Real Raw Honest

For six episodes, we've been walking you through this work from two different angles. Deni at the shadow. Petra at the nervous system. If you've been listening to the solo episodes and feeling like the pieces are starting to connect, this is the episode where we connect them with you and show you what it actually looks like inside two people who do this work for a living and still meet their own patterns at the door. The fear of being properly seen, not the curated version, the real one. The procrastination that has nothing to do with time management and everything to do with what gets exposed when you finally hit publish. The limiting beliefs about money that showed up in how we priced our last offers, the number we almost wrote down before we wrote the real one.The projections we caught ourselves making this month, the people we muted, what those people were actually showing us about what we haven't claimed yet. The truth we both spent years dressing up as something more palatable. If you've been wondering why knowing it isn't the same as living it, this conversation is the answer.Tune in.Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

Understanding the shadow is not the same as integrating it. And that gap, between knowing and actually shifting, is where most people quietly get stuck.  In this episode, we close the Shadow series by going into what integration actually requires. Jung called it the apprentice piece of individuation, the process of becoming not a better version of yourself, but the whole one. And he was clear that it doesn't happen by imagining figures of light. It happens by making the darkness conscious. Not conquering it. Not transcending it. Entering into actual contact with it.  We look at why that contact has to happen in the body, not just the mind. Why the nervous system holds what the intellect has already understood, and why insight without somatic processing leaves the pattern structurally intact. Why so many people can name their wounds, trace them to their origins, and still find themselves repeating the same dynamics.  We also go into what integration actually looks like in practice. Not as a protocol or a five step process, but as an honest, ongoing orientation toward the parts of you that were never wrong, just never safe enough to keep.  Because the parts that were pushed out didn't disappear. They've been running quietly in the background this entire time. Integration is simply the process of letting them back in.Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

You know that feeling when your chest tightens before you hit publish. When your throat closes before a sales call. When your mind goes blank right when you need to show up. That's not you. That's your nervous system running a programme installed before you turned seven. And it's costing you everything. The clients you don't pitch. The prices you don't charge. The visibility you avoid. The opportunities you sabotage right before a breakthrough.This episode gives you the exact five practices that:Stop you checking your phone first thing and flooding your system with chaos (10-minute Morning State-Setting Ritual that trains your body to default to calm, not crisis)Pull you out of panic before you make terrible decisions (The 2-minute Power Pause that interrupts hijacking in real-time)Prevent the accumulation that leads to burnout (5-minute Evening Release that stops your body from keeping score)Train your body to associate high-stakes moments with power, not fear (The 5-minute Embodiment Practice backed by Harvard research)Bring you back from full spiral when nothing else works (The Reset Protocol that activates your mammalian dive reflex)It only takes 20 mins. That's less time than you spend scrolling. Less time than your morning coffee routine. Less time than the mental spiral after one difficult email.And the difference? You stop being reactive. You start being regulated. You make decisions from clarity, not panic. You show up to sales calls grounded, not scattered. You hit publish without the three-hour delay. You price from worth, not fear. This isn't theory. This is applied neuroscience.Listen now. Your nervous system has been driving long enough.Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

The people who get under your skin the most are rarely just an inconvenience. They are information.In this episode, we go into projection: the mechanism through which the shadow stops being an inner concept and starts showing up as other people. As the reaction that feels completely justified. As the irritation that arrives fast and feels very certain. As the quality in someone else that produces a charge far bigger than the situation warrants.We look at why the psyche casts outward what it cannot hold inward, and why that process is not a flaw but a form of protection. Why the things we find intolerable in others so often map back to what was never allowed in us. And why the qualities we admire most in the people we put on pedestals are frequently the ones we haven't yet permitted ourselves to carry.Because projection works in both directions. It doesn't only reveal what was exiled through shame. It also reveals what was set aside - the unlived potential quietly handed to someone else instead of claimed as your own.This episode won't make triggers easier to feel. But it might change what you do with them. And that is where something actually begins to shift.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

