In My Thoughts

Nothing wrong with "do overs" or resetting to make sure you are on the right path. I've done it a lot in the past and I may have to in the future, but I'm giving an honest effort so I won't have to.

Sometimes when I go on the hiatuses, I have a lot on my mind but don't know what to say. Guess I have to just record and see what comes out.

With finding myself, I learning that the teachings that made me into the man I am today isn't always the best thing for me now.

Finally finding better days. Maybe

Sometimes friendships/relationships aren't meant to last forever, just try to appreciate what you had. Memories last forever

Sometimes certain conversations in the family have finally been happening. We are on the journey of understanding. Hopefully

Been looking for the younger version of myself, the new guy is weird and needs a could pointers

Let me hate Robert for a second, we'll figure it out together

The old me was better, the old me was at peace. Let's get back to that

Always wondered if I'm ever put in a compromising situation, how will I fare. I guess well see.

Honestly, made this episode mad long ago and never put it out. I hope its good.

Sometimes I can't tell what my dreams are telling me, but I'm having them for a reason. Usually, I brush them off because it's just a dream, but this one. This in particular has been reoccurring for some times now. Maybe it does actually means something, to I could be just bugging.

I talk to my friends often, I'm never scared to have real conversations. My friends come to me because they know I'll be honest. I can't sugar coat anything because then I'd be lying. No matter what, healthy dialogue is better than trying to save face

After having a good conversation at the barber shop, it seems like my barber and I are on the same page when it comes to wanted more out of life. Wanting to do more for ourselves and ready to take more chances. 2022 is where we both decided to do more for ourselves so we can live comfortable 

There's many ways to find passion. Personally, when I see people around me achieve that's when I get that battery in my back to do more for myself. Nothings wrong with healthy competition. Especially when the people who are achieving are overcoming heavy obstacles. Makes me feel like I can be doing more knowing if they can overcome, why am I chillin?

Sometimes I get so stuck in my ways that I can't see that my way isn't working for whatever reason. I've always been against New Years resolutions because I feel that if you want it bad enough, you'll just get it done. With me still believing that, I've decided to take a new approach and created some because my strategy isn't working. I'm creating some resolutions, AND IM GETTING THEM DONE.

Sometimes life get to a point where your pushed up against the wall with a bunch of decisions to make and with a short time to do so. For me, it feels like a stick up. Its a scary to think about but with growing up, its part of the job. Thankfully I know that as long as I believe in myself then everything will be alright. It just might take some time.

Sometimes it feels like I can't do anything right. I lack motivation to be great even though I feel like I have the potential to be. I'll always remember to punch myself in the face and let me know, "I ain't s***." Searching for that something that will make me feel good about myself again.

It's hard to move outside the norm. Even though it may be to your benefit, its uncomfortable. Sometimes you just have to stand up to what's nothing you. You'll never know what it may entail unless you give it a try. whatever that may be. I took an honest approach to stepping out my comfort zone, and it made me better.

Don't think you need to change yourself to fit in. Old saying but much truth. Too many doors available to feel you need to change yourself to gain access to one. If you need to become a character to open the door, maybe that wasn't yours to open.

Usually with every passing birthday, noting really changes for me. Yeah I'm older but everything pretty much stays the same. Unfortunately, the wear and tear I've put on my body is starting to show more often than usual. We getting older.

Sometimes looking at what doesn't work really brings a new perspective. Nothing wrong with evaluating your situation to see how can you make a positive change in your life. The goal is to get the job done, do it how you see fit

You never know when you're gonna fall into good and meaningful conversations, but when it does remember to gibe the floor to the other person. Really listen so when your speak, you say everything that needs to be said

Being a 90's baby, I've seen the world before the internet and what it's become after the Internet. I've seen how the older generation works while also seeing how the new generation maneuvers. With all respect to the older crowd, I can't help but identify with the new school rather being happy then doing something they don't want to do because of the benefits that may come

To me, having conversations keeps everything fresh and open. Holding back makes me feel heavy. I hate having things weigh on myself. I know I'm not the only one

My idols are winning, been winning for years. At the same time my idols are grinding like there broke and its there only way out. So what is my excuse? What's yours? All I know is Cole playing basketball.

