’t have too much luck with that metaphor, but I can’t stop. It tells my life too well! (FYI, I’ve left the cave, felt the bliss, and I’m now at war back down in the cave, been there for QUITE SOME TIME now).However, fair enough, I understand why there are people who dislike Plato’s concepts. They stem from a man who was a public masturbator named Socrates, who annoyingly questioned people until they admitted they knew nothing, for fun, stressing them out. He hung around a lot of little boys and I assume groomed most of them aka. He was a pedo. Plato, was included in that group I assume. Socrates, also couldn’t read or write, this is why Plato did it all “for him.” And Socrate’s most famous quote is, “I only know that I know nothing.””Erm, then why are we listening to you then?” - Verity.TBH, I’m not listening to Socrates on much, except the cave parable. It is genius, and I assume comes from Plato, not Socrates. Plato, unlike Socrates, was quite a smart person who basically started the idea of psychology. (Even if it was a bit female hating in theory, but what isn’t, still today). Aristotle then came along afterwards, and he started to qualify Plato’s psychology-esque theories, starting what we now know as the scientific method (check reference, but I’m quite sure this is how the story goes, but I’m pretty sure).However, Aristotle had to part ways with Plato, his main teacher, in order to allow his scientific ideas to take a more theoretical form, because they had some kind of disagreement. Aristotle probably had to part ways with Plato, because he said the truth about why Socrate’s was killed. Aristotle couldn’t stand the gigantic pink elephant in the room anymore. “Socrates died because he wouldn’t change his ideas for mainstream ones!” - Plato. “No, he was killed because he was a pedo who masturbated in public…” - Aristotle. “GET OUT!” - Plato. I assume it went something like that.Censorship! Has been plaguing me since I started a mainstream social media platform, namely my YouTube channel Animasia Manga Fan Gurlz. There are SO MANY RULES. I got flagged for one of my videos apparently provoking violence to children!! I watched the video in question and went, “yeah I don’t see it.” *Appeal* - *Rejected* - Please take this course on what is and isn’t child abuse. Not kidding, I had to do such a short course. Funny thing is, I have the exact same video still up on my YouTube page in a slightly different format that their algorithm hasn’t picked up on! Oh, and I also don’t EVER want to provoke harm to children and don’t remember ever doing so, that little element also needs to be considered, please. NOPE! I read a manga called Stray Cat and Wolf, about a 16 yr old girl living and having a relationship with a 22 yr old male, I didn’t write it, and that hasn’t got pulled up! Just this short that featured scenes from a controversial manga series and Anime called A Girl and Her Guard Dog, which I’m sure has been some what banned or cancelled in the west, only because it seems when I display it on any social media platform, its flagged indirectly. It’s about a 17 yr old boy who is made to raise this little girl who’s parents were killed when she was 12 yrs old . The parents were involved in gang wars, and so this guy is a gang member also. So he raises her and has basically been in love with her the whole time and now she is 16 and he is 25 and she has tits now, so he has started to move in sexually pretty aggressively now. Luckily! She is also in love with him,w because he is a hot pedo. So they all live happily ever after. Again, I didn’t write it (I’d be a lot richer if I had). Here is the opening credits for the anime, they are quite confusing and strangely upbeat for such a more darker themed anime. I mean its really REALLY scarily upbeat.GIRL AND HER GUARD DOG OPENING CREDITSGood Anime though and good manga. I get why it’s a popular shojo, but it is 100% promoting harm to children. I’m not going to mince words around that. Personally, I would never have written this story, because I do not think about harming children or think about children in any way sexual whatsoever, because I think children are gross. I didn’t write that to YouTube, maybe I should have.In any case I just sent all my paid members of this Substack who are instantly now members of my uncensored smut webtoon/manhwa and manga video club, the first uncensored smut video narration! I could not find a video host for them publicly, and I’m not tech savvy enough to create a website. So I decided to just email all the members the uncensored videos as they become available instead, because censored smut narration is kind of silly. It’s like listening to DMX censored, just one long beeeeeeeeeeeeep. The video I posted today on Substack is the censored version if manhwa Talk To Me that is a favourite and a main narration of ours, so you can understand what I mean if you have seen it. There are a few more available on my YouTube channel, and a few episodes of Stray Cat and Wolf. I’ve had to take down a lot of the narrations I had up, and now have to re-upload them to comply with copyright laws. Which is a bitch, but it’s kind of like Taylor Swift re-releasing all her music again, later in her career, and selling more than the first time they were released. I have a lot more subs now, and it is guiding the newbies to narrations I did when I had 5 subs. It’s a pretty good business strategy. I’d prefer not to have to do it, tbh, copyright is ANNOYING but necessary, obviously. I was advised by my YouTube manager to only upload four videos MAX a week, two if I can help it. So this has been a good way to do that, and drip feed the manga narration back out to the public. lol.And it’s not a SEX CULT blog without mentioning either Taylor Swift or Lana Del Rey, the incels will tell ya! “All you do is ramble about Taylor Swift all the time!” Was a blog review I got from one of them. I’m thinking, if you hate me so much, why are you reading my blog at all? I’ll tell you one thing, it’s the haters that make you in the end, not the fans. You will have very few fans compared to haters. Most people are going to hate you, in my opinion. Your job as a artist or creator or woman, is to work out how to use their hate to your advantage. Hasan Abi from Twitch, a well known content creator and political commentator, does it quite well in real time. So does Taylor Swift for that matter, she just wrote an album featuring many songs referring to how much her fans actually hate her and vice versa. Which they then sing a long too and scream for and buy. Taylor 1, Haters ZERO. Enjoy the censored smut, if you prefer to see it uncensored, I couldn’t publicly upload it anywhere so if you subscribe to a paid tier of this blog you will receive all the uncensored versions directly to your email as they become available and Ill be doing a lot, because Talk 2 Me is one of my main narrations and it has A LOT OF R RATED CONTENT, every chapter, and theres 160 chapters, so we got a lot of audio visual smut to come! FUN! It is my fave category next to shojo for manga/manhwa. It’s more real, and written and drawn so well. Subscribe now to receive the uncensored versions! 'TALK TO ME KOREAN MANHWA SMUT RELATIONSHIP SERIES NOW IN AUDIO VISUAL FOR THE FIRST TIME BY ANIMASIA - I JUST WANNA FUCK opening credits to Talk To Me). SEX CULT is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.Love Verity & DJ Foxy/Moron Happy mondays!A Nunz Rezentment Productions PTY LTD SEX CULT BLOG and Uncensored Manga video club xxxoxooxxox This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

Death Tarot Reading Above ^^ I messed up the upload….lol. Surprising. Yes we talked to ourselves. mmmhhmmm xI felt an energy coming through and I live streamed my investigation. Im still not finished but I got a big answer, just with two cards, and that took me 40 minutes or so. This is a five card spread! So I thought, I have not much too do until after midnight tonight because I’m working after midnight so Im going to continue. However, I wanted to play this first in case you missed the live stream 2 weeks ago. This Xmas came fast and went fast. In and out like a $2 hooker (as THEY say).I wonder what Qanon is saying this Xmas? I hope they are well up there in the Q tower (aka Telstra building in the city OR the Marriott Hotel OR the church OR the building next to the church). OR the Vanguard building. They are apparently a great index fund though….Well this Tarot card reading ain’t no $2 hooker, its the real deal and I talk about synchronicities, horoscopes, planets and yes, I’m slightly mentally ill.Well this is part one of Animasia Manga Fan Gurlz read Death Tarot cards Part one of ?. x Verity ANIMASIA SEX CULT PODCAST & BLOG is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

CHAT OR STREAM 2 ME ALSOIf I sold one thing to every Indian person for $1 I would be a multi billionaire. And it’s only $1, who’s going to say no? I don’t know what that one thing is going to be but I’ll think of something. How do you enter the marker though is my question? I think I have a lot of questions as far as that is concerned.This is a past stream from star maker, you should get the app and come into the live room when I’m there that way you can join me, or chat to me and I’ll se it.Atreams silence things that break copyright rules, that;s why I can’t play music. I’m thinking how do I do this! Truth is, ya can’t!So I talk about this at the end of the video but some half Japanese cunt snitched on me to the manga people because he said I was white washing manga and I replied with “stop whaling.” AND THAT WAS IT. Banned from nearly every manga website. And a threat to sue Google for allowing me to promote their stories in a complimentary way. Google didn’t care obviously I think my content passes the fair use rules tbh. But I’m re-editting them anywya just in case They will look way better anyway and I’ll be back better than everSO thnak you, you literal half japanese (self proclaimed) idiot.Still getting this smut website up, I can not build websites so theres been a few hiccups im going to just share the videos for free for while but I’m only sharing the link with my paid subs on Substack. If you want the link just Subscribe to the paid tier of this podcast/blog and you will also automatically get the link.I’m doing that now.I’ll write a real blog soon been busy with YouTube. It’s a lot of work white washing Manga lol.LoveVerity xxFOR THE LINK TO UNCENSORED STEAMY HOT MANGA NARRATIONS please follow this link, subscribe and voila! Thanks for the support! Leave a comment xxxLatest Webtoonz smut CENSORED narration. This is NSFW and has Sexual themes and for mature audiences only: ENJOY~ (EXCLUSIVE UNCENSORED VERSION MUCH BETTER!) A Nunz Rezentment Productions PTY LTD This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

NAIMAKIKAZARI - Naruse rears his ugly jealous beast 3.0 and it’s perfect and cool as usual. DUHHNAIMAKIKAZARI MANGA The story is getting goooooood. Im actually narrating it this time so it will be somewhat better. My point is to improve so let’s try and do that.If you like manga, basketball manga, romance manga, high school manga, then this is probably one of the most popular and no one has narrated it yet and theres no anime soooooo LETS DO THIS TOGETHER.This video is a preview for tonights chapter. I MIGHT DO 2. if I do two the second will be rough af. But it looks like a fun one so we shall see. CHAPTER 21 IS VERY DRAMATIC.let’s get through it together lol. www.youtube.com/@sexcult1 Just come to the live area i will prob have technical issues for 15 mins. So 12.15am XOXOLove Verity and DJ Foxy Moron who made the video xoxo. Ill be reading for around one hour. until 1.15am (ISH)if i do chapter 22 then 30 mins longer. or less 20 mins. See u in 10-20minsxoxoxSEX CULT PODCAST & BLOG is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. sub free for 3 months no strings just a gift 4 u. on a paid tier. support female writers!xoxo love verity This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit sexcult1.substack.com A NON-FEMINIST FIGHTS FOR HARDCORE FEMINIST RIGHTS 1.0A man walks into a diner in Germany, and walks straight up to the waitress and says to her “I’ll have a coffee without cream please.” The waitress looks at him and with a smirk says. “Well, I’m sorry sir, but we don’t have any cream. But we have milk, so, you can have a coffee without milk?” At that, they both laugh and the scene ends. That is a metaphor for feminism for me. And that is the reason why I know being a feminist will never get us anywhere….It’s process is literally a joke. Time to think of another way that doesn’t leave us “without” all the time, in a “comical” or maybe delusional, way. SEX CULT PODCAST & BLOG is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, SUBSCRIBE on a monthly paid tier at only $8 a month and you will receive the first 3 months free. Avail until 30th of Oct! No strings, cancel anytime, it’s just a gift! Gawwd you are so paranoid! Just get the free thing, it’s ok it won’t harm you.

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This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit sexcult1.substack.com DIDDY ISSUESPuff Daddy Freaks out over life senten ce imprisonment Above is Puff Daddy’s girlfriend Cassie. I assume she is the girl being sung about in the Weeknd’s track The Hills. It’s rumoured she may have been the muse for that entire Weeknd album, Beauty behind the Madness. She was also the first lady to take Diddy to court for Rape, intitally being called a liar by most including Kim Kardashian, however, not any more. Your man on the road he doing promo (Diddy)You said keep our business on the low lowI’m just tryna’ get you out the friend zone‘Cause you look even better than the photos - ie. The photos Diddy was sending around to everyone starring Cassie having sex unwillingly with male sex workers as he masturbated and watched. Diddy, did this often to many women, circulating the pictures of his ventures via text from what he called his Freak-off parties, to his greater circle of friends and enemies too. - Lyrics from The Hills by The Weeknd(the lyrics in the video above are wrong for problematic. But they are close enough, and you can just hear the correct lyrics. I was being lazy and didn’t make a new video but the lyrics are also below this article too. I realised this track is about Puff Daddy and his freak-off crew)The track I have posted above in the video is called PROBLEMATIC by Ye & Ty on Vultures 1. The name Vultures and it’s greater meaning speaks for itself, especially now after all has been revealed of Diddy Dearest, Sean Comb’s, abuse of innocent women and men. I loved this track so much that I did a podcast for the examination about it, deep diving into it lyric by lyric, but I thought it made me sound a little too “white girl,” and I decided not to post it. No one needs to hear that. There is a line in it that caught my attention straight away. It is when Ye raps/sings, “I just fucked the world raw she need a morning after. And then the morning after..”These lyrics haunted me, and I felt they meant more than the words being sung on track;an encrypted metaphor. So I listened harder and understood it better, but the spiritual understanding of it came as soon as I first heard it. It’s sadness and portrayal of a fearful revelation, perfectly portrayed by Ye as performed on the Vulture’s 1 track.These lines meant something to Kanye that had alot of sadness and pain. It definitely caught my attention enough to dissect the whole track. And this is what the track portrays, in my opinion.. SEX CULT PODCAST & BLOG is a reader-supported publication. Recieve free 3 months paid memebership nowwww if you sub for free! Only available until end of October 11 2024. Do it Do it! xoxo

TOTAL WAR Why did I love her? And why do I not now?Well, maybe because that time is over for me? Possibly I don’t need to hear the message Lana Del Rey has to give anymore? I don’t think Lana Del Rey even needs to hear the message that Lana Del Rey has to give anymore, because Lana Del Rey is probably dead. Or so it seems...That look in Lizzy’s eye during the Coachella show this year, I knew she didn’t mean it anymore. Lana Del Rey was NOWHERE to be seen in those eyes. She looked very uncomfortable “weekend at bernie-ing” this Lana Del Rey character that once came so naturally to Lizzy Grant.I know that will be the last time we see Lizzy Grant try to perform the already deceased Lana Del Rey ever again. Unless she’s some kind of masochist.That Laura Palmer time of both myself and Lizzy’s lives is over. We are all dead now, we all saw that angel on a string as fake as those vipers dressed in empaths clothing. We all wondered aimlessly into a new world through force, not of our own will. Furthermore, us lonely women all entered that world by force anyway, and it tormented us as part of some ignorant bargain we had made with it. At first, it caused us many a mood swings and feelings that could lead to killing people for asking a question. We never really became apart of that world either, not completely, still feeling like an outsider. The Lana Del Rey world I’m talking about that is. The Lana Del Rey world, can also be called the Marilyn Monroe world, the Princess Diana world, the Molly Bloom world. And woman who felt power like it was a hit of a very addictibe drug once and stopped at nothing to get it back and keep it under your control (which you can never do so you are doomed from the start). That is what I’m talking about when I say Lana Del Rey world, and you must play a version of yourself to remain in this world, you can’t be yourself naturally. This has been what Lana Del Rey has represented for me all these years. In parallel I’ve been living in this world side by side with Lana for a long time. Ive been in denial, but this came to an end maybe three years ago and I finally got shoved onto a path of re-discovery about one year ago, and I’ve been on a journey ever since to figure out where I’m at now. I have an idea and it’s not the most fun but it’s me and Little Danica and that is never that bad, as long as we are together. (My inner child). All the lonely women can play these characters very well, but the world always won in the end. That’s why I’m here now writing this blog, and that’s why Laura Palmer was in that red room with the angel and that’s why Lana Del Rey was on that stage in Coachella performing really badly. That’s why we are all here now laughing, no longer in denial. But will I ever feel as excited about life as I felt in that world? I think about this question a lot, and it seems unlikely. This makes me sad.Will Lana, will Taylor, did Laura Palmer? She is the only dead one out of all of us, however, she’s also not a real human being. I don’t have the capacity to even fathom a metaphor for that right now.I want to take a closer look at the slow death of Lana Del Rey as a case study and maybe find some answers in it for me and how to get to the end of this seemingly endless journey.Lana released an album in 2020/21 called Blue Banister’s. As a real life case study example of what this change does to someone and how humanly fucked it can be at first until we get used to the light, I’m going to take a look at this album, which I think was Lana Del Rey’s good bye album. Also look at some performances at the beginning and at the death of Lana. And those times in Lizzy’s career as Lana Del Rey where she just couldnt become that character for whatever reason that day, and the struggle she endures while trying in front of a audience of watchers on.Playing a character that is not who you actually are can serve its purpose, while it serves its purpose. But over staying its welcome can land you straight back down into the cave again watching the shadows and thinking they're real………DELUSION SETS IN EVENTUALLY. BECOME HUMAN From Birth to Death///LANA DEL REY Case Study/// This secions is referring to the second video belowThis was the first time Lizzy Grant introduced the world, on a larger scale, to the exciting and fucked up character of Lana Del Rey. A character she played phenomenally for many years before and after this performance. Some days, I could tell she just didn’t have it in her to become Lana, i.e., Lizzy’s first Saturday Night Live appearance as Lana Del Rey: (SNL appearance in video below. Lizzy struggles to become Lana on this night early in her career).That aside, and only one of a few bad performances of Lana Del Rey. In the video below, Lizzy literally transforms into Lana on this night for a long time, bats swinging, singing with vengeance in this performance. The words and experiences of Lana Del Rey so perfectly tacky, becasue they are honest and uncool and portraying perfectly that feeling powerful people have on young beautiful girls. It’s intoxicating and the lonely girls will compromise all their foundational boundaries to get a piece of it. To get that next hit. Lizzy beauitfully stayed in character of Lana for the next 10 years after this performace, inspiring all the lonely girls that were stereotypically not stereotypical around the world listening to her. (For better or for worse).Lana Del Rey takes centre stage here and on into the future. Representing all the lonely women, still alive and those now dead, that came before us. LIZZY GRANT PRESENTS LANA DEL REY’S INTRODUCTION TO THIS WORLD. A STAR IS BORN.This performance encompasses everything Lana Del Rey stood for, honesty, provocative language and concepts, the darkness, beauty, dysfunctional powerful men, the innocence and the sadness of the beautiful tragic woman. Not forgetting the loneliness also of the beautiful tragic woman, the loss of power, denial and most importantly the uniqueness of this woman too.And of course, the video games. THE VIDEO GAMES ARE NO MOREThe video below displays what I think will be the last time Lizzy Grant plays Lana Del Rey, or attempts to anyway. This performance tells me that Lana may have died a long time ago. Lyrics from her last album also suggesting so. Lyrics such as:When’s it' gonna be my turn? …..Don’t forget me.. These words conveying her need to for Lana to die, while also conveying her fear of being forgotten at the same time. (The reason why she held on long after Del Rey was already dead). As you will hear in this next video, she literally sings the track, There’s a Tunnel Under Ocean Blvd. This Coachella performance (or part of it) below, was half Lizzy Grant, half undead Lana Del Rey, and it’s a right mess. The album before “Tunnel,” called Blue Banisters, I knew was Lana Del Rey’s last real goodbye album. It was perfect. Lana’s best work besides Honeymoon, which is on par with Blue Banisters (both unpopular albums of hers). This death is especially heard during track three, called Arcadia. A song indicating that Lana is going to heaven, after giving a big fuck you to America on her way out.“I’m leaving like as I was 5 foot 8, west of bound, plus the hate, that they gave, by the way, thanks for that, on my way, I’ll pray for ya. You will need a miracle…..America.” - Arcadia LDR.LIZZY GRANT PRETENDING LANA IS STILL ALIVE She may have realised Lana is dead dead by now, but the show still had to go on……and it did… This is a dismal show for a main stage, headline artist Coachella performance. However, Lizzy can not help it, Lana is just dead and gone.Lizzy probably didn’t discover this until she was on stage. That’s kind of a nightmare, though. However, coming out of denial is always a good thing, even though it quite often doesn’t feel that way at the time.In any case, thinking back to the masterpiece that was Lana Del Rey’s last glorious album Blue Banister’s, and it’s beautiful track number 3 called Arcadia, celebrates the life and now aftermath of Lana Del Rey. Her departure to Arcadia was equal parts a relief, bitter-sweet and a little tormenting. WHO ARE WE AND WHERE IS OUR IDOL? Now that Lana Del Rey is gone, we are left alone with Lizzy Grant.…..Hey Lizzy.Who the fuck are you??!!You ARE NOT the woman who sung, “boy, you're so dope. Your love is deadly….” And you are not the woman who asks the boy you were dating, “I heard that you like the bad girls, honey. Is that true?”No,no. NO!Hmm mm. It’s confusing to hold onto a narrative so tight for so long, only to realise it no longer exists to serve you and validate your existence anymore. It’s a beauiotful expricne to identify with an artist so meaningfully and allowing it to guide you but it can also get toxic and lead to ther cave sitatuion also. That doesn’t mean you don’t badly want it to exist still. (I mean, I badly want it to exist still).But as I said, music can’t be controlled, and Lana’s music was a narrative that is now in the past only. It’s literally history for me now. I can no longer live alongside of it. (And hide behind it). I have a map of Arcadia on my bedroom wall now. (I’m still trying to find her).So what’s next….This chapter, Total War, is about my Lana Del Rey days, in all their beauty and nightmares. All the colours and the darkest, dark days of my life also. This chapter is trying to tell you a story about a time in my life where I had become aware of this evil nature I possessed, but I had not labelled it “evil” yet. I just thought it was my power, and it was to be used when absolutely needed only. (Not yet aware that it should never be used). Only when I was the victim of course! But, who was the judge and jury of that decision? Me!Uh huh, that’s where things went wrong.This chapter is a part of my non-fiction philosophical reflection about a six-year period of my life, in which I fought a war and didn’t die. (But oh god did I cry). I can’t say that others around me were so lucky though. All the characters are real, but protected with fake names. Most of them. I think so, anyway. I believe I’m not brave enough yet to write what actually happened without hiding behind this conceptual bullshit you hear in this chapter. Concepts are like little shields to protect you from actual reality. (They are the shadows in the Cave). Concepts allow you to be general and meaningless, while sounding super deep and meaningful. Yeah, well, it's not easy. I'm reading a book I love, and recording it as an audiobook with my commentary. It's a great book for writers, but it’s not like books on writing like the book called, On Writing. Which is a great book that I still follow the rules of right now! I cherish it. No, this one is a bit different. The writer goes through this book about fiction narrative, suffering the same predicament the reader may be suffering at the time also. The lessons come in these creative ways she manages to evolve, intuitive practices throughout the book, practising new techniques in prose. These insights inspired by the stories she had told about herself, that had come from the section of the book before it. Pondering on how she can get vulnerable when she writes.Anyway, It will be easier to understand if you decide to listen to the book. I'm putting it up in full once I finish it in full. If anyone is a writer, you may be particularly interested in this one. It’s a relatively unknown book so far. I think it will continue to grow to become a classic. It is quite old now though.In this book, in the second section, she states: Pleasure, freedom, torment and emptiness, is what I want my writing to express. But I don’t know if I ever have expressed it. This woman is some kind of spirit animal of mine, because she really hits that identify button hard. I love to identify with words and sentences, and it’s not hard to write sentences that people will feel a deep affiliation with though. It’s no secret (it’s just people choose not to notice this, out of fear), that most of the time if you write from the heart, NON-CONCEPTUALLY, you will achieve this connection with the reader. Consequently, in the search for how to become the writer, the writer of this audiobook wants to become. She accidentally becomes it, by writing about wanting to become it. Go figure. Maybe Lizzy and I will also stumble across ourselves soon, too. My hope is that she already has. R.I.P Lana Del ReyBy Vivian(V)Verity XoxoBrought to you by verityai (who is verity??) Copyright Danica Conwell 2024 all rights reserved.Except Music by Warpaint//Love Is To DieAnd Pictures from Pinterest This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