You've seen the science. You understand how the programming was installed. Now it's time to get surgical.In this episode, I'm walking you through the six common conditioning patterns showing up in your business right now and the specific questions that reveal which ones are running your life.This isn't theory anymore. This is your diagnostic tool. Your self-assessment. Your honest accounting of where you are right now.In this episode, you'll discover:The recognition exercise: which patterns made your chest tighten when you read them?How to identify exactly when, where, and how your body hijacks your successThe specific questions for each pattern that reveal your triggers (Money & Abundance, Visibility & Self-Expression, Decision-Making & Self-Trust, Perfectionism & Execution, Worthiness & Receiving, Consistency & Sustainability)How to score yourself in each category and identify your primary workGrab your journal. Let’s begin the work.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

There are parts of you that didn't disappear. They just learned to go quiet.In this episode, we step into one of the least understood, and most misrepresented, territories of inner work: the shadow. Not as a concept to intellectualise, but as something deeply human. The parts of us that were exiled not because they were wrong, but because at some point, they weren't safe to be.We look at how the shadow forms long before we have the language to name it. How it isn't only made of what we're ashamed of, but also of what we were never allowed to fully be. And how it moves through us not in moments of weakness, but in the reactions that confuse even ourselves.The shadow speaks through disproportionate reactions, through what irritates us most in others, through the places we go numb, and through the patterns that keep returning regardless of how much we understand them.This episode asks you to begin looking… at what was exiled, why it was exiled, and what it might mean to stop running from it. Because you cannot exile your way to wholeness. This is where we begin the process of integration.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

This is about the real reason you undercharge, hoard, and say yes to misaligned opportunities. It's not about willpower. It's about trust. And the childhood experiences that taught your nervous system to grab whatever you can now.In this episode, you'll discover:The real reason some children waited and others didn't (it wasn't willpower, it was whether they trusted adults to keep their promises)Why your early environment determines whether you grab opportunities now or trust in circulationHow broken promises in childhood show up as undercharging, hoarding cash, and saying yes to misaligned clients in your business todayThe program running in the background: "I'm not safe unless I'm producing" and how it's burning you out while keeping you stuck at the same income ceilingHow to recognise if you're operating from scarcity conditioning vs trust conditioningIf you undercharge because you don't trust the next client will come. If you say yes to opportunities that aren't aligned because you don't believe better ones will appear. If you hoard rather than invest because you don't trust in circulation.This episode is for you.Real. Raw. Honest.Ready to understand the real science behind your money patterns? Let's go.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

Awareness is powerful. But awareness alone rarely changes anything.In this joint episode, two conversations that have been circling the same truth from different angles finally meet. One explores the uncomfortable gap between seeing your patterns clearly and actually living differently. The other goes deeper, into the neuroscience of why that gap exists in the first place.Because your business problems are not about strategy. They are about an operating system installed before you were old enough to question it. And seeing that clearly, as necessary as it is, does not automatically dissolve what has been woven into your nervous system over decades. Sometimes it simply reveals how deep the roots go.This episode is also a little different. We are dedicating it to Phoenix Rising Equine Rescue and Rehabilitation, a charity that saves horses from auctions, kill pens, abuse, and neglect.When a horse arrives at Phoenix Rising, the first thing they receive is not training. It is safety. Then food, medical care, and the slow, patient proof that humans can be trusted. Many arrive so thin they can barely stand. Some carry fear in every movement. And little by little, through consistency and kindness, they transform.We think that work matters. And we think the parallel it holds up to our own is worth sitting with.If this episode resonates, please consider supporting them at https://helpsavehorses.org/ 👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistPhoenix Rising Equine RescueWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

Awareness is often treated as the turning point - the moment everything begins to shift. But many of us eventually encounter a more complicated reality: seeing the pattern clearly, understanding where it comes from, and still finding ourselves repeating it.In this episode, we explore the space between insight and actual change. The moment when language is there, the recognition is there, and yet something deeper continues to move beneath the surface.We look at why awareness alone rarely reorganises behaviour, how insight can sometimes create the illusion of movement, and why the period after becoming conscious of a pattern can feel unexpectedly frustrating.Because seeing ourselves more clearly doesn’t automatically dissolve what has been built over years. Sometimes it simply reveals how deeply those patterns are woven into the way we think, react, and relate.A reflection on the uncomfortable, but necessary, gap between understanding ourselves and truly beginning to live differently.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

