012 - Jenny : "I get knocked down, but I get up again."

From not liking the taste of beer to dancing on and crashing through tables at the Union Front Bar to Chumbawamba Jenny's story is a gradual climb from fun to not fun at all.  "I was always more extreme than anyone else."  Eventually the wheels come off and the trail of damage piles up.  Jenny shares her story about how she just stopped fighting, surrendered, learned the right coping mechanisms, and finally learned how to be alone.I am extremely proud of this episode.  Jenny is a friend of mine and I am honored she put her trust in me.  Thank you Jenny.  Thank you for sharing and I couldn't be happier that I was able to be a part of your journey.1.  TikTok Light2.  Menthol cigarettes3.  P-Funks and Blow4.  University of Iowa and the Union Bar5.  Shots of Rumpleminz6.  Chumbawamba and crashing through tables7.  Is sharing caring?8.  Addicts helping other addicts9.  Failing at recovery and ripping alligator tails10.  A normal upbringing11.  Alcohol was my poison 12.  Are JJ Peppers still around?13.  "I was always more extreme than everyone else."14.  Drinking, going out constantly, then a decade pause15.  Binge drinking and divorce16.  The wheels come off17.  "My coping mechanism was off."18.  New love, new habits, same problems19.  Blackout wedding20.  Addiction comparison21.  Finding new "hot mess" friends22.  Sober deadlines23.  Blackout infidelity24.  "I can't control myself.  I need help"25.  Morning after pill26.  I want another beer27.  Coming clean28.  Intensive Outpatient Program (IOP)29.  Rehab was eye-opening30.  A nerd in the font row31.  Get a sponsor, go to AA32.  Prejudged AA33.  Whole Foods, bright cans, IPAs, and a relapse34.  Unloading the evidence and Hydroflasks35.  Relapse guilt and lying36.  Divorce and DCFS37.  "I surrender.  I just stopped fighting everything"38.  Strict sponsor39.  I was good at lying40.  Everything and nothing moments41.  What is it with New York City?42.  The reasons have to be your own.43.  "Passed out with my pants down in October in Chicago?"44.  It's a subtle change, the fight just leaves45.  Success comes from within46.  Addicts are stubborn47.  Two-years later, it's not easy, but things are good48.  "I'm ok being alone, finally."49.  Self-care and making yourself a priority50.  Quieting your mind51.  Reconnecting with my life.Support the show (https://www.buymeacoffee.com/Dismantledlife)Support Dismantled Life: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/DismantledlifeSee omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.