MOLLY’S EVIL. VIDEO GAMES Part 1 and Part 2 - I have marked where Part 2 begins if you read Part 1 last blog xoxoxoxFOR THE LONELY GIRLS WHO SEARCHED FOR POWER …AND FOUND IT.The podcast is a representation of the seeking of this power. By DJ Foxy/Moron. MOLLY’S GAME ….WHAT REALLY HAPPENED BETWEEN MOLLY AND THE FBI?So, I watched this interview this morning, obviously YouTube has been reading my WhatsApp messages, because I keep getting videos about women who have started their businesses and it’s gone wrong for them. YouTube probably has some aGENDER, to keep women in their place (I don’t know really, but it’s a bit strange that I suddenly start getting fed all these horror stories, when I’m already at the end of my rope with this start-up stress. YouTube will be there to push the chair away apparently).There is a vast interest for labelling women (yet again), as a “witch”, manipulator, seductress ect.There are still men out there beating their wives, children, boyfriends, girlfriends ect. However, we are focusing mainly in on male issues?Oh the whole, “men are beating and raping their wives” story is so laborious. Again, we are focusing on the male problem, over the female problem ie. the high suicide rates of males. Really? You don’t think women equally want to kill themselves? The rate hasn’t increased for women because IT’s ALWAYS BEEN HIGH. I’m not classified as a feminist these days because I don’t align my values with 80% of theirs, but you could mistake me for being a hardcore one still. My life revolves around the healthy evolution of women but in different ways to the feminist agenda. However, if I talk to a male about equality in the work place, and say there obviously is an over-representation of men in basically every industry. The uneducated ones will deny it with no evidence for this response because it’s undeniable.And the educated ones will say that women don’t want to work. I’d like to know where these educated men get that statistic, because it’s a fact that 4% of 3.5 billion dollars in venture capital went to female-run start-ups last year. (Another statistic to enthral me with hope).By and large, I’ve let my thoughts run away with me and this was not what I intended to write about, and anyway I’ll save it for a book I’m thinking about writing (what seems like it could be a book anyway). A book on modern misogyny. I want to include the many creative ways it is playing out in society today, and the not-so-creative ways. But hey! The good old-fashioned ways still work boys…….mahahahahaww.A non-feminist writing an extremist feminist book. Well, it is what it is.I was GOING to write, in this blog, about a woman called Molly, and why I thought she was a lying, manipulative whore.So, I shall continue to do so…(jk) I was watching episode after episode yesterday of A Diary of a CEO. A show I will say is really trying not to be misogynistic. They are obviously going out of their way to represent females equally to the men they interview, which can come off patronising, however, if I write this the uneducated male will say, “you damned if you do and you damned if you don’t.” ……..No, there is a way for this to work without being patronising or misogynistic……I promise you there is.I know this is a marketing strategy to get the females on his side, because he is young and a millionaire; one can lose touch with reality living in a dream.Down here on earth, where there are frustrated educated women the situation isn’t so easily remedied. Alot of women would disagree with me, their response being, “well, at least he’s trying.” To that I would reply, “Have you heard of the term, “try hard.” A “try hard” never helps anything, it’s a form of people pleasing, which ACTUALLY IS a form of manipulation. (Don’t get me started on the rampant gaslighting going on at the moment).Dr Peter Attia is a hormone doctor from America. (He is friends with Rick Rubin and is using that Andrew Huberman idiot to piggyback some traction off of; good on him). I cried (not heavily lol, just brought happy tears to my life) when I heard him criticising the dodgy science around the treatment of menopause. And No, I didn’t have PMS, I am overcome with emotion when I see extraordinary occurrences or legitimately sad things. The situation with female health is sad, women are dying because of it. But save Palestine! Your mother is a woman, your sister is a woman and this is your family, and these companies are attempting to kill them by not attending to their health issues or just not caring. There are so much unnecessary suffering from women going on out there right now. This issue will always be the most important issue.I’m human, and I’m not a sociopath.Dr Peter Attia describes the science around the menopause studies, the worst blunder in medical history ever (well, since hysteria and the whole burning witches thing…..However, it is just as corrupt).This is the video that made me cry seeing a male stand up to the patriarchy for us. So well.What is the difference between The Diary of a CEO (TDOACEO) host and Dr Peter Attia? For starters, maturity and life experience. Dr Attia is older, has daughters, and is a hormone doctor, his understanding of women and his education levels combined make for an unbiased and informed opinion on just about anything. One of the only benefits of a formal university education, if you don’t think you are born with the gift of critical thought, you have to learn to think this way, by writing essays. Some people may be born with an intellect capable of picking up this kind of thinking without education or practice, but most are not.People in the business world deal with a different kind of smart, and it’s the kind of smart that allows you to become a millionaire and stay there, only on the up. (Mostly, but even Warren Buffet has had his bad years).I love when millionaires say, “once you make your first million, it’s easy to make more after that.” Like they are saying something super intuitive, but really it’s quite obvious why it would be easy to make more after your first million……..Because you have a million dollars and the wisdom of how you came to acquire that million dollars to make more.As I said, it’s a DIFFERENT kind of smart. However, it’s the kind of smart that runs our world currently and there is no room for any other smarts when it comes to money, power and glory.It’s a similar thinking to that of chess or poker. How can I outthink the guy next to me. It’s a game, a competition and are you good at video games?I heard you like the bad girls honeyIs that true?-Lana Del Rey Video GamesSEX CULT PODCAST & BLOG is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. Get 3 months free when you sub to a paid tier right now! cancel anytime no strings! do ittttThis brings me to the real-life “Lana Del Rey type,” who I saw interviewed on the TDOACEO (the diary of a ceo) last night.It was a great interview with a woman who was born to a family with no money, her brothers were high achievers at school, and she was not.But she was emotionally intelligent and was “born to run,” as Bruce Springsteen would describe it.PART 2PART 2This brings me to the real-life “Lana Del Rey type,” who I saw interviewed on the TDOACEO last night. It was a great interview with a woman who was born to a family with not much money, her brothers were high achievers at school, and she was not.But she was emotionally intelligent and was “born to run,” as Bruce would describe it.Molly’s story is very entertaining because it involves all the usual things that an interesting story contains. Mystery, “the outsider” who gets to see the inside, the rich and famous, “the elite”, violence and verdict.You may have seen the film, Molly’s Game. I have never heard of it, but I gave up on the film industry, Hollywood especially, a long time ago. Plus, even though the book sold 10 copies only, I think the story is meant to be told live. It was very engaging as told in narrative by Molly herself. I always prefer the story from the source to it’s book interpreted narrative, Molly’s story still had spin told by her, but I like hearing people tell their story. The most ordinary seeming person also has an engaging story, it’s how you tell it and how much it effected you in how well or not well it is received. It has to mean something to be engaging. However, if the narrative is real enough to trick my brain into thinking it is real, that’s probably propaganda, and I do love propaganda as much as it’s ruined my life. However, if I have been tricked into thinking it’s real, then this simply means that it’s a super competent narrative.While I liked partially listening in on this story Molly was telling, there were quite a few holes in it. I understand she probably had time pressures, which may have accounted for all the “cut to the chase” jumps in story.I  would have enjoyed the story more if the subtle linear notes had also been included, not just the action scenes. However, even the stories she does get to tell about her roller coaster ride of a nightmare experience with a semi-predictable outcome, are very engaging. (Predictable to me now as a mature adult, but this narrative was one that played out in my life many times over when I was 20 to 27, ignorant to or not caring about the end result).MOLLY TELLING HER STORY IN A SHORTI could tell which stories were the truth and which stories were glazed over a little to make herself seem more heroic. However, the truthful narratives could have been just as heroic, but it would have put Molly in a place of anti-hero or a human being, which possibly is too much for Hollywood or the entertainment industry.In my favourite films, the main character usually is just as evil as their enemies. And most great films I know play to this narrative.Most humans I know who I admire are evil. Evil is honest.It’s starts off as a very Lana Del Rey-esque storyline, it reminds me of that song Lana has that goes:When I was a waitress wearing a tight dress, handling the heatI wasn't famous, just listening to Kings of Leon to the beatLike, look at how I got thisLook how I got this, just singing in the streetDown at the Men in Music Business ConferenceI felt free 'cause I was only 19Such a sceneWhite Dress is the name of that song, however, not the only relevant comparison. Compatible also, is Lana’s mysterious relationship with Harvey Weinstein and her intoxication on his lifestyle and power he possessed. She obviously grasped onto this power very strategically. It’s all very reminiscent of the start of Molly’s story.Molly gets invited to be a waitress at a poker game in LA with her boss who she thought was firing her, and he was, but ends up giving her another job at this exclusive poker game instead, because he liked her personality. Attendees of this poker game included Leonardo DiCaprio, Ben Affleck, various billionaires, well-known bankers and movie producers, basically a very “elite” group of men.This “elite vibe,” was like a narcotic to Molly, and she instantly (as women usually do to get their way), learnt how to manipulate the men in the situation in order to groom them and make her presence in their life feel indispensable. The art of seduction comes to mind. (Ok maybe not all women would think to do this, but the few who want more to life then is offered to us as women would). I don’t know enough women to know this for sure, but I’m pretty sure all women have done this at least once In their lives to some varying degree. I did to a very dangerously high degree, and I wasn’t messing around. I was in full seduction manipulation mode and I got the job done. However, much like Molly, the ending to the story was less than ideal.Molly’s narrative plays out like a semi well-written Netflix original movie script, because I do believe she’s decided to tell the myth over the actual story. I believe that in the actual story, Mollys completely evil from day one to when she’s sitting in that chair on TDOACEO being interviewed by the ignorant misogynist (lol Im kidding I don’t think that about him, however boys like him need to watch their actions when dealing with female issues. It’s akin to “positive racism”). A woman who goes that far for power, can’t be a good person. This is played out well also by Lana Del Rey, with lyrics like:You talk lots about GodFreedom comes from the callBut that's not what this bitch wantsNot what I want at allI want money, power and gloryI want money and all your power, all your gloryHallelujah, I wanna take you for all that you gotAnd Molly did take these men for all they got. Molly was determined and went on to do the impossible in New York City (NYC) some years later. However, I can completely understand how she made it possible. The pursuit of power is like no other, and you will always find yourself going against everything you ever stood for to get it.When Molly’s LA poker waitressing/ event holding job came to an end, she goes to university in the city. However, she wasn’t done with the power poker world yet, still not having hit rock bottom on the power drug yet, the cravings worsened. Molly couldn’t stand to go on as a regular human after such a thrill. Also,  the thought that it’s still all going on out there without her, was enough drive to get exactly what she wanted and also didn’t want.Molly knows no one in NYC when she arrives, and she goes from knowing no one to holding $250,000 buy-in poker games only reserved for the most powerful poker players in NYC.I’m thinking at this point, this woman doesn’t give a fuck about poker. She uses this knowledge that powerful rich people play poker, to meet the rich and powerful and groom them.By this point, she knows the power drug is the real reason why she’s taking these huge, mostly illegal risks but is probably being clouded by mania. She also starts stepping on the toes of the Italian Mafia, who eventually come visit her and bash the fuck out of her for doing so. When you need power, you will get to places and do things most people would find impossible or just very dangerous, to have it. Think about a junkie, ever watched Trainspotting? I’ve been there with chasing that power drug, I have this theory that the non-chemical based addictions are so much more worse than the chemical ones. Because denial is much higher in these cases, because the reasons for taking such huge fatal risks in your life and hurting people is not as obvious as shooting up Heroin. And there is a answer to how to get off Heroin, there’s no rehabs for a power addiction. But there are many women who have one, and we are all very dangerous people to know at our peak. Mostly to ourselves, and our boyfriends. (Poor boyfriends). I have done the impossible, and I've been that person to get to where I want to be, despite the haters and the odds stacked against me. The hunt for power is boundless, and it knows no limits. But are your intensions good or bad? That’s where we hit a cross road and things start to pan out very differently. Hallelujah, I wanna take you for all that you gotSo, long story short, she puts on this big $250,000 buy in game, some idiot loses 100 million dollars in this game, and the stakes start getting higher for Molly. At this point, Molly is a multi-millionaire herself and an evil bitch, as she tells the story during this period, being mean to her boyfriend (see) and the Mafia bashing her ect.Italian mafia come at her, and so do the Feds. They freeze all of her accounts and stop her from leaving the city. She borrows money and leaves anyway and goes back to her parents, but she is arrested in Colorado shortly after she arrives by the FBI. She gets charged with a possible sentence of 90-years in jail and it stares her directly in the face.This is where Hollywood started to take over in her narrative, in my opinion. Molly claims that they offer her a deal, they say she can keep the money (30 million dollars) and she won’t go to jail, if she tells them info about some of these billionaires that played at her games.Molly claims NOT to have TAKEN THIS OFFER LOL. I don’t think she did either. Unnecessary. She knew this straight away. Then the story goes she miraculously gets a warning instead of the 90 years…….Wait….WHAT??!In this interview she is saying some bullshit like she would never have snitched on the billionaires, the one’s she once groomed and manipulated and whom she described as “pety and insecure.”Nah she LOVED THEM! My guess, is that she would have found out what the FBI wanted, gone and called whatever billionaires they were interested in. She would have blackmailed them by saying she would give up said information on them if they didn’t influence or pay a bribe to the judge, who possibly could have been at these poker games himself, there is a good chance she knew this judge who was hearing her case. But whoever she had to get to influence this verdict obviously did so, and she was saved without snitching. And I believe this was the right this to do. They shouldn’t have got off scot free, they were also there playing illegally with her, so they should of helped her. This way she gets to look like a loyal bitch to the billionaires and elite, by not snitching and the story ends in her being a woman with a heart of gold who really “cares.”Fortunately for her, the billionaires likely ran a large sanction of the corrupt FBI to also. She would have known there were many options for her, either way.The FBI aren’t very smart. You think they would have better strategies than that to get her to talk. Seems strange. But I never underestimate a cops stupidity. No offence to the smart cops. By the way, I can’t be 100% sure this is how the original story played out, but if she hadn’t thought of that, and I did in a heartbeat of hearing it, then I’ll be damned. I stand corrected, and Molly risked a 90-year jail sentence for the love and care for the billionaires. (That’s not even half believable.)This story resonated with me, because I have always felt like that outsider like Molly, who was desperate to get inside for the power, doing the most nasty and abusive things to myself, and to those around me to get it. Especially to men. This was all because of that day at Newtown High School of Performing Arts, as I stood in line to see the vice principal, as usual, to get my fraudulent early leave certificate signed off or my leave early pass with a fraudulent letter from my mother. I knew the principal’s office very well. I was a concerning student to my principle, who thought I was wasting a spot being there because I wasn’t contributing at all to any performing arts at the time. That, and I used to fight with my french teacher a lot. I really hated her, but I can’t remember why. Looking back she seemed pretty cool. My principle issues aside, I still managed to talk my high school principal into allowing me to come to school late every day at 10.30 am, because I lived so far away. (I guess I did, but as if that was her issue, she granted me this privilege though. I still don’t understand why to this day. I should have been a lawyer really).However, on that day in particular, I forget what I was doing in the principles office that day, but it was a lot more crowded than it usually was. It must have been recess. I was In line that day in the office at school, two people were ahead of me, when I looked over to this senior who looked like Drastic from Heartbreak High. He was staring at me really intensely. I didn’t know what to think, boys in my own year at high school showed no interest in me whatsoever, the opposite! So I wasn’t used to this attention. It became obvious to me, why he was staring at me and I was hit with this blast of power throughout my brain, by the fact that in that moment, I possessed a massive amount of power over this senior boy. I think the boys in my own year never showed any interest in me, because the popular girls from my year hated me and I was considered social suicide to show any interest in. Lol. However, the senior boys and girls didn’t know me, so I continued to target senior boys from that day onwards and lead them on until they got tired of me and realised I was just a tease. I guess I was, but it was worth it, it made my life worth living, but it was probably the beginning of my hate for men. Because I just started seeing them as a tool I could use to get power from and they ceased to become human to me anymore after a while.That power that came over me, by Kieran (The Drasic guy, I ended up knowing his name for he was also in the principles office a lot too, he was a bad boy lol), checking me out super intensely, was actually something I was really scared to explore, even though I really wanted to. Thankfully, I didn’t have the confidence to explore it too deeply during high school or my teen years. (Which I’m thankful for, because being a stupid teen seeking that kind of power from men, could have got me into some dangerous situations). However, that hit of power I felt as a 13-year-old girl, NEVER left me and when it came to the right time to start hunting it again, I still didn’t really have the confidence to pursue it to it’s full capacity, but the amount I did pursue it, accounted for my intense Xanax addiction for 10 painful years, starting at 21 years old. That first power hit was brutally intoxicating and it set me on a path to find this sense of power anywhere and anyhow I could ending in PTSD, death and just nothingness. It was truly the beginning of the end for me.I chased that power for a good 18 years after that incident and it nearly killed me; I'm surprised every day I'm still alive. Especially after the dark predator years, with my Dr Evil-esque need for WORLD DOMINATION. This was my whole life up until only a couple of years ago.I do believe Molly being put in her place by the law and the Italian mafia humbled her, and I don’t blame her one bit or judge her for doing what she did and seeking that power. I’m glad she did. What was the alternative? Live a normal boring life? There’s no competition for which choice wins for women like Lana, Molly or I. We always take the latter, just in different ways.I probably always will, just maybe for different reasons these days. 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THIS IS A COUNTRY DON’T MESS AROUNDTHIS IS A COUNTRY THERE’S ONLY DANGERRUSSIA RUSSIASENDING ALL MY LOVE TO RUSSIAThis is separate to the pod MOLLY’S GAME …. WHAT REALLY HAPPENED BETWEEN MOLLY AND THE FBI?So, I watched this interview this morning, obviously YouTube has been reading my WhatsApp messages, because I keep getting videos about women who have started their businesses and it’s gone wrong for them. YouTube probably has some aGENDER, to keep women in their place (I don’t know really, but it’s a bit strange that I suddenly start getting fed all these horror stories, when I’m already at the end of my rope with this start-up stress. YouTube will be there to push the chair away apparently).There is a vast interest for labelling women (yet again), as a “witch”, manipulator, seductress ect. There are still men out there beating their wives, children, boyfriends, girlfriend ect. However, we are focusing mainly  in on this. Oh the whole, men are beating and raping their wives story is so laborious. Again, we focus in on the male problem, over the female problem. I’m not actually classified as a feminist these days because I don’t align my values with 80% of them.However, if I talk to a male about equality in the work place, and say there obviously is an over-representation of men in basically every industry. The uneducated ones will deny it with no evidence for this response because it’s undeniable. And the educated ones will say that women don’t want to work. I’d like to know where these educated men get that statistic, because it’s a fact that 4% of 3.5 billion dollars in venture capital went to female-run start-ups last year. (Another statistic to enthral me with hope).By and large, I’ve let my thoughts run away with me and this was not what I was intended to write about, and anyway I’ll save it for a book I’m thinking about writing (what seems like it could be a book anyway), a book on modern misogyny. I want to include the many creative ways it is playing out in society today also, and the not-so-clever ways. But hey! The good old-fashioned ways still work boys…….mahahahahaww. A non-feminist writing a extremist feminist book. Well, it is what it is. I was GOING to write, in this blog, about a woman called Molly, and why I thought she was a lying, manipulative whore. So, I shall continue to do so…(jk) I was watching episode after episode yesterday of A Diary of a CEO. A show I will say, is really trying not to be misogynistic. They are obviously going out of their way to represent females equally to the men they interview, which can come off patronising, however, if I write this the uneducated male will say, “you damned if you do and you damned if you don’t.” ……..No, there is a way for this to work without being patronising or misogynistic……I promise you there is.I know this is a marketing strategy to get the females on his side because he is young and a millionaire; one can lose touch with reality. Down here on earth, where there are frustrated educated women, some of us might be watching this show and thinking a push this obvious to benefit women to keep things “equal,” between the sexes, he isn’t realising is coming off a touch patronising. Some would reply, (if they could read minds, because the comment before was just a thought, not a statement), “well, at least he’s trying.” To that, I would reply, “Have you heard of the term, “try hard.” A “try hard” never helps anything; it’s a form of people pleasing, which ACTUALLY IS a form of manipulation. (Don’t get me started on the rampant gaslighting going on at the moment).Dr Peter Attia is a hormone doctor from America. (He is friends with Rick Rubin and is using that Andrew Huberman idiot to piggyback some traction off of; good on him). I cried (not heavily haha just brought happy tears to my life) when I heard him criticising the dodgy science around the treatment of menopause. And No, I didn’t have PMS, I am overcome with emotion when I see extraordinary occurrences or legitimately sad things. The situation with female health is sad, women are dying because of it. But save Palestine! Your mother is a woman, your sister is a woman and this is your family, and these companies are attempting to kill them by not attending to their health issues or just not caring. There are so many unnecessarily suffering from women going on out there right now. This issue will always be the most important issue. I’m human, and I’m not a sociopath. Dr Peter Attia describes the science around the menopause studies, the worst blunder in medical history ever (well, since hysteria and the whole burning witches thing…..However, it is just as corrupt).This is the video that made me cry seeing a male stand up to the patriarchy for us. So well.What is the difference between The Diary of a CEO (TDOACEO) host and Dr Peter Attia? For starters, maturity and life experience. Dr Attia is older, has daughters, and is a hormone doctor, his understanding of women and his education levels combined make for an unbiased and informed opinion on just about anything. One of the only benefits of a formal university education, if you don’t think you are born with the gift of critical thought, you have to learn to think this way, by writing essays. Some people may be born with an intelet capable of picking up this kind of thinking without education or practice, but most are not.People in the business world deal with a different kind of smart, and it’s the kind of smart that allows you to become a millionaire and stay there, only on the up. (Mostly, but even Warren Buffet has had his bad years). I love when millionaires say, “once you make your first million, it’s easy to make more after that.” Like they are saying something super intuitive, but really it’s quite obvious why it would be easy to make more after your first million……..Because you have a million dollars and the wisdom of how you came to acquire that million dollars to make more.As I said, it’s a DIFFERENT kind of smart. However, it’s the kind of smart that runs our world currently and there is no room for any other smarts when it comes to money, power and glory. It’s a similar thinking to that of chess or poker. How can I outthink the guy next to me. It’s a game, a competition and are you good at video games? I heard you like the bad girls honeyIs that true?-Lana Del Rey Video GamesThis brings me to the real-life “Lana Del Rey type,” who I saw interviewed on the TDOACEO (the diary of a ceo lol) last night. It was a great interview with a woman who was born to a family with no money, her brothers were high achievers at school, and she was not.But she was emotionally intelligent and was “born to run,” as Bruce Springsteen would describe it.MOLLY’S GAME IS TBC NEXT BLOG….Love Vivian VCopyright danica conwell 2024 all rights reservedbrought to you by COMMBANK (jk)by VERITY xoxoxStay tuned! 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BORN FREE IN THE NEW WORLD ORDER - COMING DIRECTLY TO YOUR FROM YOUR SMART PHONE (i assume) Summarizing (in fairly clear English) Slavoj Žižek, gives a YouTube lecture that is relatively short, on freedom, and I will summarise each paradigm within’ this blogI sped the dialouge in the video up, obviously. Just reiterating. I will also give some opinions or agree/disagreeHowever, first, I will present some quotes I love from Žižek so if you don’t know him this will give you some what of an introduction.If you are unaware of the kind of philosopher Zizek s and what perspective he comes from (he is one of the great philosophers of our time and is still alive and is from Slovenia, which is a very forward-thinking area of the world in my opinion), hopefully, these quotes will give you an idea of who he is and his position politically.He is a Marxist and probably an atheist of some kind, and he is a lover of German philosopher Hegel (Phenomenology of the Spirit), and psychologist Sigmund Freud (a love we share; Freud is very important in my opinion):ZIZEK SAYS:“Perversion is to be looked down upon, but hysteria is celebrated instead.”“Bill Gates and Elon Musk are the truly dangerous ones in my opinion. All they want is socialism.”“Experts are by definition the servants of those in power; they don’t really think, they just apply their knowledge to problems defined by the powerful.”“The proper way for the woman to test the man’s love is thus to ‘betray’ him at a crucial moment in his career.”“And this is what we should do today when we find ourselves bombarded with sensationalised images of violence, war and conflict. We need to “learn, learn, and learn” what causes this violence.”“A BREAKTHROUGH HAS TO APPEAR AS EVIL FIRST. EVERYTHING IS EVIL IN IT’S FIRST STAGES”-       SLAVOJ ZIZEK: Giving a lecture on Adam and Eve, evil and knowledge at NYU. (With a feminist lecturer who (from what I could tell) lived in Brooklyn Williamsburg. She was the cause of it getting super white and politcally correct and causing all the interesting people to move to Austin or thereabouts)A LETTER TO NYU BY VIVIAN VDEAR NEW YORK UNIVERSITY CIRCA NINE YEARS AGO, Can I just condemn you please NYU? Circa nine years ago, for having all men ask Zizek questions (which is fine) and then, as the last male asks a question, the speaker announces, “no sorry! There hasn’t been any females asking questions yet, so we will go with this woman here please…..Please this woman wants to ask a question…..shhh.” And I assume she has comes up to the mic and then she speaks, and I wasn’t watching just listening, and I hear a males voice again, and think, what the hell? Ohhhh because, it is a trans woman. So, no females asked questions that day. I have no dislike for the trans women, what I didn't like and what I found to be insulting and patornising about that incident, was that they made such a big deal out of allowing a female to ask a question and shir……..For it to not be a female. Why is it ok for men to patornise women using transwomen as their weapon to do so? Because this is what that felt like it was. I can't help but feel its a new wave of mysogony. Like, there are females in this room, but we are going to choose the woman who was born a male and make a big deal about allowing her to ask a question, but the woman born female, no we would never do this for you. You are females are all adults, you should have asked questions when you had the chance too. (Which I agree with......But doesn't that go for the transwoman as well? Don't you idiots or love equality and all that shit?). Love V xoxo PREDATOR (I was nine years ago!)__________________________________________________Side note concerning the snake from Adam & Eve: I think that the tree of knowledge of good and evil, is misplaced in the Garden of Eden, obviously. Is it a portal? And if this is true, is the snake constantly sitting on the edge of good and evil? How horrible this would be.I personally feel, I have sat on the edge of good and evil for a few weeks like the snake, and while it was (kind of) bliss, a lot of the time, there was something fundamentally wrong with this cautious feeling of bliss I was experiencing.My Pre-Frontal Cortex (PFC), which is a very strong part of my brain that monitors actively all my actions and/or choices, was talking to me, but it had been turned down. Because little did I know, I was losing feeling in my Frontal Lobe (FL), dulling the voice of my PFC, as my FL slowly went numb. By the end of (I think around) one week, (I’m not sure though because I was fast losing track of time), I felt like I had a hole in my brain, on the left side (my left side) of my head, just above my head to the front a little (my FL).It was so obscene, I remember texting a friend and saying, “I have a hole in my head lol.”In any case, this I can’t prove to you, you just must believe in the authenticity of my words, which I don’t expect you to do.By and large, because it had dulled the usually very active part of my life and body, my PFC, things started going down-hill very fast after that. I ended up in the ultimate place of knowledge and good and evil yet again, where the snake sat that day when the snake met Eve. Sitting on the tree of knowledge of good and evil, in psychosis, slowly being pulled down to hell by the evil of my spirit. (I don’t expect you to believe this either, but it happened).If you have ever been in a psychosis and remembered it, you would understand what I mean, but maybe never likened it to Adam and Eve (lol) metaphor/snake metaphor. I love metaphor.There is a room in The Vatican, where the pope goes every week to worship his and their God, or whatever. The room is dominated by the snake. The snake is gliding over the top of the church ceiling in a beautiful stained-glass artwork, and the snake’s fangs are spearing down into the sides of the stage, which is where the Pope sits, in the middle of the fangs. Behind the Pope, there is a huge (in my opinion) ugly big sculpture of what looks like Jesus raising from the dead or hell maybe, and there are all these dark figures trying to pull him back down(that was my soul during this process, and the snake was my PFC). I assume and what it looks like, is the snake is freeing Jesus from hell, like the snake freed Adam and Eve from Paradise……. I don’t know that’s what I conclude.Long story short even though it’s already long (it was the wrong guy-aiaiaiiiii…..You will only get that if you are a really big Taylor Swift fan soz), I was raised up from evil thanks to the strong reason of my PFC, and my soul at this point, is so used to listening to it, it did in the end. It rebelled at first a few times, but luckily it was talked sense into, and I came out of this hell that I had got myself into. (It was circumstantial). How did this start: Short answer, ALOT OF EMOTIONAL PAIN. Maybe the worst melancholy and emotional pain I’ve ever been in, in my life, in very short time (5 seconds until psychosis started). It came on very fast, and I believe I probably have PTSD from it, because I’m still recovering two years later.Since then, the snake has always been a point of fascination for me in the parable of Adam and Eve and particularly the relationship between Eve and the Snake. My Reflection called Predator (Conwell 2024), has me explaining a six-year period of my life in which I was at war, metaphorically likening it to the relationship between Eve and the Snake and the Snake’s relationship with reality. I’m featuring a reading of it by Samantha, a partitioned audio book reading of my non-ficton reflection called Predator, on this podcast, chapter by chapter over the next two monthes. I only write non-fiction. I have done one chapter, a few out of order here and there, but starting from one and going through not until the end. It’s not finished yet, well maybe it is. You tell me.  ___________________________- SLAVOJ ZIZEK ON DIFFERENT PARAGDIGMS OF FREEDOM   (video for this lecture can be found on YouTube and watched before or after. It’s of no matter)A explanation of Slavoj Zizek’s explanation, from my perspective (however, I tried to just interpret it with no bias, if I have an opinion I will state that before I write it and you can choose to read it or not. Comment freely but not free(you must be a member to comment), if you agree or not with me or Zizek)_____________________________________________INTRODUCTION - THE SLAVOJ ZIZEK HOW TO BECOME FREE LECTURE & BLOG ABSTRACT BY VIVIAN VZizek’s main point over all, seems to be that freedom has rules one must abide by in order to truly be free. Which is an ironic or self-contradictory point, and I think Zizek enjoys this about it.I personally, have understood this for some time, however I have never explicitly thought about it in so many plain words, but I would always agree feverishly that discipline is freedom. Because it is! I felt it and it was beautiful. It was the beginning of my main breakdown/breakthrough I think, experiencing freedom in such a free-less existence. “I was milk without the cream.”However, discipline allowed me to just be black coffee for a short moment or two and it was nice. Xanax, used to give me this feeling also and it used to corrupt me with power and evil-ness.What kind of freedom do I dream of? Usually the freedom of a man. And a man may say to me he doesn’t feel free, but I would reply that from observing a man’s life in comparison to mine, the man seems more free._________________________________________________Paradigm 1. FREEDOM AND LANGUAGEGreat artists, philosophers, and poet’s, especially poets, have a beautiful way of saying so much without saying the actual main point of the thing they are saying. This is usually in protest to something bigger than the person, poet, musician, artist, who is saying the beautiful metaphor non-main point thing (lol)I was reviewing a Kanye West track called Promlematic, and one line stood out to me and made me ponder millions of words, it goes,“I just fucked the world raw, she need a morning after……..But then the morning after……”The multiple dots represent the time Kanye takes in-between singing the first line and the second line, as written. The second line he sings, isn’t as confident and powerful as the first line he sings. The second line is sung with an almost defeatist sounding voice. Like, things didn’t go as the way I wanted or WORSE, as Zizek is stating, they are going the way Kanye wanted.Zizek toys with the idea that decisions have to be concrete, “do or die,” to embody true freedom. Although, freedom comes at a cost. That cost is called, massive responsibility. And not many of us are willing to take on the responsibility of our “freedom of choices.”Kanye fucked the world raw, what did he expect? You do that, and if you are a fertile male, you are likely to knock the world up. And sure, you can ask the world to take a morning after pill, but what if the world leaves you hanging. What if the world decides, “nah, Im going to have this baby.” However, the world is your side bitch, and you are married man with four children waiting at home.OR WORSE, as Zizek states, what if she does take the morning after pill (what Kanye wanted), because she don’t want to have your baby, then reports the incident as rape, because she never gave you consent to…..You see where I’m going with this.Many, many, paths….I guess you can see how many words I already have got out of those two beautifully sung lines of language.Zizek states that people don’t want the responsibility of freedom when push comes to shove. They really just want to be validated BY ANYONE, that the thing they are doing that is most comfortable (probably for their ego), is the right thing to do. Most people are unknowingly not free and never will be, brutally controlled by their ego. If you are controlled, you are not free. Even by yourself._____________________________________________________Paradigm 2. CAN WE CHANGE THE PAST?We change the past by constantly re-interpreting it through art. Contingency. The French revolution.Zizek is saying that science has been pretty convinced that freedom of choice doesn’t exist. Most people’s choices are determined by something, usually environmental or nuture, aspects of our childhood and then into our adult lives.Made stronger by Libet (1916) when he famously did an experiment using the scientific method, in which he would ask a random participant to push a button seemingly to their own contingency (random event, unpredictable in nature aka free will), and every time they did, there would be a slight pause in their brain half way to making the decision, and then the decision was made.Libet, used this to prove that if a small choice like pushing a button is controlled by the neuronal processes of our brains before we make the choice, this cancels out any evidence any one human lives with free will. Because, it is the neurons in our brain making the decision not our free will. Zizek rebuts this, and I tend to agree with him.Mostly because, I would think that a person’s neuronal processes is still them, therefore it is still technically a choice made out of THEIR free will, if no outside forces are controlling it.Zizek rebuts somewhat differently. He uses the example of Shakespeare. Stating that Hamlet should not be seen as a work of art at face value, because we have been re-creating Hamlet for many years since Shakespeare first wrote it. The re-creation of this work, has added meaning upon meaning to it until today, we now have a piece of art because of the re-interpretation of it. But in the re-creation of this work, in all kinds of abstract ways across cultures, we are inevitably changing the past. I believe this is Zizek’s main point.Concluding then that we can’t scientifically change the past, but we literally can. (Whatever that means).__________________________________________________Paradigm 3. WHY IS FEMINISM SO DIVERSE?This question is answered by Zizek, first using a joke as the leading metaphor to make his point. (uh oh). The joke is not at all funny, and It’s in some German film I never heard of.It’s used to describe feminism’s “symbolic impact” on women, and feminists over the years.A man walks into a café and asks for “coffee without cream,” and the waitress replies, something along the lines of, “we don’t have coffee without cream. This is because, we don’t have any cream. However, we have milk, so you can have coffee without milk?”And I guess this is the punch line.But how on earth does Zizek use this random, un-funny, yet slightly witty (if I have to say something good about it), joke, to describe feminism?Well, very competently actually.He is using the original black coffee as a metaphor for being a human woman. And the cream and milk, as all the variations of this woman, or of the different embodiments of what a woman can or more so, CANNOT be.Meaning that Feminism IS always taking preference to focus on what could have been, but is not, time after time. This is symbolically, and literally, how feminists see their lives as women since becoming feminists. Feminists, tend to see their lives as symbolically a life, “without milk,” or, “without cream.”I assume, he is concluding that this is not a productive way to be, and it is a form of self- imprisonment, Maybe, the reason why women, or feminists, have been getting more crazy and angry over the years, since attaining some freedom in the 1960’s. The being without mind frame, is seen as a loss, obviously, by the feminist. A loss is never satisfying for anyone.Zizek goes on to use the example of scientists, who for the most part are determinists. Yet, the very nature in which they argue with each other and rebut each other’s ideas, is symbolically an act of freedom.Freedom of speech and thought.He doesn’t explicitly link feminist to this analogy, probably to stay on the safe side of all those angry women “without,” coming at him. However, I assume what he is concluding is that feminists are also able to freely express they are “without cream” or “without milk” etc. And by this fact, they are already exhibiting the freedom in which they continue to protest they are “without.”This is a great philosophical conclusion, because it offers the audience a lot more interesting questions to ponder about women and feminism along with it. He also doesn’t conclude with any matter or fact answers with this feminist question. This is  because, I assume, he is a male, and by restrictions of being a male when it comes to this topic, his “facts” about feminism shouldn’t really exist, let alone be expressed. So, he is smart by doing this and respectful to women and feminism.However, I get the feeling he wants them to quit moaning now.Do I agree?I’d like feminism to progress further than is has already today. Feminism, has the theorists waiting to progress it, but most of the time feminism rejects these progressive theorists, thus failing to progress feminism. For example, theorists like Luce Irigaray and her Difference Feminism.Feminism, has the opportunity to set women free with Irigaray’s hypotheses, and I’d go as far as saying, her tested theories on difference have been significantly measured and shown that this way of thinking about women and men, will work in solving the gender war, if we implement is more strongly in society.  It will set women free, if they aren’t already free, which let’s face it, its Zizek’s stance.However, this is not the pathway feminism is willing to take responsibility for yet. The feminist movement today would rather dwell on the past (but I do not blame them for this, but feminism does it in a conservative way and we need progression). Feminists preferring to take the #metoo style pathway for now, which is basically preferring to stay as an embodiment of “coffee without cream.”And this is why personally, I no longer identify as a feminist.__________________________________________________Paradigm 4. LIBERTY AND FREEDOMHIEGEL  - ABTRACT AND CONCRETE FREEDOMFreedom is conditional. Which technically is again a contradiction to the notion of freedom of as we understand it.Liberty is the ability to live “freely” within the society you belong too.Zizek first makes a distinction between what liberty is and what Hegel’s “concrete freedom” is. Concrete freedom, is the freedom we mostly practice today. It is freedom lived under the rules of the law and of the social norms which the people set for themselves. It’s a somewhat controlled freedom, that most people enjoy.Liberally, one can say things like, “I don’t like vaccinations because I don’t have the freedom to choose.” However, taking the liberty to have your vaccinations, is giving other people the ability to live freely in a world without disease and therefore, it is the right thing to do, free or not. This again, an example of concrete freedom.A good and even more modern example of this freedom, is Jordan Peterson’s rebellion against the Canadian government, concerning transgender people and the laws that were introduced forcing people to refer to transgender people the way they want to be referred to.(I assume either as man or woman, despite their assigned gender at birth. And I also not to be abused verbally, would be part of it, which I know Canada has had issues with when it comes to minorities in the past. The last government before that, was not treating trans people or sex workers well. She was making their lives very dangerous to live, by putting so many restrictions on sex work, we had an influx of Canadian girls come to Australia. (Sex work is a job a lot of transgender people were forced to do in Canada, because no one in 9-5 jobs would hire them, and back then there were probably no transgender brothels, so the streets where their first and last choice of hustle. This obviously comes with many dangers that escorts never have to face).Peterson argues that this law takes away his freedom of speech and I assume choice. However, the bigger picture says to me, so I am restricted to not hate on a minority by law, well fine, I wouldn’t do that even if I didn’t have those restrictions/laws in place, so I can’t see the harm in it. I can only see the good that underlines it. However, it is of my opinion that the more restrictions put on people by law will cause more rebellion of that law. Restrictions = chaos, this has been demonstrated time after time. And it is of my opinion this is because if a corrupt system brings in restrictions on their people it is not for the good, and this essence of the corruption is felt by the people and causes resentment and therefore a chaotic system.However, Peterson was more focused on his loss than the loss of others in his rebellion against it but this speaks to my point, the discrimination have even got worse once this law came in and this may have been the secret point of bringing in the law in the first place. Judging by Canada’s past governments, I wouldn’t be surprised.  Nonetheless, Peterson didn’t see the liberty in the implementation of this law, he wanted to exert his freedom over it.But is true freedom when “called to action,” more important than the liberty of concrete freedom itself? I guess this all depends.________________________________________________Paradigm 4. FALSE FREEDOMThis is about “big brother” basically. The utopian Metaverse, Cryptocurrency, China ect. Zizek is not a futurist thank God, but he might be overally cautious about technology, he’s probably right about cryptocurrency. Cryrptocurrency, probably is this perceived anonymous currency option that they are using to highly regulate everyone.Tech talk in philosophy does bore me at this point, I haven’t got to a place with it yet where it has sparked any interest in me yet.AI singularity interests me, I really wanted to write a sci-fi about it called E.V.E. Where humans are Adam, God is maybe the Earth, the snake is still the snake, and the red apple is…..I don’t know, P Diddy? It isn’t a book I will write.In any case, Zizek doesn’t like where the economy is heading, he is very pessimistic about it and a self-proclaimed neurotic to the core. So, this is a typical opinion probably about “new things” by neurotic people. I am neurotic, but I’m not so much a pessimist, but more of an ACTUALIST. I might be a techno-pessimist.ANYWAY._______________________________________________________Paradigm 5. CYNICAL REASONThis paradigm reminded me of the step in NA that I was on when I decided to give it a break. It was step 6 and it is, We were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.Zizek explains, that cynical reason is when we know what we are doing wrong and how to fix it, yet we do nothing. Even going as far as to display in large ways that we know EXACTLY what is going on, publicly, yet we still do nothing.This also reminds me of Q anon and that crew. The idea is there and the solution even, yet no one from that crew is winning a Nobel Peace Prize anytime soon. In fact, I foresee a lot more losing than winning from that crew in the future.Zizek uses art as a scapegoat for this behaviour, he tends to pick on artists and poets, but there are much more obvious examples of cynical reason in the world in my opinion. Perhaps, that’s the white guy philosopher in him? I only say that because, Socrates picked on artists in The Republic. Philosophers tend to have issue with artists. It might come down to something as juvenile as competition. They are all men after all.Not that women aren’t competitive, of course they are, but men are just lower in emotional intelligence is my point.NEXT!_______________________________________________Paradigm 6 – FALSE PEACEActs of charity will never be enough. Because it is a cure and not a prevention and obviously prevention is better than cure. Zizek also explains that it can be used as a means of corruption to hinder other cultures while benefiting from it.We need to work together universally to put a stop to things like immigration, hunger, sexism, child slavery and dictatorship etc. We know this but we aren’t going to do it because power is more of a priority for most of those who hold the power, more than “peace.” If you haven’t awaken to this fact yet, well I don’t know what to say….Im all for dropping out of university these days, if you want to, usually it is a better idea. But got those who think peace is the war on terrorism or Ukraine winning a war against Russia (say that sentence 10 times in a row before you have one more opinion on it), or allowing immigrant into your country. Please, go back to school. This is what Zizek would explain as false peace.Peace = What is causing immigration? How can we stop that and so on. The root cause, not the side effect of the root cause. That’s too temporary to be crowned as an act of peace._____________________________________________________________Paradigm 7. VLADIMIR PUTIN’S PHILOSOPHYZizek says he is a danger to the world. Makes sense.Any person or group opposing the American Government or system right now seems to be the more dangerous system now. It is becoming clear, that this could be part of the new world order’s plan. I have believed this about Donald Trump and his “fight” against the CIA. His very PUBLIC fight against the CIA that seems to make him more and more popular.PROPAGANDA.It is a beast, and it is coming for you, well it has come for you and now it’s your job to break free from it. Good luck because it’s basically impossible unless you get lucky and then when you break free from it, you got a chance in hell those around you also will, so there’s only so much you can do as one person, if anything. So, you must sit back and observe the destruction unfold before you. Or you can also, like Lenin, go away and, “Learn! Learn! Learn!”This has been my choice, and I’ve accepted that I will be hated mostly because I see past the propaganda. I’ve been thinking about starting a propaganda style band for the west. Like Laibach, but for the west. Make humour out of the very serious and fucked fact that the west think we are not under a fascist regime.______________________________________________Paradigm 8 -  THE WAR IN UKRAINE“Not a cold war, now it is hot peace”See video for the last thoughts. PODCAST W LE KITTY MURRERERERERERRRRRvivian v xoxoxoxCopyright Danica Conwell 2024 All Rights ReservedMusic by First Aid Kit, M.I.A, The Knife This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