The journey of life can be really tricky. Noticing more that walking alone might be the way to go. Not everyone goals are the same and even if they are, the way you go about them and the time frame may be different. Moving forward, I'm betting on myself. I'm gonna be the reason why I made it. 

Realizing more and more that certain conversations don't need to be had. Especially by me, sometimes my honesty can be a little too much. With checking the temperature, it may be better to just bow out gracefully. 

There's always gonna be people who need to comment on what you're doing. Entering your inner matrix on some negative @$#%. Be on your own schedule, know your own vibe. We only positive over here. #Goodvibes Only

Knowing what your goals are is one thing, knowing how to execute is a whole different animal sometimes. Or just figuring out what your goals even are to be honest. For me, its hard not to trap yourself in the journey to figure it out. 

Sometimes my approach doesn't give the best results when trying to convey a point. Recently I've been feeling like I'm not being heard due to my submissive approach when it seems like I'm not getting anywhere in a conversation, unfortunately this only hurts me in the long run. 

Sometimes you gotta get yourself mentally prepared to make changes in your life. Nothing in life is easy, but that doesn't mean it's time to get lazy. Doesn't mean you go cry in the corner. Get out the mindset of waiting to make changes. Do what you need to, to get to the next level. No free rides here.

Sometimes the message gets drowned out by who it's given by. The message can be so contradictory from the person it's coming from that it's discarded because of who is saying it. I realized that sometimes, I need to hear the message given. The information is the most important thing to me, I could care less who says it.

Recently, I've been wondering if it's time to let some things go. At the same time, I wonder when do you know if you're ready to move on. I feel sometimes I'm having one foot in and one foot out the door but when do you know you're ready? What makes people jump to new adventures? Will I ever throw in the towel to find something new?

2021 is the year of being focused on goals, opportunities, and experiences. I realized that time is to short and with me not being exactly where I want to be in life, there's not time to play games. 2021 is the year of growth

Regaining someones trust isn't something that can happen overnight. Its a battle that will need to be fought 24 hours a day, seven days a week. Its a battle that you'll never know is won even if that person tells you that you're forgiven. The path for forgiveness is a very long road depending on the person. Are you willing to go to the end of the earth to make it right, or will you give up? The choice is yours but remember, you put yourself here.

Its okay to live in the moment

Me just talking s***

It might not be all bad as it seems, positivity is key

Sometimes even tho you have good intentions and your hearts in the right place, you can't help but question your character 

Even thought things feeling like were getting back to our own normal, let's just keep in mind that what we went through was real and we shouldn't forget that. Let's start preparing for the next whatever.

After noticing a reoccurring topic go me changing by others, I took a step back to analyze where these "changes" might be coming from.

Sometimes we gotta step back and realize that were bias to our own situations and don't see the other side of things

Sometimes life may seem to never let up in your lowest point. Which is fine, but you can always use this as motivation. Don't let anything distract you from the plan. 

In times like these, make sure to use your time wisely. Take advantage of this horrible situation and do what you need to come out better than you started.

Communication is key, its probably the most important thing that I value was I progress through life. On the contrary, I also realize that there is a time and place for certain conversations too.

The fear of being trapped is something I always think about. No matter what happens, you always have the power the change the narritive.

Linking up with my trainer for her new project. After completing my goals from the first project, were setting new goals for a 8 week period where my trainer and I are locking in the gym for new achievements 

With talking to myself, it helps me understand why I want to change my life for the better. Its also good to look outside of yourself to realize whats in your best interest. 

With the decade coming to a close, what's is the next phase to my life.