Suffering of Silence

Hey Sabscribers!It's been a long time since I've given a guest appearance. There would be no better than to have my amazing homie and fellow creative  @lazoschemesofficial  to join me on a special episode.Tune in for a fun-filled episode as we catch up on Lazo's recent EP Whispers Before Dawn (on every streaming platform!) as well as NYFW and what Lazo's got in store next!Make sure to find Lazo on Instagram and TikTok @lazoschemes and here on YouTube  @lazoschemesofficial !! Listen in on any music streaming platform!!Your support is appreciated! 💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!In honor of National Suicide Awareness Month, I wanted to bare my 'naked' self and share my experiences with suicide and how it has affected me and those around me.In this episode, you will learn of my longing desire to belong somewhere with JUST SOMEONE. That burning desire led me to seek out relationships in life that put my life in danger. I hope that as I continue to navigate this challenge in my life, I can continue to spread awareness and love.YOU ARE NOT ALONE! There are free resources for you or someone you love who is experiencing these thoughts.Suicide & Crisis hotline:Call/text 988Chat: chat.988lifeline.orgAdditional resources at 988lifeline.orgI am also a resource you can use! Reach me via Instagram or TikTok messages @sufferingofsilencepod on either platform.For more updates, I've started a Substack and plan to share my first post soon, so go Sabscribe: https://substack.com/@sabscriptionYour support is appreciated! 💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!It's been too long since I've last posted a full episode. Nothing better than posting one when I am officially 30 years old. Haha. I've missed the feeling of accomplishment when posting a full episode.There's a few new projects I've been working toward and I can't wait to share it with you all.For more updates, I've started a Substack and plan to share my first post soon, so go Sabscribe: https://substack.com/@sabscriptionYour support is appreciated! 💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!Have you ever heard of dissociative amnesia? Have you ever wondered why you walked into a room and completely forgot why? It could obvs be from a number of things but if you experienced trauma, this type of forgetfulness could be a result of dissociative amnesia. It's all more nuanced than that, so check out some of my experiences of it in the latest episode.Your support is appreciated! 💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!My apologies for slacking on episodes lately. Life has been hectic and I just haven't felt confident in posting any of the episodes I have recorded.I realized recently that I'm probably just being a crybaby. I almost chose to give up! I had to find a way to pick myself back up and learn some patience. Nothing worth having will come easy! Discomfort is necessary when you're growing and evolving. But how can I balance this old version of myself and transition into who I know I can be?Your support is appreciated! 💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!This was clearly an old episode that I vaulted from months ago (you can tell based off my hair color LOL). I lost the other half of this episode, including the mic audio, but this was important for me to share the experience of domestic violence from a man's perspective. If yall really like this, I'd be happy to bring Carlos back on to finish the rest of the conversation. Hope you guys still love what I was able to scrap together in honor of Men's Mental Health Awareness Month.Wanna quick interview?Meet me at:June 21st - Chicago Streetwear Expo (https://posh.vip/e/the-chicago-streetwear-market)Your support is appreciated! 💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!Today’s episode will focus on how we can better protect ourselves from perpetrators who are only interested in getting what they want. Some may disguise themselves as “good people” but pay attention to their actions because they will not match their words. We have to be less willing to bend our personal boundaries for others who have not proven worthy. Especially as I navigate the entertainment industry and broaden my network, I’m learning deeper lessons much quicker. Regardless, I will remain as loving and kind as I always have been and I refuse to change that for anyone. Standing on your boundaries is self respect and that means more than any amount of clout.Here are resources to refer to for safe dating (and honestly, just starting any new connection, romantic, platonic or otherwise):https://rainn.org/articles/tips-safer-online-dating-and-dating-app-usehttps://www.buzzfeed.com/caseyrackham/women-share-dating-safety-tipshttps://sc.edu/about/offices_and_divisions/law_enforcement_and_safety/safety-on-campus/dating-safety/ Wanna quick interview? Meet me at:June 21st - Chicago Streetwear Expo (https://posh.vip/e/the-chicago-streetwear-market)Your support is appreciated! 💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!Another short episode because I got two new port-a-pod episodes on the way!Join me on this episode to discuss deeper and darker parts of my experiences as an Asian American. I reflect on how the challenges of having immigrant parents and generational burdens that you so dearly wish to break.Unfortunately, the reality is that I was too late to break those patterns for my nephews and nieces (and even great niece and nephew!) In some way, this is one entry for them and my dedication to the love I will always have for them.Wanna quick interview? Meet me at:June 21st - Chicago Streetwear Expo (https://posh.vip/e/the-chicago-streetwear-market)Your support is appreciated! 💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!R.I.P. to another important relationship in my life. I hope that letting go of these various people, friends, my career and more will lead me exactly where I’ve been working hard to get to.I AM CURRENTLY SEARCHING FOR A NEW CAMERA PERSON LOCATED IN THE MILWAUKEE AREA. I’m looking to work someone who’s interested in experimenting with ideas/concepts but most importantly JUST HAVE FUN capturing an experience. HIT A HOMIE UP!!!Your support is appreciated! 💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!March 15th officially marked one year since I released the very first episode of Suffering of Silence. Although, I feel like there are so many goals I have yet to reach, I still feel honored that I can even celebrate one whole year. So much has changed since the first episode. Can't wait to share what the next year of S.O.S. will be!Your support is appreciated! 💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!