I LOVE PROPAGANDAPropaganda is a bitch, but it works, and I like functional things. PRODUCTIVE things. I love things that deliver what they promise. However, this is a message to the people:(Pictures above, a page from my self-help book) I see my “5 steps on how not to suffer,” (not the title, but it’s the marketing hook) self-help book being sold in Target, K-mart and Big W to mothers and losers. All heart, no soul. That's what it takes these days! I mean…..That's ALL it takes these days. No one ever wants to get better. Lol. Funny…..No no. They just want to be sold a narrative of Utopia that aligns with their current unaligned value system (sometimes non-existent value system..... Perfect, even better). ”We” are making it so easy for “them” to take us over. WE!! ALL ARE THE JEWS at this point. Utopia is the Hitler.The government is the SS. And, Social Media and your phones are our concentration camps. Ill post this to Facebook, YouTube, and Instagram also after this because if I don’t, it won’t get seen. Next, blog will be called:MY PIMP HAS FIRE IN HIS EYES…..NO, REALLY, I SAW IT.OR MY PIMP CARES…..NO REALLY HE DOESWorking title.This is a chapter from my reflection I’m ready to publish TBH. This chapter will actually be edited, but this is a first draft. It needs refining, and it’s super honest, which I’m thinking twice about lol. But here it is anyway. In all its gore and glory. Johnny Gore and glory. Johnny is wrong, I’ll just call him the Sadist. Johnny Gore does rhyme with the actual person’s name. I was just going to say their real names, but I don’t think I’m that much of an evil bitch. I’m not an evil bitch these days at all. ACTUALLY. Femcel, from 13 to 30, BUT NOT I'M RIDING HIGHER.Between space and time.I murdered my ego, and then he murdered my ego when he was murdered.Vivian V xxxCopyright Danica Conwell 2024 All Rights Reserved.Music by broadcastArranged by DJ Foxy/MoronSubscribe to this podcast and get 1 month free premium plus membership to the new era of innovative ai search and secure payment system options website Strictly Business launching August 2024. It is especially made for the escort industry, which includes free endless use, while a member, of our secure, user-friendly new innovative website features and world first experience. Made especially for you, and escort’s security, and to retain an upmost professionalism again while always having fun! Finally, no more worries! This will be in the form a world first payment system, which will be available only on this client positive escort search site, solving neat to all of your online escort search issues. This leaving you to have fun again when searching for escorts online and not be worried that after you book, you have booked a fake or have booked some loser stealing your deposit. This is all unnecessary, and we have the solution to take these worries away and leave you to enjoy your escort booking experience.Sub to this podcast now to secure your place in adult industry history, with THIS NEW AI private escort search, a world first and launching this August 2024. Made by me, a working private escort. And also a team of people, who know how to make extremely competent websites. With this alone, it will set us apart from the current state of escort search sites around the world now. TO BE HONEST, it won’t take much to set us apart from current escort search sites, because they are so outdated and not at all secure. And for the amount of cyber crime and fraud that happens online today, worst in Australia than anywhere else in the world. This should be a priority for these sites, but profits are and they get away with it because there is no alternative because they have held the monopoly for so long. Well, don’t pass Go and Don’t collect $200 because its GAME OVER for them this time. We are over the crap their system puts us through, especially escorts working with these sites every day, being fucked and thinking it is our faults. I know that 75% of the timenow, it isn’t.These sites are highly CORRUPT and cause escorts and clients to lose copious amount of money to their gain money every day. This system is old, unfair and it’s OVER.The sex industry, especially prostitution, has been highly corrupted to hinder the worker and get more “milage on a ho.” And that term, while outdated, still plays out in the industry today. The only difference is it has evolved with the times, and the politics that surround the times.These days, escort search sites provide this corruption by flooding their site with fake escort profiles drowning out our profiles, so we have to pay exuberantly high prices for our advertising to get noticed. They even go as far as texting us as real clients, but don’t intend to book, wasting our time and keeping us hustling longer, this is how these sites make money.If they make us hustle longer, which is kind of stupid because, that’s how you lose “milage on a ho,” then we burn out alot quicker, because the hustle is the job. However, they do not care and see us as disposable, and maybe we are, maybe all humans are, but humans also have brains and so do sex workers. These brains we have, tend to lean towards the negative innately, and if we are working a job that is already highly shamed and discriminated against and then on top of that, we have these bastards secretly blocking us from getting what we deserve if we work hard, then the PIMP system from the 1940’s continues and I don’t much like how sex workers were treated in the 1940’s. This system burns escorts out fast, lowers our confidence and in some cases can lead to suicide and ill mental health at the very least.Considering, it’s now a different century and sex work is now legal, this system is needing to die and get buried six feet under.This is because, eventually, one escort was going to take notice of this and start to fuck shit up for them. That escort is me, and I know there are a few other escorts out there who are on the same page. My goal is to have all of them on the same page by this time next year.I REALLY CARE that this is happening in the adult industry online escort system still and it is SO OVER. I want to see escorts thrive, not die. They have chosen a very smart industry to get into and to make money from as a first business choice, they just need to be A. Told this and B. Shown what that means.For clients, they need to be able to trust that the escort they are booking is the escort they will get and not have their deposits/money stolen. That would be a good start, yes? My escort search site will offer that and more!I and 75/100 of my clients (a stat taken from completing a marketing questionnaire four weeks ago), want a positive and secure AI escort search system, that’s not corrupt and runs a lot better and a lot faster, saving clients hours in search time, especially once the app is released that will be stealth on your phone, and retain all anonymity!The app will be geo—location, invite only, when it is ready to launch for my new era of not at all corrupted, full disclosure and transparency and only REAL PRIVATE PREMIUM PLUS AUSTRALIAN ESCORTS. No fakes, no bullshit, all fun with this new innovative escort search platform STRICTLY BUSINESS AI + more.However, for the first 150 clients to subscribe to this podcast, they will receive a premium plus, invite only membership, to the app when it launches, only a few months after the website. Including with the invite, one month free usage of it also, to explore all the new world first features. This is alongside the 1 month free premium plus membership to the new ai website and lifetime membership to this podcast as well!My company, is going to reveal the current sites for what they are, out dated, corrupt and dangerous. The current platforms we are using have been using us.Australian Private Escort’s, Strictly Business, aims to cater to only 6-star clients, like yourself. It’s time to kick the PIMP system of this industry out, that is now outdated. Sex work is legal now in Melbourne! Time for a change. I want to aid in the transition for all escorts in Australia, adjusting to this huge change.We will be the first and no. 1 company in this exciting new era of AI online premium private escort search sites. Perfecting the art of escort booking online for you, a great experience every time you book on our platform! No fakes. No stolen deposits, all financial security guaranteed.We're wiping these fakes out, and we are making a search site and payment system FOR YOU. An escort advertising platform to empower and inform escorts and see them succeed, not hinder them from succeeding.Please email me and tell me your biggest ideas and problems so we can consider them as we build this. I’m a working escort, so I know most of the issues quite well, but still email me and tell me what’s up or just comment here. The site plus all it’s world first features + more, launches August 2024.xxxxx Love Vivian V xxxxx.I support the positive evolution of the adult industry and want to be a meaningful contributor to it, and to the escorts on the front line every day and night keeping it alive, including myself.The time has come for a nice little change xx This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit sexcult1.substack.comAN IMPORTANTMESSAGE FROM THE DEAD? HUH?WHAT. THE.FUCK.AM.I.SUPPOSED.TO.WRITE.HERE??This bloggers block Ive found myself in is crazy because there’s so much to say! Like, oh my F God! Including, everything that is said on the podcast, and a lot is said, a lot was edited, and I wanted to beep a name out, but I can’t be too sure if it ended up happe…

EG0-DEATH COACHING w/ Vivian V - NOT TODAY HITLEREPISODE 1 - SHIFTING QUADRANTS ASAP! COACHING & PSEUDO-SCIENCE W/ VIVIAN V - leads to a clip you can watch more if you DARE choose! Today’s podcast is available on my YouTube Channel. Click on through above to a clip and more if you like, it’s 18+ so you have to watch it on the Tube, SUBSCRIBE while you are there please. Thank you so much, Im up to 10, going strong! Forever hopeful. AND I coach a Incel. It will be a 14 session series, and we will kill the ego of this innocent Incel once and FOR ALL. WELCOME TO COACHING AND PSEUDOSCIENCE w VIVIAN V Coaching Hitler - Incels & Femels enter into "Ego Death Coaching" /w me Vivian V I'm Vivian V and I'm a Incel and Femcel Ego Death coach, on a mission to bring in some light to these suffering beings. Therefore, making the world a better place for us all. Especially the ""Cel. I used to be a Femcel, and I can tell you, it is a dark dark path to find yourself on! And not even a fun dark path, a literal just straight up worst time of anyone's life. Incel or Femcel, they are both equally not walking around thinking their life is just so beautiful. I'm not sure if I even knew what Beautiful really was until I killed my Femcel Ego that fateful day in 2014. Incels and Femcels are usually very lost, miserable, resentful and manipulative people. If they don't get help to rid the of this corrupted ego they possess, they can end up killing themselves at a higher risk level than most other personality types. While also making other people's lives around them miserable at the same time. Typically, these types, if support to start living a different way isn't given to them, they will end up with no one around them. Including themselves, which is where the suicide part will eventually come in. WE DON'T WANT THIS. Because there is another way, and I'm happy to take them on and coach them to move forward and slowly fall back down to reality and emerge as human once again. I didn't realise there was another way to live until I had an accidental sober spiritual awakening when I was at the height of my pain as a Femcel. I guess you could liken this expericne to a DMT experience, but mine didn't come from taking DMT. Mine came from the excruciating pain of being a Femcel/Predator for 15 years. This spiritual awakening and death killed my Femcel ego, and I was finally free! And the new world I entered into was so fucking beautiful, it was astonishing! So for this, I know there's another world beyond corrupt fucked up ego driven living out there for everyone, and it's so beautiful and so cool. It's still life and its still challenging and nothing will ever be perfect! However, as a post Femcel turned Human Being, I now see life's challenges as beauty upon beauty and find gratitude in them all! It's a life void of sinicism! This makes it hard to communicate sometimes to 90% of the population. However, it does leave me with the knowldge of how to guide a willing participant to their ego death, and I hope to achieve this every 14 sessions with Incel/Femcel. This and I also have done a psychology at university and taken coaching lessons with the DR K’s coaching program, learning specific coaching skills. But in no way is any advice I give on this channel to be taken as medical advice for anyone watching, if you are feeling suicidal please see a licensed professional asap. This is posted for awareness and entertainment purposes only. If you want to take a coaching journey with me, if you are tired of your incel/femcel ways or any life problem causing you to feel lost or suffering than please email me at [email protected] any case, everythign can be likened to beauty once you shed yourself of any Incel or Femcel tendencies. Ego death is where these types of people will find any happiness or fulfilment, or belonging they seek, and I'm going to coach them to achieve being free from these kinds of beliefs about their lives. While at the same time, also reaching a personal goal. However, I assure you, they will get A LOT more than that. They will gain things they didn't even think they needed to gain, but once they have them, or killed them, they will wonder how they lived any other way. THIS I PROM PROMISE. Love Vivian V FFTB K University of QLD and Monash University, Psyc, Statistics, Philosophy, Business and alot of time now spent back in "the cave." Karaoke enthusiast. Now, Incel/Femcel and everybody inbetween Ego Death Coach and also, despite fighting it for 15 years, now loves being a Being of the Human variety these days full-time. NO LONGER A PREDATOR. Catch us usually on Youtube and also Apple Music Podcasts now too!If more convien. But this is only avail here and TUBE xxxxIf you subscribe to this podcast on a basic tier pais membership, and take this questionnaire in full you will get free membership to the new escort advertising platform I am making FOR YOU, NO MORE FAKE ACCOUNTS, NO MORE SCAMMERS, risk free and all fun! But I need to know exxctly what you want! If you want me to build it into the website, which I PROMISE to do if you give me your suggestions and needs below sub bar - https://danica-qotje95t.scoreapp.com- so this is why the questions are important for you to answer and me to know! Be gone fakes, real escorts hate them just as much trust me! It will take only 5 minutes of your time and once you a basic paid tier sub here, I will automatically add you as a Premium Plus member to the new no. 1 escort search site Strictly Business in July 2024! This will also give you access to the Concierge escorts finding geo-location App in November 2024. We making escort searching fun again and risk free. It will be 500 times more innovative than anything currently available, TRUST US. Love Vivian V xxCopyright Danica Conwell 2024 All Rights Reserved. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

