Things I Shouldn’t Say

Somewhere in life I learned to hide my anger. I learned to suppress and control it until it consumed me.Then I learned anger was good.Good for setting boundaries, good for speaking up for myself and good for letting people know who I am. This episode is for anyone who is ashamed of their anger Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

I recorded this after realizing I’m weird in a room full of weirdos Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

Reading a few pages from my journal. Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

This conversation is about:letting go of controlspeaking your truth without over-explainingreleasing the need to be validatedand choosing purpose over chaosIf you’re someone who’s been called “too much,” “too intense,” or “too sensitive,” this episode is for you.You can’t force people to see you.You can only live Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

Ever realized you bit off more than you could chew?I had to reevaluate my podcast goals to keep it going. Listen if you ever felt like you had too much dip on your chip Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

I took a break from recording and releasing because life was kicking my ass. But I’m back. Releasing old episodes.I was afraid of sounding like I didn’t know what I was doing. Im going to do it afraid, imperfect and raw Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

In this episode, I talk about what success really means when you’ve been through too much.I explore the fear of success — not because I can’t handle it, but because I’ve learned to expect loss, betrayal, and burnout when things go right. This is about unlearning survival mode and making space for a life that feels safe, whole, and mine. Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

This episode is for the ones who never felt at home here. I talk about what it means to be a starseed, how grief and trauma can ground us in places we were never meant to stay, and the moment I realized I was built to rise, not shrink.If you’ve ever felt too sensitive, too deep, too much — maybe you were meant to fly. Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

In this episode I talk about the kind of rage that comes from being silenced, violated, and underestimated — and how sacred it becomes when we finally let it speak. I share why my rage isn’t something to fix — it’s something to honor.This is for anyone who’s been told to stay quiet or be nice when you were already breaking inside. Rage can be healing. Rage can be holy. Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

Grief cracked open a conversation I never meant to have with God.In this episode, I talk about how loss shaped my spirituality, my resistance to faith, and the complicated relationship I’ve had with TMH, religion, and survival.This isn’t about belief — it’s about loss, memory, and what happens when the spirit reaches for something bigger after too much pain. Raw. Honest. Unresolved. Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

This is the labor they never acknowledgeThe holding, the checking in, the noticing, the softeningI talk about what emotional labor costs — especially when it’s expected, unpaid, or disguised as loveFor the ones who are tired of being the safe space for people who never ask if we’re okay Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

I used to beg to be chosenNow I’m choosing who gets accessI talk about wanting friendships rooted in emotional maturity, peace, and presence, not chaosNo more dumping. No more rescuing. No more shape-shifting. Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

I thought being loyal would get me loyalty in returnI was wrong. I got burnt out and let down For the ones who thought sticking around would earn them Love Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

They don’t talk about the mothers who wound you quietlyThe ones who break your trust with soft voices and sharp eyesI loved her. I still might.But I had to leaveBecause she was bad for my spirit This is the part I was never supposed to say Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

This one is messy.It’s not a lesson, it’s letting go.I talk about emotional burnout — the kind you can’t meditate your way out of.The kind that turns love into exhaustion.If you’ve ever been called “too emotional” while drowning in everyone else’s pain — this one’s yours. Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

This was hard to say out loud.But I’m done curating my truth to make people feel safe.I talk about what it’s like to be the version of me that no longer needs approval — and what I lost to get here.Listen if you’re ready to leave the version of you that stayed too quiet, too long. Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

I was everyone else’s mirror for so long, I forgot I had a faceI realized I didn’t actually know who I was — only who I’d been trained to be.This episode is about the heartbreak, the relief, and the quiet unraveling that comes with meeting yourself for the first time.Listen if you’re leaving old roles behind Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe

Intro episode of Things I shouldn’t say. Unscripted Truth  Get full access to Things I Shouldn’t Say at yaramangual.substack.com/subscribe