*ADVISORY* This episode does discuss topics such as domestic violence and sexual assaultIn honor of Women's History Month, I wanted to give you insight into a part of my connection to my femininity and womanhood. I wanted to share parts of my cultural history and background. I hope you all enjoy it!Your support is appreciated and needed more than ever now! 💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!*ADVISORY* This episode does discuss topics such as domestic violence and sexual assaultIn honor of International Women's Day, I went back and forth on whether I wanted to give you guys structured facts in a well articulated format or if I just wanted to freely talk to you guys. I clearly chose to freely express myself and how I identify, (struggle really), as a strong woman in the world. I'll have something special to share with you all on March 8th, so follow along on TikTok and Instagram @sufferingofsilencepod.More time on my hands equates to weekly episodes and more content on TikTok! Follow along my day-to-day journey as I navigate this new part of my life. Your support is appreciated and needed more than ever now! 💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!I knew I lived with some level of fear, but I didn't realize until recently how much my fear was controlling me. My fear was getting in the way of how I love people and most importantly, how I love myself. I feel like I've unlocked a new level of consciousness. The real test is, "Will I be able to consistently apply this lesson to all aspects and all relationships in my life?" This episode will serve as a reminder to me and everyone else that needs to hear it--FUCK FEAR! FUCK CONDITIONED THINKING!We might only get this lifetime, so make it fucking count!More time on my hands equates to weekly episodes and more content on TikTok! Follow along my day-to-day journey as I navigate this new part of my life. Your support is appreciated and needed more than ever now! 💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!First of all, shout out y'all for loving me and supporting me through some of my most difficult times. I genuinely am so grateful and beyond blessed to have each of you apart of my life. I've seen all the messages and comments and those are what keep me going!Your girl found herself a new job in a whole new field! I'll keep y'all updated on this new venture. I've never felt more comfortable with the discomfort of these growing pains from losing my job.More time on my hands equates to weekly episodes and more content on TikTok! Follow along my day-to-day journey as I navigate this new part of my life. Your support is appreciated and needed more than ever now! 💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!Major life update for everyone! I lost my full time corporate job this past week and I wanted to share the raw emotional crash out I'm currently going through.More time on my hands equates to weekly episodes and more content on TikTok! Follow along my day-to-day journey as I navigate this new part of my life. Your support is appreciated and needed more than ever now! 💜My intuition had already told me this chapter will end soon. Now that I'm here, I'm terrified and excited all at the same time. I'm probably going to lose my mind a million f*cking times but I'm sticking to what I love. I'm going to try new things all at the same time becauseWHY TF NOT!As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers! This episode I wanted to give you guys some of my real and raw thoughts on how I feel celebrating Hmoob New Year. Essentially, I’ll be sharing thoughts of insecurity and feelings of imposter syndrome. Hope you guys enjoy this brief check in before the year ends. As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way! xoxo -Sab 🫶🏼 Follow my journey or submit your stories: Instagram @sufferingofsilencepod TikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers! I was sitting at a cafe recently and started yapping about how sad I am about ending my life long friendships and even parts of my professional life. I tend to build sentimental attachment to many things and people in my life. So many of these things and people aren't exactly deserving of this sentimental value. I realized these things became sentimental to me because they were reflections of who I was in those moments. To let go of those people or things is to also shed those parts of myself. As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way! xoxo -Sab 🫶🏼 Follow my journey or submit your stories: Instagram @sufferingofsilencepod TikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers! Just wanted to keep this light this week and offer a quick check-in with myself. November 2023 I was down baddddd. I probably experienced some of the worst depressions in a long time. Although what sent me down this depression might seem minor to most people or in comparison to everything I’ve been through, it was one of the first times I’ve ever healthily allowed myself to feel. A year ago I discovered a pivotal progression in my mental and emotional intelligence. I can’t wait to look back and reflect on the entirety of 2024. I love myself more and more everyday. As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way! xoxo -Sab 🫶🏼 Follow my journey or submit your stories: Instagram @sufferingofsilencepod TikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!I'm back to bring another guest on the show--my good friend Carlos AKA Grimace. Tune in while we catch up on our personal lives and even dive into our thoughts on local art/creative spaces in our city. He's one of few friends I feel like I can talk to about clothes, styling and overall our passion for creativity. Hope you guys enjoy it!TRIGGER WARNINGThis episode discusses topics of Domestic Violence. Please refrain from listening should this trigger you.Are you or someone you know experiencing domestic violence and need assistance? Please know that there are resources and help available 24/7, 365. You do not have to feel alone. You do not have to get through this alone. If you have not realized it already--you are loved, you are cared for, you are worthy. If you don't choose to fight for anything or anyone else--do it for YOU! 💜Call 800-799-7233Text 'BEGIN' to 88788Chat https://www.thehotline.org/As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers! For National Domestic Violence Awareness month, I wanted to share a bit more about my experiences and some patterns I could have learned to help prevent myself and others from suffering from domestic violence. We have a special guest on this episode to share some resources and different POVs from a professional stance. Thank you for sharing these resources Xavier. And as always, your courage to join me will always be highly recognized. *TRIGGER WARNING* This episode discusses topics of Domestic Violence. Please refrain from listening should this trigger you. Are you or someone you know experiencing domestic violence and need assistance? Please know that there resources and help available 24/7, 365. You do not have to feel alone. You do not have to get through this alone. If you have not realized it already--you are loved, you are cared for, you are worthy. If you don't choose to fight for anything or anyone else--do it for YOU! 💜 Call 800-799-7233 Text 'BEGIN' to 88788 Chat https://www.thehotline.org/ As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way! xoxo -Sab 🫶🏼 Follow my journey or submit your stories: Instagram @sufferingofsilencepod TikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers! For National Domestic Violence Awareness month, I wanted to share a bit more about my experiences and some patterns I could have learned to help prevent myself and others from suffering from domestic violence. *TRIGGER WARNING* This episode discusses topics of Domestic Violence. Please refrain from listening should this trigger you. Are you or someone you know experiencing domestic violence and need assistance? Please know that there resources and help available 24/7, 365. You do not have to feel alone. You do not have to get through this alone. If you have not realized it already--you are loved, you are cared for, you are worthy. If you don't choose to fight for anything or anyone else--do it for YOU! 💜 Call 800-799-7233 Text 'BEGIN' to 88788 Chat https://www.thehotline.org/ As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way! xoxo -Sab 🫶🏼 Follow my journey or submit your stories: Instagram @sufferingofsilencepod TikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers! For National Domestic Violence Awareness month, I wanted to share a bit more about my experiences and some patterns I could have learned to help prevent myself and others from suffering from domestic violence. *TRIGGER WARNING* This episode discusses topics of Domestic Violence. Please refrain from listening should this trigger you. Are you or someone you know experiencing domestic violence and need assistance? Please know that there resources and help available 24/7, 365. You do not have to feel alone. You do not have to get through this alone. If you have not realized it already--you are loved, you are cared for, you are worthy. If you don't choose to fight for anything or anyone else--do it for YOU! 💜 Call 800-799-7233 Text 'BEGIN' to 88788 Chat https://www.thehotline.org/ As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way! xoxo -Sab 🫶🏼 Follow my journey or submit your stories: Instagram @sufferingofsilencepod TikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers! First off, shout-out to my homie Izzy for coming through and executing on my coverart. This was certainly beyond expectations and I don't think there's a way I can show how appreciative I am for this. In this episode, I wanted to share some feelings of isolation and loneliness that I experience often, but more emphasized in this current state of my life. Lately, I've been going through a lot of changes, personally, professionally and creatively. There's many parts of me that I feel are far overgrown than needed and I've been forced to let go. It's been painful and lonely. Lonely not because I'm alone, but because I have to go through this alone and there is nothing anyone can do for me but allow me my space to isolate and heal. As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way! xoxo -Sab 🫶🏼 Follow my journey or submit your stories: Instagram @sufferingofsilencepod TikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!I am so excited to share this episode with you all! I’ve been waiting so long to bring my special guest—Jesucita on to the pod! Tune in while we talk about life experiences that have led us to our big 29! We’ve split the episode into two parts so here is part 2!💜As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers!*TRIGGER WARNING*This episode discusses topics of domestic violence. Please refrain from listening if this may trigger you.I am so excited to share this episode with you all! I’ve been waiting so long to bring my special guest—Jesucita on to the pod! Tune in while we talk about life experiences that have led us to our big 29! We’ve split the episode into two parts so tune in next Friday September 20th for part two. 