Growing up Supportless

Healing ones. Almighty God has always been our support. Our support has always been to know who really is supporting us. God’s supporting love does not look like love a lot of times. Because of us being rejected, neglected, and abused. Remember God’s ways and thoughts are not like our ways and our thoughts. Thank you.

When you are raised by two parent households that just so happens to be Narcissists then it’s no wonder you have no support. They’re not there to encourage you. They’re not there to assist you in homework project, or any school stuff. They’re not there to start allowing you to start growing into all that you can possibly be. By telling you the gifts and the talents that they are starting to see in you.They’re constantly void of anything about you unless it is falling in line with being mini me’s of them. You are constantly walking around on egg shells in trying to always appease them. Based off of that you as an impressionable child are now under the leadership and guidance of a wounded child. You see the Narcissist is just that wounded child. And their wounds are bleeding all over you and your life now. Through the toxic environment you just so happens to be in. All the while breathing out toxic actions yourself. Thank you,

A healthier you is something that always starts on the inside of you. No matter how unhealthy you are feeling about yourself on the outside. Or no matter how you have grown up. Unhealthy parents will breathe out unhealthy children. However, you as a person can always start learning to love you by starting on the inside.

I grew up in an environment where my parents did not meet my emotional needs. There was no support in any way. Thereby leaving me feeling unloved, in every area of my life and in every part of my life.

The reason I have changed my podcast name from. Growing up womanless. To Growing up Motherless. To growing u Supportless. Is because I had no support from my parents. My Mother and my daddy. And from grandparents. Or from my stepmother. Thank you.

Our broken boundaries I believe is a work in progress. We have to keep working on them and while working on building healthy walls, we must be comfortably content in doing so. All the while standing in our no. Thank you.

Coming from broken homes only produces broken children with broken boundaries. Broken boundaries of wanting to keep serving up unhealthy dishes to unhealthy people. Unhealthy dishes of kindness, unhealthy dishes of people pleasing, and unhealthy dishes of being too nice.

I am not a therapist, or counselor. However, I did grow up without any love or attention from the adult figures in my life. And based off of this I became addicted to pleasing people. Addicted to alcohol and addicted to drugs; and addicted to neglecting myself,

Forgive people who have neglected you through not being there in a supportive way.

My stepmother was a very smart and intelligent woman. Who had allowed me to start trusting her. Due to how she was treating me. But then things change in me when I heard her talking about my sister.

Who am I as a woman. I certainly did not know when I was growing up in my twenties. And not to mention without any emotional support from the different women in my life. My mother. My stepmother. My Auntie, and my grandmother on both sides of my family. Therefore, in the back of my mind, I just kept on feeling inadequate, incompetent in a lot of the situations that I had found myself into. Thereby leading me straight into drugs.

Your support in dysfunctional households is always going to be less then people who are In healthy functional households. Which is leaving you deficient in every area of your life. You have no voice. Simply because you do not know yet who you are

Our childish ways are very detrimental for our growth as children and as adults. Thereby keeping up in a stunted growth like state of being. Acting out in outbursts of anger, quitting jobs; acting in defiance to bosses. Supervisor and mangers. Just determined to keep doing things our ways no matter the consequences.

Our childlike behavior is not a normal behavior that we just do happen to pick up. No. This behavior was given, received and taught by the different adult figures in our lives. Because they too were just children raising children. Thereby making us to feel always like little children, even in our adulthood. Moreover battling outbursts of anger, people pleasing, pity parties and never exercising our No.

Other peoples toxins are not your toxins. A lot of times we are moving along in our innocence as children or young adults. Until we meet someone who is very unhealthy and swimming in their toxic behaviors at an all time high. Thereby affecting you, without you really knowing it.

This is a podcast about different women who have grown up with different women in their life who were emotionally detached from you. Simply because they too were emotionally detached from their mothers, aunties, grandmothers, or sisters. Which in turn created them too to be toxic as well. Thank you.

Not having any emotional support really disconnects you from the vital information in life that you really need to know. Because there’re serious consequences when you do not know. Thank you.

My mother was beautiful inside and out. It's just too bad that she didn't have a healthier background.

Hello and welcome to my new podcast. I will be talking about growing up without a strong influence of a mother or sister while trying to navigate through this world. Feeling unsure most of thw times and lost.