You think your business problems are about strategy. They're not. They're about the operating system installed in your brain before you turned seven.In this episode, I'm breaking down the neuroscience behind why you're stuck. Not pop psychology. Actual documented research from developmental biologists and psychologists that explains exactly how your childhood conditioning is running your business right now.In this episode, you'll discover:Why your brain operated in a state of "hyperprogrammability" during your first seven years (the same state adults enter during hypnosis)Dr. Bruce Lipton's groundbreaking research showing that subconscious programs acquired before age seven determine up to 95% of your adult behaviour, health, and business outcomesDr. John Bowlby's attachment theory and why 40% of entrepreneurs struggle with self-trust, worthiness, and perceiving risk as existential threatThis isn't about blaming your parents. This is about understanding the mechanism so you can finally change it. Ready to decode your childhood conditioning? Let's go.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

Over the past four episodes, we’ve been walking you through the quiet architecture of transformation.The gap between desire and belief.
The patterns that refuse to dissolve.
The invisible war no one else sees.
The force and friction that keep you exhausted instead of aligned.In this joint episode, we bring it all together.We zoom out and look at what’s really happening beneath the surface when you say you want more but something inside you resists it. We connect the dots between subconscious patterning, nervous system protection, identity attachment, and the subtle misalignment that creates internal conflict.This conversation isn’t about fixing yourself.
It’s about recognising where you’ve been split and gently returning to wholeness.If you’ve listened to the individual episodes, this is the integration.
If you haven’t, this is the map.Because becoming isn’t about forcing change.
It’s about closing the gap between what you desire and what you believe is safe to receive. Welcome back to the work.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

Something inside you has shifted. And yet your external life looks almost the same.In this episode, we explore the phase where transformation has already happened within, but the external world hasn’t caught up yet. The uncomfortable in-between where silence feels like failure, where patience feels unbearable, and where the urge to push, force, and control becomes almost irresistible.We look at what really happens when force enters too early. How impatience can quietly repel the very reality you’ve been building. How snapping back to what’s familiar recreates the cycles you thought were already behind you.There comes a point where more effort doesn’t create more progress. Where pressure disturbs a process that was already underway. Where the instinct to interfere feels productive, but actually delays what’s forming.This episode offers a perspective on what may already be rearranging beneath the surface and why staying steady can matter more than pushing forward.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

You're doing everything right. Reading the books. Implementing the strategies. Showing up consistently. So why does your business feel like you're dragging a boulder uphill in mud?In this episode, you'll discover:The one physical sensation that reveals exactly where your misalignment lives (and why most entrepreneurs ignore it)Why your body responds with tension, anxiety, or shutdown when you think about your vision (and what it's actually trying to protect you from)The three-step process for creating real self-awareness (not the Instagram version)The interrogation questions that will change everything (warning: these are uncomfortable)Why your nervous system interprets opportunity as danger (and how to update the programming)This isn't about working harder. It's about working with your nervous system instead of against it. Ready to diagnose your alignment gap? Let's get into it.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

We notice the patterns. We track them. We try to understand them. And still… they return.In this episode, we step into the quiet logic that keeps repetition alive. The invisible subconscious forces beneath awareness that preserve what’s familiar, even when it no longer serves us. Why insight can arrive before the body is ready. Why understanding doesn’t automatically reorganise behaviour. Why the system holds on long after we think we’re done.This episode offers a deeper look at what’s really running the show… the moments, impulses, and internal structures that persist quietly, intelligently, insistently.If you’ve ever felt caught in loops you believed you had outgrown, this episode doesn’t offer a fix. It offers a lens. A way to observe the unseen currents beneath our intentions, and the patterns shaping our lives long before we consciously name them.  👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coach Denisa - Subconscious AlchemistFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