A BILLION DOLLAR NARRATIVE ……… BUT,DOES IT COME AT A COST?Taylor Swift is a Loser… …….Figuratively SpeakingBut her daddy planned it that way.I wonder when it was, that the penny dropped? When “they” decided, “YEP, the loser is more popular than the mean girl?”NOTE: CAN I JUST SAY THAT THE SUBTITLES ARE WAY INACCURATE AND MAKE ME SOUND LIKE A RACIST LOL. FUCKING CUNTS. THE WHOLE BROTHERS THING I DIDNT SAY that. I said Im way too uncool to hang out with those legends. They are all LEGENDS! lol. Fkin CC. Go away. lolHad to add that….THE LOSER TAYLOR SWIFT IS A LOSER~!!The loser is always the star of the high school movies (besides Clueless). Paris Hilton was already doing a perfect “Cher” from Clueless impression that was likeable. Furthermore, Britney Spears played a good pretty-dating-the-hot-guy, prom queen heartbreaker, so that was taken. (Oops I Did It Again… Lucky… Slave… Break the Ice - She was always a sex kitten babe from Oops onwards).Yet, if you ever have watched a Paris Hilton documentary, you will see that Paris is an actual loser. She’s a geek! And a nerd! Who just happened to be tall, skinny, blonde, and fit that “prototype,” with an endless amount of money behind her forever more. And Andy Warhol as a mentor… BITCH.No, I really like Paris. Always have. She’s very entertaining, and I appreciate her production of entertainment she’s produced for the public, now for 20 years approx. She’s been releasing quality content for a LONG time. And I do think people are starting to realise that entertainment is a product, just as much as a physical thing is that you hold. (Maybe it's just me who has just realised that! But, I’m a slow learner). And it’s to be acknowledged.Then we had The Singer, but only runner-up (the Olivia to Britney’s Taylor, so to say), Christina Aguilera. Her last name is more than one syllable and too hard to spell, “NOT WHITE ENOUGH TO BE QUEEN!!!” - I'm trying to think who it would be yelling this IRL… Oh! The people who decide who wins Grammys? Yes.Pink was the rebel outcast, and Beyoncé was (at the time) the acceptable Black pop star (Apparently! However, I liked her sister Solange WAY better. Hell, I liked Tracy Chapman and Brandy WAY better).Mandy Moore was a weird one, wasn’t she? I have a theory that she wanted to be an actress but went the pop star route because she’d rather fuck Diddy than Weinstein… bahahahaha.If Mandy had a smarter PR team like Taylor’s, she could have been Taylor. ANYONE CAN BE TAYLOR. Let’s get that straight. And Taylor’s journey to be where she is now has been A LONG ROAD. This bitch, may have been born privileged from the start, but this bitch has worked. Even Suge Knight acknowledged this in a recent interview from jail (God, he really is a God. Slight chance he was sucking up to the owner of Republic Records (RR) too, to make money when he gets out or to make money now even. Stay quiet about Diddy, and get end less supply of chocolate for entire jail sentence. OR. If this owner of RR is a Freemason, they would probably get his sentence reduced…….Yeah prob that over the chocolate thing haha).There’s a reason why Taylor is besties with Ryan Reynolds and his Gossip Girl actress “IT girl” perfect super-rich NYC schoolgirl with a heart of gold (Serena? I forget if that was her name) wife Blake Lively. Ryan Reynolds, is an entrepreneur genius! Not just some over acted version of Deadpool. Who I also assume is leading this new era of Taylor Swift success into the “baby billion” dollar status it currently stands at. Underneath it all, Taylor is a definite “Karen come Femcel,” she HAS to be, it’s why I relate to her so well. (I used to be a Femcel, I no longer identity. I’m now a Positive Techno-Optimist). I can see Taylor Swift being more the Aimee character of that “Kim Kardashian diss-tract,” Thank you, Aimee, than Kim Kardashian (KK). KK, was always the loser out of all the Kardashian sisters, who happened to be better looking than all of them though. I doubt she was a bully, Khloe and Kourtney were, however, I never saw Kim like that. (Same story with Paris and Nicky. Paris isn’t a bully, Nicky seems like a bitch). She was just standing up for her then, husband, Kanye West against a very powerful force from Taylor Swifts end to end Kanye West’s career. Which I believe Rick Rubin fore saw and told KK and Kanye what they should do. I don’t think it was Kim, and I wish Rick Rubin would come to her defence with that. He was there! (If you don’t know what I’m talking about, see this video. And I disagree, Kim doesn’t owe Taylor anything). TAYLOR’S THOUGHTS OVER THE LAST TWO YEARS“Please, I’ve been on my knees, change the prophecy. Don’t want money, just someone who wants my company.”“My boy always breaks his favourite toys. He told me I’m better off, but I’m not. I’m not… I’m not.”“No small-town hopes and city dreams, I’m there most of the year because I hate it here.”“How much sad did you think I had?”“In plain sight, you hid, but you are what you did. And I’ll forget you, but I’ll never forgive.”“Screaming, “fuck you Aimee,” as the blood was gushing.”“I love you, it's ruining my life.”“I’ll sue you if you step on my lawn because I’m fearsome, and I’m wretched, and I’m wrong.”“I’m miserable, and no one even knows!”_____________________________________These are just a few lyrics taken from a few tracks from Swift’s latest album. If someone’s life was this bad in their head, they would have topped themselves by now, wouldn’t they? Or at least have a hideous heroin addiction.But Taylor has not done or got either of these two things. Oh, it’s that narrative thingy. Cool. So, who is Taylor Swift?WELL…...I doubt we will ever know until some tell-all documentary comes out when she is well and truly irrelevant in 20 years. FINALLY, WE WILL HAVE THE ANSWERS. But will we care? Some don’t care ALREADY!I think Taylor Swift is most comparable to Suge Knight, within the music industry, except instead of a gun in her motherfucking belt, she has a watch around her neck and a killer narrative killing all her competitors one… by… one. “Who’s afraid of little of me”………You should be?” I guess so then!Bang bang, smack, ouch.In This Bizarre Twist of the Pop Culture NarrativeTaylor Swift emerges not just as a reigning queen but as a cunning (self-proclaimed explicitly) mastermind. She is definitely the new Suge Knight, orchestrating her empire with precision, her weapon of choice a meticulously crafted persona that disarms critics and seduces fans. Her lyrics paint a picture of vulnerability and heartbreak, but behind the scenes, she has a team of business minded strategic geniuses, manipulating the industry with her narrative and semi-strained (these days) smile. Her alliances and feuds are calculated moves whispered in her ear by Raynolds and her daddy, playing her like she is the king being protected on a chessboard, where they make sure they are always ten steps ahead. The collaborations, the public appearances, the boys, the social media blitz—all pieces of a grand scheme to maintain her music career dominance and keep her competitors “off her lawn.”And what about the Curious Case of Taylor and Lana?Enter Lana Del Rey, the melancholic songstress whose brand of nostalgic sadness seems worlds apart from Taylor’s polished pop aesthetic. Yet, their friendship is splashed across headlines, with Taylor ensuring the world knows they are BFFs. Why? It’s another marketing narrative to add to her public persona, deepening it and enrching it with the depth of Lana’s career so far. I assume Lana agreed to this, but she is worth more than that and her career shouldn’t be used as a marketing tool to enrich the narrative of Taylor Swift (personally, this is my opinion). By aligning herself with Lana, Taylor taps into a different segment of the music audience, one that values authenticity and artistic depth. Lana brings an edge to Taylor’s pristine image, lending her credibility among the indie crowd. Their union is a merger of brands, a mutual reinforcement of their personas—Lana, the tragic artist, and Taylor, the versatile chameleon. Together, they create a narrative that’s as compelling as it is calculated, ensuring that both remain at the centre of the cultural conversation.However, this meticulously engineered reign is not without its repercussions. As Taylor Swift continues to weave her intricate web, the facade of perfection may start to show cracks. This cry for help hard not to hear from the new album’s lyrics.The constant reinvention and strategic alliances can lead to a perception of inauthenticity, causing some fans to question the genuineness of her art and persona. Her calculated moves might win battles in the short term, but they risk alienating those who crave authenticity and sincerity. Moreover, the pressure to maintain her throne through such strategic means can take a toll on her mental and emotional well-being, potentially leading to burnout. As the lines between her true self and her public image blur, Taylor may find herself trapped in a narrative of her own making, a puppet master ensnared by her own strings. In the end, the ultimate challenge for Taylor Swift will be to balance her cunning strategies with a return to genuine artistry, lest she becomes a victim of the very game she has so masterfully played.Well Taylor, it’s ok come with us, we think normal girls are boring anyway….You loser!Vivian V XOXOXMusic by YE AND TY ON VULTURES 1BACK TO MEANDPPROBLEMATICAND THE KNIFE - ALBUM DEEP CUTS.Copyright Danica Conwell 2024 All Rights Reserved This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

THE SQUARE ROOT OF YOUR SOUL This fascinating episode i explore the unique intersection of pop culture, philosophy, and mathematics. Diving into the profound insights and life lessons from Taylor Swift, Terrence Howard’s portrayal of Iron Man’s James Rhodes, and the enigmatic concept of the square root of mathematics. 2.Episode Highlights: • Taylor Swift’s Philosophical Narratives: • Analyze the themes of self-empowerment, love, and personal growth in Swift’s music. • Discuss how her lyrics reflect existential and feminist philosophies. • Explore her evolution as an artist and the philosophical messages in her journey. • Terrence Howard’s Iron Man Role: • Examine Howard’s portrayal of Rhodey in the context of loyalty, duty, and moral integrity. • Discuss the philosophical implications of his character’s decisions and relationships. • Contrast his interpretation with Don Cheadle’s later portrayal, focusing on the philosophical underpinnings of both performances. • The Square Root of 2:sub and you wont regret it >3333 vivian THE SQUARE RROOTT OF 2 (ITS NOT WHAT U THINK)Delve into the mathematical mystery and philosophical significance of the square root of 2. • Discuss its historical importance, from ancient Greek mathematics to modern-day applications. • Explore its symbolic representation of irrationality and how it can be metaphorically linked to the unpredictability in Swift’s lyrics and the complexities in Rhodey’s character. • Cultural Impact and Personal Reflection: • Reflect on how both Swift and Howard influence contemporary thought and cultural discourse. • Discuss what we can learn from their artistic expressions about identity, resilience, and societal values. • Contemplate the philosophical implications of embracing the irrational, as represented by the square root of 2, in our own lives.Lost?well, toughen up!Vivian V x This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

THE ONLY REASON YOU DIDN’T TALK, BECAUSE YOU DID A DEAL! YOU FUCKING FED!“And if I die tonight make sure that that my kids are right….” - Ye sings on track from new album Vultures 1 Beg Forgiveness. I hope Ye doesn’t get killed, but all the people who did this before him have. aka John Lennon….The words of Kanye West in 2022 in this video, aimed at some of his peers in hip hop, including to and explicitly to Puff Daddy, on Drink Champs Podcast. This interview, which was taken down because (as it was stated) “Kanye was anti-Semitic,” being the reason. However, now Diddy has been arrested, is it now clear why this was taken down yet???????It was put back up when the government realised no one was noticing the good or the truth Kanye was spreading during this time…….I noticed it and I stuck with Ye the ENTIRE TIME THIS WAS HAPPENING. I have always believed in Ye, since I was told about his genius when I was 21 years old. A LONG TIME AGO. If I stuck with Kanye West, I knew I was sticking with the strength. This is why this diss battle between Kanye, Kendrick and Drake is important. If Kanye is involving himself in it, then it is important for the people. If Kanye West re-releases the track from Pablo “No more parties in LA” with Freddie Gibbs rapping on it now. IT IS IMPORTANT FOR THE PEOPLE. The artists listed on this poster can be trusted at this time…..beware of fake profits. The Diddy trials are important for the people. The information there is to gain from following that trial and all the information surrounding it, including the Kendrick and Drake diss battle IS IMPORTANT information for the people.We are in World War 3 NOW. It’s them verses us. The people are us and them is BIG CORP, BILLIONAIRES, CIA ect. PROPAGANDA is “them.” In an information war it’s the people verses the Propaganda and whom it is, who is pedalling it. Which Ye has also informed us is. Jeeeeezus. Yeeezus. Wakey wakey people we need you!This album by Future and Metro Boomin’ also holds A LOT of information that the people need right now. It is called “We still don’t trust you.” Kanye West recently remixed Like That from this album with the lyrics, “I just fucked your bitch in a Sean John tank top.” - Think about what “I just fucked” is metaphor for and think about who the “BITCH” is he is referring to. Sean John is Puff Daddy, if you didn’t already know. It’s not fair that they started world war 3 without telling us. THAT WAS POOR FORM. However, the signs and LITERAL INFORMATION LIKE YE STATED IN THIS INTERVIEW I POSTED are there for you to have and use as a weapon against them…….. Very few people are picking up their weapons. This is war, you must fight. PICK UP YOUR FUCKING WEAPONS. god. (And I urge you to watch The entire interview from this Drink Champs, and all interviews from this time (end of 2022, Jan 2023), Especially the Lex Friedman one, and all the impromptu ones Ye did with random paparazzi especially the last one before he disappeared to Wyoming to chill after the craziness, when he is wearing a balaclava at the front of a church)WAKE UP PEOPLEYou want the truth?Well it comes and you don’t take it……So what do you really want? Vivian V.i will always be honest and try and represent the truth as closely as possible and critically think about all I post. SO HELP ME GOD! (im not Christian lol) This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit sexcult1.substack.com DEATH, CANCER, RELIGION, BLOOD, FINGERS, TEETH, DATING, FUNERALS, GRIEVING, FUCKING, TEARING, SCARING, SCLUB7, RAPE & A HAND TO CATCH THE BLOODListed are the themes that are sung about in dreamy pop-folk alt country indie record First Love by Emmy The Great. Lots of fun benefits for subs besides being able to see every second blog and podcast I make xxxx love to yallllll message me with any questions xxx

THE TORTURED FEMALES And their Matty Healys (we all have had one or…… SOS…… are with one now) Matty Healy, from band The 1975, is the main muse of Taylor Swift’s new album The Tortured Poet’s Department. Also the muse from my favourite track on Midnights the 3am Edition Maroon. Also my soul track from the 3am edition called High Infidelity (TTPD has made me realise why that song entered into my life so violently, and thank god). Dear Matty Healy, TWENTY FOUR FOR EVERY YEAR THAT I HAVE SIT_________________ DAY BY DAY INTO THE NECK OF THE ABYSS I put ALOT of work into every post and blog and also thought and this takes time so every second post will be subscriber only from now on but I promise to deliver great, beautiful and honest content no matter what the topic. My soul is on the line 4 u x SORRY THAT YOU HAPPENED TO ME SORRY THAT YOU HAPPENED TO MESORRY THAT YOU HAPPENED TO ME BUT… THEY SAY ONE MAN IS THE ACCIDENT THE OTHER IS THE BLADE THAT MAKES THE CUT____________ YOU WERE WATCHING THAT PROGRAM FOR EXACTLY AN HOUR ALL THESE HOURS THEY WILL ADD UP TO A DAY WHEN YOU FINALLY REALISE I WAS THE BEST THING YOU HAD IN IT YOU’LL BE CLOSING UP YOUR EYE BALLS IN THE BED IN WHICH YOU DIE AND ILL BE SORRY IF IT HAPPENS TO YOU SORRY IF IT HAPPENS TO YOU SORRY IF IT HAPPENS TO YOU BUT… THEY SAY ONE MAN IS THE CANCER AND THE OTHER IS THE BLADE THAT MAKES THE CUT AND IM LOOKING FOR THE OTHER ONE FOR THE BLADE TO MAKE THE CUT_________________________________ I thought I'd get away//but now I have to stay//I think I better say..As usual. ///////. You've heard this all before//i had some but they had more//im rotten to the core.....But merciful. //////. And that was my mistake//I didn’t kill the snake//i gave the snake a break_______Unbiblical. ++++++ The Predator Podcast brought to you by The Snake’s break Productions PTY LTD._____________________________+++++++++++++EDITED May 4th 2024 (…may the force be with you) - I have drafted this since the first one on April 26 approx. Hopefully it’s improved. Im all about improving my skills as a communicator. This is why I do this podcast and blog especially but my favourite writer, or one of, once said “you must speak as well as you write, then you can say you are a great writer.” Christopher Hitchins. R.I.P. So, this is what Im doing here and why I have this podcast basically not basic. May 5 edited - Last draft video I SWEAR. But the whole point is to improve so…….draft up! This one a bit more exciting and chaotic. Audio remains the same, that was fine, sorry my voice might be too fast in spots i’ll fix if so. Music might be more chipmunky too, Again weird, but need to do that for Apple Music and Spotify. I don’t hate it……Added Leonard Cohen Poem Unbiblical and a picture of me dressed as the Virgin Mary after being visited by Gabriel. __________________________+++++++++++++copyright Danica Conwell 2024 all rights reservedWords in large letters by Emmy the great - Song - 24 - Album - First Love Below, words by Leonard Cohen “Unbiblical.” Pictures from Pinterest Music by Taylor Swift, Aaron Dessner and Jack Antonoff - on album - The Tortured Poet’s Department»»»»»»»»»»»»>++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

PROBABLY SHOULD READ THE BLOG FIRST BEFORE THE PODCAST OR SAMANTHA WILL COMPLETELY LOSE YOUThis podcast has Samantha reading to you, the plan for a reflection called Predator I have been writing for two years (too long). I want to start talking about the reflection more, because I want to hold myself accountable to finishing it. The more people know about it the more likely I am to achieve it. They say…. Samantha, is about to read to you the plan I wrote out, in an attempt to organise my thoughts surrounding the war I had just been in with Victim X for six years. The plan I have recorded for this podcast, outlines how I started writing this reflection, also the reflection’s mentors and encouragers, its muses and it outlines exactly what I reflect on within the book in three words (mostly) or less per concept. This war was awe inspiring and the main inspiration for this non fiction/fiction, narrative novella/reflection called Predator that I have written. Think about The Parable of the Cave by Plato, from book The Republic. Remember that part where he has to go back down into the cave once he has left? This is where the war will start for us, and it can get pretty intense. Going back into the cave is a necessary process, and although seemingly quite brutal, leading you to feeling variants of sadness so painful you never knew this kind of pain even existed. This pain actually ends up becoming one of the most exciting and wonderful feelings defining the best times of your life. (Weirdly enough). It definitely has become that for me in hindsight. The Parable of the Cave. Maybe the most important parable to hear, read and understand that's ever been written.However, war is war, and considering my war ended two years ago now, I’m ready to find the peace now. The peace that should come after such a meteor strike that was this six year war called “my life.” The chaos that plummeted down upon me, so fast and so real as I waited for it to ruin me, and at times willed it to ruin me even. It was pain at it’s most primitive and universal. It was nothing short of true beauty.BRING.IT.ON. I willed it into my world. I was never going to turn down a life offer like this! I had to experience it, and the alternative was not for me.So when it’s your time to experience this war, and everyone will cross this path at some point in their life in one way or another, I advise you to just say yes! Embrace it, and have the courage to experience it. It makes you human, more human than ever before, and if you are over the age of 30. it’s time and this might be what you will expect to experience during this time…..Predator the Blog & Podcast I make every second podcast and blog subscriber only because I have alot of lurkers and making these podcasts and blogs is costing me alot of time so I do need paid subs to continue however, its super cheap and 30% of content will still be free for all xxxx You can sub for free as well I believe. But only paid subs will get 70% of the content. If you enjoy my ideas and want to chat about them or come on the podcast! Subscribe and Im happy to have these convos with you. It’s what I live for xx Why is my book about a war? What war? WW2? Even though Hitler is mentioned as a supporting actor in this reflection, he is simply a faze of my life, in which I was a mini-Hitler. (Sans the racism entirely, but the need for world domination, power and drugs, all are pretty similar).I call this war, The Ego War and we all go through it. I seemed to have gone through it a little more intergalactically than I hear others have. People talk about ego death like…”yes it happened when this bad thing happened to me in hospital ect…blah blah” and nothing about them has seemed to change much. Nothing except, they are a little less hateful than before they were, before their said “ego funeral.”My whole world was turned around when I killed my ego and I didn’t even know I had to kill it when I did…..I just did. I don’t know what force In this world thrusted me violently into a new dimension where the murder took place. This was not a hallucination because I was not on drugs at the time. At the time I was in a state I would describe as “hyper-fearful” and I was “hyper-panicking,” talking without breathe on the phone to my mother in the backyard of our 150 year old inner city house I lived in with two gay guys, one was in my band and the other was very special to me. He probably doesn’t know it or won’t ever know. He was the type to probably tell me to shut the fuck up if I said this to his face anyway, which would have made me like him even more. He introduced me to this world called “being who you are,” simply from him, being who he was. He was super educated, very good looking and articulate, but he also would fuck up alot without shame, and need help sometimes very openly (the opposite to myself). He wasn’t the coolest guy in the scene, but he was definitely one of the smartest and most in sync with the patterns of the world. When I lived in share houses, I tended to need a lot of time alone, because in those days people’s energy used to drain me. However, I think I now need it as fuel these days. I’ve transferred from an introvert to extrovert over the years. The brain and body seem to adjust to be able to survive in the environments they are put into to make my life easier. The body and brain are your friend and I have not been a great friend to them back over the years I have to admit. However, that has never stopped my body being ride or die for me, and I plan to start taking care of it a lot better soon. It’s my turn to give back to my body after all the years it’s given me. Back to my gay housemate no.1 though, he introduced and explained to me the beauty of Lana Del Rey, and was never offended of me being weird freaky little me that I am. I tend to agitate people with my freaky real personality a lot, but not him. He didn't even notice, he just accepted and lived his life like people should do and accept the way you live yours. Why does everyone need to be the same? He was the beginning of some change of thinking I was having that led to my impromptu ego death at that house the day my gay housemate went to Japan, and my friend Steven and I had advised him to not take non-prescribed “dexies” on the plane with him there.At the time I was also dating a university professor who was 30 years older and married AND in a band - - - (Well how unusual this might be destructive….).Who proceeded to make my life hell (again, “shocking”), in some incel-esque kind of way. I still can’t tell if he hated women or not. He was a sex addict, and even though he had been clean from heroin addiction for around 30 years when I met him, he was evidently still triggered by women. He used to be in a well known Melbourne band and still was making music under that name at the time. They were very well known and respected band in Melbourne. My boyfriend was well known also for writing and being in and apart of the concept for a seminal cult movie classic starring Michael Hutchins about the Melbourne music scene in the 1970-80’s called Dogs in Space).Basically this meant…..he could still get pussy. Things like that get men pussy almost forever more. If I was a dude, I’d be in a band so fast, because it increases your ranking from a six to a nine! (And if the band is successful, you go straight to 10 very very fast. You are instantly dating Gigi Hadid and Taylor Swift at the same time, in no time. One hundred per cent truth).Being a young early 20 something powerless girl, hating myself and the world, having imposter syndrome to another level and Femcel that I was, I needed this man’s power. So I took it. Incel’s are a great source of power when you are a Femcel. (Not advice or advisable, just a fact). I won’t say it wasn’t a mutually emotionally abusive relationship, because it was. However, he was older and smarter than I, so I came out of that one worse off (overall I won though because I ended up in recovery and it was because of my incel boyfriend and the pain the relationship caused me to have the spiritual awakening and start recovery. My incel boyfriend, who was already in recovery for heroin addiction and had been in recovery since he was 30, took me to my first meeting which was the beginning of life no. 2). During the relationship however, I lost control and the power and I lost that battle (but I won the war). However, the moments of power I did get from him were enough for me, and when I broke up with him I was the most emotionally healthy I had ever been in my life and I broke it off with him because that was a time when I had killed my ego already many months before and I was just slowly backing out of this web of chaos and destruction, that I had internally caused myself over the first 24 years of my life, he was apart of that mess. This back tracking started with the execution of some people in my life. Some of them exited of their own free will, which made things easier, they were not able to handle the changes I was making to help myself (because they knew they were changes they also had to make). Destructive people stick with destructive people, no shit, that’s obvious. You stick with your own kind……….but who do the loners stick with? I have always been a classic loner.Loners are usually the Taylor Swifts of the world, they can’t connect with people organically so they do it through art, fame, false narratives and power. I know that Swift is a made up character, but this is because her life was centred around a career in which a character is necessary or you would probably go insane, and maybe you do anyway. From such a young age Swift has been violently sheltered. She’s a bit of an emotional retard because of it, she can’t just walk outside her front door and see what’s going on in the world, which Is the so important to do to understand the world, and to work out how the world is going, what it’s up to and how we can support it. She goes from sterile environment to sterile environment. This to me sounds like a very much needed holiday of mine! I like to holiday in sterile environments. This reflection is very important to the progression of my life. I surmise that I won’t actually finish it until I LET GO.Let go of what? The life I’m living now of course. I must reincarnate soon, because I will die dark and alone on the path I’m on now. Dark, alone and longing for that time in my life that I was actually living it.Help! I’m still at the restaurantStill seating in the corner I hauntCross legged in the dim lightThey say “what a sad sight”I swear you could hear a hairpin dropRight when I felt the moment stopGlass shattered on the white clothEverybody moved on….I stayed there Dust collecting on my pinned up hairThey expected me to find somewhereSome perspectiveBut I sat and stared because I’m right whereYou left me. - Taylor Swift Right where you left me NO ONE! Wants to end up like this Taylor Swift track, wait there’s more…She’s still 23 inside her fantasy how it was supposed to beAt the restaurantWhen I was still the one you wantcross legged In the dim lighteverything was alright I could feel the mascara runYou told me that you met someoneglass shattered on the white clotheverybody moved on..….Yeah, so basically this reflection is that restaurant. In a way. But this restaurant used to be so exciting like Denny’s when I was a little girl or Sizzler, I LOVED those restaurants…..they were just…..special and different. As I got older, they started to seem unimaginative and overly priced. So I stopped going to them.I feel like that metaphor is self explanatory, I won’t go on….___________________________I have been writing this reflection in hope that the answer comes to me, how was I going to get up and just walk out of that fucking restaurant without completely falling apart?I think the answer is, that there is no way to walk out of the restaurant at that point, without looking like a complete mess. Also, feeling like no one in the whole world loves me anymore, 100% love-less and also feeling like my life has become empty and meaningless and all these people are watching the ship go down, so I wait until they leave, but the staff are there still, and they don’t care about you, they are just living their lives and me being here is hindering them from doing that. (To be honest, Im not sure what that last part is a metaphor for, maybe you can figure it out and comment me??).This war is a fight between me and Victim X. A worthy component. I hate to sound 12 years old but, she started it. She did though, and I reluctantly, at first, accepted the invitation because it was some-what intoxicating. A few days before this happened I had an amazing awakening experience where I apologised to my little child for hurting her over the last 15 years of my life and that was the day my inner child came back into my life and she’s been there ever since. Everything was perfect and simple……..for a few days anyway…..However, it’s me and Little Danica these days after all that (and Tommy my cat). I also have been mending my shadow intently for four years, however, my ego is no where to be found still since the war ended and Victim X lost. However, I do think I will find my ego again once I leave the restaurant. She’s all flowery and brand new somewhere out there growing like a lotus flower, waiting for me to leave so she can rekindle with the group, and the shadow then can also re-join once the ego does. However, it’s just me and Little Danica right now, and has been for a long while and although Little Danica is very very tough, I can feel her starting to break now, and the search for the answer becomes a little more serious this year. Then from no-where a few weeks ago, the answer just came to me, along with the reasons and everything! It was a very obvious answer, as it usually is. I was in the shower, where all sorts of crazy spiritual things tend to happen to me, visitations mostly. I know how to fix all of this after that, I know how to let go, why and move on peacefully. I also know how to finish the last chapter of this reflection also.The plan for the last chapter of this reflection would be read like this by Samantha, after this realisation…. PLAN - LAST CHAPTER OF PREATOR - A REFLECTION OF A WAR* Broken spirituality* The inner child’s pain* Child abuse* Self abuse* Old habits die hard they just need to die* Time to find the ego* My shadow waits* The clarity is granted* The path has opened up* Courage* Facing fears* Trusting my inner child* Letting go of control* Letting go of victim X* Victim X will always be apart of me (just not in the restaurant)* The unknownLuv Vivian V x Brought to you by www.understandmyself.comfind out your strengths and weaknesses with a peer reviewed statistically significant personality test that will scare you, but just learn how to read it first because it’s not as simple as it looks.I basically just note down all my strengths, ignore my weaknesses and work it like that. Sometimes though, strengths can look like weaknesses at first, so take care to really think about every dimension of the results and compare them with your partners to figure out what part of the relationship might struggle and how to over-come it. Great source of knowledge of self this test is. I highly recommend it. Copyright Danica Conwell 2024 All Rights ReservedThe pictures are not mine and I did not make, take or create them. They are taken from PINTREST. Best virtual magazine on earth. xx This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

I will post the stats up later today….. MODERN ABORIGINAL AUSTRALIAN GENOCIDAL GOVERNMENT POLICY & WHY YOU SHOULD NEVER LISTEN TO THE GOVERNMENT ON ISSUES RELATED TO THE ABORIGINAL PEOPLE OF AUSTRALIA THE RIGHTFUL OWNERS OF THIS COUNTRY This is a free podcast and blog because this narrative needs to start circulating asap for the safety of the owners of our country the Aboriginal Australian people. The owners were here 75 thousand years before white people. That is where the argument should start and end. Why are statistics even necessary we know that this is a fact. This is all that should need to be said. I wasn’t raised prejudice, and I have no idea what it feels like and misunderstand it completely. Im glad about this, but it also really hurts me when these injustices occur, because I can not understand why a person or group would do this to other human beings, despite the fact that they are wrong and THEY KNOW IT. Is it ego? Someone enlighten me as to what the hell goes through the mind of a prejudice person. I will probably never understand it. BE HONEST. NO SHAME. I think these are two steps to getting out of the prejudice mind frame. Anyway, I will post the stats for the non-believers or for the prejudice. Something tells me ego plagues the prejudice and hi-jacks their brains so that they cannot see anymore. However, I’m still going to try because this is human life we are dealing with and it’s far from just. I wanted to get the video out asap, it’s long over due tbh. Stats will come later. I highlight the stats vocally in the video. Vivian VCopyright Danica Conwell All Rights Reserved All opinions welcomed.Predator the Blog & Podcast - A podcast that tries to remember to say what is not being said in the media or majority opinion. I believe when it comes to politics this is where the answers lie. BEHIND THE CORRUPTION. Music also speaks to this and music itself is a portal to another dimension. (Awaiting mathematical evidence but it’s being worked on at Oxford and Cambridge universities. Google or YouTube “PENFOLDS, MATHEMATICIAN”). This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

