thoughts at 2am

nostalgia pt. 2 with mercypart 1 was about personal nostalgia relationships, memories, holding onto the past. part 2 is about cultural nostalgia: was 2016 actually better? was the music better? was life better before phones?spoiler: mercy looked back at her 2016 journal and it was one of her worst years.we talk about:- why everyone romanticizes 2016 (and why we need to stop)- the uni nostalgia trap (missing the version of yourself, not the experience)- does social media make nostalgia worse?- how instagram creates fake memories (highlight reels ≠ reality)- why journaling stops you from lying to yourself- lack of gratitude vs. nostalgiamercy's take: journal everything. voice record if you can't write. you'll realize 2016 wasn't that great.my take: we're nostalgic for who we were, not when we were.mentioned:- 2016 music (drake's views)- covid as the turning point for nostalgia- memory suppression & coping mechanisms- the 10% memory decrease from recording experiencessubscribe so you don't miss future episodes.links:newsletter (thursdays): ⁠thoughtsat2am.substack.com⁠2am confessions form: ⁠forms.gle/ShsmXLE6ewUq6bz78

"nostalgia is denial of the painful present."my first guest episode with mercy (!!) we're talking about why we romanticize the past, how nostalgia complicates relationships, and why your instagram memories are lying to you.we reference midnight in paris, talk about journaling as the antidote to self-deception, and debate whether we'd rather talk to past us or future us mercy gets vulnerable about holding onto people because of nostalgia. i rant about instagram being curated highlights. we both agree: the past wasn't as good as we remember.this got long, so it's split into two parts. part 2 next week.mentioned:- midnight in paris- verity (colleen hoover)- anne hathaway is an arsenal fan (important)- journaling & voice recordinglinks:newsletter (thursdays): thoughtsat2am.substack.com2am confessions form: forms.gle/ShsmXLE6ewUq6bz78

welcome back after a 3-month disappearing act. In this episode, I get honest about why the podcast felt like a chore, why I kept avoiding recording even though my mic was literally next to my bed, and why we're all exhausted from constantly "locking in" but never actually staying locked in.we're talking about the great Lock in, the winter arc, and whatever new challenge is coming in january - and why these performative cycles of motivation keep us stuck in day one, day one, day one instead of making real progress.if you've ever announced you're "locking in," felt motivated for 3 days, fell off, felt guilty, then waited for the next viral challenge to restart the cycle... this one's for you.let's talk about borrowed motivation, all-or-nothing thinking, and why we need to stop announcing and just start doing.recorded from a co-working space because apparently I can't do anything productive from my bed anymore.links:newsletter (thursdays): ⁠thoughtsat2am.substack.com⁠2am confessions form: ⁠forms.gle/ShsmXLE6ewUq6bz78⁠key words: productivity, self-improvement, motivation, personal growth, lock in challenge, winter arc, 75 hard, New Year resolutions, burnout, mental health, mindset, discipline, accountability, self-awareness, adulting, life advice, millennial struggles, consistency, goal setting, habit building, procrastination, self-development, lifestyle podcast, late night thoughts, real talk, honest conversations, Gen Z, personal development, authentic living, wellness journey

In this episode, I’m unpacking the whole idea of “gifted child syndrome” you know, when doing well really young sets you up for burnout later on. I talk about how being labeled early shapes your identity, how chasing academic validation can get exhausting, and how society often flattens intelligence into just one definition. I also get into why a growth mindset matters, the different ways brilliance can actually show up, and a bit of my own reflections on navigating those expectations.links:newsletter (thursdays): ⁠thoughtsat2am.substack.com⁠2am confessions form: ⁠forms.gle/ShsmXLE6ewUq6bz78⁠keywords:gifted child syndrome, academic validation, mental health, fixed mindset, growth mindset, identity, intelligence, childhood experiences, adulthood challenges, emotional intelligence