You know exactly what you want. You've pictured it a thousand times. The income. The impact. The version of your life that feels aligned and true. So why does it feel like something inside you keeps hitting the brakes?In this foundational episode, we introduce a concept that changes everything: your conscious desires and your subconscious beliefs are often at war. And when they clash, your body always wins. This conversation explores the invisible force field between wanting something deeply and actually feeling safe enough to receive it. We're talking about the programmes running beneath your awareness, installed when you were young, now quietly controlling what you pursue, what you sabotage, and what you unconsciously push away.This isn't about manifesting harder or thinking more positively. It's about recognising that your nervous system has veto power over your goals. And until you understand how it operates, you'll keep wondering why the same patterns repeat, why the breakthrough never quite arrives, why you stop yourself right before the finish line.If you've ever felt like your biggest obstacle is you, this episode will help you see why. And more importantly, it'll show you there's nothing wrong with you. The real work begins.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coach Denisa - Subconscious AlchemistFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

In this opening episode of Season 3, we take you behind the curtain of the last month and a half, a stretch of stillness, inner work, and necessary slowing down. We talk about what it means to hermit not from hiding, but from honouring. The integration that doesn’t look like effort, but feels like truth. And the kind of alignment that can’t be forced, only felt when you’re finally quiet enough to hear what’s real. We introduce the shape of this new season, how we’re bringing our work into the light, one episode at a time. From subconscious rewiring to soul recalibration, Codes of Becoming is a return to the tools, practices, and inner codes that have transformed our lives and now want to meet you in yours. Let's begin.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coach Denisa - Subconscious AlchemistFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

What would your life look like if fear didn’t make the decisions?In this episode of Real Raw Honest, we sit down with Daniel,  Solopreneur, Ethical AI Consultant, and Founder at We Are Monad,  for a conversation that goes beyond the usual startup talk.We explore the subtle and not-so-subtle ways fear shapes our potential, from the paralysis it causes in business to the ways it silences our voice in personal life.Daniel shares how he’s navigated the tension between wanting control and learning to trust the unknown, how fear once dictated his choices, and how discomfort became one of his most honest teachers.This episode is a quiet rebellion against limitation, a reminder that fear isn’t a sign to stop, but an invitation to expand.Whether you’re a founder, creative, or simply human… this one will hit where it matters.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coach Denisa - Subconscious AlchemistDaniel ZarembaFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

In this episode of Real Raw Honest, we’re joined by Luko, an entrepreneur with a strong devotion to personal growth and physical wellbeing. His journey reveals how movement can be more than just a habit, it can be a mirror, a mindset shifter, and a daily practice of expansion.Together, we explore how the labels we adopt can quietly shrink our potential, keeping us stuck in identities that limit more than they liberate. From the boxes we place ourselves in, to the unseen ripple effect of conditioning, Luko brings a grounded and expansive take on what it means to live beyond the surface of success.We dive into the connection between mind and body, the invisible impact of daily discipline, and how self-development is often felt most deeply in the quiet reps we do, both in and out of the gym.If you’ve ever felt boxed in by your own definition of success, this conversation will open something new.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coach Denisa - Subconscious AlchemistLuko Tikvica Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

What if the voice holding you back isn’t yours but one you inherited, absorbed, or built to survive?In this episode of Real Raw Honest, we sit down with Kim, an executive coach, speaker, and communication strategist who’s helped hundreds of leaders speak with more clarity, confidence, and truth. But this isn’t just about how we speak, it’s about the stories we believe about who we are when no one’s watching.We unpack the quiet grip of impostor syndrome, the addictive high of external validation, and the slow identity erosion that happens when we live in chronic masculine energy, always doing, pushing, proving. Especially as women.Together, we explore what it takes to shift the internal dialogue, rebuild trust in your own voice, and lead from a place that’s rooted, not reactive.If you’ve ever felt like your confidence was built on something fleeting, or like your truth was too big to be spoken, this one’s for you.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coach Denisa - Subconscious AlchemistKim Boudreau Smith Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

