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This week’s episode is the unbelievable survival story of Alison Botha, a woman who went through so many unfathomable things, but lived to tell her story. I feel so honored to get to discuss this amazing woman and her enduring strength. Trigger Warning: sexual assault, violence, attempted murder. -- Alison’s Book Alison’s Film Sources: Tinning, Danielle. "‘Do You Think She’s Dead?’: Inside The Incredible Survival Story Of Alison Botha." AllThatsInteresting.com, October 22, 2023, https://allthatsinteresting.com/alison-botha. Accessed April 18, 2024. Bridger, E. (2024). Apartheid’s ‘rape crisis’: understanding and addressing sexual violence in South Africa, 1970s–1990s. Women’s History Review, 33(2), 265–284. https://doi.org/10.1080/09612025.2023.2219535 Other sources: https://www.news24.com/news24/southafrica/news/pair-sentenced-in-1995-for-rape-of-alison-botha-granted-parole-20230704 https://authorcindyparmiter.medium.com/kidnapped-at-knifepoint-raped-disemboweled-left-for-dead-the-incredible-survival-story-of-9d7e1547582d

For this mini ep, we touch on the Jerry Seinfeld's flop Unfrosted, Macklemore's "Hind's Hall" (check resources for how to donate), the Drake vs Kendrick beef, and so much more.  Resources: https://www.unrwa.org/ Stream Hind's Hall here Read up and donate to Operation Olive Branch. A great breakdown to the Drake vs Kendrick timeline.  A video essay on their ENTIRE histroy. Kendrick takes everyone to history class and this Tiktok makes me cackle. 

If you're into tea about people you do not know, this ep is for you! Stacy Bailey joins the pod this week to get very honest with our host. Audree and Stacy have been friends for a long time but have never discussed the red flags they saw in one another's relationships that did eventually end up in divorce, so they talk that out for the first time on this episode. Along the way, they hit on religious trauma, world views, and much, much more! It's a weirdly funny yet vulnerable episode. 

Part 2 of the John List vs The Stepfather series has dropped! This time we dig into "The Stepfather" horror movie series and how close it keeps to the true story of John List (the true crime story we dug into in Part 1). Your host, Audree, watched 3 Stepfather movies, spanning from the '80s to the remake in 2009 to discuss all the similarities, differences, and wacky inspirations of the series.  Source:  https://ew.com/tv/the-watcher-john-graff-true-story-john-list-family-murders/

The last week has been bonkers and Audree tries to cover it. She discusses the TikTok ban, Joe Biden and Donald Trump, the Pro-Palestine protests on campuses across the nation, and her misgivings about Taylor Swift's recent album and her Swift Fatigue.  Collage images from: ABC.com, Billboard, WAVY.com, and Teen Vogue.

Surprise! An early main episode with Kelsey has dropped! Today we're reacting to Taylor Swift's new album: The Tortured Poets Department. Kelsey came over late on a week night to share her opinions loudly just for all of you (and for me)! It was a blast and the pod covers our theories for what the album could be about, our individual reactions and thoughts about each song as we listen through, and ultimately our overall impression of the album based on the first listen. Our opinions are bound to change over time with more listens, but the first impressions we had are forever frozen in this recording posted to the internet to haunt us forever!   Image from Rolling Stone.

This week your host, Audree, discovers the '80s horror series "The Stepfather" and talks through the true crime story it's based around. In part 1, we discuss John List and his horrific crime of murdering his family despite the outward appearance of an all-American life in a beautiful house called Breeze Knoll. Not only is the story harrowing, but List's eventual capture and trial are wild as well! TW: family annihilation.  Part 2 which digs into "The Stepfather" movie series and how close it keeps to the true story of List will drop April 30th, so stay tuned for that! Sources:  More on Devonte Hart. MFM E29: Twenty-Nein Forensic Files S01 E12 - “The List Murders” - 1996 Nightmarehouses.com Realtor.com Myfatherwantsusdead.com The Watcher's grisly John Graff murder sequence is based on true story of a family massacre

Mini Ep 11: Bi-weekly pop-culture recaps have begun! This week we cover Beyonce’s CowboyCarter, Jojo Siwa’s interesting new era, The Joker 2 trailer, and much more! TW: Discussion of domestic violence.  Article links: In Memory of Nicole Brown Simpson Fred Goldman on OJ Simpson's Death A Jojo Siwa Deep Dive Suggestion: FunkFrogBait on Youtube Beyonce image from LA Weekly. Jojo from Billboard. Joker 2 from digital spy.  

