Ditzy Prodigy

Keeping it real instead of just not doing an episode…I have been feeling my feelings and feeling them hard!!! Join me for an emotional episode whilst feeling incredibly lonely out here in Hollywood.

Spilling the tea on how a silly ho like me became an international business woman currently living in LA.  Video podcast available on YouTube!

Join me as I travel from Turin Italy to Venice beach California! Having a good old gab and gossip whilst I travel across multiple ciities and face a couple obstacles trying to make it to LA. 

Healing isn’t about feeling ‘fixed’ or even feeling better… it’s about having the courage to feel anything and everything without becoming it. This one is for all my deeply troubled sweet hearts with complicated souls who have struggled in heartbreak whilst their ex’s have opted for the comfort and ease of moving on very quickly. It’s quite hard not to lose your mind and cause a scene when your safe space is torn from you without warning but the most powerful thing you can do is take responsibility for your emotion and be prepared to always be there for yourself because at the end of the day your the only person you can really rely on.

The last three months were split between Italy and the UK, but honestly they were more about people than places. The people who have believed in me and shown me new worlds while I was unstable, intense and dreaming so big I forgot to make moves. This episode is about extreme mindsets—the kind you’re usually told to tone down or fix—and what happens when you stop fighting them and start paying attention. It’s about being believed in so deeply that it actually shifts where your life is heading. About dreaming of where I want to go while just trying to survive the present. I’m trying to realise my chaos isn’t something to cure—it’s something to learn how to drive. I’m trying to honour all the wonderful walks of life who’s paths I’ve crossed that want me to win. I talk about instability, ambition, tenderness, and how being seen at the exact moment you could’ve disappeared can quietly change everything.

First week in Turin Italy staying in a beautiful apartment for my artist residency and with Mr.Woodburne. It’s riveting engaging with his friends. I love how they are actually the real deal of those political discussions. Unlike the performative scene of Sydney & Melbourne. Anyways, my heart is broken and I’m switching between very extreme mindsets. Psychology as a profession has become a joke to me. The tools I have gathered to survive and thrive when faced with harsh reality and pain of heartbreak or trauma came from my ability to critically think. Introspection and applying psychology in a way that is right for you is the key. I’m sick of hearing BPD symptoms and it’s just like no hoe that’s not BPD you’re just emotionally entitled and selfish lmao. Therapy is a great concept if your conscious. Most people aren’t and that’s the real problem. I think I’m gunna take a trip to the Italian sea side.

Chilling out a bit after last week’s intense recap of who I am. Reflecting on why I always feel the need to over explain myself and inspired by a podcast episode by one of my favourite artists & creators Darby Hudson who after 30 years of making art in secret and ignoring the judgemental pressures to play by the rules has recently  blown up & at 48 is just now being respected and appreciated by the culture. Feeling a similar struggle but from a much different perspective, I reflect on my own perception online and otherwise and how I have been constantly reminded that a lot of people don’t get that creating without fear or need of approval is the achievement I am striving for. The embarrassment & shame of putting yourself out there will always make the smaller world around you quite uncomfortable & judgemental, particularly if you have no clear plan to success. I am both blessed and cursed in the fact that despite being a talented performer who can switch it on for anyone and adapt to any vibe, I’m never able to maintain it enough to properly fit in or belong somewhere. It’s very lonely. However, much like how I was inspired by Darby for this episode, finding and getting obsessed with artists who walk their own path has saved my mind from hurting itself and losing my magic. My heart & soul is the only thing that knows where to take me and there’s much to gain in the pain that comes with that. I just have to chill sometimes lmao.

An introduction to me: A quick and honest recap of my life and everything that's led me to where I am along with some tough lessons I have learnt so far. Followed by my plans moving forward including splitting up with my boyfriend and getting a one way ticket out of this country with no plan except to take on the world and start betting it all on my heart & dreams. Welcome to the Ditzy Prodigy podcast.