In this quietly powerful episode of Real Raw Honest, we sit down with Joshua, a man who knows what it means to carry heaviness with grace. From caring for an ill parent as a teenager to working behind the scenes while keeping a brave (and often funny) face for the world, Joshua walks us through the invisible weight so many hold but few talk about.We explore what it means to grieve someone who’s still alive, to make peace with the darkness without letting it swallow you, and to find space for joy even when nothing looks how you thought it would.This isn’t about toxic positivity, it's about choice. The choice to soften instead of harden. To self-regulate when your nervous system wants to shut down.To laugh, even when you’re breaking.We also touch on how AI is changing the future of healthcare, the complexity of emotional boundaries, and what it means to build a new self while grieving the old one.If you’ve ever felt like life asked too much of you too soon, this conversation is the hug you didn’t know you needed.👉 Follow us:@[email protected]@denimichajlJoshua Jones Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

In this episode of Real Raw Honest, we’re joined by Maxi, a certified life coach and creative soul who guides others into deeper self-awareness, emotional freedom, and a more fulfilling life from the inside out.Together we explore how personal development doesn’t have to be a grind, and healing doesn’t require escaping your life or renouncing the 3D world. Maxi shares how we can use creative expression, simple rituals like being in nature or stillness, and soulful daily choices to shift our energy without burnout or force.This isn’t about chasing happiness. It’s about choosing alignment and living from a place of flow, ease, and truth.If you’ve felt the pull toward a more meaningful life but aren’t sure how to merge that with your everyday reality, this conversation will land deeply.👉 Follow us:@[email protected]@[email protected] us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

In a world obsessed with chasing stillness in faraway places, this episode is your reminder that clarity, peace, and purpose aren’t hidden in an ashram or a silent retreat, they’re available right here, in the everyday.We’re joined by Susan Mesa, soul empowerment coach, whose work moves far beyond mindset. She brings a grounded perspective on how to live and lead from the soul in a world that often rewards disconnection. Together, we explore the practical magic of living soul-led, what it really means to walk with spiritual guidance, build rituals that actually stick, and grow a business rooted in intention, not just performance.👉 Follow us:@[email protected]@denimichajl@susan_g_mesaFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

In this episode of Real Raw Honest, we sit down with Diana Fayad, founder, senior HRconsultant, and strategist behind some of the most impactful talent and leadership development systems across Lebanon, KSA, UAE, Egypt, and Pakistan.This conversation pulls back the curtain on the current recruitment landscape and exposes what’s really happening beneath the surface: burnout in key roles, the silent loss of quality talent, high-level tension and sleepless nights in C-suites, and the widening disconnect between what leaders expect and what their people actually need.We dig into the growing challenges of hiring and retention, the Gen Z readiness gap in the Gulf region, and why HR often feels like it’s caught in the middle trying to hold the system together while nobody’s addressing the root of the cracks.If you’ve ever felt the pressure of leading without support, recruiting without alignment, or carrying the emotional labour of organisational breakdown, this episode will feel like truth you didn’t know you needed.The Reset Session with Deni and Petra https://www.groupon.co.uk/deals/awaken-divine-1 👉 Follow us:@[email protected]@[email protected] us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

What if the version of you that everyone applauds… isn’t actually you?In this piercing episode of Real Raw Honest, we sit down with Sarah: a speaker and coach who holds space for women exhausted by the performance of pretending. Together, we tear through the layers of surface-level self-help, Instagram therapy, and toxic positivity to speak into something deeper: the discomfort of truth.We talk about what it means to outgrow the molds we never chose, the conditioning that shaped us based on where we were born, and the collective fear of diving into the real darkness that lives beneath our distractions.This isn’t a conversation filled with steps, strategies, or fluff. It’s a call to face what we’ve been running from. A reckoning with the systems we silently uphold. And a reclamation of what’s real, raw, and unedited.If you’re done with small talk and tired of pretending things are fine; this one’s for you.The Reset Session with Deni and Petra https://www.groupon.co.uk/deals/awaken-divine-1 👉 Follow us:@[email protected]@denimichajl@sarahsaxby72Sarah Saxby websiteFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

