#07 Flowing with the ego

Mood: Self-aware Context: Recently concluded festivals in the city and being on stage again Recently, our city celebrated an annual festival (a fiesta, for those who know) that includes pageants and things. I attended and did a sort of legacy walk on stage on behalf of my batch in 2011, as they were all not available! Two things, I love that I got to share this moment with my cousin and I love that I got to socialize a little bit during this time. Being an online freelancer now, I think I can count with my hands the times I go out of the house each month. And that’s not to say I’m proud of it or shameful about it. It just is. Another thing, I found myself grappling with my ego yet again. I tell myself this isn’t such a big thing. Being on TV to a citywide audience isn’t something I necessarily achieved (although I did achieve something in the past). And yes, it boosts the ego and the increase in activities in my Facebook notifications does make it feel like I am onto something. But what we must not forget here is that I have done and continue doing the work of becoming mentally, and emotionally resilient through personal development for the past 12 years! And I feel like that is something that is of noteworthy accomplishment! Even more than winning pageants, I would dare say. When you become more self-aware in honing your personal mindset and beliefs, you understand what it truly takes to step away from shiny things just because they shine, and actually shine because you are a queen in your own right! Because you’ve done the work in yourself to be someone who isn’t just in it “to win it” but in it to share it. To share your success with others requires more than just ego. It requires humility and wisdom that isn’t simply learned in school or in a classroom or course curriculum setting. You learn it sometimes the hard way, but you learn it nevertheless from experience. ... More on the blog