This episode is PACKED to the brim with awesome stuff! This week, Kelsey (@kjacksbookshelf on IG) stops by to talk about the romance genre, the community within the genre that includes fans as well as creators, Booktok, incredible book events, and so much more. Kelsey also brings some bookish AITI stories for us to explore, and she even interviews two romance authors for the pod! Thank you to Ashley Poston (@heyashposton on IG) and Emma Lord (@dilemmalord on IG) for lending your voices to us for a bit!  Check out visuals on @tillisayitoutloud on Instagram.  Sources: Courtney Milan @courtneymilan on X: https://x.com/courtneymilan Olivia Dade: https://oliviadade.com/ https://www.publicbooks.org/genre-juggernaut-measuring-romance/ https://www.marketplace.org/2024/02/13/steamy-sultry-and-stigmatized-no-more-romance-novels-are-having-a-moment/ https://www.feministbookclub.com/the-romance-genre-and-feminism/ Texas Freedom Network - https://tfn.org/ Special edition of Throne of Glass from @fairyloot on IG:  https://www.instagram.com/p/C4vRcUlNT5O/?img_index=2  

Full episodes return with a discussion about wedding culture that covers it all with our friend, Chelsea. As she is currently planning her own wedding, Chels gives interesting insight into wedding history, the culture that surrounds putting one together, statistics, games, and even a few AITA stories from Reddit! It's a fun one, enjoy!  Episode sources: History Rings Wedding Cakes Garter & Bouquet Toss Bachelorette Parties (do not care about bachelor) DAILY MAIL Stats

This week a stuffy Audree recaps everything from new music news to the enormous & sad Kate Middleton update. She finishes up by discussing the shocking and tragic docuseries, "Quiet on Set" on HBOMax.  Collage image from Variety. Sources: https://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/home-news/kate-middleton-cancer-announcement-illness-latest-b2517228.html  

Mini Ep 9: This week we cover the insane Kate Middleton conspiracy theories and the weird way the Royal Family is choosing to handle them. We also recap the S6 Love is Blind reunion! Thanks to my friend Jess for giving her POV on the royals!   Image from People Magazine: https://people.com/kate-middleton-mothers-day-photo-editing-errors-examined-proof-photoshop-found-metadata-8607951   Pod Sources: https://www.moneycontrol.com/news/trends/kate-middleton-conspiracy-theories-where-is-the-princess-of-wales-12458791.html   https://www.nzherald.co.nz/lifestyle/where-is-kate-middleton-a-complete-timeline-of-her-surgery-photoshop-fiasco-and-affair-theories/ETR2D53F7RARTM2NCBIL7Q5YB4/

A groggy Audree recaps last night's Oscar ceremony, the best picture noms, and some red carpet looks. 

In an actual mini ep this week, we talk through the Sag Awards, Dune 2 red carpet moments, and the speculation on who disrespected the queen Rebecca Ferguson! (Skip the first 5 minutes if you don't want to hear some heavier topics up top.) Collage images from Variety and Life & Style. Ep Sources: https://www.pajiba.com/celebrities_are_better_than_you/rebecca-ferguson-reveals-she-was-screamed-at-by-a-former-idiot-of-a-costar.php

Spoilers, everyone! This week Rocky joins us to discuss the finale of True Detective S4: Night Country. We talk through the series, the finale of s4, and the online backlash! 

This week the Super Bowl happened, as did a lot of other things! We cover that, Beyonce's new singles, Travis Kelce's "moment" with Andy Reid, the new season of Love Is Blind, and dabble in the Gen Z vs Millennial debate. 

In this mini ep, we cover the winners, the most impactful moments, all the Sagittariuses, and the fallout after the show ended.    Check out Keep It!'s Grammy ep here: https://open.spotify.com/episode/6nuDhMhDNG0pkQVZJ4xaqK?si=7445dcd8253949e7

This week we cover the Barbs' grudge against everyone, Britney Spears and her army vs Justin Timberlake, Elmo asking us how we're doing, and even the mysterious updates on Amelia Earhart and her plane.  BBC Coverage of Earhart's plane discovery: https://www.bbc.com/future/article/20240131-researchers-say-amelia-earharts-long-lost-plane-may-have-just-been-found Dr. Harini Bhat's Amelia Earhart Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@tilscience/video/7330654793049885995?_r=1&_t=8jYrQqSQWDL&social_sharing=1  

Weekly episodes are back with our first mini-ep format: Talking Through Current Events. After a nice rest at the beginning of 2024, this week Audree returns to cover E. Jean Caroll getting another settlement, those horrific Taylor Swift AI photos, the Britney Spears fandom overtaking Justin Timberlake's new single, Megan Thee Stallion dropping "Hiss," and the 2024 Oscar nominations that lead to some interesting Barbie discourse online. (Trigger warning for discussion of sexual harrassment and assault near the beginning. Skip to minute 18:26 to get to the fun topics.) Look for mini episodes at the end of each week. Full episodes will return with new topics soon and will be posted midweek. 