Leadership isn’t just about vision, influence, and results; it’s about the human being carrying the weight of it all. And yet, behind the title, the power, and the polished exterior, there’s a truth we rarely talk about: leadership can be lonely, heavy, and quietly exhausting.In this episode of Real Raw Honest, we sit down with Magdalena; she is a Leadership Development Advisor, creator of LeadershipCraft, executive mentor, and expert in purpose-driven culture & wellbeing and together we are going to strip leadership back to its raw, human core.We go deep into the silent battles leaders face: the isolation, the unrelenting expectations, the unspoken mental toll, and the deep bias that still sees vulnerability as weakness. We explore how leadership has been packaged and sold, often at the cost of the leader’s own well-being and what it takes to reclaim leadership as something deeply human, purposeful, and sustainable.🔥🔥🔥 The Reset Session with Deni and Petra https://www.groupon.co.uk/deals/awaken-divine-1 👉 Follow us:@[email protected]@denimichajl@vlmleadershipcraft Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

What happens when a mind built for systems and pragmatic business practices meets a body demanding pause, attention, patience?In this episode, we speak with Mark, a tech leader who’s redefining what it means to lead with purpose, live with pain, and rise with radical self-responsibility.His journey invites us into the often unseen layers of self-leadership: the moments when strength looks like slowing down, when purpose is reshaped by pain, and when healing asks us not to fix, but to see differently.Together, we explore the intersection of logic and intuition, the body and the work, where the hustle softens into presence and where side projects evolve into deeper soul pursuits. Mark brings a perspective rooted in clarity and lived experience, one that bridges high performance with inner alignment.This conversation unpacks the invisible layers of self-leadership, how we show up for ourselves when things get hard, how chronic pain can shift the way we relate to purpose, and how real healing often comes not from pushing through, but from learning to reframe what’s been there all along. Tune in for a thoughtful exploration of self-leadership, purpose, and the architecture of healing from the inside out.The Reset Session with Deni and Petra https://www.groupon.co.uk/deals/awaken-divine-1 👉 Follow us:@[email protected]@denimichajlMark Salvin: https://www.linkedin.com/in/marksalvin7/Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

In this multidimensional episode of Real Raw Honest, we sit down with Katerina, an astro-psychologist and EFT practitioner, whose work merges ancient cosmic archetypes with modern healing tools to help people reclaim their freedom and process deep emotional wounds.We explore the collective currents shaping our world today: the rise of skill-stacking, non-traditional education, rapid tech development, and the energetic undercurrents revealed in astrology’s current transits. Katerina breaks down how understanding your archetypes and patterns can become your superpower and how the stars aren’t predicting your fate, but offering you a map back to your inner authority.This episode is a soul-stirring blend of practical wisdom, energetic insight, and bold questions about where we’re heading collectively and individually. The RESET Session with Deni and Petra👉 Follow us:@[email protected]@denimichajl@highestselfnet Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

In this episode of Real Raw Honest, we sit down with Prarthana, a soul-led business coach, for a powerful and grounding conversation on what it truly means to build a business from both strategy and soul.We explore the deep inner work behind entrepreneurship - the balance between masculine structure and feminine flow, and the courage it takes to lead from your intuition in a world that praises hustle.Prarthana shares her biggest lessons, struggles, and breakthroughs from building and scaling a soul-aligned business. From getting clear on your purpose to navigating the overwhelm of visibility and expansion, this episode is an invitation to do business differently, with intention, clarity, and inner truth at the centre.Tune in to listen.Follow us on Instagram:@realrawhonestpodcast@[email protected]@purposewithprarthanaFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

