What’s up with Basil

Self doubt got the best of me last week and I wasn’t able to upload either of the two episodes that I recorded. I was recording Thursday night and the podcast came out Friday and I just did not feel good about the episodes that week. I feel a little bit better about my episode today, and I appreciate any listeners who wait for each episode.

Tw for the outro if you’re eating! My brain didn’t filter in time. Anyway, this episode I express gratitude and go off track many times. In the end I attempt to reel it in even mimicking the action for some reason.

It’s complicated, but I do love my family. This episode is a bit intense, and involves a lot of self reflection. As always I end the podcast hoping you find some nugget of wisdom. I also reflect on what I want for the podcast.

Lots of trauma dumping in this episode. I mean that’s what I’m healing from. I’m not sure how many times I give the disclaimer that I don’t think I’m better than anyone else, but I hold that belief dearly. Hopefully there’s a nugget of wisdom in here that can help someone else in their healing. Also even if you’re healing from something that you don’t think is as “severe” as abuse, it still impacted you and you don’t have to dismiss your experiences.

Can you be self aware and delusional at the same time? I test this multiple times throughout the episode. Was me laying out my family dynamics even necessary? Does this episode have a plot? One thing I know is I do have a knack for losing things, and the plot is no exception.

I don’t even want to think about how many times I said preach this episode. This episode starts out a little dark, but I found my footing. Hint: my foot was in my mouth where it pretty much lives. Sometimes I question if I could become a great cult leader. I only ponder occasionally and probably will never follow through.

I get a little preachy in this episode, but not from a place of judgment. This episode starts out strong but with no real direction. Do you think you can handle the ramblings of a mad man?

Honestly I only put 60% into this episode I was distracted by the chaos in my head. I’ll do better next time I guess.

This episode my desire to make myself happy results in me talking about “whatever the hell I want.” I discuss one of the very first therapy diagrams I received, and I tiptoe around certain topics going on in the world. As per usual there are some nuggets of wisdom packed in between the humor and trauma dumping.

In this episode I talk about different careers I’ve had, as well as talk about what could be next.

In this very first episode of What’s up With Basil, we explore the question “Who is Basil?” In this quick 30 minute episode you get a very raw, very real, glimpse into the answer. You get lore drops that are crazy for a first episode.