#103: Am I Willing?

from Pastors Unfiltered · host Venture Church

This week on Pastors Unfiltered, Pastor Tony is joined by Pastor Christian Lindbeck in a raw, deep-dive conversation about healing from shame, confronting past wounds, and finding true peace through Jesus. From cinematic commentary on Thunderbolts and Severance to vulnerable personal stories of spiritual warfare, confession, and restoration, this episode is one of the most powerful yet. Plus, the Coeur d’Alene bug invasion returns for another round of bug-stravaganza laughs.00:00 – Opening banter: First cars and pastor intros00:28 – Let it all hang out: Pastors Unfiltered opens 00:50 – Christian joins the show01:36 – Sponsor shoutout: Anderson Lawn Care02:13 – Kindergarten recess drama & mafia jokes03:12 – Social media & disassociation04:00 – Thunderbolts movie discussion05:05 – The cultural moment: Unhealed shame and pain06:13 – Severance, escapism, and pain denial07:12 – The real need for Jesus in healing08:10 – Spiritual warfare and footholds09:03 – What true forgiveness looks like10:05 – Addictions as symptoms of pain12:12 – Disassociation and social media13:35 – Vulnerable confessions & confronting guilt14:55 – Christian’s full life confession story19:05 – Monastery, nightmares & spiritual breakthroughs21:02 – Agreements with evil and breaking them25:00 – What is an agreement? Spiritual covenants unpacked29:25 – The danger of minimizing spiritual warfare31:01 – What salvation starts and sanctification continues33:13 – Tone metaphor: Harmony with God34:56 – How healing changed Christian’s marriage36:24 – Takeaway: Forgiveness, shame, and purpose39:52 – Starting the journey: Prayer and action steps41:40 – Fruits of the Spirit as alignment42:30 – Living in contrast: preaching while broken43:37 – Deep trauma and the journey of healing45:00 – Suicide ideation and the enemy’s lies46:07 – Worshiping creation over Creator48:20 – Shalom: Peace with God, self, others, creation50:13 – Quasi-transcendence and the illusion of peace52:08 – Haunted by the transcendent: Green Lake jokes54:03 – The invaluable classroom of life55:11 – Redemption, healing, and encouragement55:49 – BONUS: Bug extravaganza at Coeur d'Alene Resort01:00:10 – The pamphlet of doom01:01:15 – Final reflections, open DMs, and thank you