In this episode of Real Raw Honest, we open space for the woman who’s been holding it all together while quietly falling apart. The one who’s been surviving on autopilot, mothering, leading, showing up while slowly losing touch with her own truth beneath the noise, the roles, and the expectations.This episode is your reminder: you don’t have to struggle to be worthy. Life doesn’t have to be a constant fight.We’re joined by Susanna, a feminine leader and manifestation coach, whose presence brings a deeply intuitive, grounding voice to our conversations. Together, we explore what it means to live from your truth, to parent from presence, and to manifest not by force but by allowing.We’re reclaiming softness as strength, rest as radical, and the feminine as fierce. If you're ready to stop surviving and start receiving, this space is for you.Tune in. Get grounded. Come back home.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcast@[email protected]@susanna.tornblom Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

There are moments where you're not just tired, you’re done. Done waiting, done trusting, done “surrendering.” In this episode, we talk about what happens when you hit that breaking point with the Universe. The frustration. The questioning. The silence. And the unexpected shift that followed.This is for anyone who’s ever said, “I’ve had enough.” Not from a place of weakness, but from a raw, honest exhaustion that cracks you wide open. Sometimes, being done is exactly what it takes to get real and receive what you've truly needed all along.🎧 Tune in. Let it land. You’re not alone.👉 Follow us:@[email protected]@denimichajlFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

What if the real battle isn’t in the struggle itself, but in how you choose to meet it? What if the chaos, the discomfort, and the resistance are not there to define you—but to reveal you?In this episode of Real Raw Honest, we’re shifting the focus from reaction to revelation—seeing the bigger picture beyond the chaos. When life shakes you, it’s easy to get lost in the noise, to mistake your triggers for truth, to let the battle become your identity. But struggle is not who you are. The way you choose to meet it is.The storm is never the problem. The real question is—why are you there? What is this moment asking of you? What is the bigger picture? What truly matters?🎙️ Tune in for a bold, soul-driven conversation on struggle, power, and the art of becoming unshakable.👉 Follow us:@[email protected]@denimichajlFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

Relationships are living, breathing things, they evolve, fracture, deepen, and sometimes fade as we move through life’s phases. But what happens when we change, and the people around us don’t? Or when we outgrow old dynamics but feel guilty for letting go?In this episode of Real Raw Honest, we dive into the shifting landscapes of personal connections. From friendships that no longer fit to relationships that stretch us in ways we never expected, we explore what it means to navigate growth, change, and all the messy spaces in between.How do you honor your own evolution without losing yourself in the expectations of others? When do you fight for a connection, and when do you accept that some things aren’t meant to last?This is a conversation for anyone standing in the discomfort of change, because connection isn’t just about holding on, it’s about knowing when to let go.🎙️ Tune in for an honest, thought-provoking dive into the relationships that shape us and the ones we have to release to become who we’re meant to be.👉 Follow us:@[email protected]@denimichajlFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

Freedom - it is something we all crave, but are you truly free, or just convincing yourself you are?In this episode of Real Raw Honest, we’re peeling back the layers of what freedom really means. Is it about breaking away from expectations, releasing control, or something deeper altogether?We share our own struggles with the illusions of freedom; the times we thought we were free but were still shackled by fear, comfort, or old patterns.This is a raw, unapologetic look at the hard questions: What does freedom feel like? What’s holding you back from it? And are you ready to face the truths that might set you free?🎙️ Tune in for an unfiltered exploration of the kind of freedom that shakes you to your core and changes everything.👉 Follow us:@[email protected]@denimichajlFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

Life’s greatest struggle isn’t in the chaos, it’s in the quiet decision to hold on or let go. It’s the push and pull between clinging to what feels safe and trusting the unknown to take you where you need to be.In this episode of Real Raw Honest, we’re talking about the messy, beautiful dance between holding on and letting go.When do you fight for something?When do you surrender?And how do you navigate that razor-thin edge where fear and faith collide? We share personal stories of resistance and release, the lessons we’ve learned in trusting life’s flow, and how to master the balance between control and freedom.🎙️ Tune in to uncover the beauty, the challenge, and the transformation that comes when you embrace the flow of life.👉 Follow us:@[email protected]@denimichajlFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