On this week's episode, our very thorough guest, Rocky, finishes discussing the final season of The Crown, how the narrative was shaped based on what we saw on screen, and what the creators chose not to portray.  Sources: Harry, The Duke of Sussex. Spare. Random House, 2023.  Harvey, Giles. “How the Man Behind ‘The Crown’ Made the Monarchy Relevant Again.” New York Times, 16 Nov. 2019, https://www.nytimes.com/2019/11/06/magazine/the-crown-peter-morgan.htm. Accessed 2023.  Lawler, Kelly. “‘the Crown’ Fact Check: Did Kate Middleton’s Mom Scheme to Set Her up with Prince William?” USA Today, Gannett Satellite Information Network, 19 Dec. 2023, www.usatoday.com/story/entertainment/tv/2023/12/14/the-crown-season-6-part-2-fact-check/71877981007/. Mercuri, Monica. “How Much of ‘the Crown’ Season 6, Part 2 Is True?” Forbes, Forbes Magazine, 19 Dec. 2023, www.forbes.com/sites/monicamercuri/2023/12/18/how-much-of-the-crown-season-6-part-2-is-true/?sh=2ec1b4807f09. Oliver, John. “The Monarchy: Last Week Tonight with John Oliver.” Season 9, episode 29.  Sangster, Ella. “Was Carole Middleton the Mastermind behind Kate and William’s Relationship?” Harper’s Bazaar Australia, 18 Dec. 2023, harpersbazaar.com.au/did-carole-middleton-set-up-kate-and-william/. Waxman, Olivia B. “The Crown S6: Queen Elizabeth Celebrates VE Day.” Time, Time, 18 Dec. 2023, time.com/6513044/the-crown-season-6-queen-ve-day/.

In the last episode of the year, Audree, Rocky, and Kelsey talk through some of the most memorable events of 2023 pop culture. What were some of your favorites and what did we leave out? Let us know in the comments on IG! Sources:  https://www.nbcnews.com/politics/congress/are-5-memorable-moments-congress-ufo-hearing-rcna96476 https://www.cosmopolitan.com/entertainment/celebs/g43261828/best-pop-culture-moments-2023/ https://www.bbc.com/future/article/20230626-why-are-orcas-suddenly-ramming-boats https://www.cnn.com/2023/12/08/us/montgomery-brawl-trial-todd-shipman/index.html https://people.com/music/taylor-swift-joe-alwyn-breakup-everything-to-know/ https://www.usmagazine.com/celebrity-news/pictures/every-time-taylor-swift-attended-one-of-travis-kelces-nfl-games/ https://www.reddit.com/r/popculturechat/comments/152jm63/pop_culture_moments_of_2023_so_far/ https://apnews.com/article/pop-culture-2023-9689644b1967304b0d7acbbbdd7bebce

Today is Audree's birthday so she says hey and processes through turning 38. No full episode this week but we'll see you next week!  

Rocky joins the pod this week to tell Audree all about her thoughts on part 1 of the final season of The Crown. When saving this audio, we named the file "RockyRage" for a reason! In case you haven't seen this part of the series, beware of spoilers. Rocky's sources below: Andersen, Christopher P., and Charles. The King: The Life of Charles III. Gallery Books, 2022. Harry, The Duke of Sussex. Spare. Random House, 2023.  Kanter, Jake. “‘the Crown’ Accused of Fabricating Genesis of Princess Diana & Dodi Fayed’s Fateful Romance.” Deadline, Deadline, 16 Nov. 2023, deadline.com/2023/11/the-crown-princess-diana-mohamed-dodi-fayed-relationship-netflix-1235612740/.  Marshall, Alex. “‘The Crown’: Behind the Photo of an Embrace That Changed Princess Diana’s Life.” The New York Times, The New York Times, 17 Nov. 2023, www.nytimes.com/2023/11/17/arts/television/the-crown-mario-brenna-diana-dodi-fayed-photo.html.  Yossman, K.J. “Long Live ‘the Crown’: Peter Morgan Confronts Final Season Rumors (Diana’s Ghost!), Prequel Buzz and Claims of Exploiting the Royal Family.” Variety, Variety, 25 Oct. 2023, variety.com/2023/tv/news/the-crown-season-6-princess-diana-death-ghost-1235766510/. 

Join 2 Swifties from different eras, Audree and Kelsey, in this experimental first episode as they talk through their individual top 20 favorite Taylor Swift songs. It's as chaotic as you're imagining.