Friendship feels so different these days. No one wants to be inconvenienced anymore, everything is scheduled like a meeting, and we’re lonelier than ever even though we’re ‘connected’ all the time. In this episode I talk about how vulnerability, community, and just showing up (even when it’s inconvenient) might be the real recipes we’re losing. I’m not a perfect friend none of us are but I’ve been having this convo a lot lately and wanted to sit down and share my thoughts with you too. please follow my socials :)⁠substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠playlist⁠⁠instagram: thoughts@2ampod ⁠keywords: friendship, social media, loneliness, vulnerability, catch-up friends, idealized friendships, intentional gatherings, deep connections, emotional isolation, genuine relationship

In this episode, I take you through a stream of consciousness style episode sharing life’s ebbs and flows, it’s a mini “thought dump”. Let me know what you think as always! 🩶please follow my socials :)⁠substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠playlist⁠⁠instagram: thoughts@2ampod ⁠

This is an episode I wanted to keep in the drafts but for consistency sake and the fact I have not been able to record in a couple weeks, here you go. In this episode a few of my friends explain or talk about if people can change or if thats just how they are are. I think there are many layers to this conversation. Let me know your thoughts in the comments! please follow my socials :)⁠substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠playlist⁠⁠instagram: thoughts@2ampod ⁠

this episode is one on the ways anxiety has shaped me, and how i’m slowly loosening its grip. honest, raw, and maybe a little freeing tooplease follow my socials :)substack:⁠⁠https://substack.com/@beeshaga?utm_source=user-menu⁠⁠playlist: ⁠⁠https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7oY1JEZPR7iC2zQuCe4oGb⁠⁠instagram: thoughts@2ampod / ⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/thoughtsat2ampod/⁠⁠

In this episode i explore the themes of grace, mercy, and spiritual growth within the context of faith. I reflect on how we often take God's grace for granted and how we seem to fear out earthly counterparts more than we do God, leading to a lack of reverence and spiritual stagnation. The conversation/thought emphasizes the importance of recognizing the consequences of sin and the need for genuine repentance and growth in one's spiritual journey.Please follow my socials :)substack:⁠https://substack.com/@beeshaga?utm_source=user-menu⁠playlist: ⁠https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7oY1JEZPR7iC2zQuCe4oGb⁠instagram: thoughts@2ampod / ⁠https://www.instagram.com/thoughtsat2ampod/⁠

In this episode, i explore the concept of success and fulfillment, emphasizing the importance of personal definitions over societal expectations. I also talk about the confusion many feel when following prescribed paths to success, highlighting the need for self-discovery and journaling as tools for understanding one's own desires and definitions of happiness. I also encourage everyone listening to recognise that success can take many forms and that contentment can coexist with ambition.Please follow my socials :)substack:https://substack.com/@beeshaga?utm_source=user-menuplaylist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7oY1JEZPR7iC2zQuCe4oGbinstagram: thoughts@2ampod / https://www.instagram.com/thoughtsat2ampod/

In this episode, my friend and I discuss whether being this aware is a good or bad thing. We discuss doom scrolling, how addicting our phones are, and how they’re an extension of us. We also wonder if this is what God wanted or if we, as humans, have strayed again. (something He would have always factored in his plan, anyways) Please follow my socials :) substack:https://substack.com/@beeshaga?utm_source=user-menuplaylist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7oY1JEZPR7iC2zQuCe4oGbinstagram: thoughts@2ampod / https://www.instagram.com/thoughtsat2ampod/

In this first episode, I talk about my substack post and do my best to articulate the thoughts and feelings behind it. I touch on the fear of being perceived, anxiety, and so much more. Hope you enjoy listening to it as much as I’ve enjoyed creating it. Let me know your thoughts. I’d love to hear them, and I’m always happy to receive a good voice notesubstack: https://substack.com/@beeshaga?utm_source=user-menuplaylist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7oY1JEZPR7iC2zQuCe4oGbinstagram: thoughts@2ampod / https://www.instagram.com/thoughtsat2ampod/

there are no borders to these thoughts. I hope you enjoy the podcast as much as I have enjoyed creating it. first episode out on tuesday. instagram: @thoughtsat2ampodother podcast: @theesamepage / On The Same Page