What happens when the voice inside your head is your own worst enemy?After years of tearing ourselves apart, we asked the hard question: What would it look like to truly have our own back?In this episode of Real Raw Honest, we dive deep into the messy, soul-shaking journey of reclaiming self-love after years of relentless self-criticism. This isn’t about bubble baths or mantras—it’s about facing the raw truth of how we’ve spoken to ourselves, rewriting the stories we’ve carried, and learning how to stand in our own corner, unapologetically.If you’ve ever felt like your toughest battles are the ones you fight with yourself, this episode is for you. It’s time to put down the armour and turn the mirror into a window for growth.🎙️ Listen now and take the first step toward building a relationship with yourself that feels like home.👉 Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcast @awaken.divine.111 @denimichajlFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

What happens when the life you’re stepping into makes others uncomfortable? When your growth, your truth, and your choices clash with their expectations?In this deeply personal episode of Real Raw Honest, we’re exploring the raw tension that arises when following your truth challenges the status quo of those around you. We share the moments when our choices, rooted in authenticity, were met with resistance, judgment, or even rejection.This is a conversation about courage: the courage to honour your path even when it feels lonely, the strength to stand firm when others push back, and the wisdom to discern between protecting their comfort and protecting your truth. If you’ve ever felt the sting of “clashback” while trying to live in alignment, you’re not alone. This episode is a reminder that your growth isn’t meant to make everyone else comfortable - it’s meant to make you whole.🎙️ Listen now and join us in unpacking the beauty, the mess, and the power of living your truth unapologetically.👉 Follow us: @awaken.divine.111 @denimichajl@realrawhonestpodcastFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

Have you ever felt torn between what feels good in the moment and what truly fills your soul? That quiet tug-of-war inside, between fleeting pleasure and the relentless pull toward deeper purpose, is something we all face.This isn’t about judgment or perfect answers. It’s about peeling back the layers to uncover the truth of what drives us, what sustains us, and how we can honour both our humanity and our deeper calling.Because the war between pleasure and purpose isn’t something to “win” - it is a dance that shapes who we become.Join us for this deeply personal conversation, and maybe, you’ll hear your own story in ours.🎙️ Listen now and step into the conversation.👉 Follow us: @awaken.divine.111 @denimichajl@realrawhonestpodcastFollow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

Hitting rock bottom isn’t just a phrase, it’s a deeply personal experience that shakes everything you thought you knew about yourself. In this episode, we’re getting real about what it feels like to lose confidence, how we found the courage to rebuild, and the small but powerful practices that changed everything for us.This isn’t about overnight transformations or quick fixes. It’s about raw moments of vulnerability, the strength we didn’t know we had, and the surprising lessons that rock bottom taught us.If you’ve ever felt like the ground beneath you has crumbled, you’re not alone. This is our story of finding light in the darkest places, and we hope it helps you find yours too.👉 Find us on Real Raw Honest websiteFollow us: @awaken.divine.111 @denimichajlWe’d love to hear from you—what’s one thing that’s helped you rebuild when everything fell apart? 💬Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

How to find stillness when your mind feels like it’s running a marathon? In this episode we unpack the chaos of overthinking, share personal stories of restless moments, and explore practical ways to ground yourself amidst the noise.We talk about the power of micro-moments of stillness; those small, intentional pauses that bring clarity and calm in the midst of the chaos.It’s not about silencing your thoughts, it’s about learning to sit with them, find clarity, and create space for calm. Tune in for a real, raw conversation about embracing stillness in a world that never stops moving.Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/

In Real Raw Honest, Deni and I explore the raw truth about transformation - the messy, unpolished reality that often gets overlooked. Growth isn’t about perfection; it’s about embracing the chaos, the challenges, and the beauty of becoming. Together, we’ll share unfiltered stories, dive into the uncomfortable, and question everything you’ve been told about change. It’s not about having it all figured out but about keeping it real. Join us as we navigate the honest, imperfect path to transformation.Follow us:@realrawhonestpodcastPetra - Transformation coachDenisa - Subconscious AlchemistWork with us:https://www.denimichajl.com/https://www.awakendivine.co.uk/