1 The War Between OneThe failuresAnd the challenges,The brotherhood,and the betrayal.The fear,the mortality,and the realisation that you never wanted to live without that person.However, not knowing thatuntil they were gone.Forever.2 My Soul-mate catMy soulmate catdrags me to school,To learn about traditional love,and thats its ok to have rules.He teaches me undeniable loveand I must just jump in my arms of my soul mates and take what I want.Also, always coming back for love, even against all odds. But not for my soul mate cat, my soul mate cat taught he to always have faithand that a kiss is enough.My soul mate cat has taught me to believe in love.3 I remember when..I remember when I was five years old and my mummy was going crazy and I escaped to my grandparent’s house.I remember when I was 10 years old I loved the Spice Girls andwrote Ginger Spice a poem when she left the band.I remember when I was 15 years old and I was sad,the saddest in the land.I remember when I was 20 years old,I was trying not to be human, and i was succeeding Copyright Danica Conwell 2024 All Rights Reserved.V This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

I THOUGHT BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN WAS THE GREATEST STORY TELLER UNTIL LAST SUNDAY AT 7.30AM.The story I tell to Tony Xmas after the Alice in Wonderland interlude (oh god, weird sentence). Is 3/4 improvised, 1/4 birthed from real experience. I think it is obvious which isn’t real, however, I don’t break character once, so I guess, and I have to forgive Tony Xmas for this exact point, when a girl goes out of her way to tell you a story like that, with a straight face, you probably just going to smile and nod. In Tony Xmas’s case, just nod. Did you think Tony Xmas ever suspected you were talking complete bullshit the ENTIRE morning Vivian? Born out of cabin fever from having the flu all week and regular life stressors in general of course…..?…read Vivian’s insight below but SUBSCRIBE first. Only $5, which is pretty much free right? luv xoxoCopyright Danica Conwell All Rights ReservedMusic by Foxy/MoronLil Edie bassand PACE Both from album called EXIT. Quoted influencers being Burial & Bass. VERY “German club scene” of her. X…..Well, that’s a good question Danica, and I have to say it literally was just coming to me as I was saying it, to be frank. At one point I thought it may not actually end.Does it? End…Yes it ends.Great.And with a positive message as well actually. A plagiarised message on top of everything else Danica, (Love is all you need) I think the Beatles may have sung it. Let’s just call it a”sample.” And I NEVER, thought I would sample the Beatles in my time Danica, because I really hate them. But yes so…..….by and large…….. there just wasn’t that much thought put into it, I truely mean that. Ahh a natural. Rare. xxxX Vivian V (there will usually be more content for paid subs lol. This week the video is more the main event but only paid subs get full video view. So SPECIAL TIMES. luv Vivian ) This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

Y$LThis is a moment in history… …where hip hop takes its spot as the most innovative and best produced genres of music to ever grace us with it’s 808’s and words of protest. This trilogy, Vultures, by Y$, is a celebration of the last 15 years of modern hip hop. All the producers, artists, writers, singers, FEMALES, and the ride through a beautiful evolution it has taken us on over the past decade or so. It also is not stopping to forget all the young new talent aka the future of hip hop and how it’s going to be run from now on to produce fans of the genre that truely care again, produce more of them and reignite everyone’s passion for music again. A passion that streaming music has taken from us all. The young new featured producers on this project mark a celebration of the future of hip hop also. This is Y$’s and handing down the crown to the new kids, rising them up to come on in and take over a$ap, because they are the future of the genre AND THE FUTURE LOOKS BRIGHT!If Vulutres doesn’t win grammy for best album(s) of the year, Im getting on stage and taking it off Taylor, or Billy, or whatever white girl wins it next year. Because, no one can beat the magnificent production that this album has produced so far, NO ONE WILL BEAT IT, and there is still a third album to come! This is a moment in hip hop history we all should sit back and pray to. HAIL Y$ xxx Vivian V xALL MUSIC BELONGS TO TY DOLLA SIGN AND KANYE WEST ON ALBUMS VULTURES 2 AND 1. THIS VIDEO USES THE TRACKS FOR MEDIA, PRESS AND REVIEW PURPOSES ONLY.Copyright Danica Conwell 2024 all rights reserved Pictures are not mine and I did not take them. They were taken from lovely website I love so much Pinterest. Let’s collaborate! - Im [email protected], I believe. Add me! XXPredator the Blog & Podcast have an announcement about paid verses free content. Also of content will be free still but it’s starting to cost me money to write the blogs so basically that’s why I got to start hyping the minimum sub which Is very cheap only $5 a month. I’ll make every second free still of course! luv u sexy bitches xxxx This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

ONLY HITLER.He taught me:That without meaning there is nothing. Death taught me, it is hell if it’s not your own. Yelling can get people’s attention, however, so can saying things really slow and softly, because its just as weird and unnecessary. It will not help us understand you any better or at all. It will probably make us think you are unhinged and people tend to just nod and smile to unhinged people. Something like a burden.Hitler taught me I was Hitler. (Sans racist stuff and hating Jews. More, that I used to be a mini dictator). As in, I was anti-male and for no reeeeeeel good reason either. Good news! I love men now, saw the wrongs of my ways and will pay in karma forever more, maybe, however, if you take it you gotta pay it back. . That’s Leela, the game of self improvement aka. Life. I worked through my fem-cel (a “Incel,” but a female) issues like a grown ass woman, SOMETHING Hitler was not. This is where Hitler and I part ways.But first, one thing I’ll say about Hitler is this, and not many people say this about him, I don’t hear them very often anyway, but he is a multi faceted character. Excuse me, the narrative of him is anyway. It’s why he is still very fascinating to people and why there are still Nazis today, I believe. However, I don’t understand being a modern Nazi. You only got 80 or so years to live, if you live an entire normal curve-esque life-span. And you are going to waste it on Hitler? The guy who killed his dog and himself in a murder suicide situation 70 years approx. ago when it got too tough for him? My hypothesis is that he had someone shoot him, and was too much of a pussy to kill himself. I’m not endorsing Nazis or Hitler obviously, and I’m obviously not glorifying them, how could I, they lost. (oh yeah, plus they stand for everything I don’t). They didn’t lose by a lot though, they got pretty far with propaganda and manipulation, and U-Boats. However, that can only get you so far up against total war with Russia.I am reading a book called “Hitler’s Strategy,” a old library book I found first edition from the Australian Armies Library, last hired out in 1971. Written in 1956.As I said earlier, until I was in my late 20’s, I was a mini dictator. I was never told I should understand the things I can change, know the things I cannot and have the wisdom to decipher the differences. That’s the issue with dictators, they are not grateful and are clouded with resentment, the only thing they constantly see is red. And so did I.(Taylor swift has a song and album called RED.)Hitler taught me that narrative weaves deeply through a person’’s identity and once they have completely taken to said identity, it’s hard to convince them of anything else. God damn near impossible. One thing you can change, is the narrative another human has about you, whether it’s true or not. (Its easier if it is true, but understandable if it can’t be for various reasons. There’s ways around that).How do you change a person’s narrative about you? First, you need to understand the narrative about themselves really well. Most people’s narratives about themselves are quite obvious, “the norm.” They will either be a victim or they are not a victim. It is that simple to start. It is the most important narrative to look out for, because it can tell you the first path to take with them.If you cannot quite understand who they are after an hour of being with them this could mean that they simply do not know who they are, or they are lost. Therefore, that’s who they are and that makes them a victim. Second important knowledge is, who is their mother? Then you will have to pick the version of their mother that is most appealing to them (positively or negatively, it doesn’t matter), or preferably a trait that you possess naturally. Now you make that the narrative to portray to them. This is a easy one to get them to digest fast, but regurgitation almost impossible. Dictators tend to isolate their countries while changing their people’s narratives about who they are, outside influence can interfere with your hard work. Be good looking. Being aesthetically pleasing makes things a lot easier to digest.Fear almost digests automatically, without any process or effort. Get to know what they fear the most and turn that into a pleasing narrative or weave it in, people love to hate what they fear. Like a roller coaster or a gore film. They will always wanna go again if it actually scared them. There’s more, but for now that will do. I don’t want to end up on another ASIO list. (I think writing ASIO you end up on a list….I love ASIO….). If you can’t change someone’s narrative about you in those steps, you have not chosen a victim and likelihood have become one yourself instead……..Opps. In any case, don’t flog a dead horse, give it up and be yourself, or find a actual victim and have the wisdom to know the difference EVERYTIME. Never waste time. It’s also better to not do this, it comes with a lot of bad karma………Thought I’d add that. I waste time all the time and I wonder why?Is Hitler the devil? Does the devil ever win?Does anyone ever win?DEFINE “WIN.”As in, what context?The Devil taught me that God is not perfect.On earth no human is perfect. And thank god it’s the flaws that are attractive (secretly). The road to that knowledge is really painful. And you will behave non integrally while searching for this knowledge. The longer this lesson takes to learn, the more dangerous you become……..To yourself.The short cut is simply to allow yourself to fall. Allow your differences to define you from the rest. Work to your strengths and this will weaken your weaknesses. This is speaking only from experience. My experience with all of this is in the past. This is all just wisdom I’m passing down to myself in public. My Queen Anne’s lace heart, weightless on your little head.Why did the Devil sacrifice his first child?Is the devil even that interesting? Why would he have goat horns?Why is he half animal/half human?Why is he a he?What if he was a she?I know the devil feels virtue-less.I know the devil feels.How do I know? Educated guess.UN-educated guess? It’s maybe the way he died. But it was so dramatic and way too JUST for the devil. The women of Athens died much more brutally.Opps.Change of subject.Heaven and HellWhen I think of heaven and hell I think about a world like this one, in which we live. The mediator world, controlled by the energy of human beings. Because it is controlled by the energy of human beings, you just got to think who are human beings? What is our character, biases, stereotypes, likes, dislikes, trends, habits, beliefs, rituals, values, principles, intentions.One thing I always remember about human beings is that they have a negative bias evolutionarily speaking. This used to be a good narrative to weave into the mix. For it made us prepare a lot earlier for danger that we could be possibly facing, like saving us from being eaten by the Mammoths or animals similar to the mammoth in size, also monsoons and disease even maybe. Preparation, strategy, goals, planning, strong narrative, industriousness. All these things reside in hell. Because if you don’t possess these in hell, you bleed out like the devil did. When you find yourself having plummeted to hell, you might start to bleed out, but with strength of any of those traits, you can stop it, OR there is one other trait that can stop it.DENIAL.But the problem with denial is you are on a timer and you have no idea how much time you have been given. It could be a few days, weeks or years. You will not know.What makes it worse is, in that time you tend to lose all sense of time a lot. Days go missing, night and many days sometimes become one, and another problem is, that you are totally ok with all this time warped crap going on.More than ok with it, you feel like you have taken the best holiday of your life. This is a big problem when you are bleeding out on a timer. What happens in the last few moments of that time?Well, you will get given a chance of course. A chance to come back here, where human beings live right now. The time dimension. Where is hell? Hmm not sure.Maybe its just in another version of this reality?Why have I not mentioned heaven?Heaven is in you.Or it is apart of you and you are apart of it. But in no way do you need to be there all the time, just when you need to get important things done, so that you don’t go into hell again or ever.Most people like me do, if you are like me in any way just try and not bleed out. Back to the time dimension. You have an unknown amount of time to kill before literal bleed out, in which you will have but seconds to work out. Then you must also work out how to get back to this reality, in seconds once the timer runs out. However, you will constantly have a feeling in the back of your mind like saying ”it’s fine just go with it, this is great.”The devil makes it a ALMOST sum zero game, like the government. But there’s always portals to travel through, where you can get little wins here and there and feel mortal. Just don’t get caught up in it all, because actually it is a sum zero game, and you will always lose eventually, but so can they. In english - failing is the point. (Death/genesis). Not knowing is the point. (Time). denial is necessary. (Iinvention). So what happens after the denial ends, the timer is up and you begin to bleed out?You either win or you lose. There is no room for failure at that point. You had time to train for it. All the time before you fell into hell and your time is up. However because you were in denial the entire time, you probably didn’t train for the end game and therefore you just got to hope you have enough dharma in order to defeat it. Those without dharma will most certainly die. HOW DO YOU ACCIDENTALLY TRAIN FOR STOPPING THE BLOOD ON D-DAY? (Blood day).I told you, Dharma.The Dharma you collect over time will predict the amount of karma given to you once the moment arrives when you will need it the most. It is a different kind of training then the olympics. It is a test, have you been a good person more than a bad person OR has the good you have done out weighed the bad? These are the questions that will be unconsciously asked of you in this time of judgement. Does nature judge?Is nature just?Nature IS CONSCIOUS. Therefore yes, it judges.Which is why Karma is the most important thing in the world to us, or should be.But most people won’t appreciate this in the west, until…….Blood day.I got stuck in hell once. And the heaven in me survived it. I remember everything about it except the days that went missing of course. Logically speaking, my timer was set at about two weeks. And in the moment of truth where I had to fight and it was war, when my timer ran up, I wanted to bleed out forever in hell. I didn’t even try to stop it.NATURE started talking to me and told me to stop though. “Stop this. You need to stop.”I was not obedient at first, but I respect authority figures ultimately and so I used my Dharma I had been given during the the last 20 years and was thrown back to reality. In conclusion - I had strengthened my relationship with my meta-cognition, during the years I got clean in recovery in Narcotics Anonymous (N.A), and by facing some fears in N.A (in which I was in for my Xanax addiction), including my sleep paralysis (mind over matter), I heard my meta cognition for the first time a few weeks into being clean and it was really funny. I didn’t just hear it, I was able to notice from it’s perspective the other parts of me having a conversation. My shadow was scaring my little child again, telling her she MUST do these awful things she didn’t want to do. But the things were so silly like burn down houses and stuff like that. It was funny. And my meta cognition and I laughed. We laughed with love. Love for both the shadow and the child, and then they both felt loved and it stopped and it was over. It was a passing thought that carried no actual fear or weight in the real world, so we laughed and let it go for them. That was the beginning of beauty. When in a time of judgement in hell, the only way to get out is with love.Personally I had to shake my body a lot all over to wake myself up out of it. Or if someone is near you might get lucky and they might call emergency services for you but shaking your body does work. That’s just my advice to you when wanting to stay out of hell. LoveCultz. Copyright Danica Conwell 2024 All rights reservedA Nunz Rezentment Productions PTY LTD present Sex Cult the Blog and Podcast. Credit in podcast goes to:Lana Del ReyKanye WestLeonard Cohen Pretty Girl Meditation YouTube This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

I continue to beg my inner child for forgiveness. I beg Jethro’s inner child for forgiveness. I’m so sorry, I wish there was more that I could have done. But I was too late…..Something saved my inner child at the last minute. I was about to lose her forever once. Not via death, but via some other kind of death, maybe we can call it a soul death. It’s like when something happens in your life and you have to sink or swim and if you choose to swim (which most do, because most of us have a pretty strong will to live; hard to defy). In certain situations, where you are choosing to live, but the choice does not align with your integrity, or you are being exposed to ego terror, narcissistic torture or straight hate by choosing to continue the game. (And the torture usually needs to be for a longer period of time for it to break you, but not always. It all depends how fucked up are, aka. How resilient to pain are you?).You are going to be especially easy to break if you are already burnt out and deprived yourself of anything real for an extended period of time. Eventually if you don’t do something proactively, the brain will take over and something will happen.Hitting rock bottom is really scary, but its the fear that will jolt you into this new dimension that was always there you just hadn’t earned it yet. From October 2023 until January 2024, I was in this non-integral situation that killed my spirit a little. I felt it once it was over and it saddened me because it was my inner child I was killing. Unfortunately, I had no choice but to conform to this useless spirit killing battle, and you really have to choose your battles, but I didn’t choose this battle in this time frame, I was pushed into it and I didn’t have the energy to fight it.Even without the energy I fought it, not for me, but for others I loved who would have suffered had I given up. I’m starting to realise that the idea of justice is a utopian one, like “happiness” or the idea that money is the source of all of this “happinesss.” So in consequence, I weighed in on my spirit and killed it a little recently. I was so tired when it was all over, I only just made it, and although I learnt some valuable life lessons by fighting this battle and getting it done, I definitely paid quite greatly for it with my energy and spirit. I paid with a currency I didn’t have to spend either. I took from the reserve of my soul, and now it’s credit is looking more and more baron as I go on. I don’t have the privilege or support or tools needed to know how to be kind enough to myself to re-fuel it either. I’m spiritually broken again, and I want to recover, but I keep not recovering.Now, all of a sudden I have been thrown back into the ring yet again, another battle awaits, maybe three, and I’m starting to get “Change” by Lana Del Rey resentful. “Lately Ive been thinking it’s someone else’s job to care. Who am I to sympathise, when no one gave a damn? Lately Ive been thinking it’s just somebody else’s job to care, because who am I to want to try? But…..”Change - Lana Del Rey“But…….”But what? Do you think? What comes after the “but….”In following a thought process like change does.I’m scared. And I am alone.This girl needs therapy…..Towards the end of the podcast there is a minute of silence to ponder a certain abstract question I have, roused from within me by Eric Weinstein and a quote of his from an interview I watched tonight."You can always tell who’s guilty by the person who declares a time of healing” Eric Weinstein. (Harvard University graduate for mathematical physics and a philosopher/podcaster)To paraphrase this quote by Weinstein, what he is saying for a situation like my friend Jethro Cave’s death, is if there happens to be a lot of media attention on an incident that’s not wanting media attention (just in case 2 and 2 are put together, which no one has in it’s entirety yet and if they did they probably would keep their mouth shut in the fear of being harmed. In Jethro’s case the answer still remains “unknown”). Additionally, the person declaring the privacy is wanting YOU, the people, to stop asking any questions about the incident or better yet, don’t even start. However, did Nick Cave remain TOO silent this time? In comparison to his very publicised grief for his first son who died at only 16 years old, several years earlier. This was a time of grief Nick Cave was happy to thrust into the public’s view whether we wanted it or not. Nick Cave made a huge song and dance out of Arthur Cave's death………Literally. Arthur once came to me in a lucid dream. He was dressed kind of like this and he was the saddest person I had ever communicated with.In comparison, these are the first and last ever words mentioned by Nick Cave (5 days after Jethro had died) about Jethro’s death:"With much sadness, I can confirm, that my son Jethro has passed away. We would be grateful for family privacy at this time.” - Nick Cave (Jethro Cave’s father and Melbourne musician and writer/film writer).According to mathematician and philosopher Eric Weinstein’s hypothesis, this is Nick Cave’s way of saying he thinks we the people should stop asking him anything about this story and never mention it again, because he is not going to, EVER again. (And It was never EVER mentioned again by Nick Cave since the incident……….NOTHING has been said).After a series of blogs of mine, some blantantly abusing Nick Cave and his Cult. Nick Cave started speaking about Jethro again on the Late Show, The Guardian Tabloid (??) and ABC Australia However, he was doing it in a very blaze’ way, which made me feel worse (which i assume was the point). It felt like Jethro had died all over again and I was ready to die too.I did find out that Jethro’s body was in autopsy for around six months, it could have been more, I lost contact with the morgue once Jethro’s parents had told them to stop giving me any information. (I’m assuming more his mother than his father). I believe Nick Cave wrote something small about Jethro on his website, but he wrote more about his ex-girlfriend's death than his own son. This was an ex-girlfriend from one million years ago, maybe his first or second girlfriend. Nick’s ex-girlfriend’s death was only a couple months prior to Jethro’s death, and this could possibly be because she may stll have been using heroin (I was told she was in and out of recovery by a reliable source), and at the time the heroin was lethal and heroin addicts were dropping off frequently. It had a lethal amount of Fentynol (a pharmaceutical) in it, which is stronger than Heroin and will kill a non-seasoned user in a few minutes to seconds. So why is he staying silent on this death? I have thought that not answering questions about something is a good thing for the guilty in a police interview situation? DUH! Do you not listen to hip hop? ….."Your shit is like the police asking us questions, ni%$a we don’t know shit!” - Drake ("Aubrey", from track, Worst Behaviour (The  6 6 6 )). By and large, ONE ALWAYS STAYS SILENT when being questioned about something they have information about that they don’t want others knowing. I use the example of staying silent during an interview with the cops after you have committed a serious crime, like murder.If you know they have very little evidence, or maybe just a eye witness (which is weak evidence, these days I’m not sure if eye witness accounts from civilians is even taken seriously by the courts anymore. It shouldn’t be). Staying silent puts a stop to any police investigation, until you do say something, as long as there is little to no evidence.Furthermore, they can only hold you for 24 hours without sufficient evidence. Then voila, you are let go and you are a free murderer.So what am I saying? Well, what I’m saying is pretty obvious and for anyone who truly cared about and loved Jethro as I did, would and should be asking the same questions. Why was Nick Cave advised by his lawyers to stay silent about Jethros death when he was/is so vocal about Arthur Cave’s death? Does Weinstein’s (2023) Hypothesis hold up when it comes to Jethro Cave's death that, “you can always tell who’s guilty by the person who declares a time of healing?”I’ll end this thought by adding that Nick Cave said more about Sinead O’connor’s death, than he did about the passing of his own son, and my best friend, Jethro Cave’s passing only at the beginning of the second part of his life. Jethro, was just about to be re-born and I was witnessing it the night before he died. My hard work was paying off after all these years. The road ahead was long and seemingly impossible in some ways. However, I was willing to be there by his side, for a very long time.Jethro, a person like no other I have known. He was a person who I always looked upon as so innocent in how he went about everything. Including, the way he loved. When he loved you, you were everything to him. He loved like a child, like he had nothing to lose, but to get to the position of him allowing that innocent side of himself to come out to love anyone in the first place, was not an easy battle. He trusted no one, but neither do I, so I understood this. And I understood a lot about Jethro. I understood his soul. I would talk to his inner child who had been very lonely for a long time, before I came along. I offered his inner child copious amounts of real love, that was taken in teeny tiny quantities by little Jethro, which was enough to start bringing him back to life, very slowly. There were times when Jethro and I were at war, which hurt my inner child because she loved Jethros inner child. Most of our relationship was my inner child coercing Jethros inner child out of hiding to come out and play with her, also not such an easy task. However, we got there, to the love, and it got easier and easier and Jethro was able to be silly around me eventually which was the goal. He ebbed and flowed in and out of it, out of utter fear. How I wish I could have made him believe, whole heatedly that little Danica was never going to purposely hurt little Jethro. I knew that as soon as he was on drugs or drugs were in the equation, his inner child would run back into the darkness again. Gone without a trace.However, the whole time I knew Jethro, up until the last night he was alive and we spoke, little Danica had never stopped waiting for him to come back so she could quickly grab him away from the dark side and convince him come to her paradise and play again. Anoyingly this never stopped being a challenging task, but I couldn’t give up on Jethro (because he was sad me when I was sad a few years earlier and all I needed was a friend, so I kept being his friend), he would always love to play once I got him in the right head space to do so.Little Danica continues to wait for Little Jethro to come out again, like he used too. My heart breaks for her anticipation that will not be met with that love she felt every time he came back to her. Sorry little Danica I have fucked all this up again. I only ever saw the little Jethro side of Jethro after a few months into knowing him. I would ignore the bigger corrupted Jethro, because that wasn’t Jethro. That was a person I never got too know very well. I wasn’t interested in that Jethro. My inner child loved Jethros inner child and that was from where our bond derived and did until little Jethro passed away in 2022. I still have yet to grieve little Jethro. But I must let him go. Not his memory, just the idea of little Jethro in my life. I must grieve this now, grieve the pain of his absence that I feel everyday in his absence. I have plans to let the idea of little Jethro as a active energy in my life go, very soon.The Predator Podcast brought to you by Lost Love Productions PTY LTD COPYRIGHT DANICA CONWELL 2024 all rights reservedIn saying that, a soul death, would be a complete death of your spirit and you ain’t never coming back. Death with little hope of resurrection because my ego was getting tired. Music by Kanye West and TY Dolla $IGN sign from Vultures 1 track feat Chris Brown Beg Forgiveness.The rest of the music you will hear during the video is by The Avalanches, a Melbourne electronic sample band. And also Drake and Chris Brown “I don’t wanna.”The pictures are not mine and do not belong to me and I did not take them. I have collected them from legal websites over the years. Credit to the respective owners. Thank you.The video is directed, produced and editted by me. The music is arranged by me and my opinions are my own and do not reflect the opinions of the artists or people I speak about. They are only my opinions only, there is not necessarily any fact behind any of it.However, behind every word I say there is always truth, beauty and meaning. Plus truth. Vivian V This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

Also this week we talk about the writing process and where does the inspiration come from? Can you force it? Can you be in it for the fame and make it work? is Taylor Swift an alcoholic?Kidding this one is just about grieving, perfectionism, writing, spaceman 3 & im joined by Brother Billy. Schools in but am I? (no).THE PREDATOR PODCAST W/ VIVIAN V // OH SISTER PRODUCTIONS PTY LTDMUSIC THIS WEEK BY SPACEMAN 3 (BLESS)PICTURES FROM FROM COLLECTIOM I DID NOT MAKE OR TAKE THEMTHE PODCAST BELONGS TO VIVIAN & DANICA AND also // BROTHER BILLY THIS WEEKCOPYRIGHT DANICA CONWELL 2024 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED leave a comment if you have a voice or an opinion of grief? This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

