the vertpod

trigger warning : suicide, suicide ideation, self harm and manic episodes hi salam alaykum, this is a part 2 and final episode of my story, this is a lighter episode (sort of) filled with so much mirth, in this episode I spoke about my first and final days in Babcock university, I spoke about the one heartbreak that made me sob terribly and openly in public, I spoke about life after I left Babcock, spoke about my mental health and to cut the long story short, if there was one thing I did on this episode, I definitely spoke.

trigger warning : sexual harassment,sexual assault, bullying and self harm. the dawn of a new era, in this episode I spoke about my story starting from my childhood up until when I finished high school, this is a very personal one dear to my heart as I had to unearth memories from a very dark time in my life. I put off telling this story for a long time because I couldn't bring myself to fully accept all that happened to me but here I am finally telling my story, I have mixed feelings about this but I believe it's a step I have to take. I would say I hope your enjoy the episode but in all honesty there's nothing to enjoy here, I mean asides the first thirty minutes of the episode, it's all gloomy. to all victims of abuse in any form I see you and I totally understand what it feels like to be crippled with memories that haunt you.

this is a bonus episode but it's closure for old listeners, I want to say a big thank you to everyone who has been with me from the very first episode "shooting shots" and to everyone who joined along the way, I say thank you. the vertpod has transitioned from a conversational podcast to an Islamic story telling podcast, I found Islam through a story telling podcast "the digital sisterhood" and it feels just right to have a podcast that can do same for other people.

what the podcast is all about.

salam vert, I have been mia since june, your girl has been through the throes of it, but I'm back now better than ever, on today's episode you get to know me on a personal level, I answered questions ranging from my childhood to my pet peeves to what I think love is to me to the genre of book I love to read hint* it's muslim fiction, it's safe to say that if you listen to this episode you'll know more about me than an extended family member. I got deep and vulnerable in this episode, one day I'll tell my story just not right now, so please let's not ask intrusive questions : ) in as much as I got deep and vulnerable I also laughed a lotttt and it's safe to say that I'm the most adorable podcaster out there because this episode would leave you cheesing hard. like I said send me mails, messages, whatever makes you comfortable, there's a segment under the vertpod called vernt it out ! it's a space where you get to vernt out certain things that are bothering you and it gets talked about, to get an advice on whatever it is, do send a mail to [email protected] and you'll be heard. with love lady Tamarah Imani, Salam. p.s : if you fit my type do send me a message bearing in mind that it'll be a halal relationship : ) socials tamarahadekeye on all social media platforms  thevertpod on twitter and instagram  [email protected] to vernt it all out  see you next Thursday loves, once again it's the vertpod where I get to talk about anything and everything with any very and every vert, it's your lady Tamarah. salam 

Salam vert, physical touch, quality time, acts of service, words of affirmation, receiving gifts, all these are the five love languages that are being expressed in relationships be it romantic or platonic, Adeyemi and I had a discussion about our love languages in order of preference, how we've shown it to people, how we've expressed it to other people, how it's expressed differently in African households in comparison to Western households and also how we can come to compromise if the person we're in a relationship with doesn't have the same love language(s) as we do. There's a segment under the vertpod called vernt it out ! it's a space where you get to vernt out certain things that are bothering you and on the next episode it gets talked about, to get an advice on whatever it is, send a mail to [email protected] and you'll be heard. with love lady Tamarah Imani, Salam.

Salam vert, have there been times when you stayed up all night and the one thought that you kept on thinking about was how you're not living your life to the fullest or you're scrolling on social media and you see your peers doing certain things and you start to question how you live because it seems you're not living yours to the fullest, the question here is what is " your fullest " Sheila and I discuss our fullest and how we find our fullest in the things that matter to us. There's a segment under the vertpod called "vernt it out!" where verts get to talk about anything and everything and we discuss it on the podcast send a mail to [email protected] to vernt out whatever it is you need advice/clarity on, yes there's an anonymity clause so your identity is hidden : ) with love lady  Tamarah Imani, Salam.

Salam vert, on this episode my best friend and I take a trip down memory lane into the journey of our friendship by answering questions that some verts asked us, there’s a lot of laughter, teasing, and cute stories that are definitely wattpad worthy in this episode, also I'm glad to introduce you to a new segment called "vernt it out !" where verts (you) get to talk about anything and everything and we discuss it on the podcast send a mail to [email protected] to vert out whatever it is you need advice/clarity on, yes there's an anonymity clause so your identity is hidden : ) with love Lady Tamarah Imani, Salam.

Salam vert, in this episode I had a sit down with Chase and Mayrics and we had a fun and insightful conversation, we discussed all the nitty gritty details about shooting shots, our experiences with making the first move, the guys kinda spilled the beans on what " going with the flow means " at least now we have a clear understanding of what that really means. with love Lady Tamarah Imani, Salam.