Survived By Loss

In part two of my conversation with Jordan, we step into the heart of his story. We talk about how deeply mental health struggles shaped him and the weight of those dark moments. I ask him the hard question — if he ever had a plan — and his honesty is both heartbreaking and brave. This conversation is raw and heavy, but Jordan’s strength and vulnerability shine through. His journey is a beautiful reminder that even in the darkest places, light can still find its way in. Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988

In this episode, I sit down with Jordan for the first time since high school—and it gets real. His willingness to be vulnerable and open is exactly why I’m doing this.Jordan has faced some incredibly heavy moments, but he fought through the battle within himself and found strength in creativity. In this first part, we dive into who he is, how we know each other, and what led him to start his healing journey in the first place.This conversation inspired me to launch my small business—because creating isn’t just about products or services; it’s about connection, expression, and sharing stories. Even painting pictures with words for this podcast is creating art.Thank you, Jordan, for the reminder—and for trusting me with your story.It’s a two-parter due to some editing issues—but I promise, it’ll be worth the wait.Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988

In part two, Chanel and I finally talk about her 911 call the morning she found that her 12 year old son Adrian passed and everything that came with it. But don’t worry—it’s not all heavy. We also get into some wild facts, like the fact that koalas growl (yes, really), stingrays team up with Dr. Fish, and how life is basically a never-ending mix of loss and gains. It’s deep, it’s weird, and it’s exactly the kind of conversation you didn’t know you needed!  Just a quick note—due to some editing software issues, a few parts of this conversation had to be cut. I truly believe those moments are worth hearing, but rather than delay the episode any further, I decided to move forward with this version. If you’d like to experience the full, unedited conversation, you can find it on YouTube whenever you’re ready! Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988

In this episode, two friends catch up on life as Chanel opens up about her 911 call from the night her son passed. They reflect on grief, growth, and the journey forward. Plus, hear all about how Chanel is evolving and what’s next for her. It’s a raw, real, and unfiltered conversation you won’t want to miss.Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988

In this episode of Survived by Loss, I dive into a song that holds a powerful connection to my past—a song that brings back memories of some of the dark chapters of my life. I’ll share the story behind why this song resonates so deeply with my trauma, how it has accompanied me on my journey, and the ways I’m working to heal and grow.Music has a unique way of helping us process pain and find hope, and this episode is a testament to the power of a melody to guide us through healing. Whether you’re navigating your own struggles or just looking for a reminder that it’s possible to rise from the ashes, this episode is for you.Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988

**** Warning This audio is very glitchy will be re-recording it by Thursday January 9th and uploading it the same day**** In this deeply personal episode, I share a powerful dream where I stood face-to-face with my dad after so many years. For the first time, I was able to break free from my shell and express how his choices have shaped my daily life—the sadness they bring and the weight I’ve carried. Since his passing, I’ve found myself questioning whether I deserve to feel moments of pure, genuine happiness. Join me as I navigate the complexities of grief, self-discovery, and finding light in the shadows.Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988

After taking a much-needed break to recharge, I’m back and ready to dive in! In this episode, I unpack what it really means to be 'tired'—physically, emotionally, and creatively—and how stepping back can pave the way for fresh energy. Plus, I share my excitement about finally bringing guests on the podcast and finding my rhythm again Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988

In this episode I read a letter I wrote to my dad after he took his own life. As I share my thoughts, I confront my grief and anger, while also trying to understand his struggles. Dad lost his own father to suicide, endured an abusive mother, and faced the unimaginable pain of losing my brother the same way. Through this letter, I grapple with the generational trauma and complex emotions that have shaped our family, hoping to find some sense of peace and understanding.Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988

In this episode, my mom and I chat about what her life was like before I was born, including her relationship with my dad. We share funny and sweet stories, go off on a few tangents, and end up laughing a lot. Join us for some heartwarming moments and plenty of laughs! Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988

In this episode, what began as a lighthearted discussion about dogs took a sharp turn when I shared the deeply personal experience of reading my dad's obituary. It's a moment that started off heading in one direction but took an unexpected and emotional turn. I'll guide you through the rollercoaster of emotions I felt, from the initial shock to the eventual process of coping and healing. We'll delve into memories, the complexities of grief, and the challenges of honoring someone lost to suicide. This episode offers a raw and honest look at grief and the journey of moving forward after losing someone we love.  This is just the beginning of the journey to come! Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988

Join me as we embark on a journey of self-reflection and compassion. In this episode, we explore the transformative power of writing a letter to my past self, present and future selves. Through heartfelt storytelling and gentle encouragement, we navigate the importance of embracing kindness, courage and patience in our personal growth journey. Tune in as we celebrate our resilience, honor our achievements and find strength in a journey of self-discovery. this was deleted by accident and has been reuploaded Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988

Step into the intimate conversation with my close friend who's experienced more than her fair share of heartache. She shares openly about the challenges she's faced, including the recent loss of her 12 year old son to suicide.In this touching dialogue, she bravely discusses the highs and lows of her journey, offering insights into navigating profound grief. Through her story, we learn about the power of love, friendship, and finding light in the darkest of times.Join us as we listen, learn, and find hope in her courage and strength.Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988

In this heartfelt episode, our guest (my sweet mom) bravely shares her personal journey of loss. She opens up about the profound tragedy of losing half of her family and many others dear to her. Through her honest storytelling, we gain insight into the challenges and emotions she's faced. Join us as we listen to her story, honor the memories of those she's lost, and find solace in her resilience. I am not sure why some parts are so choppy and I apologize in advance! I am going to take the next two weeks to figure out how to make it better. Thank you for being here so willing to listen. : ) Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988

In this episode "Growing Up with Grief," we're going back to where it all began, diving deep into the heartache that turned my world upside down. It's a journey filled with tears and tough moments, but we're facing it head-on with courage and honesty. Through the pain and loss, we'll find moments of connection and understanding, reminding us that even in the darkest times, there's a glimmer of hope. So grab some tissues and join me as we navigate the rough waters of grief together, knowing that healing is possible, even when it feels impossible.You can find Jakes Instagram @journeywithjakepodcast , where you can be inspired through the experiences and adventures of others! Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988

Hello and welcome to Survived By Loss! In this episode, I'm dealing with the tough aftermath of a tragic loss—the suicide of people dear to me. Every day feels heavy as I try to cope with the pain and memories that won't leave me alone.  To ignite the flame again, I decided to up and move to a new place!As I settle into this new place, I feel a mix of nerves and excitement. Making new friends and creating new memories become really important to me. Slowly, I start to feel better as I connect with people in my new community.Through all the ups and downs, I discover a strength inside myself. Day by day, I feel more hopeful about the future. This experience teaches me to remember the past but also to look forward to better days ahead.Send a textSupport the showInstagram: @survivedbyloss Suicide and Crisis Lifeline dial 988