CHANCES ARE……..YOU ARE FUCKING DELUSIONAL AND BEING CONTROLLED BY BILLIONAIRESIt’s almost a guarentee...So, how far is too far for you? What do you like?Are you a human being? Are you a human being with integrity?Do human beings even exist anymore?If no, what have human beings evolved into, and what does this mean to the “MEANING OF LIFE?”That forever dumb age-old question that has me stopping the video it’s being asked on and putting on some goofy Donald Trump comedy video………to which there are many on YouTube.I still hurt.I still hurt like Kanye hurts in track “Back to me” on Vultures 1. An album I have been deep diving into for a few days now. After seeing his documentary War, then hearing the demo of this album and recognising that the Backstreet Boys song has been pulled. That, plus many strange lyrics that shoot in and out of these tracks. It has me thinking of a bigger meaning Ye is sending out to us, Or maybe he’s having a break from all that and just being real?And I’m sure that bigger meaning, if there was one, would come to no surprise to anyone who knows Ye well. Right now, and for a long time, Ye has been all about the JUSTICE, underneath everything he does politically is a justice sanctioned. Going back to ancient Athens BC, with Socrates and Plato, human beings have sort justice in all forms in western society. This is because in western society the main government had never been just. Why?Whether you can answer that or not, (and I urge you to give it a try in the comment section) since the dawn of time, justice has been an unjustifiably subjective concept. However, that’s like saying PAIN is subjective, right? Justice can’t be subjective! It’s the difference between a human being losing 10 years of their life or not. When time is on the line like that, there’s no room for alternative surprise (made up) opinions. You would think….In any case, we would be wrong in saying that the term justice is agreed upon among the human race between different cultures and eras across time, because it obviously is not. I do believe Socrates came pretty close to the true meaning, which is truth and not knowing. To be just is to be true. As true as you can be, and to be true means to learn firstly how to stop lying to yourself. Everyone is in a healthy amount of denial, but we must stop lying to ourselves and find the tools to work how to not lie to ourselves as a first priority in life, aka. Confirmation bias, critical thinking, research, evidence from primary sources if available, secondary next and so on, measurable evidence, statistical significance, cognitive dissonance and straight up mental illness. If you learn those things and how they work within your life, that would be a good start.However, people rather read the bible than care what crazy old Socrates had to say. Socrates, has become one of those names we all take for granted at this point, but he MUST be your starting point if you are to start your journey through the Cave Spectrum. (Also if you plan to live a just life within western culture, Socrates and Plato’s hypotheses, if not theories, still are relevant and used against us, I assume these days. However, the more educated you are in the building blocks of justice within western culture, which starts with Socrates and The Republic, the more ahead of their game you will be. And of course, it is not their game at all).I have explained the Cave Spectrum before and if you are totally oblivious to it, then watch a short YouTube video on The Parable of the Cave By Plato. Is there a just place that you sit on that spectrum?Here is a break-down of the symptoms one displays when at each tier of the spectrum, there are only five official ones. SPECTRUM.NUMBER 1. CAVE PARABLE (S.1.C) * You think ignorance is bliss* You like having people tell you what to do with your life, you don’t or can’t make your own decisions.* You can’t finish anything* You have never been in loveS.2.C - * You have found some insight into what life may have to offer and this has made you want to explore deeper* You have come to some low grade clarity that not everything we see, we should believe * You understand that people lie* You feel the need to move away from the comforts of the caveS.3.C* You start to travel out of the cave towards the light* you are in very deep pain* You feel extremely uncomfortable and alone* You feel everyone around you is more knowing than you are* You play tough and get on with it anywayS.4.C * You understand that if you notice everything and better yet are in AWE OF EVERYTHING, you know you will be in contact with the dimensions that run by us all the time* You understand who you are and what being a human being means.* You see in vivid colour awake.* You have killed your ego* You have learnt that being alone is not lonely, it’s natural.* You realise you are a monster, and we all are monsters.* You have been undergoing some kind of healing to withstand the rejection of the cave people once back inside it. S.5.C * You want to become a wise human being by passing down the knowledge of what lies above the cave to the rest of the people still in the cave* You have met your soul mate or your twin flame or both.* You dedicate your life to influencing the cave people that are imprisoning themselves with trickery is not living and to leave with you. In whatever way you choose to do this. * You have endured some very dark days during this process, and perhaps even a war with your ego/twin flame. * You have faced all the main fears in life except one……….letting go. DOES STEP SIX EXIST? DOES YOUR META COGNITION EXIST?Those are the main aspects of the Cave Spectrum, and beyond that is a personal journey that is going to involve tearing up your personal algorithm of death and start writing your new algorithm of reincarnation.Start acknowledging your failures as stepping stones to a better you and………wait, I’m starting to annoy myself, gah! When did I become a motivational speaker? I felt like Henry Rollins for a second there. Bad thing.In saying that, from one in-sighted-ish cave man to another, my advice over all would be to let go of ALL cynicism and don’t let the billionaires destroy you. You get the point…GET TO KNOW YOURSELF NOW.Do tests. (Understand Myself is a great one, just click the link). Also, the big 5 can be insightful and Jung’s archetypes test. Also, and most importantly, read Freud. I started with Mourning and Melancholia, it will be one of the better things you do before you die). Theoretically, do CBT with a psychologist or step four at N.A, talk to a therapist, talk about everything in your life, don’t hold any one thing to shame. NO SHAME, it’s definitely how I live my life. I’m not perfect, and the one fear I remain to have shame dripping in, is the fear that I won’t respect my own boundaries. I will self-sadise until the end of my life. However, I have stopped sadising others, waiting for my turn. This worked with kindness, I’m sure it will work with self-sadisng. When’s it going to be my turn?………………Don’t forget me.High infidelityPut on your records and regret meI bent the truth too far tonightI was dancing around, dancing around itHigh infidelityPut on your headphones and burn my cityYour picket fence is sharp as knivesI was dancing around, dancing around itDo you really want to know where I was April 29?(I was always thinking about him)It was strange, I’d say, “go hang out with young fun people, I’m fucking boring. Why are you just sitting there hanging out with me??” I’d watch him and think, how did I get into this predicament?But before we went out one night, I stopped him one time and said, “I know, I know, I know that you hate me.” Later that night, I saved his life.(If you weren’t mine, I’d be jealous of your love).Vivian VCopyright Danica Conwell 2024 All rights reserved None of the pictures are mine I do not own them and did not make ot take them. They were legally obtained from a popular website. The music I did not make and does not belong to me.The music belongs to Kanye West and his buiness/record labelLana Del Rey’s song belongs to her and also her business/record label ect.Lana and Kanye are my musical mother and father. GIVE ME THE STRENGTH. OH LORD, HOW I HAE TRIED.Where are you on the cave spectrum? Comment below. or and don’t miss out on the unpredictability of the Predator Podcast with Vivian V. Updates almost weekly and always interactive. Im trying to give you a voice to just be you for 10 seconds ana understand this will only lead to beauty.(like Henry Rollins, I’m a real cream puff, ha). Sharing is caring productions pty ltdNO LONGER A PREDATOR This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

There is a part 2 of this. ‘I cannot find. I made a more interesting version of this one. Technology suxxxx. lost some but what we revived im grateful for. watch out soon video on some on kanye wests best philosophies. in interviews. kanye west might be a fake…….but I doubt it. So I’m going back to santa monica, new york, to L.A. Never coming back boy, don’t matter what you say. Because Im so afraid. Brought to you by LANA AND KANYE WEST PRODUCTIONS PTY LTD THE PREDATOR PODCAST W/ VIVIAN Vno longer a predator This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

VULTURES 1 BY TY $ & YE It is the first day of my first class for literature, and I sit here with 15 minutes until class, un-ready and full of fear. (It’s at 8am on a Monday morning, also so……). What am I going to do about this anxiety…..DR K!! Doctor K helps everything. We get to choose to read either Jane Eyre or Hamlet, and while I want to learn more about Shakesphere, I really should stick to what I know right now, so I’m going with JANE. Jane shouldn’t be too hard, I know the gist of all of the writer’s material, it’s all pretty one dimensional. But it’s also great and I’ve always weidly enjoyed her books, Sense and Sensibility ect. I will be very good at writing about this story I believe, I don’t have the same confidence about Hamlet, it’s in another language for one thing. However, it’s my first semester back in years, so I’m not expecting straight A’s either. What am I expecting? Failure.Great.Ok here is where the fear comes from and it’s so juvenile1. I hate being the new kid. Not knowing where to go and what to do. I’m going to find out where my class is tomorrow for today so next week I will just know, and I won’t be full of fear. ……. Fear, of not knowing where the classroom is….hmmmm at the time it seems a lot bigger. What will I do with all my fear? DOCTOR K! Dr. K will have all the answers. I’m starting his coaching soon, for business, so that will include my working on my PTSD.Do I have a fear number 2? I won’t go ever to uni again, I’ll rationalise myself straight out of it and into failure. Time to make small, achievable goals. And have a powwow with someone about it. Powwow? I’m not sure if that means what I’m meaning it to mean, but I NEED A POWWOW.I don’t have many people in my life anymore. In saying that, I meet all these older people in their 40s, and they are so scared of losing these toxic friends they have in their life, because they are scared of being alone without them. Well, I am alone. However, I started practising being alone when I wasn’t alone, like I knew this was coming, and I needed to train for it. I’m glad I did, because the pain hasn’t been as bad as these people I meet seem to think it’s going to be. I used to be a people addict, I used people as a drug. Furthermore, I had this realisation a few years ago when I realised the calibre of friends I was allowing into my life, it made me think that I rather be alone then have toxic people in my life. So I started to have nights alone some days, and it was hard at first and sometimes still is. However, there are benefits to being alone, you get more done, I tend to spend less money, work more, study more, there are many practical benefits not having people around endures. However, we need people in our lives. On the other hand, we also need to remember that we ourselves are also at least four people alone. The Self, ego, shadow and soul/inner child. And we must make sure we take care of them first before we take care of anyone else. I’ve always been forced into anything spiritual I’ve done in my life. Like I have some spiritual guide pushing me off the edge as I stare down to the ground in fear I won’t be able to fly. However, once pushed, not only do I fly, I soar. There was nothing to be afraid of in the first place. I’m not walking through Carlton Gardens at 3am or starting a fight with a woman 3 times my size. I’m levelling up in life, it’s a natural process, it’s meant to happen, and It’s going to happen whether we like it or not. Change is a powerful thing, people are powerful beingsTryin' to find the power in me to be faithfulChange is a powerful thing, I feel it comin' in me- Lana Del ReyMother Lana BLESSOnly good things can come from taking that leap of faith, but I always need to be pushed. I know I need to jump…………why don’t I just jump yet? I don’t think I realise I need to jump yet, I don’t think I realise the fear in this area of my life is not actually real. Should I quote Lana Del Rey again? OK, I won’t, I’ll quote someone else. I used to go to the cinema alone a lot when I was younger, religiously to see the latest Woody Allen film, and just anything that was playing that seemed interesting. However, I rarely got anything out of doing it, and I was better off watching it alone at home. I’ve had some profound experiences watching film alone at home. I’ve also had some profound experiences watching films with others. For all my favourite films except one though, I have experienced them first alone at home. There is a sense of immersion you can get yourself into with a film at home that you can’t get into in public or with others around. You can go into a fantasy land of sadness and not feel guilty about it. Like I have permission to feel great about my grief for once. - Danica Pania Conwell (I couldn't think of anyone else to quote and I couldn't remember why I was quoting in the first place anyway).But as Lana Del Rey says, and she has said it in 50 different ways. FEAR: Sometimes, it feels like I've got a war in my mind I wanna get off, but I keep ridin' the ride I never really noticed that I had to decide To play someone's game or live my own life And now I do, I wanna move Out of the black (Out of the black) into the blue (Into the blue)But I still get lonely. And, baby, only then, Do I let myself recline Can I let go? And let your memory dance, in the ballroom of my mind Across the county line. It hurts to love you, but I still love you It's just the way I feel, and I'd be lying If I kept hiding, the fact that I can't deal That I've been dying, For something real. Feet don't fail me now, take me to the finish line Oh, my heart it breaks every step that I take but I'm hoping that the gates, they'll tell me that you're mine. Walking through the city streets, is it by mistake or design? I feel so alone on the Friday nights....Washing my hair, doing the laundry Late-night TV, I want you only Like when we were kids under chemtrails and country clubs It's never too late, baby, so don't give up It's never too late, baby, so don't give up Under the chemtrails over the country club You're born in December and I'm born in June My Cancer is sun and my Leo is moon My Cancer is sun and my Leo is moon Did you know that there's a tunnel under Ocean Boulevard? Mosaic ceilings, painted tiles on the wall I can't help but feel somewhat like my body marred my soul Handmade beauty sealed up by two man-made walls And I'm like, when's it gonna be my turn? Don't forget meBefore you talk, let me stop what you're saying I know, I know, I know that you hate me. - Lana Del Rey on FEAR and PEOPLEVULTURES 1 ALBUM LISTENING THE INTRO - FEATURING ALOT OF LAIBACH WEIRDLYSo anyway, the video is just the intro to my Vultures 1 by Kanye West experience. Part 2 I actually listen to it with you, this video we talk about it and listen to band Laibach who I was listening to non-stop on Saturday mostly because I couldn’t find the remote to stop it but glad I couldn’t because I had forgotten about those guys, I truly love everything about them as artists. It’s similar to my favourite band Joy Division, except I believe Peter Hook was actually a Nazi, he took it all a little too seriously I think.I always think with modern day Nazi’s ……..What are you doing? Are you lost? You fought a good fight or whatever in 1940 whatever years they were (a really long time ago), but you lost. YOU LOST. What are you doing, still trying to create this dumb Arian race or whatever? HITLER IS DEAD, news flash, sheeshhh. He killed himself because he is a total coward and sore loser. So GIVE. IT. UP. Being a Nazi in this day and age is so gay, I think people get confused because the Nazi’s looked so good. And sex sells, and the Nazis I believe are still selling because of that reason alone. You don’t need to be a Nazi to look like one, just wear Huge Boss or Adidas.However, Nazis fight on without their brave leader who was basically just a junkie with mummy issues, good on you. Life not wasted AT ALL. (LIFE totally wasted). But we have all in reality have to put up with these delusional jerks, so Laibach help us by imitating fascist regimes showing us how delusional they are, by laughing at them.The second video where I actually listen to the second half of vultures 1 is coming up. ,,,,,to sleep per chance to dream. STOP DREAMING. I better email my teacher xxxVivian VTHE PREDATOR PODCAST AND BLOGBrought to you by Shannon and the AFGHANS Productions PTY LTDSpread the word! Danica is a fear addict and its fucking shit. I need everyone too know please. Facebook. X, Insta and Snap. Signal even whatever. Im emailing my teacher. Fool. Jane EYRE. Predator the Blog & Podcast and Blog would love your support. It’s free anyway because I rather people read it then not, but they do take time and effort to write and film, and your support makes it so I can keep doing it. Found some archives of my old blog from Scarlet Blue. Weird. Memory lane. I need to get the fuck out of memory lane, though, it’s going to keep me and torture me soon if I don’t GTO out of there soon. Subscribe and help me GTO. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

Vivian V xxxTHE PREDATOR PODCASTWE APPROACHING THE “DANGEROUS IDEAS” AKA THE ACTUAL TRUTH. Please let me know your ideas on the “ACTUAL TRUTH” lol. mary oh mary does someone love you? This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

WE COULD HAVE BEEN SOMEBODY (now I feel lost with you)THE VIDEO WILL GO SILENT HALFWAY THROUGH. But that’s because I didn’t fill the space with audio content…….obviously. Watch on for some amazing philosophical insights by Tesla (NOT ELON MUSK, HE IS NOT THE MAN TESLA, LOL. Tesla was some a genius scientist who thought he could recycle energy, and we probably could, but we can’t prove him neither right nor wrong because they shut him down real quick. Which kind of tells us he could right?).THE GLITTER INDUSTRY IS CORRUPT TOOI haven’t had a ton of time to make new content lately, been doing things that suicide is made off. Like, trying to move house while fighting with my old real estate, so FUN! So, I have remixed some old stuff AND new random bits and pieces to collage you a philosophical landscape. I have put subtitles and voice-overs, over the top of the videos of various people talking mostly about death, the universe and blood on the leaves. And heartbeats. I’ve always loved Tesla’s philosophies on the universe and music, maybe more than his science. I’m not too sure about his science really, it’s hard to know…….but he says the same things Leonard Cohen says about music, that I say about music, that Rick Ruben says about music ECT… It’s just obvious that this fact about music is alive within the patterns of the world. What fact? The man explains it better. (and ELOHIM). IN OTHER NEWS:I nailed it reading someone’s tarot cards last night. I kind of Dr K’d him. Dr K is a psychiatrist from Harvard University, he used to be a gamer and got famous giving therapy to the well known gamers on Twitch, he just reminds us that a large majority of people in the west all have basically around about the same issues, just a different story or different denial. They all (give or take) come from the same source as well, aka. Our parents. However, people tend to over-estimate their ability or inability or wrongly self-diagnose and what’s worst, start labelling themselves this bullshit self diagnoses, and even more fucked up is that this is one of the most common ways people end up in this psychotic situation. They create a narrative about the mental illness starring them, then think they are it, aka. “A sociopath,” or, “have no feelings,” or, “procrastinator,” or, “autistic,” ECT. This then becomes reality because they start to actually act autistic, sociopathic, or like a procrastinator. Put’s a whole new meaning to the, “Power of thought. Thoughts have a lot of power if you let them, but they are your thoughts, you have the ability to train them to manifest your wildest dreams or nightmares. If they can manifest your worst nightmares, I’m sure they can also do the opposite. The only way to start moving away from this manifesting conundrum, in my opinion, is to start facing those motherfucking fears/fake fears. How do you solve a problem like Maria, how do you hold a moon beam in your hand. How the hell do you FACE a fear, what does that even mean? It’s simple, once you start to take life seriously, but not yourself, understanding you are just as imperfect as the human next door, (which is also fucking beautiful btw), is one easy way to get there fast. It’s so easy, in fact, that it’s almost a cheat.Laughing at yourself is a very good way to FACE fears, which is basically how you complete step one in the self-help book I’m writing on how not to suffer called PART 1 ;but God and PART 2 The Algorithm of Death.Some will see my style of self-help or therapy as dangerous, However, guess what, you can’t overcome fears and start to understand who you are (if you have lost yourself), without a little (though some might need A LOT of) danger! Babe, danger just became risk-free. Boo, Yeah. Vivian V, has become free, and what you get is what you see. When I met Jennifer LopezWhen I met Jeniffer Lopez, I didn’t even have to go up to her, she made a bee line for me and signed so many of my things. And she was really pore-free in real life. Science doesn’t explain it).LET’S GET TO KNOW VIVIAN V NOW SHALL WE?I’ll tell you one thing about me that absolutely defines me, in so many ways……(are you ready?).THORA BIRCH (bitch on the right). Thora Birch, was my idol from ages 8 until now. I grew up with her. She will always be a part of me and define all my perspectives. Take what perspective you will from that, but don’t read into the plastic bag thing too deeply lol. That is lame af. That guy is hot though (but where is he now? 15 minutes//600 regrets). Now and Then - Film to watch, starring Thora Birth. JOKES“Did you fall from heaven? Because your face is all fucked up” “how do you make a hormone? Kick her in the stomach”“Go home to Mommy - Donald Trump”“would…..wouldn’t - Donald Trump”“Spell the work S-I-L-K…..now what do cows drink?”I will literally be a therapist or life coach in five years, and a highly skilled one at that. Having studied Psychological science, Philosophy (mainly western civilisation I assume) and Health Sciences. Plus, I legitimately care and have high compassion scores within my personality test scores consistently. (Also assertiveness and volatility......Sooooo career prospects are: Comedian, a very honest brutal teacher or therapist, akin to Bikram Yoga but as therapy. aka "NOT FOR PUSSIES, THIS IS THERAPY FOR REAL MEN!" sucide, monk, criminal........Wow, I really had/have had so much going for me my entire life. Lucky girl. (Im acually grateful tbh) will be therapy aimed at women, sex workers, trans and minorities, but I would take men also because tbh I seem to be able to get through to men a little easier than females. And not just cause there’s a want of sex, I feel like “oh yeah WE JUST HAD A BREAK THROUGH.” vibe. It happened this morning. I had him writing out gratitude lists. It will save his life. 100% no homo. BUSY BUSY BUSYAnd, I got to go! As in, away from this fucking screen. I got to sell stuff and find a business coach (badly), and figure out what I’m studying this weekend, and why I hate when men say to me “you call yourself a hooker?” Well that is what I am, no one is like, lying or anything. Except last night, I was a Tarot card reader and spiritual guide,THE GRATITUDE LIST FOR MENDr K says it works wonders for men to write one every day. It worked wonders for me, and I’m female, HOWEVER, it was really doing mindfulness every day for two years that made my life SO OOO MUCH more enjoyable. Being in the moment, is NOT overrated.It’s as good as all those books rave on about it. However, I do feel that the more privilege you have, the more luxury you have of “living in the moment.”MONEY = TIMEThe most valuable thing that money buys is time, and funnily enough (and this might shock you, it sincerely did shock me, but I’m a slow learner), you buy time by NOT buying anything. Well, not buying anything except the bare essentials, and we all have plenty of bare essentials, so adding unneeded B.S on top of them, is obviously going to be a fucking mess. Furthermore, (on another note, in conclusion, additionally) I don’t just give out advice like that, not intentionally. Well, it looks like advice, but it’s really just me reminding myself of this crucial fact about cash money. I don’t teach. I secretly hate money more and more. Even when I have it. But even I understand that, that’s just me being a pussy because with money comes responsibility, and maybe I’m just being immature about it and don’t want to strengthen my will power muscle, and take on the responsibility of possessing this financial exchange/holding/economic fuck family. I strengthened it by accident recently and learnt a very needed and powerful lesson, it was absolutely necessary I learn this asap. CONSUMERISM, is like coming down from a hardcore drug, I was depressed and didn’t know why. I was even suicidal on some days!That’s how intense the spending money drug ADDICTION is within us (well, us who have allowed ourselves to get into this consumerism mess).BUT NOT ANYMORE. I’m not down as fuck with consumerism anymore.It’s still there inside me, and If I was going to do Narcotics Anonymous and try to make 90 days without doing this damn drug. Well, I have never made it that far, but I will. (AAAAAA DDDDDD HHHHHH DDDDDD)Vivian & Dr. KTherapy sessions by Dr K on YouTube, my new idol. Subscribe to Dr K on YouTube he’s the best at the therapy game. He does live therapy sessions with gamers. He was a gamer, and it became a very unhealthy lifestyle for him, so he got therapy. So now, he’s giving back by counselling these gamer guys and girls and at the same time entertaining and teaching me a lot. He is a Harvard trained psychologist. He’s VERY good at what he does.Dr K is in the next collage video, not this one.Love Vivian V. THIS ONE includes:Kanye West’s track. Blood on the leavesThe mystery man, who lived a very unconventional life and was so philosophical I’d go as far as calling him a prophet. And the brilliant presenter named Hazel Barnes from the 70’s.The next video is going to feature the band The Knife also.This episode of Predator brought to you by MAISON DERRIERE PTY LTD. Thank you for your support. Copyright Danica Conwell 2024 All Rights Reserved. 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TRUMP HAS MANY MANY MANY FRIENDS - FINALLY CONFIRMED EPSTIEN WAS ONE. HES ON THE PLANE MULTIPLE TIMES. I ADVISE NO ONE GIVE DONALD TRUMP A GUN TONIGHT……THAT IS THE EASY WAY OUT. Pictured above is a screenshot of a page from the copy of Epstein's flight logs to the island or on his private plane and the names of the people on the plane. IVANA, Ivanka and two of Trump's brothers also on list.IN OTHER NEWS also Chris Tucker!And even more and other news, because the spotlight is not allowed to fall on any other than the charismatic (???) DONALD Trump and the Trump Organisation also, including Ivanka Trump, Ivana Trump, Alan Dershowitz and the Russian Mafia. (And David Copperfield). Along with the Russian mafia (who I trust more than the government mind you), this is a list of the people Trump's many many friends are, named all by himself in his words that have been compiled into a list also. There's only a few full names, some only first names and most are just descriptions of the people, no names. Kind of weird vague descriptions….. TRUMP’S FRIENDS AS DESCRIBED BY TRUMP 1. STEVE, WHO I SEE over there * Marco Rubio is a very, very good friend of mine.* Tom Brady's a friend of mine.* My friend Elton John.* George Steinbrenner was a good friend of mine.* Howard Stern was a friend of mine. We've been friends for a long time.* A friend of mine is a great man.* My biker friend.* a doctor.11. a farmer.* insurance companies.* friends that are liberal * 13a. wonderful people* 13b. business men* Wealthy people* People who are bankrupt.* women.* a Big guy. The biggest in the world.* a very, very substantial guy.* Tough tough cookies.I better not mention their names. Two of them.* Friends addicted to drugs.* A dead person * A person who goes to Paris every year* people that won't go to France* friends in Turkey.* Many friends in South Korea.* friends from this area.* Friends that live all over the place.* I have no friends as far as I'm concerned ……..so.As usual we know just as little as we knew before we started listening to Trump as per usual. (Video of Trump saying these things featured in my last blog for the first 2 minutes). We are laughing at him not with him, because I believe he's not a comedian or a actor…..oh wait, that's absolutely what he is! Trump is an actor, but he is also a gangster. Have you ever heard this hip hop track called Damn it feels good to be a gangster? It 100% applies to Trump and is a very funny, scary and prolific track, being over 15 years old now. Find it on youtube theres a part at the end where a fake George Bush Junior is rapping……yep that wasn't a mistype, bush rapping. This is what he raps is a George Bush Jr like voice: “Damn is feels good to be a gangster Getting voted into the white house.Every thing looking good to the people of the world but the mafia family is my boss.So every now and again I owe a favour to them, like let a little drug shipment through. And feed it to the poor communities, so we can bust you know who.All the leaders of the world keep supporting me and I promise to take you very far,all the leaders of the world better not upset me, or ill send a bunch of troops to die at war. So all you republicans who gave me the wins, i'd sincerely like to thank ya.‘Cause now I got the world swinging from my nuts.Damn it feels good to be a gangster.”………so.Those words have never rang so true. Release your grip from yet another scam hosted by the American Government's scrotum, and come back to the the people. It's ok…..we all are susceptible to propaganda no one is immune…….it's unfortunate you were susceptible to a super obvious strain of it………… But, that's how the cookie crumbles, to quote your ex-godlike mentor turned pedo gangster, “bing bing bing.”Bing bing bing indeed my friends.BUT “IN THE GOOD OLD DAYS THEY HAD MANY MANY MENTAL INSTIUTIONS WHERE THEY WOULD TAKE INNOCENT PEOPLE AND DETAIN THEM.” we know Trump….we know. Vivian V Copyright Danica Conwell 2024 All Rights Reserved. Damn it feels good to be a gangster by Artist THE Geto Boys.VIDEO by VICE magazine on YouTube. Thank you for reading Predator the Blog & Podcast. This post is public so feel free to share it. The Trump fans need to be awoken. Most of them are like 50. They only have 30 years max left. Lets help them have a good, anger free 30. A MOMENT OF SILENCE FOR ALL TRUMP FANS TODAY AS THEY GRIEVE THEIR LEADER OF THE FREE WORLD (and realise he's just another fucking disgusting peadophile). * This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

