11| "Radical self-love" does not mean you lie to yourself.

Instead of willing myself to love something that I simply do not, what if I was honest in my self-loathing? What might I be compelled to change if I did not feel morally bound to positivity?Read the full, pictured essay, sign up for the newsletter, and grab bonus materials at ismatu.substack.comJazz Songs of the episode:Love, I’ve Found You by Wynton KellyWarm Valley by Johnny HodgesNancy (With The Laughing Face) by John Coltrane QuartetIn the Wee Small Hours of the Morning by Wynton MarsalisConcerto for Trumpet, 2 Oboes, Strings and Continuo in D Major: II. Largo by Johann Friedrich Fasch et. alSomeone to Watch over Me by Marcus RobertI Heard You Cried Last Night by Phil Woods, Vic JurisAutumn in New York by The Modern Jazz Quartet This is a public episode. If you’d like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit ismatu.substack.com/subscribe