💜My notes on fearful avoidant attachments with links and videos:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1X6yd9wDWHTz2lgG8dVWuSBAUchoWgaomisqahQtbSnE/editAs always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers! And Happiest of Birthdays to me!*TRIGGER WARNING*This episode discusses topics of domestic violence. Please refrain from listening if this may trigger you.This such a special episode for me, not only because I'm celebrating my 29th birthday, but I will be showing you all a different part of my vulnerability. This episode takes some dark turns, but please stay with me. It has taken me a huge amount of courage to open up about this experience and I love myself more for it.As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way!xoxo-Sab 🫶🏼Follow my journey or submit your stories:Instagram @sufferingofsilencepodTikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Happy Men’s Mental Health Awareness Month! *TRIGGER WARNING* This episode discusses topics of self harm and domestic violence. Hey Sabscribers! For my second (2nd) video episode ever, I wanted to share some additional insight on my POV on Men's Mental Health. This is a complicated topic for me as I can admit to being a very toxic and awful partner, friend and daughter in the past. In this episode I will reflect a bit on how I'm working on doing and being a better version of myself for not just the men in my life but everyone close to me. (Ya know, the usual) As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way! xoxo -Sab 🫶🏼 Follow my journey or submit your stories: Instagram @sufferingofsilencepod TikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

What's up Sabscribers! 💜 Happy AAPI Heritage month and Mental Health Awareness month! In honor of AAPI and Mental Health Awareness month, I wanted to share a *BONUS* episode this month. *TRIGGER WARNING* This episode discusses topics such as domestic violence. This episode was put together on the fly, so I apologize for the messy editing and whatnot. As appreciative as I am for my mother and everything she’s sacrificed, my self-respect and peace is something I’ve worked too hard for. I will never choose to give that up for anyone ever again. I’m working through how to detach from the need and desire to be enough for people who aren’t willing to accept me for me. Tune in to get a peek into my strained relationship with my mother and how it affects me in all relationships in my life. As always, thank you so greatly for tuning in! This was built on love, so let's please keep it that way! xoxo -Sab 🫶🏼 Follow my journey or submit your stories: Instagram @sufferingofsilencepod TikTok @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers! Welcome to another episode of Suffering of Silence. Thank you for tuning into the last episode. I hope this episode will be more light and positive for you all. In this week's episode, I wanted to share some vulnerable thoughts of discouragement and how I'm still always working to overcome those feelings. With love, Sab Don't forget to follow the podcast and share your stories: TikTok: @sufferingofsilencepod Instagram: @sufferingofsilencepod

*TRIGGER WARNING* This episode contains topics such as, stalking, harassment, domestic violence and self harm. Please refrain from listening if these topics will trigger you. Hey Sabscribers! Welcome to another episode of Suffering of Silence. This episode will be a bit more serious and give you more insight to an experience I lived through my early 20s. Since these experiences, I would say I have learned my lesson and will no longer make the same mistakes again. There are so many more details to these stories that I am open to sharing but for now, let's just start here. You will also get some details about my passion for music and singing. Although, I don't take it as serious anymore, music and singing will always have a special place in my heart. 💜 I also apologize in advance for some of the emotions I express in this episode. I hope you all enjoy tuning in! As always, this space is and will always be built with love and compassion--PLEASE KEEP IT THAT WAY! Love you all, Sabscribers! XOXO

Sabscribers! It's episode 2! Ever feel like you don't belong? Or ever feel like everything around you is rejecting you? Let's talk about it! I have started to view rejection as my own higher self guiding me to what's actually better suited for me. Rejection isn't a reflection of the external world and their inability to receive what you're able to offer. It is a refection of your inner capabilities to change and progress in your personal evolution. Hope you all enjoy this episode! Don't forget to submit your anonymous questions and stories to ngl.link/sufferingofsilencepod or DM me on Instagram: Personal: @_sabscription Podcast: @sufferingofsilencepod TikTok: Personal: @sabscription Podcast: @sufferingofsilencepod

Hey Sabscribers! Here it is, here is episode 1 of many more. Wanna know where or why this all started? I'll share a bit more about some of my history and what triggered this entire podcast. Reminder that this is a space that is built with love, so I ask that it remain that way. XOXO - Sab FULL DISCLAIMER: This episode does mention domestic violence and mentions of suicide and self-harm. Are you or anyone you know experiencing a domestic violent relationship? There are resources that to help you. You can call the domestic violence hotline at 800-799-7233 or text START to 88788 or chat with the hotline at: https://chat.thehotline.us/

Welcome Sabscribers to my podcast Suffering of Silence. Please understand how tremendously grateful I am to be able to share this with you. I have been battling with myself for the last two years on whether this was worth putting this out in the world. Clearly I got over my fear of being perceived and decided-WHAT THE HELL! This is my calling, this is my purpose! I was made to create this safe space for people like me. I was made to create this community for individuals who have been suffering in silence alone for so long! Please be kind and bring nothing but love!