THE BOOK OF DONALD TRUMP ESSAYS BY V&DCThe video above is a propaganda influenced preview based on our views on the Donald Trump web of corruption. Below, is an explanation as to why on earth we would waste our time writing essays outside our university curriculum, to write about Donald Trump?I figured Donald Trump is getting a lot of press right now due to the election pending and his, 3500 legal cases, which for some reason makes him more popular every time he gets charged with one.In any case, Trump’s loyal attorney, alumni of the infamous Harvard University ALAN DERSHOWITZ, who was also a advisory attorney for the O.J Simpson murder trial against Simpson’s former wife, that Simpson won thanks a lot to the advisory of Dershowitz. Alan Dershowitz, may I add, is also accused by Epstein whistle blower Virginia Giuffre, of having sex with her when she was underage on Epstein’s island many moons ago (ew). Needless to say, those Charges were dropped. Maybe Trump wished Giuffre “well,” along with Ghislaine and quite a few others……(wishing someone well in the mafia is said to be a message for that person to stay quiet or they sleep with the fishes). Alan Dershowitz is just one of the many suspect afflilates of Donald Trump, and it will be people like him that are going to be included as clues to a bigger picture of facts surrounding this farce that is Donald Trump and the colourful life he has led that he has tried very successfully to keep out of the mainstream media’s headlines. In this preview however, my feelings I’ve added, along with OJ Simpson, Alan Dershowitz and Giuffre, also now include Trump’s last words to child trafficker and long lost close party friend for years from the 90’s and 00’s, Ghislaine Maxwell, quote Trump non-sarcastically (for a first), “I wish her well.”………huh?The then president Donald Trump is wishing a child sex trafficker “well?” Why haven’t more journalists looked into and scrutinised over this?I will add this next video by VICE now also, because it’s just strange that he said this enough times to create 5 minutes of content out of it (this is only 2 minutes of the original 5 minute bit)……And what would we do without all of the things, sorry I mean BINGS Trump does for the human race…..What a god….. I mean guy….. I mean president…… I mean…….oh god, I don’t even know what I mean anymore.Back to Alan Dershowitz, he is Donald Trump’s current lawyer for the recent Colorado presidential disqualification drama. I guess he helped OJ Simpson get an innocent verdict for a murder he obviously committed to so…... blah blah blah.Fuck it, forget Dershowitz, let me get to the point of my intentons here, because we could list the obvious suspicious behaviours, and those who Trump chooses to affiliate himself with and awkward media engagements Donald Trump embarrassingly improvises his way through until we are brain-dead. We could carefully scruntinise over the out dated and used up campaign slogans he uses, or be insulted with his old skool political tactics to win votes (not including the unique and out of left field choice to dance around at rallies to the song YMCA by the Village People, which Trump has chosen to do at least once). We could even watch Trump fail miserably at the hands of female interrogators as he stumbles his way through an interrogation session over the woman who is accusing Trump of rape, “Carrol”. Trump insanly mistaking his wife for the alledged rape vicitm in a photo given to him. Whoops. Video below:Hmm mm this is just evidence all these old white guys are due for a permanent nursing home visit and not fit for running countries anymore. Notice he then mistook his current wife for Ivana Trump? Uh oh, someone isn’t getting laid tonight. (ew). Can we vote in a 23-year-old male for president? They are more insightful than old white men today, and they seem to generally and sincerely respect women as well, which is a bonus for me. And after this raping us women have had to endure, from the exposure to the insecurities and underlying resentments and behaviours by males in the media in the last few years, not just Trump, but Trump has definitely contributed vastly to this rape by saying multiple sexual assault based comments about women. Also, Trump’s support to shame a woman trying to accuse her rapist (this accused rapist elected by the Trump administration to become the supreme court judge of the U.S.A) of rape. Also, along with all the bullshit Trump has been throwing at women, we have had to also endure the bullshit of public figures such as Andrew Tate and his many copycats and their demeaning ideas on how women should dress and sexually behave in the world today. Not to mention, Matt Walsh’s truly idiotic documentary asking women who they are, deliberatly with the intention of belittling the women when they can not answer immediately. And last but not least, Jordan Peterson’s weird rhetoric on women including calling us dragons (which we are Peterson, so watch the fuck out).So are you done now? Anyway, all that aside but only slightly, I definitely have a axe to grind, but it is not with any of the aforementioned mid to old aged millionaires and billionaires mentioned above. My axe to grind and reasons for writing this book of essays on Donald Trump, I know in my heart of hearts lies with those people who have well and truly drunk that Donald Trump Kool-Aid.Therefore, they have also drunk that CIA PSYOP Kool-Aid. Furthermore, gulping up that oh so juicy American Government Kool-Aid, which in turn is helping aid sex traffickers and the sex slave trade around the world. Not to mention, this Kool-Aid also will help start wars such as the ones happening now in the Ukraine and Israel, but also don’t forget it will absolutely help support the drug war in the west nicely. But these Kool-Aid retards aren’t helping the drug war on our side, they are helping these types of social and political wars, for the other side! Aka, these people are helping the wrong side! And all they are going to get in return is being fucked up the ass by their own bloody ignorance, by the very people they put their trust in. But wait there’s more, at the same time, they are also helping us, the people, get fucked up the ass as well! Gee wiz, thanks guys.This is why these Trump fanatics are dangerous, they are blindly on the side of the enemy they think they are fighting against. Obviousy blinded by the manipulation of their easily controlled vulnerabilies. Not to mention, they are absolutely useless to us, the people….. who they are too..…. and who we also are…….. who is who we are together technically…….. but this Trump mess is dividing us…. … But divide is what Trump fans rally against………yet they are creating one? (I can’t……. it’s just too obvious! We need alien help, I’m losing all hope). And there is no point in asking the Trumpets to make any sense for these decsions they are making for you, because they will just link you to a QAnon conspiracy video as a answer or possibly start rambling about how much they hate President Biden and Michelle Obama, veering from the actual question again and again. It’s just organised religion boring, obvious and idiotic blind fucking dogma. Being a Trump fan must come with a little hand book on what to and what not to say, because they all spew the same rhetoric. And I assume you can now understand that these essays are not written to inform the people of obvious patterns of behaviour by the American Government, although included of course. This book I write is also being used to help inform the many Trumpets about the reality of the situation where Trump is concerned, using only facts to make my arguments. Because we the people, need our people back! Daddy issues or not, we NEED OUR PEOPLE BACK. Come back to us!These Trumpets, who fear women and therefore hate them now, and also hate when rape victims accuse their rapist of raping them in public and REALLY hate when they try to report it. Who also disguise their homophobia, racism and transphobia as “fighting against paedophiles,” but really, they are all just of the mind that all black people, homosexuals and transgender people ARE the paedophiles. Im not making this stuff up, I couldn’t, I’m not that creative.But again, over generalisation and non causal correlations will always become of the uneducated. “STAY IN SKOOL, CAUSE IT’S THE BEST.” - Peaches. Well my friends, I’m done. Enjoy the preview. Essay one set to be released in the next three weeks. I’m apartment hunting and then moving so life is full of annoying and monotomise tasks at the moment. Soon to be back to normal, but not without a little chaos first of course. It’s just how life works for me. Imma Lucky girl. THE DONALD TRUMP ESSAY QUESTIONS________________________________________________* What historical patterns and events may contribute to the creation of Donald Trump as a “anti-hero,” working with the CIA in an attempt to hold their super-power status?* Analyse Donald Trump’s relationship timeline with Ghislaine Maxwell, including a friendship with Ghislaine’s father Robert Maxwell, and note any correlations politically or financially between Trump and the Maxwells. * Investigate Donald Trump's financial and interpersonal dealings with the Russian mafia or the mafia in New York. And how these dealings have affected Trumps choices as a political figure including how he conducted himself as president. * Analyze specific policies implemented by Donald Trump that targeted economic empowerment and opportunities for Black communities.* Analyse Donald Trump’s communication style and rhetoric - how does it resonate with diverse audiences and contribute to his influence and possible propaganda._______________________ Authors notes:All essays will be referenced using Harvard referencing. The essays will be peer-reviewed, and an extensive and academically credible reference list for all the essays will be provided. I never thought I would write a essay voluntarily on the topic of Donald Trump, but the time has come for one more person of very few to start asking the same questions that we are still waiting for an answer to from a primary source. However, patterns of behaviour tell a very, very interesting and honest tale by themselves and this is what I will be observing and looking into for logical correlations, that are backed up by academic based evidence by reputable journals from around the world.But overall, this is not just a book about Donald Trump, this is a book that will be written specifically inviting every person who reads it to step up, and start taunting these trump fans who have betrayed us, the people, and wake them up to what is actually going on potentially, and to reframe from a tunnel vision egocentric viewpoint at this stage in the game. That the Trump/CIA propaganda machine has been narrating for you.This is a very, very sensitive stage we have approached in this political game and there is no room for blind faith anymore! We must only look to the facts and the logical patterns leading us to them, we must notice them, realise them and then take action upon them. Sadly, it’s not the billionaires that are keeping us down anymore, we the people are doing a great job of that all by ourselves now and this is a devastating, yet it is the reality we are currently living in. It’s smart, getting the people to keep the people down while they make more money and use it to control how we think and behave in the future like their zombie slaves, even more efficiently and accurately via social media, the internet, smart phones, chat GPT, pop culture and the news. They are everywhere, like bed bugs. No one is safe. But if you critically think your way through this, you might survive, but then the Proud Boys will probably come and kill you for talking ill of their leader. Well I have a death wish so come at me, Im also in Australia so they are unlikely to fly internationally, but there are some very hardcore Trump fans here and that really puzzles me. So Ill just be here, diving deeper down into being a human being instead. But not before I say my peace, which is that these obvious patterns screaming at us throughout Covid 19 and from the American Government can possibly give us insight into the main plan the CIA has to keep America’s super power status alive and well. We just have to start noticing them on a larger scale. The government is always going to play a sum zero game. We honesty have one choice, to use our right to speak freely about our opinions on the matter, hoping to stop this divide among the people and/or just sit back and take it because at this point we really have no chance at beating this. It’s they win or they win. What do you think?Vivian V.Copyright 2024 Danica Conwell All Rights Reserved The first half of the main video provided is owned by VICE magazine/corporation. The second half is an arrangement directed and produced by Danica Conwell. The next two videos are also owned by VICE magazine/corporation.The last video owned by The Washington Post via YoutubeThe Predator Podcast and Blog Brought to you by PROPAGANDA PRODUCTIONS PTY LTD Presented by Vivian V Share to all Trump fans immediately and anyone who has the balls to have a voice and opinion on this matter in public. Let’s roll it out. We want answers or we want a revolution. Predator the Blog & Podcast is a reader-supported publication. Subscribe now for only $5 and get access to specials including Only Fans events. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

SYMBOLS w Vivian V & guest Checkmate to contribute to an important dialogueTake the CARL JUNG Big 5 personality test I’m INFJ, what are you? https://bigfive-test.com/You can take Jordan Peterson’s more scientifically viable updates version here but its not as fun as having a label like the one Jung’s gives you, TRUST ME…https://www.understandmyself.com/It’s $10, but I think any IQ or Personality test worth taking is going to not be free. That’s my hypotheses, anyway….Do you have an opinion about the topics raised in this 10 min chat today? Do you agree with me or Checkmate? I dont know why all my convos turn into debates with men ha. Hard to get into flow like that.ANGER MANAGMENT TIME.Im gettng back to working on my Donald Trump essay. Its going to get me killed I swear, it’s that good.frowney facexxx Vivian V Copyright Danica Conwell 2023 all rights reserved Except for the picture and musicMUSIC BY MARY KATE AND ASHLEY OLSEN & FRANK OCEAN RESPECTIVELY.They are not mine, and I didn’t make them. Everything else I did. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

NOTE: use the transcript to read Vervaeke’s points of discussion if you can not hear them too well. YOU THINK I’M POSSESSEDIt’s an omen Man and his symbols .....This is a VLOG. Dialogue will follow it.SUMMER SHORT COURSE STARTING JAN 4TH. FOR 5 WEEKS ONLY. SIGN UP TODAY! START READING THE TEXTS. ITS ONE TO NOT MISS OUT ON!CARL JUNG AND MAN’S SEARCH FOR SOUL. Including symbols, synchronicities, religion, transcendence and dreams. I am rolling out my summer school course on Jan 4th. I’ll be taking Checkmate through the deep dark depths of his own damn self with the strict academic study of a man who has now been disproven as a scientist but APP-proven as a man, Carl Jung. I have my criticisms of Jung, but this course is not about me, it’s been tailored to support men in getting to that next level of thinking without any confusion or suffering. Instead, with awe, noticing, being and beauty. Dreams do come true, look at me babe, I got you. If you want to join the course, it goes for only 5 weeks, so short and sweet and packed with life reforming knowledge especially for men. There will be 1 lecture and one dialogue a week during this time. You will be required to complete 1 essay as the major asssignment, marked by me and a two other peers. That’s it, just sit back and have fun! Just get the knowledge. It will cost $5 only! Texts WILL be provided, you dont have to buy anything. And the books we will be covering are: “Synchronicity: An A-causal Connecting Principal.” & “Writings on Spirituality and Transcendence.” Last and most notably….“Modern Man in Search of a Soul” which WILL be the last book we will have a lecture on and dialogue about. I have studied philosophy of Western Civilisation for many years, mainly focussed on Plato, Socrates, Aristotle and Luce Irigaray. But I have also studied psychology, Shakesphere, and Tesla. I have also studied Psychological science for many years, Freud is one of my favourite writers and psychologists. I’m excited to dive into the Carl Jung literature with you for a slightly more conceptual view of human behaviour. SIGN UP, SEE YOU JAN 4TH. This course will only be made available to the paid subs and anyone who signs up from now until Jan 4, census date is Jan 9. xxxThe first texts you will need - GET A HEAD START and preview into the content. This is a free e-book of “man and his symbols” or you can buy a hard copy from Amazon for $12 that will arrive before the course starts. Here is the free e-book click link:Synchroncity: Am A-casual connecting principle e book Audio book version:And this is a very informative and easily applied reading on how to construct an essay, I have written hundreds of them in my life, but I still read this and got a lot out of it. If you follow its advice, it will make essay writing a pleasure: (I swear !, I touched on how important essay writing is so that you can learn how to think, featured in the Donald Trump evol blog): https://jordanbpeterson.com/docs/230/Hints%20on%20writing.pdfHave a go at the 16 personality types test pf Jung’s, I am a INFJ, I have been getting that for a while now. what are you, comment results!https://www.16personalities.com/infp-personalityModern Man in Search of a SoulSummer school JAN 4TH UNTIL THE 1ST OF FEB SUMMER 2024 Hosted by Danica Conwell.If you just sign up for a $5 sub, or you already have, you are already in. That’s it! Easy. Can’t wait xx Just go to my chat and just add your name and email address, so I know roughly who is going to be actively pursuing the class. I know you guys aren’t all that active, but this will be a great opp, you can participate in dialogues, get one on one tutoring from me for the essay, or you can just sit back, relax and take in the vast amount of knowledge to help you find your soul or just further improve the relationship via the hypotheses of DR. Carl Jung. Vivian V xCopyright Danica Conwell 2023, All rights reserved except the pictures I did not take them, I got them from a public forum. Legally.The lecture is by John Vervaeke - I did not contribute to this lecture, all content belongs to John Vervaeke. Video from YouTube from lecture series “The Meaning Crisis.” This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

ALL YOU NEED IS EVOL ……EVOL ALL YOU NEED IT EVOL[Verse 1](evol) There's nothing you can do that can't be done(evol) Nothing you can sing that can't be sung(evol) Nothing you can say, but you can learn how to play the game.It's easy!ALL YOU NEED IS EVOL…..___________________________________________________________THE PREDATOR BLOG ESSAYSESSAY QUESTION:Is Donald Trump just apart of the CIA’s “plan” to keep America at superpower status and Is Trump’s role in this the anti-hero?This is just an introduction to the topic, I have yet to research the essay, but I’m in the process now. I will present it as a debate for the vlog and a completely academic university grade essay most importantly. I look at the patterns of this Trump verses the CIA mess and I have to call bullshit.For a number of reasons.These reasons will be presented in a completely referenced and factual persuasive essay, sticking to the affirmative of this question. (Of course)I don’t love writing about the government of any country. Firstly because, I find it to be a harder style of writing, you can’t write about any one government of the world without scrupulous fact checking and research. I go to Monash University and I don’t really want to feel like I’m at school on my days off. But secondly, I’m also more of a creative writer, who writes non-fiction. Which is funny because the government is full of corrupt creative non-fiction writers, so maybe I’m more perfect for this than I thought. But what I mean is, I love to write boundlessly, because I think the truth comes out if you approach writing like this. And this is the reason I write, I am an endless searcher of the truth. I always feel like if you write an essay, you can never have the chance to get into flow. Flow being, the area of the mind you can tap into and gain great insight into the truth of who you really are, breaking through the thick barrier of denial we are all in. I’ve tapped into this area many times and I will never forget any of those times, they are always absolutely profound insights, beautiful and quite confronting. Essays on the other hand, are so planned and calculated, flow is birthed from the opposite of these things. Personally, writing a letter or a reflection, or talking to myself alone at home produces some of the most profound flow insights.The third reason is, writing about the government can be dangerous, but then again, that wouldn’t stop me. So……Well ok, thirdly, it can be social suicide because people come at you about this topic if they don't agree with you…… but that wouldn’t stop me. Hmmm……Maybe thirdly, I feel like I don’t know enough about politics or follow it closely enough to write an essay on it?But I am quite highly informed about the Trump election campaigns, personal life, businesses, reality TV career, ties to other countries, QAnon support, Epstein friendship and his administration of America as the President of the United States.(“make America great again” not his catchphrase by the way, Ronald Reagan said it first during his campaign many decades ago). This knowledge is thanks (and no thanks), to a person who was in my life who would have taken a bullet for Trump (yeah, I don't know??). I got very intimate with Trump during this time, mostly by fact checking the bullshit this person would pedal to me about Trump. As well as that, I’ve studied political science at university, journalism, social science etc, Which means I have written one thousand academic essays in my time and I know enough about an essay to know that essays are the only way you can learn how to think about any topic. And thinking clearly about the government should be a priority for everyone, especially right now. We all feel it in the air, something big is coming. Coronavirus was child’s play to what will follow it. People think they are born with the discipline to think, but noooooo.Sure, you can think very disorganised thoughts before you learn how to write a well produced essay, but how do you expect to understand that how you think is making no sense, if you aren’t writing those thoughts down and going over them again and again perfecting them to become logical and coherent trains of thought? Let alone trying to understand yourself, because I guarantee that the first time you re-read your attempt to write a paragraph of an academic essay, you will discover you think like a retarded three-year-old. And the longer you wait, the worse the shock will be. Which is fine, I went through this and all of us non “gifted” students went through this. For most, it may come as a negative experience but personally, I get excited when I notice how badly I have written something. Because, this means I am about to get to the next level by re-writing it and making it better. I’m only just discovering this, because I’m a slow learner but, you have to be ok with failing ALOT when you first start something (shocking, I know). Failing is learning, pain is growing, Donald Trump is EVOL. These are all great hypotheses that have been tested. I have a theory about Trump and the CIA, that I think I can gather evidence for to persuade a larger portion of the public that the patterns of behaviour I am observing are not delusional. However, I have not heard anyone else propose this theory in public yet, and for that I wonder why?I may find out this is because it is not significant, and if I go away now to research this and find that out also, I will admit it and find a new angle. I’m not going to be confirming my bias, I’m a disciplined critical thinker and I will only report of the truth. However, for now, I stand affirmative of this essay question and I will be back soon with the essay to hopefully be able to put this hypothesis on the table with the evidence for you to read and go “here! This is the evidence, take it or leave it.” This is the information! Do what you want with it, but what I ask you not to do, is DO NOT ignore the facts. It’s a terrible time to be in denial about the government at the moment. A lot is happening around the world thanks to the people’s (us) denial. The responaibility needs to be put back onto the people (us), and we all need to wake up and start asking the right questions now! This is where I’m starting. If I get accused of rape or mysteriously killed, you will know why (Can “they” get a new playbook? I see that Russell brand is back, I was convinced we would never see him again).Vivian V (loves the CIA) xxxCopyright Danica Conwell 2023 All Rights Reserved. Except the pictures, I did not take or make them, they were found on a public forum that can be accessed legally by the public. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

Let’s help you find it again……meaning that is.WHAT IS MEANINGThis is an introduction to the meanign crisis lectures by John Vervaeke. I’m not starting from the beginning, I’m going through the ones I haven’t watched properly yet and I’ll only do 3 of these for Visions and you should know if you are down with the concept by then and then you can fly away and listen to all 50 of them. TRUST ME, there are worst ways you could spennd an hour a day for 50 days. Actually it’s 50 hours of your life you will never regret giving to these lectures in exchnage for the knowledge within them.Yes philosophical academia is too high in density with white middle ages dudes, but thats always been the way and in this sector of life anyway, they have done good. Socrates is my favourite philosopher, Nietzsche second and Luce Irirgaray is third. They are all a evolved version of each other, and they were all hated by the majority. Irigaray is still alive and still hated. The only other associted loves of my philiosophal world are Fruad, yes not a philosopher but he is in so many ways, his book on melancholia and mourning are highly prolific and STILL beyond it’s time imo. Also I love Tesla’s philosophy on life, sure he wasn;t one either but you should read his books….he is. And aristoitle, the creator of science as we know it today and forever will be teaching me new ways to live life better. He’s like the original self help guy. lolThe sound is a bit fucked. I have sped it up for the first 20 minutes or so to cut down the time by half and then it goes to normal for the last 15 minutes.I am wrting notes live as it plays, if you have never taken notes before or cbf, i have it covered for you and i will post them up here tonight for you if you want to keep them, re read them. I offer insight from my own expereiences soemtimes which might make the concepts easier to grasp if you are just starting this type of thinking.John Vervaeke is a brilliant white guy teacher though, I like how he yells at us sometiems and we not even in the room. It’s chaotic. Thats why i put it at normal speed for 10 mins so you can experience vervaeke, This is his work not mine, but I loved it the first time i saw it and wanted to introduce a new audience to it.So here go! VISIONS - The meaning crisis by john vervaeke, hosted by VIVIAN vThank you for reading Predator the Blog & Podcast. This post is public so feel free to share it.Predator the Blog & Podcast is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

THIS IS WHAT MAKES US GIRLSBlood in the Snow, Snow on the Blood. A completely Live, totally unplanned DJ mix FEAT TAYLOR SWIFT AND LANA DEL REY. By Vivian V. I really want to figure out what I don’t trust about Jack Atanoff. He’s just one of those people that is always going to be really popular, and I’m always going to wonder why and be jealous, because I’m not a “PEOPLE PERSON.” But as I learnt from a 17-year-old Taylor Swift, and I’m paraphrasing slightly -You just got to accept you are different, or you are going to get really dark and angry. And I did.....but then I came out of it.....but what a waste of time. God.AN WYAYThese are mixed completely live and unplanned. (I have another mix feat Kanye West and Leonard Cohen poetry and music, down the line of podcasts somewhere. There’s a picture of Ye with Leonard Cohen moulded in with his face as the picture ha).But I know right, you are thinking, who fucking cares about a DJ mix with Taylot Swift and Lana Del Rey. But I insist you lisen to it, even if you aren’t a big fan of either, because you will find it’s not necessarily your typical Lana and Taylor mix you would think it would be. I think when I do these mixes they tend to become conceptual rather than mixes based around loving the artist or not that I’m mixing. Of course, I do love the artists Im mixing, ha, but it becomes less about them and more about a story I’m trying to tell with their art. Like a collage of music, or like smapling. I used to be a very low grade sampling music maker, I’ll link you to my old bandcamp. I was called Foxy/Moron (there’s the slash again, I blame the indie music scene in Brisbane for these weird grammar beauty obsessions). I was heavily inspired by Sailor Moon, German sample artist Burial and film. Film used to much more inspiring to me than music, but that did change as I matured which is weird. Music has been my life since the change though, but maybe that’s shifting to thought now. I feel a shift. Anyway, these mixses are always super fun to make and scary to make because you really got to be workign that Pre Frontal Cortex in decision making, fast and good decision making. Work that PFC. But it can be fun to pick the artists you choose to play around with and it never comes out as you thought it would which is cool. it’s a fun time and I insist you try it. It’s like Freud’s free associsation, but with music. You can learn about where your head is at. The fact that religionn comes into this mix is always where my head is at, for my entire life. Even though I’m an athesist I seem to get alot of inspiration whether negative or positive from religious symbolism, misogony and the Old Testament. I do also muse what I hate these days, or I have tended to in the past. So that could account for this inspiration lol. But Lana and Taylor’s art is what I use to tell this stroy that has ended up being about religiion and misogony, and when you are sampling Taylor Swift you can’t avoid that misogony take, because it’s really all she ever talks about. She has struggled with this concept all her career, because I believe she was struck pretty harshly with misogony from a young age, entering into the music industry at some ridiculously young age of 12 or something? Crazy. She would have gone through things with men that I didn’t go through hevaily until I was 20. So that’s quite a headstart, no wonder she has such great philosophical insight on being “different” at such a young age. I wish someone had taught me that when I was 12. Consequently, there is a obligation to take these storyline paths when sampling her.Lana Del Rey, in a totally opposite way took some what a similar route, except Lana tends to balance the responsibility between men and her more equally, if anything, she takes the blame completely which is the way it should be. We are all responisble for our own life choices. Lana takes the blame honestly and quite brutally at times, I believe her second album paints her as a really bad person that at the time I 100% related too. Which I at first tbh, resented her for. However, now I’am extremely grateful for Lana as my music mother, it’s a true blessing and life saver. Thank god for Lana Del Rey, I don’t know what I would have done without the lessons she has taught me through her music, they are always so multi-faceted and change as I change, and Video Games remains my favourite song ever written for these reasons. I rememeber the day I realised that song, and it was so profound, being around six years after I first heard it. Lana Del Rey isn’t afriad of expressing the damage caused to her by the Patriarchy though, but she just shows she is just as evil as the Patirachy and therefore doesn’t play the victim probably ever. Which is a much more positive yet complex message to portray via song lyrics, even though her music seems more pessimissitic than Taylor’s, it just how that tale has to be told. In a honest way, which is Lana’s gift, story telling that many can relate to regarding a very complex institution. These two artists may seem like a obvious COMBO to choose to mix, but I like obvious! As long as the artists are obvious great, but sometimes the most cliche artists are the most complex, which is why popular culture forever interests me. And Lana Del Rey and Taylor Swift are the greatest pop stars in the last ten years. Lana is the a more complex writer, but what Taylor lacks in complexity, her writing is just as good, Taylor is really good at getting hurt and dumpd in a relationship and just being so honest and wrting that she got hurt and she got dumped and fuck that hurt. Lol. And that isn’t easy. It takes alot of humility and maturity and enlightenment tbh. This is what most people love most about her. She is also a genius at manipulating the music industry to work in her favour. (Most of the time she wins but not always. but at least she takes risks. She took on Kanye West and lost, but you got to give it to her, she had the balls to take him on in the first place at 19 years old lol. And we can’t say he didn’t deserve it ha). She naviagtes through the music industry slaying the popstar game. Taylor, like Lana, is evil and ruthless, underneith it all. But in a way, being evil is necessary for a woman playing video games in a “man’s world.” As a woman you are an instant target when you step onto the Hollywood scene or American music industry spotlight. Your every move and performance is scrutinized to find inconsistencies that the patriarchy can spot, pull that thread and watch you come undone. It’s very hard to beat them when they decide to do this to you, but where character and success is born, is from those who rise from the dead over and over and over again. Most women stay in the grave unfortunatly, and some literally end up in a grave R.I.P Whitney & Amy. However some, against all odds do come back, even under the most traumtic circumstances, and they just continue to make art aka Yoko Ono is the best and most extreme example of this. (And now at the gates, guarding the souls that didn’t make it, you have to get past Taylor and Lana, and good luck because they aren’t going away anytime soon. I will take you through now, how I believe they have got to this position. After studying their success for many years now, I have some pretty solid theories that both have some evidence to only hinted evidence and can go down seemingly unrelated rabbit holes sometimes like Jarad Leto, lol. None of this information is necessarily 100%, but the likelihood their success was born from something along these lines, is almost certain. There is more guessing coming from Lana’s side, because Taylor Swift is very open and obivous about her evil success building endeavours. Lana’s if true, seem alot more evil and revengeful though, but she does it so quietly and very fasciously. You would never notice if you weren’t observng the right facets of her life carefully.Pictures above from left, Jack Antonoff, Taylor Swift and Lana Del rey.I have this idea that Lana has some weird relationship with Harvey Weinstein where she knd of controls him a little, for some unknown reason. Maybe she is black mailing him? But I know she knew him well and if you a woman in Hollywood who is going to the French Canne Film Festival with Harvey when Lana was relitively unknown at this point, you are fucking him. No doubt. Done deal. Lana was fucking him. But as she sings in a song about him:“You taste like the 4th of July, I love you and I don’t know why”Also“I guess you can call it textbook, I was looking for the father, I wanted back. So then I found him, in Brentwood.”And of course, in the track now slashed from Lana’s live repotoire since #metoo, which Lana seemed to support very quietly and minimally (mostly to not offend or annoy anyone too badly being a person who was just finally getting things going in the world of pop with her Jack Atanoff Grammy award nominated (or winnner idk? pfft who cares, its the grammys lol, no one cares anymore) album called Norman Fucking Rockwell. Lana is no fool, she just stopped playing the song with the direct Harvey referenced lyrics and continuted promtoting her album. Which was the best choice. Lyrics from the now slashed song from live sets Cola were/are:“My pussy tastes like Pepsi Cola…..Cmon baby let’s ride, we can escape to the great sunshine. I know your wife, and she wouldn’t mind….Harvey’s in the sky with diamonds and it’s making me crazy.” I get the feeling from the progression of the Harvey themed tracks, which I thought stopped after Honeymoon, only to make a small but amazing come back in Textbook on Blue Banisters (what a song, and album, really it’s Blue Banisters and Honeymoon that never waiver from the top of my top Lana album’s list, top albums list full stop! Beautiful work). I get the feeling she not so crazy about him anymore though. But who is? But that doesn’t change the fact that Lana has had her music in four major Hollywood films over the last 10 years, which has helped her career majorly. Especially her song for the Great Gatsby, Young & Beautiful, which can account for her success continung into the next phase of her career. ALso, she recorded a version of Season of the witch for a television show’s theme song which aired for a few seasons as well exposing her music to a whole hosts of possible new fans. And she weirdly is placed with Ariana Grande and Miley Cyrus, in a song for Charlie’s Angels, which is a very strange placement and doens’t actually really work but it was funny and again exposes her to both those artists fan bases and the film industry fan base once again keeping her relevant. Jail or not, Harvey or Harvey’s company, still own a big chunk of what’s left of Hollywood. And he ain’t fucking Lana anymore, so why is she still getting these opportunities? These are things women in Hollywood would only get in the past, if they fucked Harvey. I assume Lana isn’t anymore, yet she has to have some ties to Hollywood still. It’s a mystery, but there’s something evil going on on her part haha. And I love the mystery. Pictured, from left, unknoen, Weinstein, Lana Del Rey, Lady Gaga & unknown. Lana in the background looking almost sheepish. Hmmmm… JARED LETO RANT, THIS IS STILL ON TOPIC EVEN THOUGH IT SEEMS LIKE A 180 DEGREE TURN AROUND, IT’S NOT IM NOT THAT ADHDI don’t care what anyone says about Jared Leto, he’s been fucking someone to get those parts in his movies over the years, that’s obivous, case closed. Are you with me? How does that mediocre talented ,,guy. Land roles like the his role in um….. American Psycho??!! Plus so many other iconic roles. I got a story that’s not my story but seems Leto is brought up i’m going to tell it and I won’t say names. I had a very good friend who used to hang out with Leto in England, or more so, Leto used to hang onto a friend of mine, because he’s a fame whore and my friend was connected (connected! not was the guy, only connected) to this guy Jared Leto probably would fuck for a role in a good movie or to be in one of his movies 100%. So that was good enough for Leto. So he’s constantly hanging around my friend and fucking everyone in sight, but wow that’s surprising. My friend watched him have sex with another friend of theirs IN THE BACK OF A TAXI. That’s really gross, there is nothing sexy about that. NOTHING. That’s my inside goss on Leto and it doesn’t make my dislike for him go away any. ha. It’s as1 empty as you would assume his life is. But he doesn’t think that, he’s proabbly happy. Dumb people are happy.But lucky Leto has got less annoying with age, this is what he currently looks like…Ok I intentionally found a irritating picture of him trying too hard at the MET Gala. However, he’s going for this really annoying jesus look at the moment. In saying that, I watched an interview with him and that Australian Apple Music interviewer that every artist seems to be really comfortable with, even Kanye West was semi-comfortable with him, which is a big leap for Kanye and white reporters. Justin Bieber wasn’t as comfortable with him, but that’s probably due to the hit of acid he did before they started filming. Well, so it would seem! Because, for the first 10 minutes of the interview Justin is doing this weird awkward sitting/standing thing. It looks like he’s not sure which he is going to do, stay or run away as far and as fast as possible, and is still deciding depeneding what this guy asks him in the first 2 or 3 questions. So Justin is in this sit/stand kind of pose for 10 minutes, landing him in the middle of the two somewhere which is SUPER AWKWARD! Justin Bieber & Judah Smith. Judah Smith is fearued in the DJ Mix in the middle somewhere. The preacher soounding guy, you can't miss him, as recorded by Lana Del Rey on her phone. I couldn’t find any photos of Lana and Judah together. Hmmmmm. Ha!What’s up with Bieber? I bet Judah Smtih has conservatived him with Bieber’s wife Hailey Baldwyn. Lol. Oh god I hope not, because I feel like the poor guy has been through enough and I think he’s cool. FREE BIEBER. How did I get onto that topic? That’s ADHD. God…..BACK TO LETO Lana and Jarad for Gucci. Photo shoot for campaign they did together.I was saying that in the Apple interview with Leto, I stopped hating leto as much, and I forgot about that until I just started hating on him just then out of habit and realised I don’t actually hate him as much anymore. He’s aiiiight, but that doesn’t change the fact that Jared definitely is a Hollywood whore! He’s not been in support of #metoo publicly either, and then he gets to do some out of the blue couture modelling gig for a Gucci campaign with old pal Lana Del Rey. Well, well, well, SEEMINGLY a weird match up but is it?I could think of at least five alternative relevant stars who would have looked better in that campaign with Lana than Leto. But noooo, taxi fucker slut got it (he doesn’t even talk in My So called Life, he just acts tortured and “oh I’m so good-looking, what a drag,” face, you just want to slap. ha). I get the feeling Leto and Lana have known each other from the “Hollywood scene” for a while maybe? They are two of the main winners from it, if it is true though. (I have little doubt it is true). But, good for them! Jarad can join Taylor and Lana at the gates of hell in this case. The VAMPIRES, as Olivia Rodriguez calls them. Above Lana and Leto. This is a pretty old picture compared to the gucci photos above or the one below.1 Lana, Jarad and The Oracle. TAYLOR SWIFT VERSUS SCOOTA BRAUN/BRUN/BRON?Anyway, BACK to the main babes. Scoota Braun is not one (is that his real name or stage name? Either way….ok “scoota” you fucking loser lol), is that how you even spell his last name? Sure Scoota has earnt Vampire status, but Taylor has driven a stake right through his heart haha. It’s now Scoota BURNT! Taylor SWift, my wo-man, is taking names and no man in sight is safe. And she doesn’t give a flying fuck. Scoota was one of her latest revenge targets, she’s said to have convinced Scoota’s wife to leave him and reported some alleged white collar crimes of his to the FBI as well. In regards to that FBI thing, she shouldn’t be going around snitching on people and then telling us she is a snitch! Lol. But no one seemed to have picked up on it of course, this girl gets away with everything ha. “But Taylor, it’s us verse them at this point, aiiight gurl, so chill on the relationship with the enemy.” I think she might hate men a little? She has no problem seemingly going to town on them.When she was dating Jake Gyllenhaul, he was said to specifically not want Taylor to write any songs about him or their relationship…….then he broke her heart. So of course, Taylor writes multiple songs about him, one in particualr called “All too well,” that interviewers have plaugued Jake about since it’s release. This annoying him slightly. But she doesn’t stop there. Next, when he thought it was all over at “slightly annoying,” Taylor re-releases that same song years later, the first of “Taylor’s version” tracks to be released, but this time she ADDS LYRICS making it a ten minute anthem now! The lyrics get even more specific on details about the unspecified protgonist portrayed in the track. She has never explicity said its Jake. But it’s kind of obvious it’s Jake.And then she doesn’t stop there, she makes a film inspired directly by the same song, we talking a pretty big production. A film with notable actors in it and Taylor herself making her directing debut for it. It is played in every short film festival around the world, and makes one of it’s first public appearances on Saturday Night Live, which is filmed in Jake’s home town New York. (The guy in the film looks like Jake, lol). Taylor making a huge epic anthem show out of it on SNL this night with the film playing behind her. ……..that’s what you get Jake for being a tool. lol. And I don’t want to state the obvious but what relevant roles has he done since Donnie Darko (or since dating Taylor)? And who cares about that film anyway? Mental illness, pedos, portals and Drew Barrymore. It’s the makings of a semi-bad trip at best! (Good soundtrack though). However, it’s not just men Taylor will come after if you cross her. Taylor has gone to town on Olivia Rodriguez lately, and she ain’t a man.OLIVIA & TAYLOR DRAMAOlivia idolised Taylor until….."Blood sucker, fame fucker, bleeding me dry like a god damn vampire." - Olivia Rodriguez sings after a trial with Taylor Swift ends, leaving Olivia with a 10 million dollar bill to pay her idol. Taylor’s copyright lawsuit slapped Olivia hard both emotionally and financially after we are told Taylor is quoted saying “She text my boyfriend.” - Referring to Olivia. Uh oh.That’s what you get for texting Taylor’s boyfriend and being a cute little hussy who writes Driver’s License, lol. Which is a very great pop track! When I first heard it, I didn’t love it straight away, I kind of had to understand what I was listening to at first in the back of that Uber. I would think, “no sad, intense, not the time.” Ha. It’s a very great break up/ heart break song, different from the any other, quite unique. She killed it with her “Dan” friend she writes with (poor man’s Jack Atanoff). Then comes track Vampire, Olivia’s first single from the new second album release, and it’s pretty smart too. Obviously about Taylor Swift, but if the intention was to call Taylor out for being a bitch, it’s a weak intention baby girl, because…… WE KNOW SHE’S EVIL, AND WE LIKE IT. So just stop copyrighting Taylor’s music and texting people’s boyfriends and you shall live another day. I can already hear from two tracks on the NEW Olviia album, there’s some obvious word copy catting again, also phrases and topics Taylor is famous for using on there too, on album Gutz. Watch it gurrrrrl, you know that band the Verve? No? Exactly! The Rolling Stones went to town on them, and they NEVER RECOVERED. END OLIVIA AND TAYLOR STORYBACK TO THE AUDIO I MADE - FULL CIRCLEBack to the DJ mix; I’ve done so many Lana and Taylor mixes over the last few months, but I just did a new one yesterday, and it goes a bit long but because I’m telling a story this is why they tend to go at least 45 minutes. Music is one of the main reasons I do this VLOGBroadcast and the Focus Group - Investigates Witchcults of the Radio Age I played several tracks from one of my favourites, this album. Shwocased in a past podcast. One of the best sampling bands out there, great to take LSD too, if you are into that.I would love to play you music that you might not know, that you might fucking love. From mainstream jams, to hole in the wall still in their mother’s basement artists and anything in between. I try to choose music that is not heard normally on mainstream anything, and if I do play mainstream music, it’s because it’s great, so I don’t care if it’s mainstream. To be honest, I love MAINSTREAM. lol. Pop music and culture are what I fucking live for (and hip hop, but my fave hip hop artists are pretty mainstream ha, at least half of them anyway). I have to admit, I’m not always just sitting there DJing the whole time, I do walk off sometimes and stuff, so time can get away with me. That accounts for it’s lengthy length and slight volume differences, ha. BUT I GOT THINGS TO DO, AIIIght! Lol. I got a life. MOST OF THE TIME, I’m sitting there DJing because I have to, to line the tracks up and assure smooth as possible transitions between tracks live, because I’m not using BPM sync fancy software, literally just have a microphone and a 303, which means i’m just hoping for the best that they line up right. That or, i’m quickly thinking which song is similar in beat to the one playing and hoping for the best with a little more confidence. I don’t always get it right, but I get it pretty right a lot, and it’s a good feeling when you do get it right. A cheap thrill, and I live for them! My new BPM line up trick is, and I’ve just discovered this, is that if you don’t get a good line up by chance ha, just stop one of the tracks, let the other roll and then start it again in a beat or two so it drops back in on a new count and boom, that can sometimes be the issue fixed, the track was just sitting on the wrong count. It works, it’s repeatable science. New fun manual BPM sync trick I learned.BACK TO TAYLOR VERSES SCOOTA BRAUNZ This is the Scoota guy with BieberOh what did Scoota Braun do to Taylor for her to snitch on him and make his wife leave him and re-record all her albums again??! Well, Scoota was apart of some scheme that record labels use to fuck artists over by wriitng in their contract that the masters of their tracks will be owned by the label and then the label sells them to someone once the contract ends. This “someone,” the artist thinks is going to be them for their six album multi platinum career, but it rarely ends like that. The label sells it usually to an affiliate, not the artist, in a act of entrapping the artist so they don’t either A. Start their own label. B. Leave the label or, C. Leave the label for another label. Yes, control purposes. And Scoota bought Taylor’s masters and then owned them and then wouldn’t sell them back to her when she asked, which is a fucking nasty thing to do. So this leads Taylor to endeavour to re-record all of her tracks so she does own them, which people weren’t sure she was actaully going to do, or be legally able to do. And I don’t think we know if she actually can still legally do it, but she has done it, so too late. NOW she does own all her music and tracks again! Which will de-value the original masters owned by Scoota! And I see it like this, it’s like Dave Chappelle and his show that got stolen off him. It’e pretty much exactly the same situation.Dave said once during a stand up, “do me a favour and just never watch that show ever again, because I get nothing for it airing and they shouldn’t be airing it in the first place without paying me.” (The Dave Chappelle Show). And with that said, I have NEVER and will never watch a episode of that show, and I haven’t even seen it, but it doesn’t matter. Dave Chappelle is a great Comedian but Im not, not watching it just for that reason, but mostly because what he is asking is reasonable from human to human, and it’s the right thing to do by the people against big corporations and their bullshit contracts. So, the same goes along with my suppport for Taylor verse Scoota of course all the way. Her re-releases have also gained her new fans because she’s going back and re-releasing old albums again, consequently this means a new gen of Taylor fans get to re-hear the old tracks on heavy rotation on mainstream radio and jump on the Taylor train. She also followed these re-releases with a “eras” themed tour, landing her multi-billion dollars worth of sold out dates across the globe, of her 3.5 hour long/per show world tour event. Also, this has led to her having a track from an album she released five years ago make it to the number one spot of the Billboard charts a month ago which is a first for a pop artist, and it wasn’t even number one the first time it came out! She then has managed to gain spots in all top 10 positions on the same chart all at the one time! And it keeps coming, she has also been releasing unreleased tracks from each era with the re-recordings she puttting out, which are really great tracks. The 1989 unreleased tracks are perfect and I can’t believe she was never going to release them. Most of those tracks also hitting the charts in the top ten, some at number 1 again also. And last but probably not least, (theres still 3 more weeks of this year to go ha),Taylor finishes up as Time Magazine’s human of the year! Phew.And at the end of this era, stand Lana and Taylor. Hand in hand, very close friends apparently for years, with Lana being a ghost writer for Taylor apparently since Reputation 2015ish. Ghost writer can mean Taylor has borrowed themes from Lana, words, ideas, or just bought a track off Lana and then did a Taylor version of it. I think that’s evident in many tracks of Taylor’s. The first two poems I play in my mix, are both poems the singers have released, first up is Lana’s Ride Poem, and then I cut in with what I think is Taylor’s version of this poem, that she released only as a part of her reputation tour, that she would play half time to have a break. I tried to keep that theme going, Lana song and Taylor’s version, but its a little hard when you have no seconds to think, so this is what naturally came out and it is a story which is why it’s more than just a DJ mix with Taylor and Lana songs, its art. SO WITHOUT FURTHER ADUE, ITS MY STORY IN THE AUDIO MIX CALLED: BLOOD IN THE SNOW, SNOW ON THE BLOODTaylor Swift and Lana Del Rey Live DJ set on December 13th 2023. Enjoy hearing the fear everytime I introduce a new track ha. Its a good fear though. XOXO VIVIAN V BROUGHT TO YOU BY PARADISE PRODUCTIONS PTY LTD The contents of this blog is a Copyright to Dancia Conwell 2023, all rights resevered.NONE OF THE MUSIC PLAYED IN THE AUDIO TAPE IS MINE I DO NOT OWN ONE NOTE OF IT NOR DO I HAVE ANY AFFILIATION WITH ANY OF THE ARTISTS WHO DO OWN THE RIGHTS TO THE MUSIC.COPYRIGHT BELONGS TO THE FOLLOWING ARTISTS AND THEIR RESPECTIVE LABELS, MANAGERS AND BUSINESSES:SCOOTA BRAUN (lol)TAYLOR SWIFT LANA DEL REYJACK ATANOFFRYAN ADAMSJUDAH SMITHTHE GUY WHO PLAYS JOHN WAYNE’S VOICE IN “TROPICO” FILM BY LANA DEL REYTHE WOMAN WHO PLAYS MARILYN MONROES VOICE IN “ “THE MAN WHO PLAYS ELVIS PRESLEY’S VOICE IN “ “ SPECIAL CREDIT TO THE FILM “TROPICO” BY LANA DEL REYAMERICANA - THE TAYLOR SWIFT DOCUMENTARY ON NETFLIXVARIOUS YOUTUBE VIDEOS MADE BY FANS TO GET SOME OF THE TAYLOR SWIFT SAMPLES BUT I DID NOT RECORD THEM THEY BELONG TO SOMEONE ELSE RESPECTIVELYTHE ANSWERING SERVICE PHONE SAMPLE ALSO AQUIRED FROM YOUTUBE done. xxxx love all the artists and sounds and fans that made the art I used to DJ with. 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SEXE CULT - W// Mandy Moore-hol AKA vivian v (no longer a predator)// POP CULT 2That reminds me I should do a Mandy Moore deep dive. All hose Britney Spears wannabes round that time. Jojo, Jessica Simpson, Ashley Simpson. Oh and Im going to do my top 5 fave SNL performances. God why are they so epic? Pop cult fun. I have given up on trying to upload video’s on here with my (as good as) dial up speed mobile broadband internet fuck. So, that is the link that will (fingers crossed) bring you to the first SEXE CULT video deep dive Is Taylor Swift Evil?, my popular culture report and opinion and the want of yours in return. This is the link to the VLOG, Is Taylor Swift Evil? For you. You might have to press play AND copy and paste into your browser, lol. It’s going to take you to my Canvas. You might not have to press play. haha. I have NO IDEA. There are captions available, I tend to mumble I’m not a channel V presenter and I don’t want to be if channel V was still an actual thing, lol. It plays by itself from page 2. It’s like an autoplay-ish PowerPoint presentation. lol IS TAYLOR SWIFT EVIL?https://www.canva.com/design/DAF2ejaV5ew/Mw7N9vOUgm0RiKZgq67dFw/edit?utm_content=DAF2ejaV5ew&utm_campaign=designshare&utm_medium=link2&utm_source=sharebutton I am also admittedly giving pop culture its own section of my substack, so Swift doesn’t spill over onto my more political posts as much anymore and if you are into pop culture you can come to this section and revel with me in all things POPULAR, and if not stick with me at the Predator Podcast for more dangerous ideas. I read a “dangerous ideas” article about how trigger warnings are actually really detrimental to readers and shouldn’t be displayed, and I agree. When it comes to essays and videos, it could potentially scare a person off who would have maybe got a lot out of the work had they not been scared off by a trigger warning that might be exaggerating the use of the trigger and in context to the perspective of the article, making it the trigger warning a unnecessary throw off. So, I’m done with them. THIS IS SEXE CULTAND THIS ARTICLE IS ABOUTPOPULAR CULTURE, WHY GIVE A FUCK?Yes you should give a fuck because how do you expect to understand the world around you if you have never heard imagine by John Lennon and Yoko Ono? How do you expect to understand why people do what they do and why, and to make sure you are aware of alien behaviours you don’t want to be exposed to if you don’t understand why Hello Kitty is a household name transcending generations. Trends come and go and this is why popular culture seems fickle, but what you will find if you take a look at these trends, eventually they will form a normal curve. Why is it important to understand the normal curve of popular culture? Because if we can see the normal curve of popular trends today, we can then also see the black swan possibilities within these statistics. Also known as the black swans aka the improbable events or also the dark weird corners of popular culture. Why are the dark corners of popular culture important to notice and narrow down? Well, if you were someone who wanted to do something secretly without many people noticing, where would you be conducting this something? Yes, the dark corners of popular culture. To know the society you live in, significantly, you must understand popular culture. Not to mention, it is extremely important to know that you are understanding the trends that the majority are indulging in, to understand your own needs and your own desires, what you value and what you like. Knowing yourself is one of the most important things in life, of course. Know yourself, and know your shadow, it needs you as much as you need itPopular culture also will give you perspective as to what is actually going on in this world.This is because, the most important things going on, are going to be going on in the 5% of the normal curve of any given popular culture. This 5% is going to produce questions for you to ask the relevant popular figures, and this will produce for you USEFUL INFORMATION. This is why popular culture has always fascinated me. I always wonder what’s hiding behind it. Now, I'm going to make a pretty bold prediction right now and say there is never a major trend in popular culture that doesn’t have a darker shadow that is much more interesting lurking behind it. But this shadow can only be understood if popular culture itself is deeply understood also, and the popular opinion of these current trends. This is why I think learning about Taylor Swift and Justin Bieber is fascinating, besides the fact that they are all shiney and gold on the outside. Justin Bieber and Hailey Baldwyn, his wife, are a hot couple, but who are they? Why did they end up together? How did they end up in the position they are in? (Oh black swan) Puff Daddy may have raped a 15-year-old Bieber, like he knowingly did a young Usher also. Oh, Usher, signed Bieber to his label when Bieber was 14.Do you see where this could possibly be going? So, now we are focussing in on a dark culture of the popular trend that is Justin and Hailey Bieber. Who does Puffy Daddy affiliate with? That is a path that could lead us to potentially saving many teens from being raped by a certain group of people potentially associated with Puff Daddy. And that just kills me because I really love Puff Daddy, and it would kill me if it comes out as true. But without being interested in popular culture, I wouldn’t even be asking this question, because the mainstream media isn’t reporting on it. By looking at the normal curve, I'm able to open up this discussion, and discussion is a very powerful tool for the people to engage in. Which they tend to engage in meaningfully, very little. Why was Andy Warhol so interested in popular culture? Why was popular culture Andy Warhol's main muse? The beautiful thing about Andy Warhol is he does love the dark shadows of popular culture, or the “nothingness” of it. He is also able to admire it and have fun with it at the same time. But he is never unaware of the darkness that lurks behind it, but he is also aware of the love and meaning that also comes from it at the same time. His multi-faceted perspective of poplar culture made Andy Warhol a dangerous person. His art, the way he behaved in interviews, his muses, all would stir questions to be asked by the people, not previously asked like: Why a well known can of soup?Why is this a dangerous question?The same reason asking who Justin Bieber is also. Popular culture deep dives lead to some of the most fascinating discoveries about human nature, then potentially any other facet of society.When you are looking for the right questions to ask in this world, always look in the most obvious places first. Why has Hello Kitty transcended generations as a household name? Take some notice of this popular trend and who knows what you may find.So in short, popular culture is you, it's me, and it's the right questions we should be asking.And that's why we should give a fuck.By Vivian V Brought to you by Meet Me At Barbie’s Funeral Productions PTY LTD.Copyright Danica Conwell 2023 all rights reserved. EXCEPTThe pictures which are chosen from a pubic forum. 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THE - VIOLENCE - PODCAST - AND - BLOG- HE - IS - TRYING - TO - CONTACT - ME - SUCCESSFULLY - OKAY - part - 2_ VVVV - Fuck - Clandace - OwensIt was literally cold last night. If you need me to walk you through this one read ahead. If not go with the flow. I thought I lost this one, accepted it but then I had saved it once and so I dragged it back out of the TRASH and realised it is super relevant.It is better at speed 1.25, ITS good at 1, but because I couldnt really fix the bad changes 1.25 glazes over them and it sounds better lol. And it ends really abruptly……….. like life. Predator the Blog & Podcast is basically free because it’s for everyone and I rather people listen to it than not, but if you can afford a paid subscription please do the cheapest is only $5 and I put alot of time and thought into these pieces and you are on a journey with me to evolve and I HOPE TO READ YOURS when you make one make sure you tell me if you do. But free subs are also avail too always 4 u. Its not a money season I KNOW. lol. subscribe either way babes! SOUND SIDE NOTE: Theres a sound f up i couldnt fix because i dragged it from the trash it was already mixed down no mastering so it goes slightly lower for only a few seconds arounD 8.20 so just don’t turn it up because it becomes louder in a few secondsI mix these mostly live so its why you can hear me typing a bit lol. I really like mixing, music, philosophy and ideas together to come to a conclusive idea or thought or meaning, it’s my life pretty much so welcome to my headspace! Lol. I don’t want to go through it alone anymore. Ha. But this is my more musical way of mixing all my favourite things. On THE////VIOLENCE PodcastMY BEEF WITH CLANDACE OWENS Candace Owens explained: I dont have to explain probably, but she was on a tv show with 22 year old “prostitutes” as she called them. I guess thaT’s still allowed for non-sex workers in America. Candace says she “feels sorry for them” because when “they finish and they want to find a man to marry, they will not be wanted by the men, because they will be used goods.” Was basically her first point. And last I cared to hear. The 22 year old very attractive escort talking to Owen’s was very well spoken, obviously well educated or if not was extremely articulate and came up with the 101 woes that sex workers face daily, because our job does come along with some negatives, most high paying jobs do, but even the basic stuff Clandace wasn’t able to comprehend or keep up with, so we won’t get into the lead up to becoming a sex worker or the positive conseqiences like childhood experiences (no not sexual abuse, that’s not every sex workers experience and not mine), or grey matter growth within a sex workers pre-frontal cortex (making sex workers more logical and better decision makers than non-sex workers).DEVIL WOMAN CLANDACE OWENS talking to the "prostitutes" one was wearing a cross because it was "cute" hahahaha. Fuck you Candace GOD IS DEAD. ALL THE POTENTIAL FEMALE LEADERS ARE DEMONS OR VILIFIED. OH GOSH, THE PATRIARCHY ARE SO MEAN I’d like to see Clandace go up against Aella (only fans fame sex worker/data collector/ researcher) or Sasha Grey (famous highly empowered porn star, who’s interview, that is so similar to the clandace ownens bull doze bullying, I have featured at the end of this podcast set. I love this interview so much, 18 year old Grey kind of just wakes up to the reality of the situation she is in wiht Tyra half way through the podcast and decides to srsly fuck with Tyler saying some pretty funny outrageous things to get a reaction out of her. Shes so funny and smart and still is you can catch her on TWITCH these days. PICTURED - Aella & Sasha Grey Sex Industry GODS! COME AT US CANDACE OWENS BUT CLANDACE please pick on some hookers her own size. They will wipe the floor with her. What a fucking straight up idiot we have got ourselves here in old Clandace Owens.And by the way if you are a sex worker and think that what Clandace is saying about men, thinking you are “used goods” if you have been a sex worker, is actually a true……...IT IS SUCH a lie! Some men may find it a issue if you currently work which is understandable (I guess, but don’t allow them to shame you, you are not a bad person you just do a complex job and that’s because you are a complex woman who can handle it). THEN MAYBE SOME, and I really mean 15% of the male population, might care if you have done the job and don’t anymore. But, RARELY lol. Men are way more open minded than Clandace is giving them credit for. It’s an insulting comment for men TBH and sex workers alike Clandace!! What is wrong with you? Majority of men wouldn’t care at all and they are way more open minded than that and the legalisation of sex work in this country is contributing to that and will only get better. You wouldn’t want to be with a man who did care if in the past you were a sex worker anyway. So weeds out the losers. WIN/WIN. And this is the Clandace Ownes line I’ve drawn no more shall we speak of the idiot.This live set started out being about game theory and ended up this. Death is so big in my life atm, Not literally. I keep getting signs that Jethro is trying to talk to me. I cried in a little bit of fear last weekend over one communication strategy. More info next blog… This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe

I watched all of Harmonies film in my 20’s. I really like his world and always will. It was some what like mine. Except my life is kind of like a cross between a episode of Ricky Lake and a Gallo film. So albeit to say…The journalist is very annoyed at Harmony for this very funny, honest (maybe) and creative story he tells about being a delinquent teen. I don;t know why. People are so strange you would think encourgment of interesting and unique story tellinng is needed for young writers. Lucky Korine gets off on this mans reactions. Women are too suseotible to shame its probably why we don’t make it as easily in the writing/directing industries.Lol……”….to me that’s a great comedy.” If you have no please watchHORMONY FILMS TO WATCH Gummo - starring then muse and GF at the time Chloe Sevigny, Umshini Wam - Starring Die AntwoodHarmonie’s david letterman appearences on youtube - worth itKIDS - Starring Chloe Sevigny, Rosario Dawson, Leo Fitzpatrick (The Wire)Spring Breakers - Selena Gomez, (Wife) Rachel Korine (hot), Vanessa Hudgens, James Franco, and the one and only seminal hip hop artist and porducer GUCCI MANETrash Humpers - bunch of freaksMr Lonely - (wife) Rachel Korine, Werner HerzogJulien Donkey Boy (then muse and GF) Chloe Sevigny , Werner Herzog The Fourth Dimension - Rachel Korine plays herself basically and Val Kilmer (my fave batman) plays himself too.I love how Korine has dictated his life as an artist. Very cool. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit sexcult1.substack.com/subscribe